Moving Forward

Mountains of crumbled up sketches would regularly pile up by my trash can. Entire sketchbooks would be filled with hundreds of drawings I would later be ashamed to look at. As much as I enjoy drawing, there are times when I had to push through drawings I did not want to finish. Much like life, my artistic journey has ups and downs. The frustration of not living up to my own expectations makes it difficult to find any energy to keep moving forward. There are times when I wonder if I can even live up to my vision at all. “Maybe I should not continue down this road.” “Maybe I am not good enough.” These thoughts would haunt me regularly.

However, since I have decided to continue my journey, I now see a glimmer of hope in the darkness before me. I do have a chance. Now I actually feel like I can reach my goal. All I needed was patience. Personal endeavors worth pursuing do not change someone’s abilities instantaneously. It confirms that what I do is much more than just a hobby. Without a shadow of a doubt, art is my passion. My creative vision is something I must see through to the very end, despite the many hurdles in the shadowy road ahead. My art is the torch that helps illuminate the uncertainty before me. It is a torch I will proudly continue to carry.

Sometimes all it takes is staying true to yourself and having patience to eventually see the light at the end of the tunnel. After all,the results of a worthwhile project do not show up immediately. If you are doubting yourself, just remember that you may just need a little time before you can reach your goals. We may all walk very different paths with many twists and turns, but it is important for everyone to have that light in their lives. In the meantime, do not forget to appreciate what you can already do. It is easy for many people to feel like the days start blurring together, but being mentally present each day makes the journey feel fulfilling rather than a means to an end. Not every day will be great, but there are days worth appreciating. Some days might even be a blessing in disguise. No one can guarantee what your future will hold, but we must all remember to keep moving forward.