Why Cyborg Belongs in the Doom Patrol.

IT’S ME AGAIN.

I’m back with another DCU rant. (▰˘◡˘▰)

Today I am here to state my scary opinion and defend it.

Cyborg has always been a confusing character in the DCU. He never particularly fit in on any team, and that has been a running problem with his character. Lets count…the Justice League, then the Teen Titans, the Outsiders, and he even participated in other smaller groups.

You may ask, “Why does he not fit in? Is there anywhere that’s best for him?” Well I can tell you.

WHY NOT THE JUSTICE LEAGUE? (-＿- )ノ

This answer is actually relatively simple; he simply isn’t needed. Cyborg is well… a CYBORG his powers are primarily tech based, which due to Batman’s extensive riches and technological access he isn’t needed in that aspect. Then you could argue his strength but…Superman is RIGHT there…so yeah that’s not a fit. Onto my next point, He is simply too young, which is going to hypocritical when i get to the teen titans but just hold my hand and trust me. All those justice league members? Yeah, they’re UNC and just aren’t able to relate to him well or get his humor which is a decent part of his character.

WHY NOT THE TEEN TITANS? (ᇂ_ᇂ)

Okay I’m sure you already think I’m crazy just from the idea, but you just got to hear me out. Now he’s too OLD for the team. He is indeed still a teen yes, but he is often portrayed a few years older than the other titans, which I’ve noticed he seems to take on a certain “babysitter” like role in a lot of situations. I find it hugely suppresses his character and often makes him gather a sort of resentment and lash out later.

WHATS THE HUGE PROBLEM IN BOTH? (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻

Cyborg doesn’t fit anywhere because there is not a set of characters that understand what he has gone through and his trauma. The Justice League simply has no way to understand a total rewriting of physical autonomy; neither do I believe they really care. As such a big team they often lack the time to care about such things, and they’d probably just use him as ‘tech support’. Cyborgs’ biggest fear is to be seen only as the machine and not the human that he is, so yeah not the match for him.

Now the Teen Titans work much better in theory because they DO deeply care for each other. At the same time, they still can’t really understand. What happened to Cyborg was extremely traumatic and for those who don’t know I’ll tell you now, Cyborg grew up normally, he was a star athlete in high school, he had a strained family but a future. When his father misses his football game, he goes to the lab his father works at and proceeds to get mutilated in a lab disaster, for which his father then installs EXPIEREMENTAL and completely UNTESTED technology into Vic (Cyborg) with NO consent. So yeah, he just wakes up an ENTIRELY different person and little more than just his father’s experiment. Back on topic, I can see Cyborg way better in the Teen Titans and especially with Beast Boy. Beast Boy is like Cyborg in the way of being a physical appearance outcast, due to his…GREENness. The problem is he was turned into what he is when he was too young to have lived and entire life full of connections. There are no other titans that can understand that in any capacity. I would like to mention that Beast Boy before being a Titan was part of the Doom Patrol, which I bet is why he can most relate to Cyborg.

This is the part where i lead into where he belongs………..

WHY DOES CYBORG BELONG IN THE DOOM PATROL? (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

First of all, almost the entire team has had their body permanently altered and leaving them to be seen as freaks,

Robotman had his entire body destroyed in a racecar crash; he’s literally just a brain in a robot. Negative Man had his entire body burned and turned radioactive in a plane crash, causing him to have to wrap himself in bandages (wow what a weirdo/j). Elasti-Girl inhaled a toxic volcanic gas and now turns into a literal blob when she’s nervous. There are other members, but I don’t want to keep yapping on. Anyways the real kicker is Their “caretaker”, Niles, was the creator of all their accidents and mutilations. He unconsentingly used the Doom Patrol as little more than experiments wink wink sound familiar?

Theres also room for an interesting dynamic with Robotman, they are extremely similar which SOME might call a problem but I see that as media illiteracy as they are VERY different characters. Cyborg still has feeling and Robotman doesn’t and dude Robotman can genuinely leave so much character development open for cyborg, Robotman can make Cyborg understand that he doesn’t need to prove he’s human and they can be like the silliest supporters of each other. Cyborg can also bring a modern tech role into the team. The doom patrol members are all….OLD and though modern in their humor, they are behind in technology….so Cyborg could bring that missing part to the team.

