every writer knows the feeling of being stuck. there’s this overwhelming urge to write something, but i never know what. alternatively, i could have so many things to write about, but no clear way to express it. while both are inconvenient options, nothing beats the blissful experience of producing 8 poems of mediocre quality in a matter of 15 minutes. maybe the stars lined up just right so my motivation and content overlap, but nonetheless, something was created.
oftentimes, i, as a writer, forget that quality and quantity both have their place in my craft. sometimes i just want to get up and write something, even if no one will see it – even if i’ll delete it after 5 minutes because it sounds like a lovesick 13-year-old on A03 wrote it. motivation can be the hardest part, so if you have motivation, but not content, remember that your laptop, notebook, typewriter, or table napkin – are all safe spaces, exclusive to you if you wish them to be. there is a reason you’re being called to write, so let it out.
alas, my venting is over, and i will be facing my fears of releasing previously mentioned word vomit, right here, right now. unanswered, the work below, was written from 2:48am to 2:59am on Monday, September 6, 2020.
sometimes i want to pray for you,
in the middle of the night,
i can feel your crying in my soul,
i can feel you losing a fight.
but i know it’s not my place,
to try to heal your pain,
so sometimes i fall asleep
to the sound of the rain,
and it’s like you’re next to me,
but i know that you’re not,
still, if i can’t be near you,
at least there’s a thought.
so i hope you feel better,
and i hope you feel love,
and i hope that you will be
everything you wanted to become,
i hope your smile gets brighter,
and your shoulders feel lighter,
i hope you know that you’re a lover,
even when you try to be a fighter.
i hope you’ll let me pray for you
on the nights you start hurting,
and i hope you find it,
for whatever it is you’re searching.
I often feel strangely motivated at times I probably should be sleeping, or when I am in school doing work, ext. Some of my most meaningful things I have gotten the idea for in a half-sleep state of mind, I write it down and figure out anything more to do with it in the morning.
You are SUCH a talented writer; it’s crazy. You always write so eloquently and smoothly. It’s so impressive. Your poem was written BEAUTIFULLY and it flowed so well. Teach me your ways.
That poem is lovely and made me feel lovesick(lol)!!