Author: Sarah

Welcome back!

Over the last 10 months, so much has changed. I’ve had a crazy year, but a year worth remembering. A year worth looking back on and laughing (or crying) about how fast it’s gone. For my final blog as a MSA Literary Junior, I want to take a trip down memory lane and recognize those who have helped me throughout the year. These are in no particular order.

1. McCarley Martin

McCarley is my best friend. While I’ve known of her since I was a kid, (her mom taught me and we went to the same school since kindergarten) we didn’t become friends until 8th grade. She is the most forgiving, loving, caring person I know. We have stuck together through thick and thin, (suspension and drama), and still to this day I’ve never met someone like her. 

2. Clare Whatley

Ohhhh my Clare. The first time I met Clare was the second day of living at MSA. She is one of my suitemates. At that time, she had bright colorful pink hair, and I remember thinking she was the coolest person I’d ever met. Her choice in music, movies, her artistic ability, personality, look, and everything else about her is so awesome. She always lets me rant to her, no matter what, and don’t think I thank her enough for that. 

3. Bristol Grissette

Bristol is my other suitemate. When I first saw Bristol, I thought “Oh my Gosh, I love them.” Their alternative style, and cool posters influenced me to talk to them. Honestly, for most of the year I had the impression that Bristol was a very quiet and calm person, which they are most of the time, but when we got close, I saw a whole other side of them.  They are funny, chaotic, a crash out for sure, genuine and compassionate. I consider Bristol one of my best friends, and I’m so happy that I’ve gotten that close to them. 

4. Robin Russell

Robin is one of my biggest supporters. Literally my ride or die. Whenever I feel any type of way, I know I can go to Robin and not be judged. She is always down to go out, always down to come chill, always down to be there when needed. Honestly, I thrive to be the type of person she is. She is faithful, kind, loving, nourishing, academically passionate, funny, and she never lets anyone walk over her. She authentically herself, and she doesn’t care who has something to say about it. I love Robin and have grown to appreciate her more and more over the year. After this year, (yes talking to you; I know you’re reading this) we have to promise to see each other often! I love you! 

5. David Walker 

Oh David. We have had our ups and downs, but at the end of the day I sort of look at you as my brother in an odd way. You hold me accountable for my actions, and you are confident in who you are. I genuinely enjoy your presence and I’m so glad you DM’d me on TikTok all that time ago. Thank you for helping me become who I aspire to be and thank you for all the times you clocked me about your friend. 

There are SO many more people I’d like to thank, but for my OWN well-being I’m wrapping this up here. 

Some honorable mentions- All my teacher and staff, my family, friends from home, the whole literary class of 2026-2027, Ms. Wendy, my friends, my exs and ohs (get it?), and everyone that inspired me to be who I am today. 

Most importantly, I thank myself. I thank myself for not giving up when I really… really wanted too. I thank myself for not leaving when my best friend decided dance might not be for her. I thank myself for giving those compliments, hugging my friends, deciding to be in the moment. I thank myself for using my writing as a way to get my feelings out there. I thank myself for giving MSA the chance it deserves. 

Before I get too upset, I’m going to end this. I love all of you guys. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. I hope everyone has the best summer ever. 

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You’ll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend

Wicked- For Good.

Hi guys! I haven’t made a blog updating everyone on my life in a while, so I figured I would do that today! 

The first thing I’d like to talk about is the way I’ve gotten SO close to 3 specific people here, and how they have helped me through so much the past few months. These people are Clare, Bristol, and Robin. Continently, Clare and Bristol are my suitemates, and Robin lives right across the hall, so we are all super easy to reach. 

Without these three, I don’t know where I’d be.

Moving on to my grades. I currently have all A’s and have managed these A’s for this whole semester. This may sound like something small, but I personally was shocked because I’m never really able to maintain good grades for a whole semester.

Summers coming up, and that means that freedom is nearing. I hope for my birthday I get my license or something of that nature because I’m genuinely so ready to drive. I used to be really scared of driving, however, now that all my friends are doing it and I’ve practiced a few times, I’m not as scared. I still don’t really know how traffic works, but I’m sure that’s something I can pick up.

Now I’m going to be talking about some of my recent FAVS: 

• Euphoria (HBO Max)
• Jersey Shore (Hulu)
• WhySuda (YouTube)
• Flamingo (YouTube)
• AAAHH!!! Real Monsters (Paramount+)
• Cars (Disney+)
• Sam and Colby (YouTube)

I’ve been feigning to play a good Roblox game, but it seems that all the ones trending now is either AI slop, or just annoying. A few days ago, me and Tristyn played Total Drama Island with voice chat on, and that was pretty fun, but I suck at the game in general, so I always get voted off pretty early in the rounds. 

I wish there was another game that popped off this year, kind of like the Dress to Impress pandemic in 2024. That was so much fun. Or the Among Us pandemic of 2020-2022.  I still play these games every now and again, but since it popped off for a while they kept adding things to the game, which in my opinion, kind of ruins the simplicity of a good game. 

