Category: Junior Literary

There is a new trend on TikTok that has really gotten my attention lately. You hold a note in front of your face that says, “I’m slowly forgetting your face,” and then replace the note with things you want to be remembered by.  

I’ve seen these items be artwork, different albums or records, cameras, or even books. This concept is very interesting to me. I read somewhere that the first thing you forget about someone is their eyes; however, for me I forget their voice first. 

As you can see through my last two blogs (Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind Part 1&2) I am very curious about the lengths we go to forget people. Sometimes, however, we don’t mean or want to forget someone. It just happens.

Anyways, this simple trend on TikTok got me thinking: What do I want to be remembered by? After a while of thinking, I found a few simple answers. My smile, music, movies, and my empathy. 

If you even remotely know me, you know that I love to smile. I constantly love to have a silly look on my face, or a smile that is yes, crooked, but also unique to me. I used to hate my smile, but when I turned 14, I decided to embrace it. I still haven’t fully accepted it, and I hide it in pictures, school badges, etc.; however, I’m no longer afraid of letting it slip out during the day. 

Music is a huge part of my life. It influences my mood, motivation, what I’m wearing, my writing, and overall outlook on my day. I love music. If you take a look at my past blogs, they are mostly music based (or movie based but we will get there.) Some songs I’d like to be remembered by are as follows: Let Light Be Light by Lizzy McAlpine, Could You Be Loved by Bob Marley and The Wailers, Here Comes the Sun by The Beatles, Vampire Empire by Adrianne Lenker. 

To me, movies are one of the most beautiful forms of art available. I don’t think people understand the importance of movies. They educate, help cope, inspire, etc. Movies I’d like to be remembered by are as follows: Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind, Beautiful Boy, Thirteen, and Dead Poets Society. These all represent a part of me, whether that’s the past or the present.

Lastly, my empathy is a big part of who I am. I feel like to be healed, to be human, is to have empathy. I feel so much all the time, and most of these feelings don’t truly belong to me. I pick up on how other people feel, and sometimes, I run from this. I love being genuinely happy (or sad) for my friends, or the people around me, but sometimes these feelings get so big that my feelings get so little. I feel like when I am empathetic, I tend to put people way to far before me; this doesn’t sound like a big problem, but it becomes one after a while. Even though empathy comes with problems, I still believe that I should be remembered by it, and never ever lose it.  

Thank you guys for reading todays blog! What do you guys want to be remembered by? See y’all next week! BYEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

let’s start with my recent favorite pretty little liars. the only reason I started watching pll is because of horror shows TikTok reviews and I got to admit it was a great decision to start. The story line, the characters, the killers! everything was perfect really enjoyed it. I’m not going to do a deep dive of the shows just pour out the basic plot of the story. 

6 girls are tormented by this mysterious person named they eventually find out who it is and take revenge not without their own losses. now years later a is back and coming after the next generation.

I also watched Velma 2 this weekend. although Velma 12 was mildly inappropriate it was also eye opening the shows itself has the best plot . each character is complex to the point there all mc’s, the real mc is not lame or boring they have actual targets, we get a real view into the characters minds.

Degrassi 

i watched Degrassi the next generation this week too I found it interesting. I thought it was going to mirror or be similar to Zoey 101 cause of the style I was wrong. It features mild themes you would expect from teen shows but they also offer real ones with complicated situations and relationships. i think the younger cast was my favorite part they offered more comedy and realness making the drama part bearable. I would recommend Degrassi.

when other people think of making scary movies what do they think of? I find creating scary is like creating yourself but Ina bad way. I mean take ever bad characteristic and put it in a character who wears a mask. when creating horror movies you have to make them what you wouldn’t be right?  I think that’s why leprechaun is my favorite horror tv franchise he talks he has corny quips and takes them out in the most interesting ways. he grows on your audience no matter who you are, being charming is a good technique for a horror tv villain to have too. I also think that certain scary movies can come off as eager to please the audience like the new scary movie I was disappointed when I watched scream, yes, it’s a horror tv but at the same time it’s important for it to make sense. The recent use of ai in scary movies is so frustrating using ai makes it lack that human feel we get when we see each other’s art. we as humans loose that sense of discovery, it feels as if were stuck on one plot unable to interpret new alternate endings we never get left with the question. what if?

movie/show recommendations?

the random yapping was it necessary?

thoughts on ai?

