Part Two

Just a small disclaimer today I’m logging a part two to a story that I wrote two weeks ago so just keep that in mind.  :)))

 

 

“I hate winter, it’s 6pm and we’re going to have to patrol in pitch black night. Driving through this goddamn storm is going to be hard enough.” Otto was known for these rants, surprisingly it did not improve upon the quality of their patrols together. 

 

“It’ll be fine.” John said.

 

“Your voice of reason is more aggravating than anything that could come out of my mouth. You know that right?”

 

It was only when Otto finished his mindless rant did either of them begin to hear the static. It was a sound that both men had become all-too familiar with. It represented not just a call to action but also an escape from bliss for the two EMT’s. It was a sound that seemed to reside in the back of their heads, whether it be when they’re returning home or just starting their patrol. However, there was something different about this transmission. 

 

“Wh- -co -t, wash-t-” it staggered.

 

“Repeat that please.” 

 

“-t code two o- 7th o- Washington-”

 

“Roger”

 

The small percentage of the voice that was decipherable was not one that either man was familiar with. It was a low and raspy voice, one that did not align with the voice of their usual dispatch. Otto, begrudgingly walked out of the door with a look of frustration plastered across his face, leaving Jolly’s with his stomach as empty as it was when he entered. John followed behind him, however it was an expression of confusion that was left on his smooth dark complexion.   

The pouring rain hadn’t subsided as they attempted to speed to the ambulance. Water splashing up from puddles up to their waste as they ran. While it was only a code two the feeling of urgency never left the confines of their minds, even in situations not formally categorized as urgent both men felt as if they owed it to themselves to act with urgency. Their ankles trudged through the partially flooded parking lot as they finally climbed into the front seat. If it wasn’t for the underlying feeling of underlying sense of urgency that plagued their mind then it would have been an interesting view to take in, the torrential downpour upon a sea of empty asphalt. However, they could not see very far, for the extent of their vision didn’t expand beyond the light that was emitted from the restaurant’s window. It was an odd sight, their once casual demeanor almost unrecognizable. A once informal and playful relationship now seemed to be nothing but pure, unaltering, professionalism. Only Otto’s shifted expression was able to pull John out of his entranced-like state of focus.

“What? “He finally said.

 

“I remember that address John. The one on Washington, remember? The abandoned one on the corner. The one that looks like it’s on its last leg.”

 

“Oh yea, the one that looks like the roof is about to cave in.”John chimed in, remembering the address that more vividly now.

 

“Maybe it finally did,” Otto said. “I bet some dumb kids just snuck in at the wrong time.”

 

“It’s fine, Cops will give us a rundown.”

The rain continued to pick up, what was once just a heavy rainstorm had now morphed into anything that either man had ever seen. It was as if water was being manually poured upon the windshield of the ambulance. Otto turned to John, watching his hand grip the steering wheel. The deep gray color of the highway with its faded white lines did not alter, mile after mile they rode. However, there was suddenly, without warning, a drastic shift in the road. Not in the way that it was painted, or the direction that the highway was going, but a thing, this thing standing there, a figure in a downpour of not just rain, but fear.

Sunrise

5:30 a.m.

I woke up to the sound of my phone alarm chiming. I’d fallen asleep on the floor, makeup on, yesterday’s clothes clinging to my skin and hair matted into a nest around my face. Dirty tissues were strewn about my room, but I was too tired to care. I threw off the single sheet that kept me warm through the night, and I made my way hazily downstairs to start packing the cooler. 

I packed my little sister’s favorite ice cream (strawberry) along with my brother’s (chocolate), not straying from my task until they were both nestled perfectly within the ice. I sliced apples, thin and even, and packed them neatly into a container. I slid water into the cooler, as well, in the tiny pockets of space that fit the bottles just right, before folding up towels and blankets into perfect rectangles and placing everything gently into the trunk of my car. All this was done without a sound, until the clock reached 5:50, and I woke up my little siblings and led them quietly out the door and into the car. 

We drove along silently at first. I tried to lift the mood by putting on some upbeat music: the playlist my siblings liked the most. I used to play it for them all the time the summer before I left when I would drive them to the beach. My brother sat stone-faced, not singing along. My sister sat in the back, oblivious and playing with her toy bunny. When we got to our spot, at a hidden little segment of the beach that no one really went to, it was still dark. Juliette, my little sister, ran into the sand ecstatically while my brother and I trudged along, bodies and minds weighted down by grief and fatigue. We set up our towels, wrapped ourselves in blankets. I pasted on a smile and offered my siblings some ice cream, and then we watched as the menacing void of pre-dawn sky shifted into softly glowing pastels.  

