My Week/Game of Thrones Update

Hello everyone, hopefully whoever is reading this is doing well. So, I know in my last post I said that I was reading A Game of Thrones and that I would give updates on how I felt about the book in this post. I know that I said that, typed it, whatever. However, I am a big procrastinator, like a huge procrastinator. I could win awards for how much I procrastinate. Because of my procrastination skills I have put off reading the first chapter of Game of Thrones, but I think I’ll have an actual update next week.

So instead of how I feel about A Game of Thrones you all get to hear about how my week has been thus far. It feels good being back at school even though it was nice to have such a long weekend. Does anyone know when MSA’s next break is? If you do, please let me know. Anyway, I got to come back to school with a bunch of new stuff, and some gifts for my friends. Giving gifts is my love language. I won’t say what I got my friends because I still haven’t given them yet, it’s supposed to be a surprise. Unfortunately, one of my friends has guessed the surprise multiple times but I just keep on saying it’s not what he thinks it is. I guess I’ll have to be more creative next time, or more secretive. One of the two.

My week hasn’t been too exciting; I got my math grade up though. Can I have a round of applause? I went out to eat with my friend/roommate. We went to that pizza place down by Betty’s called Ciero’s and then we went into this bakery. I got the biggest cinnamon roll I think I’ve ever seen. Today I’m going to check out and go back. After the bakery we went to dollar general and then came back to school.

Upcoming me and my friends are going to see two movies. Or we’re planning on it at least. The plan is to see the new Conjuring movie which I’m beyond excited for. I love horror movies. We also plan to see Hamilton, which I’m also beyond excited about because I love musicals.

Thank all of you once again for reading my yap session, have a lovely day, and hopefully my next post will be more interesting.

Show Review!

Welcome back to chats with Lydia, with a sprinkle of chaos. This week we are talking about “My Life with the Walter Boys.” If you’re looking for a show with teen drama, love, and suspense, this is for you! But before we get too far into this blog, I would like to inform you that there are LOTS of *spoilers* if you have not seen the new season and are plaining on watching it. Now that we have given are little warnings let jump on into my thoughts on MLWTWB, and the new season, plus how the first was left off. 

Alright, lets jump in. Here’s an overview of the first season, the main character in the show Jackie Howard she’s from New York, her parents and sister passed away in a car accident, all of a sudden, she got the awful news from her uncle while at her school dance that she is now an orphan. Her parents put that she should live with the Walter family in Colorado, since her uncle’s job requires him to travel a lot. So, with that Jackie moved in with the Walter family in Colorado. 

Okay, the Walter family is a really big family, with lots of boys so let me introduce you to the family super quick, before. Since there’s a lot so we don’t get confused whose, who when we get reading. Katherine Walter, (Mother) George Walter, (Father) Will Walter (25) Cole Walter (17) Danny Walter (17) Alex Walter (16) Nathan Walter (14) Jordan Walter (12) Parker Walter (9) Benny Walter (5) Isaac Garcia (16, nephew) Lee Garcia (16, nephew) and last but not least Jackie Howard (15). All but Will live at the Walter household with Katherine, and George. While also all the children are boys exempt Jackie and Parker. 

Now, that I feel you have enough information to go along with this let’s jump in. As I told you in the second paragraph she is in Colorado because her family died. But while living there she made two best friends, Skylar Summerhill, and Grace Wanger. In the first episode Cole left her at school and left at 3:30 on the dot. So, Grace and Skylar offered to take her home and go out for ice cream, quickly their friendship became strong. As we see in season two, they stick together and end up being best friends. 

What we’ve all been waiting for the love triangle. Jackie, Cole, and Alex, I could go on about this forever. When watching I was screaming at the tv, I was going crazy over this. Like what why, when AHH, there was so many emotions going on. In season one she dates Alex, but when they were dating, Cole catches feelings for Jackie. Alex left the need to show off their relationship to everyone at school. Then at Wills wedding Alex got drunk and said, “I love you” and Jackie doesn’t say it back. Then she goes to help Danny pack and finds “the tea pot”(her sister bought her a tea pot, and it broke, she thought it just got tossed but Cole fixed it).  

