There comes a time when you just have to sit down and breathe. You have to look yourself in the mirror and accept that your life is not perfect. Sometimes you are going to feel alone, and other times you will wish you were alone. Sometimes a sad song will come on the radio and you will be forced to feel everything you have been suffocating inside. You’ll get into an argument with your boyfriend, girlfriend, best friend, or your parents. You’ll want to run away. Sometimes you will have no where to go because the pain is everywhere. You will try to talk to your dead friends and imagine what they’d say, but it will never come out right. You will swear up and down that you’re losing your mind. Sit down. Breathe.
There comes a time when you have stop thinking and dance. Forget about the exams for a moment. Forget about the future. Forget about the minute before when you were screaming into the phone. Crank your playlist up and dance. Stop wondering if it’s going to work out. Stop concerning yourself with whether or not your going to make friends. Stop crying. Don’t worry about the people who laughed at you when you tripped down the stairs or over a tree root. Stop trying to be perfect because that doesn’t exist. Live in the moment. Stop thinking. Dance.
There comes a time when you have to laugh at yourself. Instead of freaking out about when you embarrassed yourself the first day of school, or when your mom spilled coffee on that really cool guy with the beanie, just laugh. Stop covering your face in shame every time you speak and don’t make any sense. You’re awkward, so what? Find the humor in who you are instead of the faults. Remember that time you cried in class over an assignment? You are so dramatic, but that’s okay. Laugh at it. Laugh at the time you sneezed on your boyfriend and the time you were obsessing over some actor that you can’t even remember the name of. Laugh about how you and your roommates argued over a light, and how you still can’t remember how to get to your own house. Replace the tears with a smile. Don’t judge yourself. Laugh at yourself.
For once in your life, find the joy around you. Look at your little cousins and feel the warmth in your belly. Walk with your best friend and talk about nothing and everything at the same time. Listen to her sing all the time, even when it gets annoying. Poke fun at your siblings; make them laugh. Gossip with your closest cousin, and tell each other secrets. Talk to your mom about all your problems, even when you’re mad at her. Lay in bed with the one you love, and don’t say anything. Hold his hand when he drives you home. Kiss him under the stars. Be happy. Stop stressing. Sit down, breathe, stop thinking, dance, laugh, be you. Find the beauty in your life an hold on to it. Most of all, never forget, you will get through it.
Hoping some of these times come soon for all of us. We need it.