I used to do this a lot – not go to the beach, but get up this early. I’d wake up at 4:30 am and just enjoy the silence, the peace. Especially when everything around me was sad. 

By the time the sun had completely risen and I had gotten my siblings, safe and warm, back into the car, the mood had shifted just a little. It was a small moment, but it had a big impact on us all. I wanted to show them that they weren’t alone, that their sister didn’t leave them. There was still somebody taking care of them. We got home, and my sister and I made hot chocolate from scratch. I told her all of my secret ingredients, and she smiled mischievously because I gave her top-secret information that other people didn’t know – she was in on the conspiracy. I laughed at her innocence, at her childish bliss. I wanted to be more like her. 

I think that the concept of “family” is incredibly complex. Sometimes, families actually suck. I have a big family: some not blood-related, some no longer with us, some living far away, some utterly broken. Although it’s not perfect, and we’ve been through so much, I do know that I’m not alone. At the end of the day, even when it doesn’t seem like it, there’s at least one person who’s got my back. Again, families are complicated, and flawed, and hurtful at times, but they’re important. And the good memories you make with them are important, too. If any of y’all have struggled with family tragedy, I’m deeply sorry. However, I also encourage you to find beauty in it. I’m convinced that beauty can be found anywhere, even in something as seemingly small and common as taking your little siblings out one morning to watch a sunrise. Cherish the memories you have with your loved ones, and do not let them go. If you hold on to the love they give you, and the love you give to them, that feeling of home will stay with you no matter where you are.  

Vacation?

I remember when I was eight years old, I had been home sick from school for about a week when my mom had decided to bring me to the doctors because I wasn’t getting any better. A couple days before she brought me, I had told my dad that I wished we lived in a one story house because it was really tiring to go up the stairs. He thought I was just being lazy. The day before my mom brought me to the doctors, I told her the same thing and she thought I had walking pneumonia. We got to the doctors and he asked a lot of questions and ran a test and came back to us and told us I had Type 1 Diabetes. I remember my mom asking if it was fatal and I had no idea what that meant. The doctor said something along the lines of, “It can be if you don’t treat it right.” My mom immediately started bawling her eyes out while I sat there with a smile on my face. The dr had given us some time alone in the room and my mom had called my dad to come meet us at the doctors office. I remember she called my dad while crying and said something along the lines of, “Tom, it’s an emergency you need to get to the doctors office now.” and he came right after they got off the phone. After he arrived, the dr explained to both my parents in more detail about what was going on and he said that we needed to go to a hospital in the next state over (Alabama) and pack enough clothes for about a week. He said when we arrived there we had to go to the ER and tell them I have Type 1 Diabetes and needed immediate medical attention. He also specifically said not to tell them I had just been diagnosed. 

After what seemed like forever, I was finally called to be seen. They took me down to the room I was assigned and started an IV drip of saline. The nurses didn’t put it in right so it hurt a lot. After being in the ER for about 2-3 hours, I was transferred to the ICU. The dr at the ER said I would most likely be in the ICU for about a week but I was only there for one day because my body bounced back so quickly. They also said if I would have waited a day or two longer to go to the doctor, I would have died. The rest of the week I was in a normal hospital room and had nurses coming to check my blood sugar every hour. It was exhausting. I remember turning on the TV at one point while my dad was in the shower and Jaws came on. My mom let me watch it and by the time my dad came out of the shower, I had been watching it for about 15 minutes. He told me to turn it off because it was a “scary movie” and I told him he was crazy and it wasn’t scary at all. My mom kept screaming throughout the movie which I thought was really funny.

After a week of being in the hospital, my brother who was back home staying with a friend got sick. He had pneumonia. Because of that, the doctor discharged me early so we could go home and take care of my brother. I was healthy enough to go home but she wanted to keep us for a few more days to teach us about my diabetes. When I finally got to go back to school, I had been out for about a month. Maybe longer.

To the people who are reading this, make sure you never ignore the symptoms presenting. You may end up with a life threatening autoimmune disease.

Frog Blog: Silly Billies!