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AHHH…ok, I’m done for now. Stay tuned for more DC controversial opinions and rants… ^Questions are welcomed^

The New Jrs

Hey my loves, welcome to my second blog of this year. In this blog I’m going to be talking about my sweet little juniors! Well not just my juniors. I’m going to be talking about a lot of them. To be more specific, the ones I fell in love with. The juniors here are so cool here. I thought they would be shy and we would need to help them get out of their shell or something but nope. They low key was already part of the family. Like when I say they act like some of us it’s funny.

Let’s start with the literary juniors. They are such cool dudes and really good at what they do. They are also so sweet and would be gladly to help someone out without even asking or having a second thought. So my favorite thing that I have done with some of the juniors would be, how every night we are on the 2nd floor just playing games and watching tv. We would just be down on the 2nd floor just laughing while playing around and singing. The way we sing is like we’re going crazy, just yelling at the top of our lungs like we’re gonna die or something. I remember when we were so loud one night and we got yelled at so many times.

Not only are the literary that cool but also all the other juniors are just as cool. I really like how they just vibe with us. They really just clicked with us and I feel like that’s something we didn’t really do as juniors with our seniors didn’t do with us when school started. I love how everything just always ended up being just the literary being on the 2nd floor and like two vocals lol.

I hope that this year will be way different than last year, when everyone hangs out. So far it’s been different and I like it. I don’t know about the rest of the kids here but me, baby I love it. Even in class with the juniors is fun. Last year I didn’t really laugh as much, I didn’t even talk in class for real. But this year with the juniors I talk a lot and I be killing myself laughing in class. I also like that they can trust us and can come to us whenever they feel like they have a problem going on or they just come to us when they need help on something. Unlike last year the juniors even gave a lot of us seniors some nicknames. Like mine is (I can’t spell it but I’m going to try lol) my nickname is Jaleighsha. I don’t know how I got but oh well it’s stuck now and I’m starting to like it, it makes me laugh now.

I can’t wait to see how the rest of the year with these kids. Anyway that is my weekly blog. Thank you for reading it hoped you enjoyed it.

Xoxo-The Queen/Jaleigha

Little Crumblie Bits.

I….. I’m back. I’m back to GHOSTING. Deeper dive into Detroit Become Human will have to wait. Until November. BECAUSE GHOSTS: POSSESSION OF BUTTON HOUSE COMES OUT ON OCTOBER 23RD!!!

This poster was the first one I saw. It brought tears to my eyes, and I am not being dramatic. I was so exited I cried. Just y’all wait because there’s more of me crying in this post. If y’all couldn’t tell from all of my posts last year, I REALLY like Ghosts. A lot. A ton. Oh my god like this poster was ground breaking for me. It’s only their back’s and Julian’s butt but MAN.

This one… This one came out yesterday (I wrote this post a week before blogs were due). It came out yesterday. And I posted it on my Instagram story twice. And I’m STILL staring at it. It’s so beautiful. Just look at it. I first saw it on Ben Willbond’s Instagram page, but I wasn’t able to repost it! The man’s page is private! I mean, it’s private with him literally letting in anyone who wants to follow him. But still. Private account so I couldn’t repost it to my story. Had to take a screenshot so I could scream about it publicly! Thank you Jim Howick for NOT being a private account.

With that poster…. Then came the greatest thing ever the next day.

LOOK! LOOK AT JULIAN!!!!!!!!!!! IT’S A FREAKING TRAILER!! THE DAY AFTER THE THE THE POSTER!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GODUHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Now, being the man I am, I watched it twice this morning. While I was getting ready after breakfast. I’m actually watching it as a write this post. Everyone’s so cute and oh my gosh. Oh my goodness gravy gracious.

I really love that Julian was the one they chose to leave the house!!! I am really curious on why he ran to Allison… I love her but like whaattt is she gonna do?? I’m also really curious about the extra shots we got to see of The Captain, Pat, Fanny, and Thomas. Like Cap’s has a little ability of being a flashback, Pat’s looks like an actual flashback for realsies, Fanny’s looks like a situation she would find herself in, and then… Thomas’s. Uh?? Whatever’s happening there.

The kid who Julian possessed by the way… oh I’m giggling. He’s done such a good job with the voice change and the mannerisms. It’s not exact exact, but he’s really funny. See a bright future with that one. Giggle. Anyway.

Allison and Mike’s baby who I forgot the name of? THE CUTEST THING EVER!!! Mike carrying her around. I cannot. We got ONE episode of them being parents. I’m glad we’ve got a glimpse of it in the movie. Wonder who gets her while they’re on this……. adventure.

