Explaining my emotions on 9 random songs AKA I have no clue what to write about.

My Girl–The Temptations 

This song makes me feel nostalgic about a time that I wasn’t even alive to experience. Something about it soothes me so deeply, whenever a movie plays it, it’s so clear to me the feeling they want to get across. Especially played in adoration for other characters. Danny Tanner sang this to D.J in an episode of Full House and it remains one of my favorite scenes from any sitcom. 




GOLDWING–Billie Eilish 

This song doesn’t really ignite that deep emotions within me so instead I’ll be talking about my interpretation of it. I interpret this song as a kind of warning to new artists who may be starting. Billie is trying to share knowledge that may prevent them from allowing the industry to take over their art form and use them. 




Real Love–Mary J. Blige

This song also ignites a very comfortable feeling within me. It reminds me of my family and spending time with them at family functions. I can just hear the women in my family’s laughter in the background while this song plays. 




My Little Love–Adele 

This song almost makes me cry every time I hear it. I can’t explain it but I just feel a mother’s love when I hear this song. It reminds me so much of my mom and I’s relationship and her love for me. 



Pretty Girls Make Graves–The Smiths 

This song fills me with a movie’s cliche interpretation of teenage angst. It makes me want to ride a skateboard in the rain at night with my friends. It just has such a sorrowful sound. 



Heartburn-NLT

This song was in the Bratz live-action movie and ever since the first time I have heard it, it has been stuck in my head. It’s so ridiculously catchy and just fun to listen to. Also, NLT should have been way bigger than they were they could have sold out stadiums. 



Zing! Went the Strings of My Heart-Judy Garland 

This song is also very peaceful. It reminds me of Spring. If I ever just want to feel mellow and calm this song is definitely a first pick. 



Hot for Teacher-Van Halen 

This song is very playful, I wouldn’t say it gets me hyped but it definitely wakes me up. It’s not exactly happy but it doesn’t feel serious it’s easy to smile while listening to it. 



So Close- Jenette McCurdy 

This song makes me feel very happy, it reminds me of being a little kid. It’s very reminiscent of elementary for me, when I would still look up lyric videos on Youtube to listen to music if I didn’t feel like watching whole “Vevo” music videos. 

Clumps of words I have saved in my notes app all unfinished probably forever.

I apologize in advance y’all these are a mess and probably wouldn’t have seen the light of day otherwise 

Untitled 1;

I like to think my prayers are heard by the birds. 

I like to think they listen, turn my pain into beautiful songs they chirp without shame. 

I like to think the roosters wake the world to my suffering. 

Because what is pain to feel if it always goes unrecognized? 

Maybe misery doesn’t necessarily love company as much as it hates isolation. 

My misery isn’t meek, its a lion. 

Roars when silenced and bites when tried to be kept at bay. 

Untitled 2; 

There isn’t a bird in the sky who hasn’t heard me scream to the heavens for you. 

Your absence an everlasting wound no bandage could close. 

As long as you’re gone I’ll always bleed. 

As long as your smile isn’t within sight. 

As long as your arms can’t hold me. 

My blood shall soak all thats beneath me. 

Every path I take shall be stained with red. 

Untitled 3; 

To be vain is one of the worst sins of all. 

To be vain is to be handicapped. 

It steals your ability to progress on the path to improvement. 

To be vain is to be stolen from. 

It steals your ability to truly know yourself. 

Your flaws play an important role in who you are, 

Blind yourself to that can only be a disservice. 

Maybe that is why you feel yourself compelled to harp on mistake made many moons ago. 

You musn’t forgive yourself for any wrongdoings because then that should mean you’re blinding yourself to your true nature. 

Untitled 4; 

I has befallen me, 

              Snow, a winter’s soft kiss decorates the ground in blankets beneath my feet. 

It has befallen me, 

              Sunshine, the worlds grin paints your skin illuminating you with its light. 

It has befallen me, 

               Your laugh, a glorious song in which no notes could capture

               There are no lyrics worth accompanying your beautiful melody. 

It has befallen me, 

                March’s swarm of pollen stings my eyes but paints your nose such a lovely shade of red I can’t bother to mind it. 

It has befallen me, 

               Autum’s warm pallet of brown and orange. 

Untitled 4; 

The words on my paper might as well be etched in my blood that is how much they are apart of me. 

Short Story: Part 1.