 

Alex, Jackie, Cole

She went out to the garage to confront him about it, and they kissed. Like AHHHH Cole fixed the tea pot!! And before the wedding he decided he was going to do summer school and work on his career. Even in the first episode, she got spaghetti all over her outfit because their pet snake she pulled out scared her, so he brought up a sandwich. Then when they pulled a prank, he took her to the creek to let the siblings cool off for her snitching on sibling code. (sorry for jumping around the show I know it’s a little chaotic)

Almost two years later, and we got season two this had me jumping out of my seat. If you don’t know already, I’m team Cole. I love him and he has changed so much since season one. Jackie left to go to New York for the summer she was thinking of boarding school, but ultimately Kathrine talked her out of it. Now Shes back in Colorado, a few episodes have passed, Jackie and Alex and secretly dating and he is doing Bull riding now. Cole is coaching the football team and working towards being a better man. In the last episode we were left at a cliff Jackie and Cole ALMOST KISSED!! Cole said he loves her, and she said she loves him, Alex walked outside, the Ambulance came for George and season two ended I was so mad at the ending, and I don’t think I can wait for another season! With that I’m going to wrap this blog up see y’all next week!

Sing Street!! Spoilers ahead.

Guys, I was going to post my Curious George part two, but after a small discovery, this is now a post on the movie/musical Sing Street. So I just found out that Sing Street is coming out with a musical, which is OH so good, but I fear since the movie is pretty unknown, the musical is going to be viewed as random and confusing for those who have not seen the movie. 
Also isn’t the movie technically a musical since it’s based on music and a band?Let me rephrase all that. The musical film is turning into a Broadway musical. 

The whole story is based off a boy named Conner living in Dublin in the 80’s. His family is falling apart, as well as Dublin being very economically depressed. They are running out of money, and in need of a change. The solution his parents come up with is the transfer of Connor’s school. 
He goes from this huge, advanced school to this, poor, broken down, Catholic school. Some notable experiences at this school are: getting bullied by Barry,  meeting Darren, meeting Raphina, and the “Brown shoe” and “makeup” incident. 
After his second day of school, having to walk around campus barefoot since he didn’t have black shoes, and his second encounter with Barry, he meets a kid named Darren. Darren introduces his problem solving business to Connor, to which Connor replies, “who’s she?”

He is referring to Raphina, who is standing across the road looking around. Darren tells Connor that he doesn’t know, and that she doesn’t talk to any of the boys, she just stands outside. Connor decides that he’s going to walk up to her and talk to her.                                                                                                                                            A little bit into this conversation, she mentions that she’s a model and will be heading to London for work soon. An idea pops into Connor’s head which would change the course of everything. He tells her that he has a band, and asks if she would be interested in being in a music video for his song.

 

 

Raphina says that she will try to make it to the video, after making him sing “take on me” by Aha. She gives him her number and that is what set the tone for the whole movie. Darren introduces Connor to his friend Eamon whose dad is in a covers band. His dad is in rehab at the time, so Eamon allows the band to practice at his house with his dad’s instruments. 
They put a band together and make a cover of “Rio” by Duran Duran. Connor shows his older brother this, to which Brendan destroys the tape and gives him a lecture about how if you want to be something in life, you have to make your own music not covers. “Rock and Roll is a risk. You risk being ridiculed.”

 

Now that he has a band, all he needs to do is make an original song for the music video. He and Eamon get together and start adding music to lyrics, which eventually becomes “The Riddle of The Model.” He gives this tape to Raphina, and they shoot the music video. Everything turns out really good, and they begin to work on more music. 
While all this band stuff is going on, we find out that his mom is having an affair on his dad. Brendan was the first one to notice, and then soon after his mom and dad separate.  

The rest of the movie is Connor trying to win Raphina over, as well as him trying to escape the reality of what’s going on with his family and Dublin. By the end of the movie, he runs away to London with Raphina to find record labels  and modeling jobs. By this time they are fully in love, and we have found out that Raphina is an orphan from a girls home. 
Something I would like to mention is the monologue that we get from Brendan a few days before he helps his brother run away. 

