This year has been a wild ride. A lot has happened…Ok…enough of the coming-of-age melodramatics. In all seriousness this year did contain a lot of growing for me specifically. A lot of it is way too personal to name specifically in this blog, saving that for that one three-person group chat (this is a joke PLEASE). I have begun to shed some of my people-pleasing behavior finally, hope to God that my saying it isn’t going to jinx my future. I am sure I am going to struggle with it more in the future but at least that seems bearable now. I have connected with a lot of people and met people I sincerely hope the best for. I am not sure if I am overall more mature probably not, to be honest, still very juvenile. I have come to terms with accepting the person I am now…not that that won’t change more in the near future but I think whoever I am currently is an alright person. I think my goal of being happier has been accomplished for the most part, I definitely still have hard days but it has been looking up as of recently. I am getting out of my Peter Pan syndrome as well thank goodness. It was becoming very concerning for a moment there. I have begun to stop being so dependent on others to determine my self-worth which has also been very freeing. I have become more ok with change I think.
Academically I am still fairly the same. Read a good amount of books this year more towards the beginning but nonetheless still proud of that. Wrote a lot as well but that was inevitable. I have been attempting to give myself more grace and allowing myself to have off days. Which at times was hard to come to terms with but I eventually was able to cope.
I was able to immerse myself in new things and become a fan of them. I am also open to exploring new interests, broadening my horizons, and breaking my shell. Also not allowing the idea of embarrassment discourage me from enjoying myself. I think this has contributed to my overall happier demeanor recently.
Yeah, that’s pretty much all excuse the brain dump about this year. It’s kind of a mess but at least it was honest. Share your feelings about this year if you want or don’t.
A lot happened this year that I could do without but I met you and that was cool ?
This year has been crazy for me too. I’ve found so many new interests, and hobbies. I cant wait to see what next year has in store for me.