Finely was a joyful boy, especially when he was younger, he’d find himself running through the woods behind his house for hours on end playing the role of whatever game he had made up that day. Even if no one wanted to play with him it was alright his imagination was more than enough to keep him entertained. Until he met Delilah, he found here one day all by her lonesome just picking flowers and quietly humming a little song to herself, not one he could recognize immediately but it sounded so familiar. He went up to her and tried to introduce himself, the best way a ten-year-old boy knew how. They quickly became friends; Delilah didn’t talk much but that wasn’t a problem for Finely he could talk in circles and Delilah was always willing to listen. When Delilah would speak her voice would demand attention, it wasn’t exactly loud or commanding but he found it so entrancing, she spoke like a song, and he couldn’t help but listen. 

As they got older, he began seeing her less and less, until one day when he was fourteen, he went out to find her, but she was nowhere to be found, he yelled her name till his voice was hoarse, but he got no answer. He repeated this cycle for almost 4 months before he gave up, he couldn’t tell his parents about because they didn’t know about Delilah in fact no one did, it was one of their “friendship rules”, that he couldn’t tell anyone about her, they were eleven at the time and sure he was curious about why but he didn’t harp on it too much, as time passed he did get more curious about Delilah, where she lived, where her parents were, what school did she go to? For a while after her disappearance, he blamed himself, maybe he scared her, made her uncomfortable, maybe he was the reason she ran away. 

It took him a while, but time moves on, soon he started high school, and then college and even though he’d never forget about her she took up less and less space in mind. He had decided to honor that friendship and keep her a secret long after she disappeared, something he often felt bad for in case something happened, and she needed help. But he zipped his lips shut and let her become a memory. 

It wasn’t until he was nearly 30, that she decided to reappear in his life, in a very anticlimactic way at that, he just ran into her at the local bar in his town. It had been a while since they’d last seen each other, so at first, he wasn’t sure it was actually there, but he couldn’t ignore the familiarity that filled the air around him once he saw her, he had to be sure. “Delilah?”, he said quite loudly, when she turned her head to look in his direction her eyes filled with emotion, ones that Finley couldn’t quite decipher. A smile then lit up her face as she ran toward him and engulfed him in a hug, “Oh my goodness, Fin!”, she exclaimed. Finley could feel himself getting emotional, as he gripped her tight, he felt like a kid again, he wasn’t aware that he missed her embrace this much. It was then that he realized he had never made another friend like that, he guessed that after being abandoned the way he had he put up his guard and hadn’t allowed himself to get close with anyone since. 

Her embrace felt healing, he had so many questions for her but he didn’t want to potentially care her off or seem nosey, so he settled for one, “How have you been?”, he asked. She hesitated for a moment, “Good, What about you?”. He gave her an update which admittedly wasn’t much, single, accountant, and no children.  For her it was pretty much the same except she works as a librarian. They spent a while catching up about life since they “drifted apart”, as she phrased it which upset Finley, but he bit his tongue. They decided to call it a night as it became late and figured they could meet for coffee to try and rekindle their friendship. 

As Finley got ready for bed that night, Delilah was all he could think about questions and theories, swarming around in his head it was impossible to sleep. How could he be her friend again?

 

My Review of Talk to Me

 

I watched this movie over Spring Break with my cousin, I had been wanting to watch it for quite a while. Mainly because of it’s impressive reception as seen on Rotten Tomatoes with a tomato meter of 95% and an audience score of 82%.This leaves me in sort of an awkward place because I didn’t like it all too much. I promise I am not one of those people who dislikes everything people like to seem different in fact I am pretty skewed by others perception. 

Now by no means am I saying this was a bad movie. I thought the writing was phenomonal, and it told an amazing story about grief and how seeking temporary pleasure/relief from it can be a slippery slop. I thought the concept in itself was creative and fresh. But I fail to see how it was as revolutionary as people claim it to be. Though the writing was good I found myself losing interest as it failed to suprise me. There were multiple occasions where I was able to predict what was going to happen next. I found very few of the characters to be likeable. Over all I think it was a decent movie with great writing but it was just way too overhyped. 

Certain aspects about the plot left me with a lot of questions and not in the open ended way but more in the plot hole way. The ending as a whole left me unsatisfied though I didn’t see any other way for it to end. 

Another gripe I have about this movie is that I didn’t find any of the characters particularly likeable which usually wouldn’t be an issue for me in other movies but when I watch/read/play horror I find a strong aspect of me enjoying it is the feeling of being on the edge of my seat. And I found it hard to find this feeling watching this because of my apathetic feel towards the characters the stakes never felt high enough for me to really care all too much what happened. I do enjoy the not particularly happy ending though it was nice to see. 

