Death
There will come a day my body is laid opened
Drinking in harsh light in a barren room
with fifteen others that have no name
Cut up and stripped to cold skin
Against metal bedding
Smelling of fruity Clorox, Stale coffee
Grey eyes once brown glued shut
From fear of flying open
To meet the crowd of black sobs
with accusing screams
Mouth sewn shut
No way to speak about the liars
Pristine at the Oakwood podium
Reading scripts with a knowledge of past
readings
While I rest in a box of plastic
And thin cloth, wrapped tightly against the skin
Up to the forehead
Like a mummy, not getting to see
Who would walk up next to the stage
Old not forgotten
I would see teens smoking their weight in weed
flashing credit cards, parent owned
playing adult, in drug stores
laughing at the sky
as if it has not been there for years
tapping cigarette ash on gravestones
marked with my name in bold
Grown ups scream too
Grownups scream too
when the light wont turn green
when the dogs pees on the new carpet
when the bill is due
when the work day wont hurry up
when they realize they have no life
grownups scream too
I should know
I’m screaming now
Teenage Angst or Sick Fascinations
I was never one to dip into hysteria
when the world went flat and grayed at the edges
soaking my skin in despair
like a new perfume that everyone was wearing
in multiple coats
to thick to smell the fear they hid
is that why they filled their lungs with smoke
and carved their skin with knives
oh so pretty dripping from scarred skin
tears fell in pools at their feet
from strangers feeding off their sadness
Teddy bears and gummy knives
I was a princess at the age of 3
but was dethroned at 4
when a new princess knocked me off the throne
so i threw a fit
and got hit
across the face for throwing knives in her crib
as she slept at the foot of their bed
What the hell is that!
if i knew the pain
i would feel
i would have stayed
in the womb
I loved this. Not only did I love this but I read it more than twice and wanted to read more. This was fantastic as a blog piece even though it is a poem, in my opinion. Please post more like this, I’m ready. I especially liked how you italicized some parts and the repetition of “grown ups scream too”, as well as talk of you being “dethroned”.
i love how hard-hitting the last stanza is, which i assume is the purpose of writing life backwards from its end. this perspective of life in a mirror puts life itself into perspective, sometimes funny and sometimes poignant, yet never failing to keep you on your toes. i really loved reading this piece.
I really, really like this post and enjoyed reading it, as well. Your backwards-storytelling really drew me in. Great post.
I really enjoy your gritty and slightly morbid display of life. I like how you went through the cycles backwards, giving us something to look forward to at the end. Great job!!