Movie’s gonna be roughly an hour and a half long. WHICH IS NOT LONG ENOUGH!!! Not at ALL! I need more. I’m so desperate for more that I’m watching Horrible Histories again. You know. The British history children’s show from 2009-2014 that I talked about a little bit last year. By the way if I’ve ever shared a random weird history fact with you, it’s because of the beautiful beautiful Horrible Histories.

Thank you Laurence Rickard’s website for this wonderful picture of Thomas, Captain, Robin, and Pat. Just wanted to share because it’s been a second without a picture in this post. ANYWAY!

I saw someone point out that The Captain’s mustache looks real instead of a fake one glued on. I think it’s real?? Ben Willbond posted a picture on Instagram with mustache out of costume. In a little QnA they did in 2020, he did NOT have a mustache. You know who did? LAURENCE RICKARD, MATHEW BAYNTON, AND JIM HOWICK!! Heart breaking. Well it wasn’t just mustaches. They had beards. Beards in which they look fantastic in might I add. After watching that video from six years ago, Robin and Thomas look so bald. Thomas. Please. Put your chin away. Cover it with your love letter.

I’m very curious about another plot point. What are those kids doing AFTER that one kid gets possessed?? Like it’s only three with him when they’re doing the Ouija board, more when he gets possessed, and then there are some there during what looks like the day time!! Why didn’t they stop their friend, what did they tell his parents, and why are they BACK? If he’s possessed and ran away, why aren’t they after him? Is it a different night from the Ouija to the possession or were they just late?????? I’ll be so the most patient about these things being answered. Still the most curious though oh my goshness.

Was Julian possessing the kid an accident? WHY DID HE GO TO ALLISON??? Did he leave without checking on the kid’s like soul or did he just bounce out of nowhere? Would be in character for him to just leave. But then why did he go to Allison and Mike?? HOW DID HE KNOW WHERE THEY LIVED HOLD ON????

Also, last week I got a DVD collection of all five seasons of Ghosts. It was the only one at Walmart. THEY’RE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE SOLD YET!! THE COLLECTION WASN’T AVAILABLE ON AMAZON!!! So basically… I’m the coolest guy ever actually. The disks have bloopers and interviews and it’s SO COOL!! There’s some extra stuff about the special effects!! It’s so good I’m so fed.

Well, that was more word vomit than anything at the end. That’s okay though. It’s my show!! And my movie!! I’m so excited y’all don’t even KNOW. Okay, well. That’s definitely exceeded the 600 word lower limit. And that’s DEFINITELY enough about my show. Go read my other post that’s ALSO about Ghosts. ByeBye!!

Y’all Wanna Hear Me Complain?

Of course you do! I’m gonna complain about my American ghosts cast dislike in a little more depth. Yes. More Ghosts. Y’all, for my monthly blog I’m gonna talk about the OG Ghosts. BECAUSE SOMETHING BIG HAPPENED THIS WEEEKKKK!!

Anyway. Anyway. The casts. Lets go over Ghosts that show up in the original series! Main cast, the plague pit, that pigeon, the dude that dies next to the fence, Annie, and honestly that’s it. I’m not counting the ghosts the leading ladies see outside of the main property because in both shows I think it’s really interesting to see expansion like that! It’s a introduction of more ghosts that I APPRECIATE. And it makes SENSE.

Okay! Awesome! What about the American version? SO GLAD YOU ASKED! I will preface this with the fact that the original Ghosts almost had a super large cast. One of the original ideas that can actually be seen in a lost pilot that has only been partially found is that of the cast size being humongous! It was more adjacent to the way they played characters in Horrible Histories! The main six actors would actually be ALL of the MANY characters that would span the existence of British history (which is like. a long time). I guess there wasn’t really any moving on because that house was FULL! ThemThere decided that would be too difficult to keep track of, and the characters would have less of a chance to feel the loneliness of death or a chance to develop deeper

Sorry. Sorry. NOW for the large cast of the American version. Of course they have the main cast and their plague pit. But then they have…. The stripper dude that flew away never to come back somehow?? And the journalist lady that also leaves and comes back. and the bunker people as a whole on top of the plague pit. and the ghosts from the other house which is like the viking’s son, some lady from like the 50s that died in the house and was the mother of the current owner (there were more but they don’t show up as much as those two). and the car ghost. and the ghost stuck to a dude. and Hetty’s husband coming to and from hell. and pete’s wife. and the british soldiers. and the puritan lady. and the 80s ghost. and their headless dude. THE HEADLESS DUDE! WHO HASN’T SHOWN UP IN SEASONS BRO. WHERE IS HE?? and the ghost snail. and the irish maid that shows up for one episode. There are also some ghosts that Sam meets at her job in the city! I do like them. They didn’t over stay their welcome and were used to expand on another ghost’s story which was really super cool. Then she left that job so RIP to the extras that made sense.