Frogbloginning (Frog-blog-beginning) 

That’s right! It’s time for yet another frog blog! I don’t have much to say before we dive on into the info, but I do have another frog fact to share! Some people might think this is gross, though, so feel free to skip. Frogs throw up by throwing up their stomachs! Like, their entire stomachs get pushed out of their mouths, and then they use their front feet to clean their exposed stomach. Once clean, they just swallow their stomach to put it back in place. How cool is that?! (Source!)

Pumpkin Toadlet (Brachycephalus pernix)

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Now, you might be wondering why I put a ‘toad’ on this list. Toads aren’t frogs, are they? THAT IS WHERE YOU HAVE BEEN DECIEVED. Every toad is a frog; not every frog is a toad. But, with that out of the way, its time to talk about these absolutely miniscule fellas. Pumpkin toadlets, horribly, have been described as ‘the frog bad at everything.’ Which is, uuhhh… well, I love them and they aren’t extinct, so they’re doing something right! Pumpkin toadlets are so, so tiny that their ears are underdeveloped. This means that their semicircular canals- the bony tubes in your ears that help you balance- can’t… help them balance, making them twirl, summersault, and land every which way whenever they jump. You can find videos online about them! The underdevelopment also means that they can’t hear mating calls, either. 

Purple Digging Frog / Pignose Frog  (Nasikabatrachus sahyadrensis)

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As all I do all frogs, I love this frog so much. Look at its shape! Look at its face! Its so unique, weird, and cute! I say this lovingly: it looks like a yam got turned into a frog. Truly, frogs are amazing. It took a while for the Purple Digging Frog to be discovered because it stays underground most of its life. They only arise for 2-3 weeks during the rain! The females are also much larger than the males, and they straight up carry the males to nesting grounds. The strength of frogs… 

Waxy Monkey Tree Frog (Phyllomedusa sauvagii)

 

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 Look. Look at this frog. Look at how absolutely chill this green little amphibian is. If you look up pictures of them, you’ll see they can look devoid of braincells and derpy, but they also just… look so chill. The Waxy Monkey Tree frog (A weird name, I know) spends most of its life in treetops. The heat up there, along with spending hours in the sun, would normally dry out a frog’s skin, but not for this species! Waxy Monkey Tree frogs secrete a wax-like substance that retains moisture! Now that you know where the ‘waxy’ and the ‘tree’ part of its name is from, where’s the ‘monkey’ aspect come in? Unfortunately these frogs don’t swing from treetops, but they don’t hop! They just walk, apparently like a monkey. That in itself is GREAT and WONDERFUL and nobody should tell these frogs otherwise.

Frogblogending (Frog-blog-ending) 

That’s it for this frog blog, folks! I hope you learned something new! There’s a lot more interesting frogs out there, available to be researched!

Steven Segal is an enigma…

Steven Segal was action movie star who was huge in like the 90’s but he’s also done a lot off peculiar things outside of that. It’s actually one of my favorite things to tell people about. I want to preface that I learned these things from a YouTube video by channel called more butter, the video’s title is “Kennie JD and Mista GG explore the controversial life of Steven Segal.” A couple of these things are alleged and yeah, I’m going to be listing them in no particular order. 

#1. Just Lie…and I mean Lie. 

Before he was even an actor he went to Japan which is actual true. But he tells people he worked with Shah of Iran and the founder of Akido (a form of martial arts) who was likely dead before Steven even got to Japan and the CIA…it is said he allegedly tells people this to seem cool. 

#2. ALLEGEDLY married a woman to escape the draft moved back to Japan and then abandoned her and his children to move back to the US and married another woman and proceeded to have a girlfriend in Japan. 

Basically, he came back to the US and then married a woman moved back to Japan with her, they were together for ten years and had kids he abandoned them moved back to the States and got married here then after getting annulled from second wife moved back to Japan got a girlfriend there and that’s when his first wife divorced him. 

#3. ALLEDGELY had his career funded by the mob (I’m not even kidding). 

I can’t even explain this one, the mob was allegedly paying off people to give Segal a better chance to be casted in movies.

#4. ALLEDGELY placing a bounty on a guy’s head cause he was upset. 

This man is a liar…that’s it. He basically would lie about his life to make it seem cooler than it was this included taking stories from other people and making them his own. So, he lied and said he was a Navy Seal, then one day he ended up on open water with some of them and freaked out. Then, one of the Navy Seals were making fun of him for it and essentially said he was useless on a boat, and this made Segal so upset that he tried to put a hit out on the guy for 50K.

