Ugh! The title is so good right? My mind! To the people who understand this joke, you are forever in my heart. The reason I picked this title is because of its relation to the video I’m going to share with you all today. I stumbled across this video a while back when I was trying to find a cello version of “Do I wanna Know?” by Arctic Monkeys (If you don’t know this band, I highly suggest giving them a listen.) After my long quest of trying to find the music for it, and eventually about to give up, I came across this video. I’d never heard of Rachel Lander prior to this video but I’m so glad I found her when did. I’ve played the cello since my 4th grade year in school. I played the viola for one year but ended up despising the instrument (no hate to the viola players here.) Since coming to MSA, I haven’t touched my instrument. Lately, I’ve been feeling a sense of longing to play my cello but I’m not confident in my skills anymore. I played the instrument for roughly 7 or 8 years, even going to an arts school for it, but even then I didn’t feel confident in my playing. I played some hard pieces, even being 2nd principle in the cello section of the school orchestra but I never felt my potential. Don’t get me wrong, I knew how to switch positions, switch clefs, even played some of the hardest pieces, but I never felt I filled the “advanced” position I was told I was in. My fear of sounding terrible while playing my cello now is the only thing keeping me from picking it up. I used to love playing the cello in my beginner years. It was so satisfying telling people that I played the cello. I even considered it my party trick. I used to be ask to perform in different ensembles and play in different places but I was so scared of sounding bad, I would always decline. Looking back on it, it’s one of my biggest regrets in life. I never wanted to take cello playing into my adult life. I wanted it to be apart of my childhood only. I never really saw myself playing professionally so I never took it seriously. Even now, I can’t see myself playing professionally nor teaching it. I just like to do it, you know? I’ve never actually told anybody this but I felt a need to get it off my chest. Typing this now, I feel a weight has been lifted off me. So after my little spill, here is the video that I mentioned in the beginning of this post. Enjoy! (Don’t mind the color of the text. I’m trying to learn my way around the website and see what I can do and what I can’t. If it is distracting, please let me know!) Now you can really enjoy! *Listen with headphones*
I didn’t know you played cello. I’d love to hear you play some time!!
this title caught my attention as I also have been playing the cello for many years and have a passion for it. I thought the video was “Do I Wanna Know?” by Arctic Monkeys and I was so confused for like a minuet and turns out it wasn’t even the song lmao. Nevertheless, It was beautiful and I enjoyed listening very much:) I completely understand being afraid to play with the fear of failing, I didn’t practice a lot because of that same fear. my mentality was “what’s the point of practicing if I cant play the way I wish I could?” But only if I had practiced despite that thinking, I would be able to play as well I wanted to. I haven’t been able to play since I’ve come to this school, but I realize how much I miss it and I plan to start playing again, as you should too if you have a passion for it. don’t let fear get in the way of what makes you happy!
First off, YOUR MIND. Thank you for sharing this with us. I hope that you will find a future with the cello, but if not, that is perfectly acceptable too.
The title, ugh, your mind. I had no clue you played cello, and that is super cool. I am glad you decided to unload this weight by sharing it with us, as I learned a little bit about you. Please pick up cello again; the world needs you, hah.
I love this so much!!!! Bro, I just love your mind!!!!!!
Lol I love your reviews, and I love your title!