This is for
every moment I held your hand
whether it be in the literal sense
or the figurative
This is for
the dancing I made you do
that you loved
but never admitted
This is for
every smile, laugh, and kiss we shared
all the truths I whispered to you
that you never believed
This is for
our lives before each other
and the tales we shared
trusting someone for the first time
This is for
our youth
the story of first loves
the passion that bubbled beneath our young flesh
This is for
the dreams we shared
the plans we had
the promises we made
This is for
the scars and the tears
that still stain our skin
that we hate but never want to lose
This is for
your options
that you explored
Leaving me to await your return
This is for
me tearing you down
for letting me down
and leaving us both in tears
This is for
The confidence that we grew
and destroyed
which we needed, but could not hold on to
This is f0r
the feelings that we did not understand
but pretended to
as they began to consume us
This is for
last kisses on an old couch
but not knowing how final
it really was this time
This is for
the words we screamed
but did not mean
the pain I felt when you left… again
This is for
begging you
to come back
until the day came I no longer wanted that
This is for
the years that were not wasted
but encompassed with so much
loving betrayal
This is for
trying to be friends
but failing
and giving up
This is for
seeing each other
after all had ended
and the infiltration of wonder
This is for
the possibilities
of what we could have been
but never will become
This is for
who we are now
and all the ways we have grown
all the ways we have weakened
This is for
kissing someone else
that sour taste left in my mouth
that I eventually craved
This is for
the second loves
and moving on
but never forgetting
This is for
the phrase “I am not in love with you,
but I will always love you.”
My first love, forevermore
First loves always stay, whether we like it or not. I agree, walking away or it ending doesn’t mean the love isn’t still there. Sometimes it’s just healthiest to walk away.