“See that guitar? I used to be able to play that guitar. Well. I used to ride hot girls. I could run 200 meters faster than anyone in my school. You’re the youngest, you get to follow the path that machetied through the jungle that is our mad family. I was alone with them for 6 years. You think they’re crazy now? Think about what they were in their late 20’s. Two Catholics, in a rented flat, with a screaming baby, who just got married because they wanted to have sex. They didn’t even love each other. I was in the middle of that, alone. And then you came along, thank God. And you followed the path that I cut for us, untouched. You just moved in my jet stream. And people laugh at me Connor. The stoner. The college dropout. And they praise you which is fine. But once, I was a … Jet engine.”

Brenden is by far the most relatable character in the whole movie. He understands his brother and what he’s going through, and supports his brother, while also carrying the weight of what he used to be. I love his character development through the movie, and the way we find out his backstory slowly. 

I think overall this movie is just super good, and everyone should watch it. Also it’s on Netflix for anyone wondering.

Kay, love you guys. Thank you for reading, cya next week.

I saw the tv glow

This may not be a childhood movie/show, but this 2024 film is amazing. I watched it randomly and I wasn’t disappointed it may be confusing at first to some. I feel if it wasn’t rushed it could be so much better but maybe the vague sense of detail is what makes it great?  I honestly was expecting a cheesy horror movie. “I saw the tv glow” has a great storyline and it leaves it up to the viewer to interpret what certain scenes mean. I honestly like thought-provoking movies. It prioritizes atmosphere and emotions over plot. long after the credits it will still have you thinking about it.

The movie starts with a young middle schooler being introduced to a tv show/book “the pink opaque” by an older girl with a deep love for the show. then they plan to watch the show together by having the young boy pretend he is at a friend’s house for a sleepover. the pink opaque is about 2 girls fighting supernatural beings and they have matching tattoos. they continue this for 2 years until Maddy (older girl) wants to run away with Owen (main character) after her friend leaves her and she becomes depressed. Owen unable to go through with it leaves the girls house crying in tears. This traumatizes and leaves Owen unable to separate tv from reality.

I’m not going to spoil the whole entire movie it’s hard to explain without giving the whole plot away at once.

The pink opaque shows escapism and the struggle with identity; It shows the comfort of not living in reality, but it also shows the horrible downsides it brings. It shows that living in the fantasy world of your favorite tv shows can be fun, but it hinders personal growths and makes it hard for you to live in society. the pink opaque also touches on fear of having an uncertain future and struggling with belonging. The main dilemma it shows is his struggles with sexuality (spoiler incoming) in one scene he can be seen trying on a dress with Maddy and thinking he is a female character from the pink opaque. Maddy and Owens characters grapple with feelings of being different and not fitting into traditional societal expectations.

 

do you have a movie/show you like to watch with your friends?

do you consider yourself normal?

have you ever been distant from reality because of a book or tv show?

Let’s Get to the Bloody Point.

Periods are a natural occurrence for 1.8 billion people. So why is it so stigmatized and repulsive? Let’s talk about that…

A discussion (well, rant) about feminine hygiene and the stigma around it.

Periods. The natural occurrence of shedding the endometrium. It is reported that over 1.8 billion people menstruate monthly. So why is the discussion around this topic so stigmatized? Any and all reasons stem from one real reason: the hatred of people who were born with uteruses. 

 

Let’s look back in time, turn back a few pages of the history book. One of the oldest written menstrual stigmas was in the Bible. Leviticus chapter 15, verses 19-33 states (in layman’s terms) that women, and anything they rest upon, become “unclean”. If menstrual blood touches anything, it too becomes unclean. This passage led to a constant mindset throughout male scholars in history that anyone who bled and everything around them was corrupt and dirty. An example of this mindset early on was from Pliny the Elder (AD70) that menstruation “is productive of the most monstrous effects”, that crops will “wither and die”, and bees “will forsake their hive if touched by a menstruous woman”. These quotes are disturbing to think about. Imagine how much abuse stemmed from these types of mindsets. Even in 1694, women were compared to cockatrices, mythical beasts that had venomous breath, all because they were bleeding (according to James McMath, M.D). 

 

Alright, stepping forward some, let’s look at the 20th and 21st centuries. In 1950, Good Housekeeping (THE magazine for women), advertised sanitary towels as “So skillfully shaped not to look like a napkin box” and so “that the sharpest eyes couldn’t guess what’s inside the wrapping”. This, even in “modern ages”, made periods seem like something that people should be embarrassed about and ashamed of. A monthly function to regulate your body is shameful. Wow. What about the 2020 Tampax criticism, where they advertised tampons that “open silently for full discretion”? More recent studies in the medical history of menstruation contain euphemisms such as “the curse”, “dirty red”, and more (from as recent as 1975) contribute to the unclean stigma of periods and feminine hygiene.  