It’s almost the end of the school yearrr! So let’s talk about my plans for the summer and why I’m low key not ready to leave for the summer. I am ready to go though lol but not as much. So basically this summer I got a job.Yes I know it’s not summer yet and I’m saying I got a job. You see, I applied for a summer camp job. I grew up going to this camp called Camp Bratton Green. It was so fun when I was going so I thought why not work there and pulse they well. Get paid 140 or 150 every week. I’m coming back to school next year balling lol. But It was so fun to make friends there, got to swim anytime I wanted, get in the lake whenever I  wanted, have good games to play in the Chapel, during lunch they would do all types of crazy things like stand on tables and dance and do different types of skits for us to laugh.

I think my fav thing was the mail call. We’ll stand on the table jumping and yelling to the top of our lungs.At the end of every week we had a party. We had different shows of course. Mine fav was the talent show. I have been going there for years since I was in 3rd grade. I didn’t get to go last year because I was 17 so now that I’m 18 I can work there and even be with my old friends from camp. But I’m also going out of town a lot before I have to start to work. I think I’ll be going to a lot of water parks but yea.

I’m ready for summer but at the same time I’m not. I have made a few friends here and I know i’m be missing them over the summer or I won’t see them next year. Like the seniors. They won’t be here and I know for a fact I miss a few of them, not all but a few of them maybe like 5 of them lol. But then we have some of the juniors who might not come back well. I’m really just worried about my girl Madi, my boy Marcus, and Jayden. Thanks to this school I got three of the best friends. I stay in contact with them but it’s not the same. I’m really going to miss my best friend, my Madi, my world. She helped me through this school year. I want next year to be better, this school year was so much mess, got my lil heart broke a lil bit lol, lost some of the people I thought was my friend but hey that’s okay.

I do NOT WANT TO WRITE THIS WEEK. I love ghosts, but I will have to postpone the ghosting. This week I’m going to talk about… er.. uh…. why I like zombies so much!! Not my usual dead people, but they’re still dead! That’s morbid, but I know you guys don’t care about morbidity.

I want to start this with the fact that the most realistic zombies are The Last of Us’s zombies, but I will be talking about the more known zombies akin to The Walking Dead and like Dawn of the Dead. They’re my favorite breed of zombie because the writers focus more on the world building and the characters rather than trying to make the zombies unique. This isn’t always the case, but from what I’ve seen that’s usually what happens.

Dead people just wandering around. I don’t think enough zombie media expresses how terrifying that would be. Honestly, I think with the way social media works these days the most recent generations are somewhat desensitized to the idea of people dying because of the early exposure to things like Instagram reels where you can see people being executed or YouTube where you can find literal recreations of these situations. It’s saddening and distressing, and I think it takes away an innocence that would make these types of zombie media more terrifying.

You’re walking down the street and you see someone who’s literally decaying just strolling towards you. I think written zombie media, which doesn’t really exist all that often, is the scariest because it can go deep into the feeling of the characters and the description of the zombies. With shows like The Walking Dead and All of Us Are Dead, you see the zombies so often that they kind of become less scary and more cartoonish. Not in a literal way where their costuming changes, but again it’s a desensitization. The only think I can think of that has stayed consistently scary is the 28 Days Later series. We see them less often, and their ability to keep going is just EW.

When you get into a zombie apocalypse, literally what would something like homophobia do. Genuinely, hey, there’s a dead lady over there that wants to eat anything that’s still alive. Who cares if I kiss boys, brother we are gonna DIE. I appreciate the way these pieces of media show people letting go of their phobias and isms until they find somewhere peaceful. People causing problems for themselves after so much fighting for everyone to stay alive is so interesting to me, and I think apocalyptic situations are such a good way to show that these are purely human concepts instead of instincts.