I didn’t mention the living casts, and I’m not going to. With Jay having a restaurant with workers and the hotel being in operation in the American show, there really isn’t a point. Also, of course more livings would show up! That makes sense! People go places! GHOSTS CAN’T!!!!!!!!!?????????!?!?!?!?!? THEY’RE STAGNANT AND LONELY!!!! WHY AREN’T THEY STAGNANT AND LONELY????????????????????????????????????

All this complaining… I swear I like the American version. It’s a good comedy! It’s original in a good amount of places! I get excited when new episodes come out!!!! I fweaking swear bro!!! I like the American version, but I LOVE the original. Can’t help it.

Okay, so. That’s enough about that. I think I’ve said my piece. Also, I’m not sure if we’re supposed to have a word limit on the “Good Reads” posts or not. I do not remember. Could check the syllabus……. or I could just hit publish. You know? SHUT UP NICK. Okay, Nick. Get ready for next week, y’all. I am gonna be ANNOYING for the next two months. OKAY. That’s enough for now. ByeBye!

KINGDOM HEARTS Birth by Sleep Part I.

TANGENT TIME!

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The entirety of Kingdom Hearts first begins with Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep. Where you, the player, choose between three destined keyblade apprentices under Master Eraqus. A keyblade Master. They’re story begins in the Land of Departure.

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Master Eraqus and His Philosophy of Light.

The person pictured above is Master Eraqus. He is the one responsible for overseeing his apprentices: Terra, Aqua, and Ventus.

Master Eraqus is a philosopher of light. His teachings are about how light must be protected from the darkness, because darkness is what corrupts people’s hearts, but that’s not all. His teachings go beyond simply: avoid the darkness and protect the light. Eraqus believes that ALL darkness must be destroyed, eradicated, whenever the opportunity arises.

He’s thorough with these teachings to his disciples/apprentices, but each apprentice has their own diverging paths. Some more catastrophic than someone might have expected hailing from a teacher of Light.

These teachings go against one of, if not the most, important antagonists in the entire series of Kingdom Hearts.

Xehanort and His Philosophy of Darkness

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(Yes, he’s bald, ugly, and evil)

This is Xehanort. Xehanorts entire perception of Darkness is that the Darkness should be studied and understood. That instead of fending off the Darkness with Light, he believes that both Light and Darkness are fundamentals to the world.

BUUUUUUUT the way he goes about enacting his philosophy is…a bit brutal.

Xehanort has always believed that the Light and Darkness are essentially two sides of the same coin. One cannot exist without the other (Light) and the other cannot be destroyed (Darkness). But I want you to keep this in mind. Xehanort in not simply fiddling with the Darkness because it’s a concept that intrigues him. Xehanort LIKES the Darkness. You would think a guy like him would be all about balance amongst worlds after he explains his philosophy in a very vague way, right? WRONG! VERY WRONG! Xehanort wants to use the Darkness as a weapon. A tool that infests and spreads amongst the world’s so he can start creation anew. He disagrees entirely with the idea that Light should eradicate the Darkness, instead he prefers to see the Light as a form of tyranny and himself and the Darkness as it’s usurpers. Darkness, at least for him, is a utensil used to invoke forced change. In other words, he’s plunging the worlds into Darkness.

He would eventually test his own belief on a very important person in the future to see just how his plan would work.

The Keyblade War(s)

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The Keyblade War was cataclysmic, and it plunged the world into destruction and Darkness. The small key like objects scattered around the clay field, those were once Keyblades held by great Keyblade masters.

Once upon a time, when the world was but only an age. The Age of Fairytales. The world had been made up of entirely light and perceived to have come from Kingdom Hearts, which was believed to be made of Light as Kingdom Hearts is the heart of ALL worlds. and was safeguarded by the X-blade, the kingdoms counterpart and one of the most powerful and most sought after keyblade.