 

Now, we talked mostly about women throughout history, but they aren’t the only people who bleed monthly. AFAB people, or assigned female at birth, struggle with these stigmas and frequent transphobia due to this natural phenomenon. Period discussions and products are tailored for women. Pad wrappers that say “Strong Like a Girl” create an isolating barrier for transgender and gender non-conforming folks. When we also look at the prices of menstrual products, things get worse. The average price for 36 tampons can easily cost $12 a box. The federal wage is $7.25 an hour. So why does this hit trans individuals harder?  The 2015 U.S. Transgender Survey stated that transgender people are twice as likely to live in poverty and three times as likely to be unemployed compared to the general population. Now, ten years later, times for the working class have been ever harder. We also need to think about those who prefer gender-affirming bathrooms, such as a transgender male using the men’s room. They will rarely have access to period products when they’re needed most. Along with bathrooms, opening a crinkly, plastic wrapper in the men’s room can lead to a sense of fear and lack of safety, especially in a time when transphobia and violent hate crimes are rising. 

 

Now, the bloody point of this article was centered around the menstrual hygiene stigma in the United States, but there is so much discrimination for people who bleed monthly across the world. There are also discussions about people not having certain healthcare rights due to the assumption “all women want to or should bear children”. There’s also discussion around other feminine reproductive issues, like the age for hysterectomies and abortion, or even the effects of birth control, or how the medical system is very anti-AFAB people. But that, my friends, is all we have time for today.  I really hope this gave you a better perspective on menstrual hygiene and why it is so important. Please read the linked articles for more information if you can.  

Articles used for reference: 

https://www.ama-assn.org/delivering-care/population-care/why-stigma-prevents-treating-menstrual-hygiene-essential 

https://magazine.publichealth.jhu.edu/2022/stigmas-toll-sexual-and-reproductive-health 

https://www.nbcnews.com/feature/nbc-out/transgender-men-pain-menstruation-more-just-physical-n1113961 

https://transequality.org/sites/default/files/docs/usts/USTS-Executive-Summary-Dec17.pdf 

https://theconversation.com/dirty-red-how-periods-have-been-stigmatised-through-history-to-the-modern-day-206967 

https://quod.lib.umich.edu/e/eebo2/B26427.0001.001?view=toc 

 

Muse- Showbiz : A album analysis Part 3 FINALE

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SHOWBIZ ANALYSIS FINALE!!!!!!!!!! 

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Escape 
Chaotic and raw, Escape encapsulates Muse’s early intensity and their ability to turn panic into art. The song captures a desperate urge to flee suffocation, whether from societal pressures or personal entrapment. Lines like “You would say anything, and you would try anything” shows frantic attempts to claw out of control to the point of doing anything. The singer’s strained vocals, paired with distorted, jagged riffs, create a crowded tune. The track doesn’t feel polished, it’s messy and overwhelming yet that’s precisely its power.  

Overdue 

I don’t have much to say about this track as I personally see it as straight forward. In Overdue, bitterness replaces panic. Here, the confrontation is betrayal and disappointment, specifically the anger that comes from wasted devotion. The line “You’ll make us want you, you’re all we need” uses irony, showing the false promises of someone undeserving of trust. Musically, the track pushes forward roughly, as if each chord is driving home the frustration of misplaced belief.  

Hate This & I’ll Love You  

the closing track of Showbiz. Unlike the aggression found elsewhere, lyrically it explores a paradoxical relationship between love and pain, where rejection and hostility are met not with retaliation but with devotion. The title itself encapsulates this contradiction—suggesting that even in the face of hatred, love persists, though it is tinged self-destruction. The song captures themes of longing, imbalance, and the emotional cost of giving oneself completely, closing the album with a sense of unresolved yearning rather than resolution. 

