Excerpts From My Spiraling Mind

Change me.

Form me into the person I so desperately long to be.

Take my walls and knock them down,

but leave the pieces behind,

so I’ll be able to see the self-development.

 

Keep me.

Hold me so close that I mistake you for myself.

Pour your positivity into me for I know no such thing.

Strike the voices in my head with love,

so I can finally sleep just one night without sobbing.

 

Love me.

Bundle me up in what it is I lack.

Tuck me into the nooks and crannies of my favorite storybook.

but don’t let me get lost in the fairy tale islands.

Always bring me back to reality even if it kills me.

 

Stay with me.

Clothe me in your passion.

Sit me down when I’ve been pacing back and forth.

but teach me how to do so myself,

so that if there is a day you can’t take me anymore,

I’ll be able to replace you with the unrecognizable reflection on the wall.

 

Author: Victoria Jerde

Victoria Jerde is a writer who enjoys long walks through forgotten mine fields, cutting her hair spontaneously, and reading books that make her cry for no reason. She likes to spend all her money on face masks that probably don't make a recognizable difference, and she is also the type of person to lose everything that she owns. Her favorite hobbies include waking up at two in the morning because she thought of something to write about, sewing clothes when she gets stressed out, and being a fake IG model because hey, why not?