The instinct is to survive, that’s the base of us all. Shows where the big bad starts as zombies are able to explore these concepts so well in my opinions. I’m not saying that these concepts can’t be explored in different ways; I’m just saying that this way is one of my favorites.

Man, I feel like I didn’t say much this week! I mean, that’s around 500 words so it isn’t nothing, but it feels like I could’ve done more. Didn’t have the energy to do so though. I might go more into these thoughts another week. Anyway, I hope everyone had a good Easter Break. ByeBye!!

Recently I have been listening to an artist called Bella Kay. She has recently gotten really popular due to TikTok and Instagram I believe. I don’t like how TikTok especially effects the musical world. It helps the artists revenue I guess but it doesn’t help with building people’s personalities and knowledge about the musical world. I really like her song ‘The Sick’ but I didn’t really know who sang the song and I also didn’t know that it was the same singer who sings ‘Steady’ and ‘iloveitiloveitiloveit’. Those songs have become quite popular throughout the abyss that is social media. I wanted to talk a bit about some of her songs due to me doing a little deeper dive into her music. I really found some great songs of hers that haven’t hit the mainstream media yet that i thought I would talk about as well. 

The first song we need to talk about I think is the song i listened to first and then go from there. Son the first of Bella Kays songs that i listened to was called ‘The Sick’. It is a raw and emotional song much like her other songs. Her vocals itch your brain in a way that unlocks emotions and feelings. The Sick however when i first listened to it I wasn’t aware it was sung by Bella Kay. It was just a trending song that i found a deep connection with. I didn’t really research it like i should have but sometimes it’s okay just to listen to music because you like it. I think that is the main reason for music to find connections to the songs. But it is a song about a toxic relationship, addiction, and the struggle of loving someone who is self-destructive. It is about a relationship where both people are toxic. The narrator is also almost reflecting on this horrible relationship and realizing it’s bad but that she liked it because it was so toxic. It is an emotional ballad that really introduces Bella Kay’s style in my opinion. 

The next song i was introduced to was iloveitiloveitiloveit. The song is her most popular song on Spotify. It is also the same concept as the first song focusing on a toxic relationship. It is more so about the addictive, chaotic, and toxic cycle of dysfunctional relationships. It showcases how intense highs and lows feel and how easily addicting they are. The song also opens with lines about how being used gives her purpose if that gives you any idea of how the song feels. Her songs are quite unique and almost a bit depressing but I find them nice due to how the lyrics are beautifully written. 

The next song i am going to talk about is one of my favorite songs by her – Steady. It has gotten really popular but it as my first real encounter with Bella Kay. I liked the song so much i wanted to see who sung it and so i went and researched a bit and found that she also sang the two previous songs. This song spoke to me so much due to timing. I love when music is just so perfectly timed with your life when you find it. I feel that it resonates with my world right now but for a completely different meaning than what the song talks about but i wont get into that. The songs original meaning however is about the fear of falling in love, intense self doubt, and the struggle of personal self worth. I struggle with a lot of these things and so i believe that is why i like it s much but it also relates to an event that has been going on in my life. To me it sounds how that makes me feel in a way. I use music to decipher feelings a lot. It explores self-sabotage and just a number of other deeply felt emotions of many. That is why it is so popular. (Idk what that says about our society but yk…) The main part of the song that has become so so s incredibly popular is toward the middle or end of the song (the bridge) where she sings “I can’t” with the words “I want it bad” layered in the background. Her vocals add so much emotion to these lyrics that it doesn’t do them justice typing them out. It showcases the back and forth people who want to be in a relationship have when they want to be in love but are afraid to be in love at the same time. It shows how complex and complicated love can actually be due to it not always being an immediate feeling of reassurance. You can still love someone even though you are scared to fall in love and i think this song does a great job illustrating that and the feeling that go along with that. 

