A Spotify Ad Really Read Me Like That

“How can you miss someone you’ve never met?”
“‘Cause I need you now and I don’t know you yet.”

     I heard these lines for the first time when I was in the shower and an ad from Spotify started blaring through my phone speakers. At first, I felt annoyed, because I was expecting another track from my “Serotonin” playlist to begin, but not having the willpower to step out of the acrylic tub at my home with the conditioner running down my hair, I decided to let it continue. I stuck my head back under the warm water being expelled from the shower head, but found myself pausing once the musician, Alexander 23, sang those two lines. I had to physically stop what I was doing in order to process what I had just heard; those lyrics may seem corny, but when I listened to them, I felt seen, in a weird way.

     Recently, I have been experiencing the odd yet comforting sensation of feeling like somebody is out in the world waiting for me. When I come against my anxieties about finding my purpose in life, there is always this sense of warmth that floods over me and reminds me that everything is working out the way it is supposed to. I truly could not tell you why I feel this so strongly; I just do. When I picture this person, I don’t see anything: not a gender, not an age, not a height, no facial features, nothing distinguishable about them at all, but I still see them. I see the colors that remind me of them: green, red, and blue, and I see the way their heart glows.

     I’m not sure if I believe in soulmates of any kind, but I do like to think that when you meet someone who is going to be important to you, you’ll just know. I cannot figure out what type of connection I have with this person; all I know is that it is there and I can feel it in every inch of my body. They could be a classmate I meet in a writing class who likes coffee and enjoys really, really cliché romance novels. They could be an elderly person I sit with at a café every morning who has lived a thousand different lives and tells me all about them. They could be a partner I meet by chance while on vacation in one of those states with “character.” They could be anybody–a friend, a mentor, a lover, but at the end of the day, all that matters is that they just are. I like to think they are experiencing this kind of pull too. Maybe as I’m writing this, they’re having one of those moments of warmth…or maybe they aren’t and they’re just trying to watch that Criminal Minds rerun marathon in peace.

     Either way, I know I’ll meet them in due time.

Author: Sydney Knotts

“A person is a fool to become a writer. His only compensation is absolute freedom. He has no master except his own soul, and that, I am sure, is why he does it.” — Roald Dahl

3 thoughts on “A Spotify Ad Really Read Me Like That”

  1. The statement – “they just are.” – is Magnificent. And that’s a really cool perspective to have.

  2. Syd. My baby. When reading this piece, I finally understood. I’d been going through feelings of dread and anxiety when it came to the romantic aspect in my life. (Yes, I have one of those. I’m just as shocked as everyone else.) It was as if you drilled into my subconscious with a spoon, scooped it out, and wrote it in this blog. I love it. Thank you

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