Again by no means was this a bad movie but I just think it was way too overhyped in my opinion. I definitely reccomend thought because I can see how a lot of peope liked it. The acting was also amazing.

Cheesing about the Fear Street Trilogy

Fear Street Part One: 1994

Fear Street Part One sets up the events that are to transpire in the next two movies. Introducing us to our main characters. To avoid spoiling the movie I won’t get too into describing it because I know I’ll be tempted to fully delve into the movie. This one is probably my least favorite, not because it is bad but because the next two are just out of this world good. But the story this one sets up has LAYERS, like it has so much room to develop, it would’ve been such a great movie on its own but the fact that the story went deeper than that makes it infinitely better. The characters as well, like I geniunely was able to care for them and the progression of their story. 

Fear Street Part Two: 1978 

 

This movie is a flashback to the year of 1978. It is steered by another characters recount of the events that transpired at a summer camp that year.  This movie introduces us to new characters who were equally as interesting and even gives us a glimpse of younger current characters. This movie is amazing the huge plot twist, the reveal of the true villan. Also this movie definitely gripped me emotionally, like I shed a good amount of tears. It was so good, but the trilogy wasn’t done especially with making me cry. The characters in this movie were just as good as the other one, which was kind of bitter sweet knowing there fate. 

Fear Street Part Three: 1666

 

This one was ROUGH, we flashback to the year 1666 where we learn about the events that started the supernatural events the trilogy is driven by. When I telly you I SOBBED throughout this movie. I was shocked, we’re introduced to new characters but using the same actors as they have the last two movies. It was a choice that I am in LOVE with, I don’t know why but seeing the tragic events happen to the faces of characters we care so much about. This is my favorite out of the three it’s just gorgeous and the resolution while leaving room for more UGH I LOVE.

Final Thoughts

I can’t reccomend this trilogy enough, it does contain a lot of gore so fair warning but even if you’re not that big of a horror fan I think that you could really fall in love with it. The story, the characters, the writiting its all so worth the gross gore and the scary aspects. I was geniunely on the edge of my seat for a lot of it. Though i could predict aspects of certain characters the movie still hadn’t failed to suprise me.

 

 

Part Two of My Intense Paw Patrol Rant( I told you I wasn’t finished)

This Blog is mostly going to discuss Coral, a new addition to the Paw Patrol. This blog won’t get too heated as I am not even going to dive into the so called cat members, who make my eye twitch at the mere mention of. 

Coral is long-lost cousins with Skye, sounds like to me you heard about my girls success and wanted a peace, I am not making any allegations just seems clout-chasey. 

But basically she’s mermaid-pup hybrid????

FIRST OF ALL, most of the lore of Paw Patrol at least that I can gather is by comparing it to us, sense they’re human. Adding mermaids into this mix diverts all of what I can establish as canon. 

Also given that she is a “mer-pup” she’s works in “water-rescue” which wouldn’t bother me if WE DIDN’T ALREADY HAVE ZUMBA, who is not only AN ORIGINAL MEMBER but works in water-rescue as well. WE LITERALLY DIDN’T NEED HER. I have no issue with her assisting him but why does she get all the clout while he gets cast to the side. HE’S BEEN HERE. 

Also her origin story, so supposedly she heard a lullaby on a “mer-moon” follows it and ends up rubbing noses with a mer-pup thus turning her into one. Number one, no mermaid lore I have read has mentioned anything about a mer-moon. And I don’t think Paw Patrol deserves to contribute to mermaid lore. Also RUBBING SNOUTS? Like huh? I have never known mermaids to be “turned” to begin with but by rubbing snouts. Usually with Vampires or Werewolves(who’s lore I have opinions about as well) who need an exchange of salivia or venom usually through a bite. What meaningful transfer of DNA can be made by rubbing snouts, you need to swab a dogs mouth to collect DNA so like what? Also mermaids are akin to sirens so I get the lullaby but does Carol sing, why was she lured by a lullaby. Also you can’t introduce mer-pups and just move on like what else lurks in the shadows? 

Also back to them dismantling the lore I was able to establish, if there are supernatural good guys there has to be bad ones too and how are these puppies going to defeat them? Besides Zumba who’s equipped for water (without a tale) I might add. Just because he isn’t supernatural his contribution shouldn’t be casted aside. He deserves his flowers too. Plus Coral is corny name for her, that might sound like I am just being a hater but I am serious.

