I look at him
Our eyes meet
I look over him while we are out in public
Still debating
I have loved him for years
He was nineteen when we dated for the first time
I was sixteen
Both under pressure from supposed friends
I had no feeling for him the first year and a half
And
All of a sudden
I stopped thinking of my boyfriend as an imaginary guy who didn’t exist
And took notice of the one person who worshipped me like a goddess (literally).
A year and a half later
We’d decided to get closer as friends and wait to mature more
I’d wanted to wait until I’d graduated and because I have ambitions
I didn’t want to be tied down
He respects my wishes
My sister is my idol
She was reluctant at first but after getting to know him loves him as a brother
Her disapproval was the main reason we broke up
Other than the friends sabotaging our relationship
I love him
I really do
But
I spent years of my life hating everyone or having no emotions
How am I supposed to love him as deeply as he does me?
We’re both equally as broken
There are days when someone can say hi to us
and we sob for hours
Omg I love the expressiveness in the poem. I totally feel absorbed in it and it leaves me wanting more and wanting to know what happens to the couple.
This is such a beautiful piece! I really like the way you formatted it and you did a wonderful job of conveying the narrator’s emotions; I felt like I could really sympathize with them. And I adore the lines “I’d wanted to wait until I’d graduated and because I have ambitions / I didn’t want to be tied down / He respects my wishes”; they flow so well together!