#5. Allegedly actually beating up Stunt guys. 

When you’re an actor and have fight scenes they have professionals who perform the stunts. And when you do fight scenes, they have coordinators who set everything up and prevent people from getting hurt. Essentially, you’re not actually supposed to fight people, but Segal would actually just wail on stunt guys.

#6. Get Banned from Saturday night live.

He wasn’t willing to take up other sketch ideas and his own ideas were very disturbing.  I actually am uncomfortable even naming them they’re so odd.

#7. Accused of Sexual Misconduct (quoted by the Washington post as “too many instances to count”) 

#8. Become a Buddhist Lama (tulku) 

Man… I don’t even know… people claim that he bribed the elders to get the title. This isn’t even alleged this is just true. 

#9. Told people that he had secretly been a cop for twenty years in Louisianna (while he was a movie star). 

THEY GAVE HIM A REALITY SHOW BECAUSE OF THIS CLAIM. Me personally I don’t believe a word.

#10. He drove A TANK into someone’s home while being an illegally hired a cop in Arizona. 

He was trying to break up an illegal cock-fighting ring, funnily enough he killed most of the chickens in the process. “Allegedly” but there’s literally pictures. It is also said he killed a puppy by doing this as well. 

#11. Be friends with Vladimeer Putin and a literal dictator.

Bro I don’t know…

Excerpt from “High School Mafia”

So, this isn’t very different from my normal blogs but here is an excerpt from my novel that I stop writing a while ago. Many doing this will give me inspiration to pick it up again and finish it. The title is a work in progress. 

 

Excerpt from “High School Mafia”

She grabbed them by their arms and pulled them downstairs to the kitchen. As they step into the kitchen, they are greeted by a serene and inviting atmosphere created by the captivating blue and gray color scheme. The walls are painted pale gray, providing a neutral canvas for the play of colors. The gentle blue accents are strategically woven throughout the space, bringing an understated vibrancy.  

  They are drawn to the heart of the room, a magnificent island that takes center stage. The island stands as a focal point, exuding elegance and functionality. Its base is a rich, slate-gray hue, grounding the space with a touch of sophistication. The countertop has an expansive slab of polished marble in a delicate blue shade reminiscent of calm ocean waters. The marble’s natural veins swirl gracefully, adding an artistic touch to the island’s surface. Standing behind the island is a tall man with long, straight hair up in a neat bun. He was wearing a light gray suit. “Πατερούλης, good morning!” Zera exclaimed to the man when she ran up and hugged him from behind.  

  He turned around and hugged her back “Καλημέρα, κοριτσάκι.” Mr. Tassi said to Zera. He kissed the top of her head. The family sat together at the table and just talked to each other. This tradition is something the family started when it was Sebastian’s first day of school and they do it every year, they sit together at breakfast and talk about any and everything. While they were talking a man ran into the kitchen, his hair was messy, and his suit had wrinkles like he just threw it on. “Sorry boss, but Rosi is here.” The man spoke out of breath.

 Zera looked to her brother when she heard that name, Rosi is the mayor’s family name even though Srario was a very small town because of some problems in the past there have been a few mayors of course none of that is really important right now. Zera looks to her dad then to her brother “Basty what going on?” She asked him, her face frowning up. Sebastion gave her a gentle smile and patted her head. He looked at the twins and nodded his head towards them. “Come on ladybug we have to get to school early.” Jonas said as he got up pulling Lucas with him.

1)Πατερούλης-Daddy 

2)Καλημέρα– Good morning 

3)κοριτσάκι– My little girl 

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                 Hi, everyone.    Here’s one of my free writes.    Inspired by                                                                           The Crown a show on Netflix.          

 

                                        I want to be like you. 

                          I want to make the moon and the sun talk. 

                               Eavesdropping on the giggles of 

                              what the weather would be like today. 

                              Be able to pay the clouds a visit and 

                              tell em I suspect rain in May.   

                             Then with no permission, I’ll get a veil 

                             to cover the sun’s cheese 

                             because no need for an early bird. 

 

                                              I want to be like you. 

                                         I want to write big headlines. 

                           Tell the bottom feeders to look at me. 

                           Radiating in the sparkles of the Manhattan lights. 

                          Dashing my black gloved arms around the posters. 

