Here lately I’ve been really inspired by the work of Lana Del Rey. I know, I know, I’m a tad bit late, but I will say that her lyrics and writing have really influenced some of my own writing in the past month or so. I found it only fitting that I review one of her monologues (which happens to be my favorite) as a thank you for the inspiration she has granted me.
Also, I highly suggest that if you’re reading this that you also go listen to her read it because it honestly makes it so much more magical.
My words and thoughts will be in red:)
Ride Monologue- Lana Del Rey
I was in the winter of my life
Usually, when someone says that they are in the winter of their life, that means that they are going through a tough time or a rough patch.
And the men I met along the road were my only summer
Meaning, the men she met were the only ones that made her truly happy.
At night I fell asleep with visions of myself dancing and laughing and crying with them
She wishes to be with them (be happy) all the time.
Three years down the line of being on an endless world tour and my memories of them were the only things that sustained me
These two lines remind me a lot of how I get when I’m in a situation that I don’t like. I tend to imagine situations that make me happy to get myself away from the discomfort. These two lines truly resonated with me.
And my only real happy times
I was a singer
Not a very popular one
I once had dreams of becoming a beautiful poet
These three lines always seem to make me smile because it really shows how us as artists tend to think that we are less than we are. Most people know who Lana Del Rey is, and I’d say she is fairly popular. Personally, I also believe that her poetry is beautiful. It’s just so interesting to see just how critical we can be to ourselves as artists.
But upon an unfortunate series of events saw those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky
I love the metaphorical sense that this gave off.
That I wished on over and over again, sparkling and broken
I also love the use of repetition here that creates emphasis.
But I didn’t really mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted and then losing it to know what true freedom is
This is honestly such a good life lesson in general. I really appreciate the fact that she put this in the monologue because she does have a generally younger audience (people ranging from teenagers to young adults.) This could honestly be the right advise at the right time for someone.
When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing how I had been living, they asked me why, but there’s no use in talking to people who have a home
They have no idea what its like to seek safety in other people
For home to be wherever you lie your head
This is my favorite stanza in this entire monologue because I never thought of home being “wherever you lie your head.” I love what she did with this stanza, and the way she expressed the way she views this certain thing is honestly beautiful.
I was always an unusual girl
I remember reading this line for the first time and saying to myself, “same.”
My mother told me that I had a chameleon soul
I appreciated the fact that she made it even more personal by including her mother.
No moral compass pointing due north
No fixed personality
Love the repetition.
Just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean
And if I said I didn’t plan for it to turn out this way I’d be lying
This entire stanza is the perfect example of a Gemini. (I just looked it up, and indeed, Lana is a Gemini.)
Because I was born to be the other woman
This line really hit me hard because of how much it holds even though it is just a few words.
Who belonged to no one
Who belonged to everyone
Who had nothing
Who wanted everything
This also had the same affect on me as the line before. Just absolutely beautiful.
With a fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn’t even talk about it
And pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzled and dizzied me
I almost feel like this isn’t finished. But, then again she could have intended it to be that way.
Overall, this monologue is very raw and real. I really enjoyed how I could get a clear cut picture of how she is feeling throughout the piece. The song that follows after this is beautiful as well, and gives more clarity on why Lana is how she is. I could really see into her mind in this piece, and I greatly appreciate that because it takes a lot to be vulnerable and put your emotions out for the entire world to see.