Self Destruction

underestimate it.

block it out.

ignore the painful screams of those before you.

they don’t matter,

they never mattered.

right?

or are you lying to yourself again

just so you can get your way

just so you can rush yourself into another happening

just so the chaos can trick you into being entertained

happy.

and maybe it will

is it worth it?

maybe you should carve scars into your cheeks

that way the boys won’t tempt you anymore.

being beautiful is a curse

so don’t wish for it

it isn’t worth the glares

the mutters as you walk passed

they wouldn’t even like her if she didn’t-

stop listening

tune that part out

maybe it’s true or maybe it isn’t

doesn’t matter

they made you feel loved at the time

maybe one day you’ll stop fooling yourself

maybe one day you’ll stop overthinking.

for now

just be

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Author: Chloe Russell

Life is strange and people are complicated, and that is why I love to write.