                          Hearing all of the oohs and awes of my name in bold.

                          Kissing my own hand for the followers 

                          that flows like the hem of my Versace dress. 

            

                                                I want to be like you 

                                            I want to toss money. 

                                  Waiting for it to bounce back to me, 

                             because it stays unlimited under my name. 

                     Spoil my family in the unsleeping city ordering food

                    when their eyes are bigger than their stomachs. 

                 The appetizers being gold on a platinum platter. 

                   The entrees being a flavor the people would want to touch 

                                     and turn into something magnificent. 

                                             While dessert is being served 

                           with me melting like steel in a bath of my riches. 

                                                I want to be like you. 

                            I want to be the hero even when I’m the villain. 

           Watch people gravel for my approval which isn’t even deserving. 

                            Listen to all of the haters tell me what I should be 

                                   but still watching me be what they want to be. 

                                     Being the example that good beats evil. 

                                    Although laughing as the mastermind,  

                                    resting in all of my diabolical wishes. 

                                          I want to be like you. 

                I want historic money to laugh at jokes that aren’t even funny. 

                Having the opportunity to watch my masterful calculation. 

                   Playing the game of which pawns can rule beside me. 

                   Being merciless and letting the others be in a chaotic reign. 

                        To walk the crimson carpet leading to my throne

                       as I become a queen that conquers for what’s owed. 

                         

                                           I want to be like you. 

                                              But I’m Going to Be Better    

                                 I will come back to Earth when need be. 

                               I will show others to aspire, to rule a nation. 

       I will build kingdoms that light hearts and not egotistical darkness. 

                  I will make headlines that bring the cheerful roars of the people. 

                            I will free the Sun and break the spell of the Moon. 

                         I will have strategies to save and not to destroy. 

                             I will be victorious and not harvest destruction.

      I will carry the people that are weak on my back and encourage those 

                                             who proves stronger. 

                             I will bow to the crown that has accepted 

                                       that I’ve worked to earn it. 

                                   I will play and win the game,

                                 when my wrong wants are my losses. 

                                    

                        

                                

                          



                              

Halloween Slashers

So, for my post, I wanted to share with you all the Horror Movies I watched this October, and the ones that stood out versus the ones that shouldn’t exist. I watched most of these with my roommate, and we had differing opinions of, pretty much all of them.
I’ll also be ranking them from least to greatest.

The way I’ll Score the movie is by
A: Creativity of Kills, 

B: Plot/Story

C: Characters
D: Killer

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Childs Play

I’m going to be frank, They should have stopped after the second movie. Everything after that feels like fanfiction, and I’m not exaggerating. Two of the movies feel like a “Scary movie” Parody, and if you haven’t seen any of the “Scary Movie” movies, they’re just movies making fun of the plots of the originals. 

Heck, even the names sound like titles of Fan Fiction, and I’m specifically talking about,
“Bride of Chucky” Where Chucky reunites with his long-lost girlfriend, Tiffany Valentine, and Seed of Chucky, where Chucky just… Has a kid. It’s by far the worst franchise to have sequels. But I do think they had a few good ones in there. The first and second were decent. Good plot, good characters. And the last one, Cult of Chucky, I thought that one was underrated. I thought the plot of it was better than the rest, excluding the first and second. 

So, if I’m just rating the first, second, and first Child’s Play movie.

 

Creativity of kills • 4/10

Plot/Story • 6/10

Characters • 4/10

Killer • 5/10

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Friday the 13th

I only saw the first and second movie, so I can’t say much about the entire franchise, but overall, I really liked them. They were a little slow, but the kills were impressive,
(most of them) and the killer had an interesting background. I Won’t go into detail about any of these movies to avoid spoilers, but I will give a brief overview.

A group of camp counselors are looking to make some extra cash on the side, so they all go to Camp Crystal Lake. This camp is notorious for having misfortune and bad luck fall upon the campers and counselors, so it never gets much foot traffic. 
Days into their stay, camp counselors mysteriously go missing, or are found dead in the woods, or in their very own cabin. 

One problem I did have with these movies was the pacing. It felt very prolonged. It took a while for the climax of the story to arrive. 

I’ve heard that the franchise of Friday the 13th gets really out of hand, and I think in the 10th one The Killer goes to space, so I’ll probably stop after the fourth. But from the two movies I have seen, the first and second, I thought they were pretty good. Overrated for sure, but I’d watch them again on Halloween.