Spiral Static (Bonus Track)

Track was only released in the Japanese edition of the album. Though released as a bonus track, Spiral Static deepens the album’s themes. Atmospheric and haunting, it pulls listeners into a cycle of obsession and entrapment. The lyric “You’re the one who’s scared of me” flips vulnerability into menace, suggesting unstable power dynamics within relationships. The track’s swirling, hypnotic sound creates the sense of being caught in an endless loop, unable to fully escape. 

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With that, we reach the conclusion of this deep dive into Showbiz. Across three parts, we’ve explored the beginnings of Muse, their lyrical intensity, and the emotions that shaped their debut. Every track reveals a fragment of identity, from suffocating pressures to moments of fragile vulnerability. This third installment brings the journey full circle, tying together the chaos, passion, and ambition that defined the era. Thank you for listening to my ramblings about this wonderful band. 

Nirvana Deep Dive: Bleach

This series of blog posts is about the instrumentation behind All four of Nirvanas albums the three studio albums in Bleach, Nevermind and In Utero and the compilation album Incestiscide and depending on the reception of the series Unplugged will get a nod. 

Nirvana (Bleach Era) in NJ, 1989 : r/TwinTowersInPhotos

 

  The Bleach era (1988-1989) featured Guitarist Jason Everman, Drummer Chad Channing (and occasionally Dale Crover of The Melvins), Bassist Krist Novoselic, lead guitarist and Singer Kurt Cobain. Oddly Jason Everman doesn’t appear once on Bleach recording. He paid to produce the album thus getting him a writer’s credit. The trio of Kurt Krist and Dale Crover would hit the studio in late 1988 to start work on Bleach with producer Jack Endino the songs Downer, Papercuts and Floyd The Barber would be completed and though an attempt to rerecord with Chad Channing came about the three ultimately decided to leave Dales original tracks as is. Every other song has Chad Channing in full force playing away. 

Nirvana Gear Guide: Kurt Cobain's Bleach-era Sound – Eastwood Guitars

 

The odd sound of Bleach comes from the cheap recording equipment used. The band was taped on a eight track and played every song live overdubbing in the post stages (which Kurt hated with passion). The setup for Bleach’s studio recording is as follows: Track one Chads Kick Drum Track two his snare and hi-hat recorded on an overhead place on a boom arm about 5-10 feet above the actual drumkit. Track Three has his floor tom with the microphone passing under the drum’s resonator head on the bottom. Track Four a mic for his tom 1 drum directly attached. Track Five was Krist’s bass and mic up of his amp placed in the same room as the other instruments and at times you can hear blead through from other things happening in the room. Track Six was Kurt’s vocal then track seven was Kurt’s guitar and Track Eight was free for either one vocal or guitar overdub which most times would be a rhythm guitar part that Jason Everman would play live. This in turn is also due to Nirvanas style being very noise rock adjacent at the time. 

Watch rare footage of Bleach-era Nirvana performing 'Negative Creep'

 

Bleach had a troubling process to begin the record label Nirvana was signed to at the time Sub-Pop was trying hard to stay afloat and thus couldn’t afford to pay the studio time necessary to record Bleach. So, Jason Everman the newest member of the band after Chad paid the entirety of the money necessary to produce and publish the Album. Granted he would tour with the band for the duration of their North American tour before being fired and joining Soundgarden.  

New video: Bleach Mustang Review & Demo Unboxing, demoing & reviewing  @khristore 's beautiful replica of Kurt Cobain's Bleach era Mustang! In  love with everything about this guitar, can't believe I have

 “Blew” A more sludge metal take with the growly low distorted bass and aggressive guitar dives creates a song that invokes a sense of violence almost. Plus, Chad Channing delivers a impressive triplet groove that slides around the kit and makes it poppy. The bass growls on the opening track as well creating a heavy mosh sound. 

Krist Novoselic Remembers Bass He Used in Nirvana: It Was Super Cheap, I  Smashed It Every Night & It Still Sounded Good | Ultimate Guitar

 “Floyd the Barber” is a heavier sludgy song through and through. Aggressive distortion meets bad production equipment. A lot of bleach is punk rock and the lead off track starts us right, Kurt uses a mixture of guitars most importantly a Mosrite guitar with two large humbuckers in the neck and bridge position. Which creates loud and almost oscillating tones. 

