Okay, so I have this thing. I’m really skilled at it but I wouldn’t call it a talent. Like, I am so successful at this thing and it’s literally one of the only things I don’t want to succeed in. What could this thing be? Procrastination. When it looks at you, you better run as fast as your legs can take you because once you slack, it seems like you can never go back. I wouldn’t say it’s an addiction… But it is. I get back in my dorm from school and I just genuinely can’t do anything. We’re in school for 8 hours everyday and the last thing I want to do is stare at another assignment. I just want to sleep or hang out with friends and oh boy, do I not have the motivation to force myself. It’s frustrating!!! I always find some excuse as I’m sitting in my friends room. They’ll ask, “Carter, have you done Mrs. Blah blah blah’s assignment?” And you’ll simply get a,”I’ll do it later.” or “I’m too tired. I’ll do it in the morning.” Does it actually get done? No. I genuinely need help. And it’s like, well why don’t you remind yourself? I do. I just don’t want to do it. I’ll always say to myself that I’ll do it in an hour and after an hour passes, I’ll say I’ll do it after this hour passes and it continues and becomes a cycle. God forbid someone call me out on it, too. I will have every excuse in the book as to why I didn’t or how I couldn’t do it. Sometimes, it’s true. However, in other cases, that’s just me attempting to save my own butt from chastisement. But, the start to fixing a problem is admitting that you have one. I’m saying this right now that I have a serious problem. I am a procrastinator!!!! Yes. Yes I am.
I believe in you! You can get through this.