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Because of this one keyblade, an entire war erupted between the Light and the Darkness. A war that weighed so heavily on the X-blade that the X-Blade couldn’t maintain its form and broke into twenty pieces. Seven pieces went to the Light and thirteen went to the Darkness, never to return.

Because of the brutality of the war, from the Darkness birthed pure blooded Heartless. These beings of Darkness were responsible for attacking human or pure creatures’ hearts.

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However, not long after, a story recalled from the The Book of Prophecies retells a story about the Master of Masters who manipulates his five Foretellers and keyblade wielders and another war elapsed, but this time it was a civil war competing for the worlds Lux (Light Energy). Because of this civil war, the true Kingdom Hearts collapsed. The Light fell and the world was cast into Darkness.

The Keyblade Graveyard was where the civil war had taken place. The picture only shows a couple groups of keyblades in comparison to the thousands and thousands of keybaldes that are littered all around that one world. On the mountains, in chasms, everywhere.

The Burden of the Keyblade.

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The results of the war left conflict in the hearts of keyblade wielders. Being a keyblade wielder, and a wielder alone, means you are a protector of light…or a harbinger of chaos.

They do not choose the keyblade, the keyblade chooses them. It evaluates the heart and from its judgment and evaluation. The chosen one must have a strong enough heart to keep the balance of Light and Darkness not just physically but also eternally, keeping the Darkness out of their own hearts.

It sounds easy. Except it’s not, it’s really not. In my next blog I will discuss the three different protagonists of Kingdom Hearts Birth by Sleep and how truly difficult it is to be a keyblae wielder, the importance of hearts, and their relationships.

So if you’ve been interested thus far, good! I’m glad! I’m sooooo happy. Because we have a long way to go. We’re only on one main world babe and three characters we’re not even to the main plot yet babes, this is the origin story 😀

Parenting & Children

Some people shouldn’t have kids. This may upset some people, but as I’m sure you know, I don’t care. Just as you’re entitled to your opinion, I’m entitled to mine. Disclaimer: I am talking about this objectively; there are obviously specific situations, etc.

Some people just were not meant to take care of other people, and that is okay. I feel like a lot of women go on to have kids because they feel like that’s what’s expected of them, and they don’t want to one day regret not having them. I think it’s better to regret it rather than bring a life into the world and be a terrible parent.

The inspiration behind this blog post is that I’ve seen a lot of people on TikTok debating whether people in poverty should have kids, whether people with severe disabilities should have kids, and whether people who have not healed from their own trauma should have kids. I’ll take this section by section.

Poverty:

I think that it is selfish to intentionally have a child, especially multiple children, when you are aware that you can’t afford to have one kid- let alone multiple. If you are struggling to take care of yourself, how are you supposed to take care of a small human? I am aware that the cost of raising a kid has gone up significantly since the people who are reading this were children, but let’s not act like it wasn’t always expensive to take care of a kid. A prime example of this is the Jenkins Family on TikTok. I haven’t heard much about them recently, but they were popular on TikTok for their living situation. They have a family of seven. Seven. And they were living in a motel room after being evicted from a one-bedroom apartment. The mother, Stephanie, was doing her dishes in the tub while she was pregnant. She knew her situation and was continuing to have kids. I think that there is no other word to describe this than selfishness. Answer just this one question for me: say you want a kid, and you are living in a one-bedroom apartment, making minimum wage, and you can barely scrape by yourself; would you still have a kid? Personally, I would never want to bring a kid into the world who can’t have everything they need and more.

Severe Disabilities

Okay, I think this is a little selfish. My example for this portion is once again TikTok creators. Their names are Antwon and Deja. They suffer from Brittle Bone disease, leaving them both in wheelchairs. Their child suffers from the same disease as them. They both knew what their disease did to them, what they had to miss out on, and how they suffered, and they still had a kid. They said it was okay if their child had Brittle Bone disease because they had it. I just think that if they truly wanted a kid, they should have adopted. Which is still a little iffy, because if they both require a caretaker, how would they fully be able to take care of that child?