Forgotten Classic: Nirvana 'Bleach' - Classic Album Sundays

“About a girl” Kurts Beatles song. Growing up Kurt Cobain was quite a Beatles friend and even as he got older and rowdier he found solace in Abbey Road and Sgt. Pepper even so much as so constantly playing the song in Tracy Marander’s apartment to whom the song is about. The song is played with a very clean Strat sounding guitar with distortion on the solo. Alternatively, Chad Channing’s drum part is very rhythmic and matches the bass line. 

NIRVANA “Bleach Era” 1989: Kurt Cobain - Krist Novoselic - Chad Channing -  Jason Everman !!

 “School” is a noise rock song and seemingly uses a fuzz effect as when I attempt to recreate the sound whenever I play my fuzz pedal does better than my distortion box. Also, the rhythm guitar part fills out the main chord progression of the song under the lead part a clever and very subtle use of that elusive Eighth track available to record with. 

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“Love Buzz” is well a burst of sound the guitars are tuned up a half step higher than normal and for a band that typically drop tunes a weird, distorted sound comes out.  Kurt’s guitar almost sounds metallic clanking together, while the Bass seems uncharacteristically low and eerie. The drumming is fantastic as the pace of the song is fast and hard to miss. The guitar solo features the rhythmic strums of a A major chord. 

curious on your thoughts on jason everman in the band : r/Nirvana

 “Paper Cuts” this track is heavy dark gloomy and scratchy it fits a certain aura that is just the right amount of painful noisy rock mixed with a slight cleanliness of production plus Dale Crover leads a hard and powerful drum track for the ages. Kurt did overdub with a feedback noise with his guitar close to his amp.   

Melvins drummer Dale Crover recorded and briefly toured with Nirvana. Crover  played bass in Cobain's first band, Fecal Matter, and played drums on  Nirvana's ten song demo, as well as tracks on

 “Negative Creep” is a song mostly composed of power slides, a technique where one strums an open string grab said string and slides up or down the fret board. This technique creates slight dissonance and harmonic screeches. Which happens whether accidentally or attentionally.

Melvins drummer Dale Crover has spoken to US shock jock Howard Stern about  his decision to flee Nirvana just before Nevermind made the band global  superstars."The millions of dollars would have been

My top listens are.

Downer 

Negative Creep

Love Buzz

Blew

 

Please leave music recommendations in the comments.

This New life

To tell the truth, I didn’t think I would make so many friends in the first week. I thought I was go stay to myself but nope. I can say this type of things don’t happen to a lot of people so I’m glad that I get to have a opportunity like this. Yes we still have to ack like we have since lol. Even if we not staying home this school is out new home, but let me get to some of the things I liked so far.

So, so far  it’s been good. yea i have my time when I get sad but the best part is that we have people here that care bout us, but back on the good things. We have had our times outside when everybody would just be out, we’ll be playing music, playing cards game, playing basketball, and my favorite doing TikTok’s like the line dancing. I think my favorite memory in these 4 weeks would be the water day and the skating even doe some people did get hurt but it was so much fun.

Theses are my friends, yes they very fun to be around. I feel like I can always be myself around them and so I’m let y’all know why y’all reading this, I’m a verry nice person I can be weird but in a good way. I am a crybaby lol, and i do overthink a a lot but these kids don’t care they just like me for me, and yes i don’t play about them lol. But its more people I’m cool with I just feel like I’m always around them.

These two people are to funny, my boy best friend and my fake bae yes I said fake bae! me and my bsfn ( Melvin) been cool since camp. We got closer when we got here and taking classes together. He a very easy person to talk to so I’m glad I have somebody like him. We have my fake bae lol😂I can’t say her name at all so I’m not go even try to spell it! But she might have her days but when she do she still find a way to make sure I’m okay when I’m feeling down. I can tell her how I feel and she would really listen, and she’ll give good advice sometimes but I love her.

It’s more people I can go own about but for now I think this it, I love this school I do I might be ready to go home on weekends but I’ll be ready to come back lol.

Okay thx for reading my blog once aging have a nice dayy!!

Blank Title.

There are many different mediums of art. Some sing, some write, some cook, some paint. There are so many differences between these artists, how could they all be called artists? They have more differences than commonalities! Where would you find a similarity between a dancer and a pastry chef? Inspiration, that’s where.

