I typically do movie reviews, book reviews, other reviews of the like, but today I’m feeling a bit reflective so I’m gonna complain about my uninteresting start of 2020. I’m not gonna lie, though. This year has been so eventful internationally with the fear of WW3 and the corona-virus, but in my everyday mundane life? Definitely not. My days have been filled with school, eating, exercising, Disney+™, and finally sleep – and trust me, I’ve been fighting for my time to watch Disney+. I’ve gotta feed my Simpsons addiction. With all that, I was thinking about how I barely have the energy to watch my shows after school. I feel so burnt out after school, probably because it’s so close to the end of the year. But, geez, I wish I wasn’t so tired so I could actually do things that I’ve been wanting to do for a while.
Like read! God, it’s been so hard for me to read lately. It seems like every time I try to sit down to read, I either get distracted or extra tired. I’ve been stuck on the same chapter of Beautiful Boy for at least three months. It’s genuinely the most obnoxious thing in the universe, too, because you literally just want to finish the book but you can’t because AH! You know what I mean? I have so many books just sitting on my shelf that are calling my name, but my bed is so enticing I just can’t help but to lay in it. Have you ever come back from an 8 to 5 school day, immediately walking over to a gym with terribly intense classes that you can’t keep up with, only to come back and trying to read after taking the most god-sent shower ever? Because, dude. It’s harder than staying awake at church after a Saturday debate tournament. T-E-R-R-I-B-L-E.
And please do not get me started on all the k-dramas and anime I’ve been planning on watching for the longest. I keep seeing all the commercials and getting these recommendations, but I can’t even watch them. It’s so disheartening when you want to chase your childhood and watch what these creators have gifted to you, but the world keeps shoving reality into your face over and over again until you feel the need to nap or watch Tik Tok every free moment you get. PLEASE, I want my happiness back! Actually, it’s been a pretty good week, BUT STILL!
I really miss watching my shows and reading because people are out here being stingy with giving inspo. I’m suffering from lack of change and creativity! But in all seriousness, to my younger people, do not waste your free time. Do everything you love, grab that creativity, enjoy being able to keep your eyelids wide open. Lord, knows I can’t. Reality has been settling in and honestly, I’ve just been sitting back and observing. I mean, what more can you do than that? I’m too tired to fight back right now. I’ll write again after this much needed nap.