Trauma

Now, I don’t have a direct example for this. I just think that if you are aware that you have a lot of trauma and mental health issues that affect the way you act. It’s risky to have a kid, because your issues could affect that kid. Let’s say you have terrible depressive episodes and you aren’t able to do anything at all when you have those episodes. That child’s life doesn’t stop. They still need their father or their mother. That’s not to say never have a kid; just feel yourself first. Let me know what you think. Ci

Swimming: A Mac Miller Blog (Again)

Hi guys! As we ALL know, Sarah is OBSESSED with Mac Miller. Like obsessed. Since we have a longer word count, I decided to write something I love to talk about, so get ready for this yap session… (There’s nothing meaningful in this blog, it’s just lyrics and me glazing MM.) Mac Miller, if you don’t know, is an American rapper and producer. In 2018, he passed away from a mix of cocaine, fentanyl, and alcohol. When he was alive, he was SUCH a bright soul. His goal was always to spread positivity and love in dark times. He stood up for what he believed in, and honestly, I think without him, I wouldn’t be who I am today.

I’m not going to go over every single song on his album Swimming, but I am going to leave you guys with a few quotes and song recommendations. My best friend, McCarley, told me a few days ago that “it takes trained ears to listen to Mac Miller, and mine aren’t trained.” I strongly disagree with her. I think no matter your favorite genre of music, or how trained your ears are, you will still like Mac.

In the first lyric of the first song of the album, Come Back to Earth, Mac sings “My regrets look just like text I shouldn’t send.” This is, unfortunately, a bar. He follows this by saying “I got neighbors, they’re more like strangers, we could be friends. I just need a way out of my head. I’ll do anything for a way out of my head.” What????? Like Mac…. you’re killing me. This immediately sets the whole tone for the song. I definitely recommend this one for anyone trying to get a vibe of who Mac is.

Directly after this song comes Self Care. I won’t speak on the music video, but trust it is beautiful. There are two points of this song that really stick out to me. The lyric “Turn your power off and get your water from the spring.” What a beautiful lyric. A recurring theme in his music is him talking about how fame isn’t what he dreamed of at all. I will bring this back up soon. The other lyric of the song that stands out to me is “I been going through it, you just go around it. But it’s really not that different when you think about it. I’m always sayin’ I won’t change but I ain’t the same.” Dang Mac… I feel like sometimes he’s speaking directly to me.

I’m going to skip a few songs on the album and talk about Small Worlds. This song became popular on tiktok a while back so most of everyone knows it, but I don’t think people talk about the lyrics enough. This might be a long one. “Nobody told me being rich was this lonely, oh well, hard to complain from this five star hotel.” OHHH MY GOOSHHH!!! And then read these bars: “No need for shame, I get more peace at slow speeds. Go beat the game, young control freak… don’t wanna grow old so I smoke just in case.” okay okay, one more quote from this song and then I’m forcing myself to move on. “Ooh, I’ve been a fool but it’s cool that’s what human beings do; keep your eyes to the sky, never glued to your shoes. Guess there was a time when my mind was consumed, but the sun’s coming out now, the clouds start to move.”

Okay the last song on the album I want to quote is 2009. “And she don’t cry no more. She tells me that I get her high cause a angel supposed to fly.” WHHHHAAAAT! Literally Shakespeare’s brother. “You gotta jump in to swim. My life was dim in this life of sin. Now everyday I wake up and breathe. I don’t have it all but that’s alright with me.” Hellooooo? “Sometimes I wish I took a simpler route, instead of having demons that’s as big as my house.” Genuinely, what do you mean?

This blog is actually just me fan girling so I’m cutting myself off… I’ll see yall next week with hopefully a more… meaningful blog! Bye!

Could emotions be a side effect of humanity?

I know it sounds kind of dumb. But hear me out. Psychopaths have the ability to feel basic emotions most likely. I wonder if because they are so detached from their humanity it won’t allow them to experience emotions complex enough for their “character” to undergo change.

I’m not saying you must be a psychopath to experience not having complex emotions though. I think people who go through severe trauma or have an event that pushes them to become void of the ability to think humanely. I wonder if there’s a psychologist that thought about this though, I’m kind of too lazy to go research myself.

I think my favorite part of this theory is that it’s such an interesting concept. I wonder if it’s like running into a burning building to save someone would going in the building if your actions/ thoughts are emotions based or would you stay outside safely? How do they determine if something is sad? Do they feel God? Do they have the ability to truly hate someone? Could they ever change?

I wonder if not having emotions could cause someone to lose faith? God invokes the spirit and moves the heart but what if someone can’t use that heart? What if there is no way for that person to feel God? would sin even be sin? Obviously, they could know right from wrong, but what determines rights from wrong? How that specific outcome is likely to make someone, or something feel right?