Everyone knows that feeling of staring at something blank. A writer may stare at the white page of a word document with nothing coming to mind. A painter may tap a pencil on the corner of their sketchbook trying to think of something anything to make a thumbnail of. A cook may be missing something from a dish they just cannot pinpoint or worse can’t think of anything to put on their menu for that night. A singer may not hear anything that makes them want to give their vocals a stretch. A dancer may struggle to string choreography together to share the story they may be attempting to tell with their body.  

As writers reading this, you especially are familiar with that blank page staring out at you. It says nothing to you because you are the one who must speak first. At times you may feel you could never write again. That you’re not a writer anymore because of some blank page or some writing that is not up to standards in your eyes. Everyone misses a shot once or twice when they shoot into the dark with no real target in mind. It’s not your fault that the line blinking at you seems to be mocking you for letting it just sit there stagnant. Your lack of inspiration is not your fault, but you must be the one to conquer it. 

You cannot let the page be your enemy just as a culinary student cannot let their plating of less-than-ideal results hold them down. The disappointment you feel is only yours. People do not hate you over the fact that you drew one line wrong on a page. The blinking line or the stroke of your pen do not hate you; they are waiting for you. They want to see the things you can do with them when you have the materials. They cheer when you decide to at least sit in front of your blank page to just think. Feel no shame for a white screen. It’s just waiting to speak the words you give it. If it takes time, then it takes time. There isn’t a cure all for procrastination and lack of inspiration. There’s just you, you mind, and you page lying in wait. 

I hope y’all enjoyed this week’s post!! I couldn’t really think of anything to write this week, so I decided to write about not writing. I’ve talked about my interests in my other posts, so this time I wanted everyone to understand what I was talking about. Struggling actually won in my favor this time haha!! Well, I’ll see y’all here next week. ByeBye!!

Wishbone

I have been listening to an album on repeat ever since it came out. I think I’ve listened to it enough to have a good grasp on it and so I want to talk a little bit about it. 

I have listened to all of Conan Greys music (not an over exaggeration). I love the way he writes. He makes words flow and fit together in the best way possible. Now he has had a new album come out. This album is called “Wishbone”. 

He named the album wishbone after the 30ft wishbone in the Dallas airport. I thought this was an important fact due to how it shows this album is personal to him. I think it shows how he let himself be free of others through this album.

His first album I ever listened to was “Kid Krow” (this is also his first album ever also known as a debut album

As soon as I heard his lyrics, I knew i had to listen to more of his music. I went back and listened to some of his earlier singles. He had a second album come out in 2022, called “Superache”.

This album was okay in my opinion. He also released a third album called “Found Heaven”.

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I think this album was okay too. I personally think that these two albums weren’t him. I think it was more of what he thought people wanted him to create and not what he wanted to create. He in my opinion was creating for others rather than himself. Don’t get me wrong I love Conan Greys music, but these albums just didn’t feel like him. The new, most recent album, “Wishbone” however is a different store. It feels like he wrote it for him.

Wishbone I feel has more raw and real emotion than his previous two, more in line with “Kid Krow”. His lyrics are deeper and go beyond surface level. His imagery is back on track. He paints pictures and stories with his words in each song.  I don’t want to go too in-depth about each song, but I am going to talk about my favorite song out of the new album, and I will give my ranking of the songs. 

My favorite song in this album is “Eleven Eleven”, closely followed by “Romeo”.  “Eleven Eleven” captures the wishbone aspect of the album. It has imagery of what people wish on like stars, angel numbers, and clovers. It also references to quite a few superstitious actions which add even more to the wishing aspect of this album. This song also has a great beat and his words all fit together and flow. He uses words like puzzle pieces to create a picture; each word is intentionally placed. Each rhyme is thought out. Conan Grey also has a way with creating bridges that is perfect. Most of his bridges are incredible.

My ranking of the songs in “Wishbone” are 

  1. Eleven Eleven
  2. Romeo
  3. Nauseous
  4. Connell
  5. This Song
  6. Caremel 
  7. Actor 
  8. Vodka Cranberry
  9. Class Clown
  10. Care
  11. Sunset Tower
  12. My World 

This list was very hard to make and will probably change over time but as of right now that is my rough list of the songs from my favorite to least favorite. (This is of course an opinion, not everyone feels or will feel the same)

So, I think Conan Grey, just like most people, had to lose himself and explore before finding himself.