The Lion, the Witch, and the Audacity…

So, hi, a lot has happened in the last few weeks.  For starters, a boy I really liked, who we both had a love at first sight kind of thing happen, was acting strangely around me.  We would talk every day and at some points. He even talked about us getting married.  I was all UwU eyes blushy-faced.  But one day he started pushing me away and so that night I texted him to make sure everything was alright; and what he told me turned my world upside down. 

“I just woke up one day and thought of you as a friend.” 

Okay, first of all, you don’t just go from wanting to marry someone to friend zoning them unless something major happens. Also, we don’t even seem like friends anymore. He doesn’t acknowledge me and when I tried to ask about it I was ignored.  I didn’t understand what I had done.  So yeah, I lost someone really important and now I’m pretty bumbed about it.  

However, fear not, for in my time of need, low and behold someone comes to rescue me from the depths of a dark depressive episode, and here’s a poem I wrote about it.

Bright Eyes

Giggling smiles

Who will help me in this time of despair

Could it be you who is holding out your hand

With your sweet smile and bright eyes

Helping me sleep through the night

Sparks fly when we kiss

Every time you’re gone, you’re missed

I hope to spend more time with you

Our connections are surely true.

I hope you liked that, it definitely is not the best thing I have ever written.  I just had emotions I wanted to release. Sometimes, that is the best thing you can do to not overwhelm yourself.  The depths of despair are a dark place, everything seems hopeless, like you will be stuck there forever; but, if you stay stuck there nothing will get better, you have to dig yourself out of the hole before you become buried with the dead.  

Also, yes, I understand your prince charming isn’t going to come swoop you up and save the day and all your problems just magically go away, I wish it was that easy, believe me.  But no, no one’s gonna come help you if you don’t help yourself.  

You are strong.

You are important.

You are special.

You are unique.

You matter.