I wonder if it causes them to fade from existence in a way. Humans yearn and search for someone to make them un-lonely. That’s why we have friends, right? Do people void of emotions feel that need? Do they feel the need to be around someone? Could they make that choice to put someone’s life over theirs if they are in that position?

I wonder if they have the ability to hate? Could they genuinely hate someone, it seems like they would not be able to. They’d probably find themselves rationalizing actions from others that they didn’t like or actions that harmed them. Maybe they could try to copy those human bases traits, but will they be there or is it like watching a movie paly out from behind your eyes? You always son stage performing for Somone.

What is normal for them? Is having emotions normal? Or would it not be? Do they think emotions limit the capablties of other people? If the president was void of emotions, what would he do? He can’t feel that love for humanity so why not tear it all down?

These are questions I had while I wrote this because it genuinely baffles me! I feel like many people would love to not have emotions, but they kind of come pre-installed. From the moment most of us are born were treated with love and compassion, yet it’s probably harder to reciprocate that feeling because your brain won’t let you.

Conscious enough to not feel.

I lay begging God, Surrendering my life to him.

I Cannot feel.

I cannot cry anymore

I cannot be angry

I cannot love

I cannot be normal.

I think being conscious is a curse.

Jesus gave sight to a blind man.

Is it bad I want him to take mines?

Not my eyes. Just the seeing part.

I think every thought, I read every line,

I play every part and none at the same time.

Yet I find myself fading.

I am my own punishment.

I am my own sin.

Constantly grasping at normalcy as if I could hold it.

A revolving door of thoughts.

In.

Out.

In.

Out.

I am the tree bearing forbidden fruit.

Knowledge growing rotten in my head.

I wonder if he made whole me sometimes.

Maybe the clay had gone bad.

Maybe the soil was already lost to sin.

Good truly cannot exist without its darker reflection.

I find myself trapped in flesh.

stapled and taped with the curse of knowing.

Knowing what I say.

Knowing what I do.

Knowing what I could have done differently.

I wonder if I hurt so those around me shall not.

I am jealous of those blissfully unaware.

Those who can feel, cry, love, hate, be normal.

I wish so badly to blame him for my pain

Yet I only find the mirror igniting rage.

Not because I am ugly.

because I know myself.

I am man.

I don’t have a problem I’m not addicted I can quit whenever I want

We all have class with little old danny. Little Danny boy. I sit in the far back corner, but I know anyone who’s come to speak to me or even turned around has seen my phone sitting against my laptop. I write a little bit and hit two or three buttons, then get back to it. Though nobody cares, I will pretend they do, and for those of you who have wondered “what is danny doing back there? Our lovely literary rep, who represents our entire discipline?”

IM playing cookie run kingdom.

To clarify I do pay attention to my work. Gonna defend myself a little. I hit three buttons to get through levels I don’t have the mental bandwidth to sit through in my freetime, because I might as well do something fun to even out the boring (progressing in levels being boring, my work being fun). There was a picture shared in a group chat of parker and if you zoom wayyyyy in the back there is the victory screen for the strawberry cake tower in cookie run kingdom, from when I progressed past lvl 100. I love this game so much and play it constantly. It is actually sitting on my desk RIGHT NOW. I would explain the entire lore of cookie run, both the game and just kingdom lore (theres a lot), however I DON’T WANT TO!!!! So I’m going to talk about my favorite cookies only.

Going through the entire list of cookie run characters, or only the ones we see in kingdom (danny does NOT care about ovenbreak, ovensmash, or tower or wtv I DON’T CAREEE) is pretty difficult. There are just so many good cookies and so many reasons why I like the ones I do, so I’ve narrowed it down to a list of my favorite cookies from each category. I also want to talk briefly about the newest update, which I am SO EXCITED FOR!!!

My favorite Ancient may take the title of my favorite cookie, White Lily cookie!!!

White Lily cookie is one of the five ancients, and her soul jam represents freedom. She is obsessed with the idea that cookies “crumble” (die) and is searching for a way to extend their lives, because if you’re alive forever then you can do what you want (bad ideology, btw, don’t do this). In her search for immortality she goes straight to the source of cookies, the witches, who the cookies revere as gods. She finds out here that cookies were created to be eaten shortly before falling into a bowl of dough, where she transforms into a new being, Dark Enchantress Cookie. All you need to know is that she’s evil fr. The goodness of white lily cookie’s soul jam later became another version of herself, basically a round of reincarnation, which is why her and dark enchantress are separate.

