So, it’s over huh. Junior year is wrapping up and, to be honest, I’m not sure if I’m ready. I never thought I could possibly enjoy school as much as I do here. Sure, I wish we didn’t have to get up so early; but I get to spend half of the day doing what I love instead of doing meaningless busy work in classes I didn’t really need. I don’t think I’m emotionally prepared to be a senior. I’ve always been excited to finally move out of my toxic household and be free of their helicoptering on my life but now that it’s almost over, I’m worried. Senior year means college applications, writing essays for scholarships, classes that are more difficult and no time to be getting ready for college; forget taking care of yourself!
Maybe I’m just letting my anxiety get away from me. Probably. I’m just constantly worried, no real reason why most of the time. I won’t lie and say school here is easy, but I’m not struggling with my grades. I’m just worried my work isn’t good enough. I feel that I’ve improved, but is it enough? Am I enough?
The answer to all these questions that are whirling through our heads is yes. If you weren’t talented, you wouldn’t be here. Keep your head up darling, we have an amazing year ahead of us. I can’t wait to experience MSA without all the covid crap. Honestly I feel the experience will be strange, but in a good way. I will miss our lovely seniors, but it’s their time to move on, and we have more friends coming into the void they left.
For the incoming juniors I guess I’ll take the rest of the blog to talk a little about myself for a bit.
- I play basketball. I know I know, an artist who is also an athlete? Whack right. Well, I’m just a tad different than your average person, I have interests that are normally conflicting, but they all make up a different part of me.
- I LOVE animals. Like probably more than people. If the cat that comes to visit is outside, you can probably find me out there petting him (I think it’s a guy… kinda hard to tell with cats, though).
- I’m a gamer. I play everything from Pokemon to Fortnite. Yes, Fortnite, I can see you groaning from the other side of the screen. I know it’s been done-in by cringe culture but it’s actually fun to play with friends. If you avoid the toxic people (you can block players) and just find a nice group of people to play with it’s actually very enjoyable. I play with a group of people from a bit younger than me to a few adults. That may sound a bit weird, but it’s more like a weird gamer concloberation. If someone is being toxic, we just don’t play with them anymore. In a way, we have become some kind of weird kind of family.
- I’m autistic. So, if I say things that don’t make sense, try to be patient with me.
- I hyperfixate on things. Like all the time. I become personally attached to fictional characters or to one specific thing in a group of the same thing. It’s weird, I know. I used to be a lot worse, it’s led me to be a bit of a hoarder, but not like those packed places in American Pickers. If you insult the characters I have become attached to, it’s like insulting my best friends.
- Finally, I am very excited, and nervous to meet you all. I’m not very good at talking to strangers, so if I seem like a weirdo that’s why, I’m just trying to start a conversation.