So, for the rating, 

 

Creativity of kills • 7/10

Plot/Story • 8/10

Characters 4/10

Killer • 8/10

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The Ring

This movie was pretty good. And just for clarification, I’m talking about the 2002 American, The Ring, not to be confused with the Japanese Ringu They’re the same movie but made at different times. Although both movies follow nearly the same plot. The original, the most movies stem from is the Japanese version.

Anyway, I liked The Ring. The story was really interesting, and the characters were pretty deeply made.

The movie follows a female reporter who hears of a strange death of a high school girl. She investigates further to find out that a rumor of a mysterious tape is the cause of death. After watching the tape your phone rings, and a woman on the other end says, “Seven Days,” Then hangs up.


The story was really interesting, and the movie has been adapted seven times into different movies or TV shows and fun fact, The Ring was based on a novel by Koji Suzuki. I’m definitely going to be checking that one out.


Creativity of kills • 8/10 

Plot/Story • 7/10

Characters 7/10

Killer • 10/10

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Scream

Fun Fact: Most of the characters on this cover look completely different in the movie. Skeet Ulrich has shorter hair and no facial hair, they didn’t even show Mathew Lillard, and Courtney Cox has a different Haircut.

 After watching the first movie I was obsessed, and that was only a year or two ago. Surprisingly I only watched the first one those years ago, and only recently did I finish the series. In total, there were six Scream movies. Each adds a new spin to the franchise.  Overall, Scream 1, is by far my favorite. The plot, and characters, ending. It was all so amazing. It’s at the top of my list of favorite horror movies.

In the Scream franchise, most often, it follows our protagonist Sidney Prescott being harassed and chased by a Scooby-Doo-looking killer, although he may seem cartoon-like with his costume, I assure you he is no joke. And by he, I mean Ghost Face. Ghost Face is a serial killer who stalks and preys upon his victims, making sure they die in agony as well as confusion and fear. He toys with his victims before making them meet their untimely demise. As for the rating of the Scream franchise, I might be a little biased. Oh, and to clarify, this rating is for the first Scream. 

The creativity of Kills • 9/10

Plot/Story • 8/10

Characters • 9/10

Killer • 10/10

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Anyways, I apologize for the length of this post, but thanks for reading. I hope that this inspires someone to start watching more 80-90’s slashers. It’s by far my favorite type of movie genre and deserves more respect. 

Poetry in 10 minutes

When I was writing for my audition, I came up with something called “10-minute-poetry,” where I just let my fingers go and wrote in my notes app whatever came to me, see what I made with just that time, then make some titles after the fact. That’s the basic gist of what happened here.

tw: body horror, implied suicide

 

Beyond Imagination

The earth shatters under my heels, the blood twisting out of my arteries makes it’s way onto the ground and I breath. Shallow and afraid.

Never have I been this afraid before, this terrified, as I stare into the open maw of a creature with jagged edges and overbite, claws carved out craters on its tongue, and a ferocious smile. By God, a ferocious smile.

It licks its lips, its slimy tongue coating the outside of its fur, before it starts. Its feet will pound the pavement enough to shake the entire city and the chase to kill me ensues.

“You know you’re tired of running. I can always smell you.”

My vision spins and my heart bursts out of my chest and I look back at the creature as it licks up my spilled arteries and the hole it dug itself out of, and I know I’m screwed as I’ve stopped running.

It looks up. It smiles.

“You know you’re tired of running. Don’t you want to die?”

I wake up.

And I won’t go back to sleep.

 

the color outside

There’s snow outside my doorway.

It’s white, it’s a flurry, it’s beautiful.

I close my blinds.

There’s rain outside my window.

It’s pouring, it’s monstrous, it’s destroying everything within its wake.

My mother leaves town without a note.

It’s sunny on my porch.

It’s breaking across the grass, it tears apart shadow and dawn, yet it burns my skin all the same.

My brother parks his car. He’ll start to talk about how nice it is outside. I won’t go.

Clouds hang onto the sky.

They’re threatening rain, thunderstorms, hail, but the weather forecast says we won’t be seeing either of this.

My father walks to the sky and sips his coffee. He wishes something would happen.

We both know it probably won’t.

 

your headstone is not poetry.

I think I will die

Scatter my seeds across tilled soil and expire

Watch from the heavens as the crows pick apart my body, and know this is poetry.