White Lily’s story is one of my favorites, and her awakened design is my favorite change of ALL of the cookies. My favorite beast is also closely linked with her, Silent Salt!

I actually don’t know much about Silent Salt cookie’s lore, but I know he’s the beast of Silence. Basically beasts were a thing before the ancients, holding the same soul jam as them, but for whatever reason they were corrupted and turned evil. I just haven’t gotten far enough in the story to find out why he turned evil. However!!!! I do know from playing through later episodes that Silent Salt does betray the rest of the beasts, who are trying to destroy the world btw, and sacrfices himself (?) to do so. I dunno. It was a very short snippet of a cutscene and im SO confused. He also has my two favorite costumes ever!!!!! I’m really excited to see where they take his story, especially with where they’re taking the third round of adventures in crispia.

For the next grouping, I do have to say that black pearl cookie is my favorite.

this is black pearl cookie in her costume sovereign abyss, her only good costume (imo). Her lore is pretty iffy for me, as I skipped through most of the story parts, but my current understanding is that she USED to be just pearl cookie, a mermaid who was captured and kept on a ship by pirates. The black pearl was a real pirate ship btw. She just happened to have a lot of her friends injured in trying to rescue her and so she began sinking ships, which everyone else hated, and so she was just realily isolated and a little traumatized, which let to her transformation into black pearl cookie. She is a legendary cookie, making her one of the sort of “elementals” or “pillars”. They are also being revamped with thses past few updates!!

Though this means nothing to you, the newest cookie run update introduces a NEW BEAST!!!! Which is a separate version of an existing beast, my second favorite, Burning Spice cookie. This is a version of him from an alternate timeline, where he blames mortality as the source of the worlds problems… like…. Like white lily….. like…… im SOOOO excited to play his episodes and find out more. Nobodys ready.

As of right now, I’ve logged over 255 hours on cookie run within a year, and if you also consider that I took a 2 month, then a 4 month, then a 3 month break at some point…. Yeah. That’s a lot of time I’ve spent on this game. And I have been playing every day. I really would love to deep dive on the cookie run lore, but that would mean that I have to rewatch everything, which is possible to do in the app!!!! But also that’s over ten hours of content. Just for the first story mode. That’s over ten hours. There are three story modes now.

I’m gonna do it.

First poem

Welcome back to Jaleigha blog. Yes, your girl is a senior now. So, my first blog will be about my first poem I wrote here.

Soul Ties

When people say they are feeling blue,

You wonder if it is love.

Sometimes you can love too hard you won’t know what to do

You can love so hard that you would get lost.

It hurt like hell and hit bad in the heart.

Love will make you see so much red!

No matter how much you forgive, you will still see red.

Holding your breath while your face turns blue.

Trying to get yourself and your heart right

Wanting to give him another chance to love,

But no matter what u try he will make you lost.

Looking once aging at your stitches.

You hate yourself for letting him give you stitches.

your eyes burn with tears of red.

you don’t need or want to be lost!

you want to find someone who can love,

Not someone who makes you feel blue.

Someone who knows how to treat your heart.

He’ll have you thinking you have a bad heart.

When your heart becomes bad because of the stitches in your heart

just because you could love.

Sometimes you let the red you see become red red!

Just like the love for him, or is it love?

You don’t see that in him, you still see lost.

You are done with the feeling of lost.

No more pain in your heart,

You’re tired of feeling blue!

It’s your turn to give his heart stitches.

You want to use your red.

He doesn’t need your love.

Show yourself the love.

You were hurt and lost.

He’s gone, so is the red.

Heal your heart.

Remove all your pain with the stitches.

Now you have the happy feeling of blue.

You are free of all the stitches. You have your sweetheart.

Soul Ties is something I wrote based on something new I was learning new. It was talking about love and how it can make you feel. I loved how I wrote this poem. It was one of my best low-key ones. I think this year will be me wrestling things I never thought of writing. So far, it’s been my writing things dealing with ghosts.

If y’all have any type of ides that I could do, y’all should really let me know so i can try to write it. I would say it’s a little hard to come up with something to write when you’re so used to writing about love or different things dealing with the right path. But I can say I do like a big challenge so it’s not so bad.