An intense Paw Patrol rant.

Before I get started I know that “It’s a kids show” and “You’re not supposed to look that deep into it” but I would like to respond to these claims with the fact that I am also still technically a kid. This show should arguably appeal to me too. 

The first part of my rant takes on Chase. 

You may know him as the self identified leader of the patrol squad, in his defense I don’t think he’s said it himself but nonetheless. I don’t think he has earned this position, I mean if you think about it what does he reallly bring to the team. All I have seen him done is ride Ryder’s coattails. All he does is bark orders (hahahahaha) but he’s a police dog and I haven’t seen him make a single arrest. These leads into my next point, what does the Paw Patrol do, I mean sure I have seen them rescue, mostly the neighbors chicken but rescue regardless. But what are they doing to take actual crime off the streets. This also leads into the question of who is funding this whole organization. I know it can’t be Ryder he’s seven after all, which I have my own gripes about and the question of Adventure’s Bay child labor laws but that’s a whole nother conversation. Are the citizens of Adventure Bay’s taxes going to funding Paw Patrol, are they employed by the city? If that is the case do they have a seperate police force or is Paw Patrol, an orginization of puppies run by seven year old their only protection. Also where are Ryder’s parents? Is no one concerned about the safety of this little boy surrounded by heavy machinery.  

Back to Chase though, I whole heartedly think that he doesn’t deserve to be perceived as leader. On his Wiki, they define him as a police and traffic dog, but I have not seen him out there conducting traffic ONCE. In my opinion Marshall is better suited for the leader position if anything. Not only is he a fire marshall but A TRAINED PARAMEDIC. If I had to put my life in any dog’s hands it’d be his.  

My rant doesn’t end here however, it continues into the new characters the show has been adding to the series but I think I will save that for a part two considering the in depth thoughs I have on multiple characters. I also feel like it’s important to mention that I do not watch nor particularly like Paw Patrol in general.

 

My thoughts on Frankenstein by Marry Shelley and Dracula by Bram Stoker

Today I am going to talk about two books that I have read recently and recommend to other people who haven’t read them. I know there’s this generalization about classic books being boring but I consider these worth it. 

Frankenstein

I read Frankenstein in under three days, finishing the first four chapters in a singular night. I read this book soon after Dracula by Bram Stoker.

I want to begin this blog by saying that I had no idea what I was getting into when I began reading it. I think everyone has the general idea about Frankenstein given how many times its been referenced but if you have any perceptions of this book not having read it, I can assure you they’re probably wrong. 

Going into it I thought it was going to be a simple story about a mad scientist creating an abomination and having to deal with society’s reaction to said abomination. But this novel goes much deeper than that, it tells a story of love, loss, and revenge. And not being fulfilled by revenge. It’s heavy on the theme of being othered and not fitting in with society. A big aspect of the novel I didn’t expect was how much Mary Shelley honed in on the perspective of Frankenstein’s monster.I don’t want to get too detailed with this because I want to avoid spoiling it but I promise it’s worth the read.  

Dracula

This book was much slower of a read for me than Frankenstein, it took me months to finish due to spans of weeks where I wasn’t reading at all. In my personal opinion because of it’s formatting being mostly newspaper articles and journal entries was harder to get into and there were a lot of chapters that felt very still but when the story was moving oh boy was it moving. A lot of the characters introduced felt like they had a very distinctive purpose and when they were in danger I cared a great deal about the outcome. 

Also as someone who is very into vampires, seeing the early lore of Dracula was incredibly interesting. How almost canine like he was, with him always having his fangs bared and being hairy. Also his ability to summon wolves. 

I do think this book is worth reading though, the way the story builds was very fun and interesting. Once you get used to the format it becomes more fun to read. 

I also don’t want to spoil this book for anyone who hasn’t read it. 

Part 2 of previous blog. AKA: Me Drooling Over Fictional Foods for 400 Words or More

You know the drill.

1. Pretty Patties from Spongebob 

Mr. Krabs is such a hater for not giving these a proper chance. I don’t even care if they turned my feet orange or whatever. They look so good, I mean they’re not called pretty patties for no reason. 

2. Jelly Patty from Spongebob

 

I don’t know why but jellyfish jelly lathered on a Krabby Patty has always looked so good. This looks even better than a regular Krabby Patty, look at the size of that bite taken out the middle. 