But it’s probably not.

There’s no poetry to a funeral, that’s for the living

There’s no poetry to weeping mothers and siblings and fathers.

There’s no poetry as freshly dug graves are made in the ground and they bury

someone young.

Poetry is bled from tears.

And the dead cannot cry.

☆Writing Drabble☆

Hello! When thinking of what to do for this blog, I was honestly stumped. I had plenty of concepts and writing scraps on my ideas page, but they all didn’t feel right. Either that, or I thought “I don’t have enough time to write that.”

So, the obvious choice was to start writing something that I really don’t have enough time to write! Haha! Don’t be like me.

The following is what I like to call a ‘drabble.’ To me, a drabble is just something I wrote for fun, like a spontaneous idea. I don’t know exactly where I’ll go with it, but while writing it, I just follow my instincts. I like to try new things in drabbles as well! A lot of my drabbles end up being edited and expanded upon later, but due to short time, this one is rather short. I had a lot of fun writing it, though! The characters in this are dear to me, and I really enjoyed burying myself in Isko’s mindset. Have fun reading, and maybe even give drabbles a try too! They’re neat practice.

Now, prepare yourself for a tone switch.

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       Isko hates these hallways. He hates their white, fluorescent lighting that bounces off their stupid marble floors. He hates their stupid golden archways, intricately carved with dozens of stupid triangles. He hates their stupid, endless, inescapable, see-through containment cells. He can hear the people inside them; he can see their misty glow. He can barely feel his own legs as he walks past them, focusing his gaze at the door at the end. He doesn’t want to go to the next room; He doesn’t want to see her.

         Her. Vaiya. Even thinking of her name ignites a furious flame within Isko. He wants to slam her head down onto the control counter and throw her into the abyss. He wants to scream at her until his throat bleeds. He wants to rip out her soul and rush her karma. Why does he have to follow her every ord-?

         Hands slam against the glass of the cell to Isko’s right. He flinches, hurrying up his pace. That’s why.

        The flame flickers out, Isko solemnly reaching up to his face. The soul amalgamation behind him continues to beat their fists against the glass.

      “F-f-f-” “F-F-” “F-f-f-f-” “F-f-f-” 

          “O-o-o-r-” “O-O-O-RR-” “O-o-o-o-r-” “O-o-” 

              “Tee-za!” “TTTEZA!” “Ttteeee-zza.” “Rteee-za!” 

       Isko doesn’t respond to their overlapping cries. The door feels like it’s getting further and further away. Is he even making progress? He has to be. He’s walking. Not that logic applies to him anymore, but he has to get there. His face feels like a mask glued to his skull. He can’t take it off. How much time does he have left? He feels nauseated, his stomach buzzing with painful tensity that he can’t will away. It feels like his throat is running with saliva, a coiled object choking him in the back of his throat, pushing him to the edge of gagging but never doing so. His tongue tastes disinfected, his nostrils burn in the sterile air, his hands shake as he reaches out to the doorknob-

     But the door is still far away. Isko digs his claw-like nails into his arm before he can shout out a frustrated curse. Vaiya would hear him, and he doesn’t need more on his plate. He just needs to stay calm. Calm, calm, calm. He repeats the word as he walks forward, forcing his shoulders to relax. 

     Calm, calm, calm, calm…

    There’s soul amalgamations staring at him, calculating.

    Calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm…

    How many has he gotten for her now? How long have they been waiting?

    Calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm.

    They still think they can escape. They think if they appease her, then they’ll find an opening. Isko can see it on their faces. 

   Calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm, calm-

   They don’t get it. There’s nothing they can do. Vaiya will never let them go; Vaiya will never relent. Why are they still hoping? Just give up. The ones that give up are easier to look at. Melted puddles of nulled emotions, glassy eyes that stare into nothing.

    Calm, calm, calm calm, calm, calm, calm, calm. It isn’t helping. Calm doesn’t even feel like a word anymore. Is he repeating calm or clam? Clamp? Triangular, golden clamps. Isko’s breath turns wheezy. It would be funny if it wasn’t terrifying.

    The door is right in front of him. Golden triangles decorate its surface, their shiny exteriors reflecting a warped image of Isko’s face. He stumbles back with a start, squeezing his eyes shut. Hurry, Isko, hurry. It’s just a stupid reflection. He throws open the door with far too much urgency.