The last two songs aren’t as popular but that’s why i wanted to talk about the. She is an amazing artist and writer and i believe she doesn’t just need to be TikTok famous. She don’t need to just be a fad. The songs ‘Lonely’ and ‘Wonder wander’ are two songs i found after my deep dive into Bella Kay as an artist. These are the two that stuck out to me the most when looking through her releases. Lonely captures how loneliness feels in my opinion. It really encapsulates the raw emotion and describes it to a tee. I wont go into too much detail because i think it is much better to listen to these two songs especially. And then ‘Wonder Wander’ is about navigating nostalgia ( I relate so sos so much to this and i think that’s why it has such a big impact to me), and moving on from past relationships. It wouldn’t’t be a Bella Kay song if it wasn’t about a gut wrenching relationship now would it? 

I think if anything you should at least site to steady and wander wonder. Those songs i think really highlight her musical and lyrical ability. Anyways that’s all 🙂

Theres something about country music that’s just so freeing. 

I don’t know if it’s the instruments, the beat or the message but whenever I listen to country music I suddenly feel at peace. I want to say that there’s a country gene in me from my dad that makes me feel that way, but music and your interpretation is all neurological. 

But for some reason, no matter what the science may be behind it, country music to me and my family has always been relevant. I’ve listened to a lot of music and none of it was strictly just country music, it still isn’t, but it seems to be what connect with me the most. 

It was like that with Rock a lot as well for my brother. Raised the same way, he also practically raised me, and he connected the most with Rock music. My other brother, the middle child in the family connected with the more alternative music. It’s funny how parents can raise kids around a genre and they end up liking a new one, then there’s me. 

I don’t like country music because it can be depressing or loving or about sex, it’s mostly how at home I feel. People raised around this genre have a comfortability because this genre also teaches life lessons. Country music isn’t just plainly what’s written, sometimes it is, but not all the time. I also think it’s what just comes with maturing from the south. I sing the songs all the time.

My dad was raised with Old or Classic country. One of his favorites being Keith Whitley and today in our generation we have people like Luke Combs, Chris Stapelton, Jason Aldean, and Morgan Wallen, who are all great!

But my dad and how he was raised, country was their whole life. He grew up with buddies who’d drive around Brookhaven singing Keith Whitley at the top of their lungs, (They still do- but minus the driving.) and we’d have get together and we all sing!

To this day it’s still one of my most listened to genres and my most listened to genre while I’m writing. 

Listen, this is meant to be an encouragement post for all who need it, and me. Let’s all delude ourselves into believing that everything is fine and we’re not all exhausted and haven’t been worked to the bone. Hahaha…look, this post is going to make very little sense, call it a representative of my mental state. But whatever. You guys, we got this. It’s almost the end of the year, and whether or not you’re running off coffee or energy drinks (which, btw, I quit. A round of applause, please and thank you.) it doesn’t matter, because we’re all the goat and so smart and amazing and awesome sauce. All of us are going to make it to the end of the year and have great report cards, and we’re going to go to the beach and party till the sun comes up because life’s a never-ending midnight sun, and all of us are going to have body tea and drink virgin Pina Coladas. 

We’re all going to be eating so good, and we’re going to run through sunflower fields in flowy dresses or whatever you want to wear and frolic and be whimsical. Everyone is going to be so happy and creative. We’re all going to be getting the bag. Our energy is going to be so high and energetical (Yes, this is a word, because I say so.) Life is going to feel like Beychella. We’re so divas, and nobody is going to be hearing the saxophones. I swear we’re all the birthday. Our playlists are going to be so fire. 

You are that girl/boy/they.

You are not chopped. 

Your body is so tea. 

Life is so magical and wonderful and whimsical. 

We are going to see Bruno Mars (This one is for me) 

We are going to see Beyonce again (Also for me)

We are going to see The Weekend (For me again)

Your face card is tea. 

Life is a never-ending midnight sun

We are going to Coachella next year. 

Yes, you are a good driver. 

We will be outside. 

You are getting too much money.

We will be at all the functions.

You are gonna bag whoever you want. 

Bro, we got this. It’s givin hair, face. It’s givin hair, face. Y’all know the rest. We’re partying like rockstars. Surfin swag. We got this, guys. Just believe. Manifest it. Hope this helps.