3. These cakes from Nao Kai-Lan 

 

I desperately need a slice of all three of these cakes, especially the oreo one, it looks heavenly.

4. Chummy Joes from Spongebob 

 

I forgot what these were made out of if I am being honest but with the way that sea creature was swallowing these whole, I know they have to be good. Also in my opinion chum in general never looked that bad, like I’d eat an order of chum nuggets. 

5. Dumplings from Nao Kai-Lan

 

These dumplings give Kung fu Panda’s a run for their money, if they weren’t 2D I think they’d have KFP beat. The steam coming off them makes them look even more appetizing. I would sacrifice so much for just a bite of these. 

6. Sundaes from Spongebob

 

Just now realizing how much Spongebob has made it onto this list, I am starting to believe I have an obsession. To be completely transparent I am willing to eat almost anything from this show, but the way they make their ice cream look is unmatched in its appeal. I don’t even like cherries with my ice cream but I’d be willing to give it a shot. 

7. Salsa from Drake and Josh 

 

They were really putting in the work making this salsa, and although it got ruined by Meg I would still be willing to try a spoonful. Look at Josh’s apron and the way he’s handling the spoon I just KNOW it’s phenomenal. 

8. Peruvian Puff Pepper from Drake and Josh 

 

I know these were supposedly really spicy and almost impossible to eat but I think I could take it. I wouldn’t want to eat a whole pepper, just a slice, to see what all the ruckus was about. Apparently it’s also illegal so that increases my interest. 

9. Fat Cakes from ICarly 

 

On paper I would objectively hate these. I don’t like things that are overly sweet and I’m not huge on desserts and I imagine their marshmallow outside and their chocolate cake filling inside would make them far too sweet for me. They also have coconut shavings on top and I HATE coconut. So realistically these would not be for me but the way Sam ate these made them look so good. 

10. Jackson and Olivers Cheese and Jerky from Hannah Montana

 

They had lines upon lines of people waiting for these, I just want to understand the hype even though the cheese looks despicable.

 

Foods from shows I would DEVOUR Without Abandon

Today I will be listing the foods from different shows that I would do unmentionable things for a maursel of. In no specific order. 

 Fizzy Pop from Wow-Wow-Wubzy

I have wanted to sip on this since I was little. I don’t know if it’s the shape of the bottle but something about it looks so refreshing.

 Tiana’s Gumbo from Princess and the Frog

 

I feel like everyone talks about Tiana’s Beignets and I can assure you they’re definitely on the list but I feel like her gumbo is the underdog. It looks scrumptious and when she put that hot sauce in it, I was salivating. 

 Tiana’s Beignets from Princess and the Frog

Y’all knew this was coming, I mean lets be serious…everyone and their mom wants a bite of one of these. Especially the scene where that man was eating them dressed as a donkey. He made them look obscenely appetizing. 

 The Smoothies from Fresh Beat Band

 

I don’t even really like smoothies but it’s something about these that if you put them in front of me they wouldn’t be safe. 

 Angus’s Buffet from Ant Farm

 

I need everything in front of him, just looking at this picture is making me hungry. The way he was eating it in the episode made it look so good. Everytime I see that episode I get jealous.

Cookies from Rugrats

 

These cookies better be good with the way she was acting over them. She was about ready to exterminate every other human in her way for these cookies.

 Candace’s Grilled Cheese from Phineas and Ferb

 

Just look at that grilled cheese, lactose intolerance be damned I need that grilled cheese. 

 Dr Doofenshmirtz Wings from Phineas and Ferb

 

This remains one of my favorite Phineas and Ferb episodes and I’m 85% sure it’s because of these wings. Even with the way they were messing with his stomach they seemed worth it. 

 Dumplings from Kung Fu Panda

 

I know that these not only probably taste like heaven but I bet the texture of these are sensory heaven. I’d give anything to just bite into it, I don’t even know what’s in it and it doesn’t matter.

 Ally’s Favorite Ice Cream from Austin and Ally

 

I usually hate mint flavored desserts, but with the way Ally was eating this right out of the tub and was willing to smuggle it out of the freezer it has to be good

Spencer’s Spaghetti Tacos from ICarly

 

He made these too regularly for them to be nasty. The spaghetti alone doesn’t even look too appealing but for some reason everything changes. And the way they’d all gather around the table to eat them like they were fine dining.