I’m about to wrap this blog up lowkey, but first I want to just thank all of you for reading this blog all the way through. I’ve started to appreciate blogs more than usual, and they have actually brought back a piece of my passion I thought I couldn’t get back. 

I’ll see yall next blog! Love ya!

Hello bois. Today’s blog is about the one and only Mac Miller. As we all know, I am OBSESSED with his music, his interviews, personality, photos, etc. Like y’all don’t understand how important Mac Miller is to me. But like, the topic of today’s blog is the misconception that Arianna Grande was the ONLY girlfriend that was truly important to him. 

Now look, no hate to Arianna (a little hate because yknow, she split up a loving family and all) but Nomi was the girl for Mac. Y’all, now that I’m thinking about it, this blog is so parasocial for me to write, but I swear it’s not like that, I’m just… stating an opinion on a frequently brought up topic!

Let’s start off with the basics: Who is Mac Miller? What’s his relation to Arianna Grande? Who is Nomi? 

Mac Miller is one of the worlds (in my opinion) best rappers out there. Per my previous blog, “GO:OD AM (A Mac Miller Lawsuit) which you can read here- GO:OD AM (A Mac Miller Lawsuit) – Literary Arts Blogspace , he released his first track at only 15, following with his first album KIDS at 18. Some of his most popular songs include: The Spins, Self Care, Weekend, and The Way. He unfortunately passed away on September 7, 2018, due to a drug overdose. 

In his gone to quick life, he dated famous popstar Arianna Grande. There is more on this in my former blog mention earlier, but basically, they got together and stayed together for 2 years after making the song “The Way.” Arianna frequently mentions Mac Miller and how he was a huge inspiration for her throughout their friendship and relationship. She talks about how he influenced her to make RnB styled music, despite her fans not wanting it, and inspired her to be her authentic self no matter the amount of fame she acquires.  Unfortunately, only 5 months before his passing, they broke up. 

On the other hand, Nomi was Macs long term girlfriend, whom he met in high school. While Mac and Nomi kept their relationship pretty private, there are a few things we know. They got together around 2007-2008. While they stayed together until 2016, the cause of their breakup is commonly explained as this: “Fame, touring, personal challenges, and shifting life priorities reportedly placed pressure on their relationship.” https://www.legit.ng/ask-legit/biographies/1700922-a-deep-dive-mac-miller-nomi-leasures-long-term-relationship/ 

Mac frequently talked about Nomi in his music, and he gave us little glimpses into what was happening during the last weeks of their relationship. The verse that is often talked about when mention this song goes like this:

She said, "I want you back
I can't be seen again with you and all of your friends
It's so hard to pretend that it's like it was way back when
I thought you used to be the one
I guess you don't have time
'Cause all you do is grind, and it's got me lose my mind
You just don't, don't, don't love me like you used to
Think I'm bout to lose you"
I'ma end this now before things just confuse you
Kept breakin' promises you said you keep
So you can leave a message at the beep

Through this, we can see that during the end of their relationship, Nomi may have felt unnoticed or ignored. While this is a common occurrence for celebrities and their partners, that does not mean she is in the wrong at all. In another song, ROS, it is coded with lyrics for Nomi. 

You was here, I ran from you, scared to take that step
But now that I am ready, you not, you up and left me
Hope your new man make you laugh like I do
I do not mean to worry you with my obsession, I just want to be beside you
I'm too nice, and I had to pay that price
Everything I do is wrong (Wrong), everything you do is right (Right)

This alludes to the fact that maybe Nomi was ready to fully settle down, and Mac just wasn’t ready for that. It also shows that maybe when Nomi moved on, he felt like he’d missed out or messed something up within their relationship. 

Though, in the end, it is no one’s business who they are with, or what they are going through together, knowing context of what a singer is going through usually helps us get a better understanding and connection to their music. 

As for Nomi, she is now married with a child! She is a model (which she started fairly young) and a very successful journalist. She has worked for big companies like Google, Adidas, and CBS. The first time she posted her husband was in 2017, and I am genuinely so glad she was able to move on and settle with the love of her life. 

Below I have listed a few of my favorite blogs/articles Nomi has written. If you have the time, please check these out and support them! 

5 Anti-Aging Reasons to Smile Your Way to Good Health & Lower Stress — Anne of Carversville

Please Do Not Catcall Me: From Rittenhouse to Tahrir Square — Anne of Carversville

Sexual Expression Is Not a Trend for Marketers to Profit Off

That’s the end of this blog for now! There will probably be more Mac Miller blogs to come because I actually love him SO much! Bye guys!

There is a new trend on TikTok that has really gotten my attention lately. You hold a note in front of your face that says, “I’m slowly forgetting your face,” and then replace the note with things you want to be remembered by.  

I’ve seen these items be artwork, different albums or records, cameras, or even books. This concept is very interesting to me. I read somewhere that the first thing you forget about someone is their eyes; however, for me I forget their voice first. 

As you can see through my last two blogs (Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind Part 1&2) I am very curious about the lengths we go to forget people. Sometimes, however, we don’t mean or want to forget someone. It just happens.

Anyways, this simple trend on TikTok got me thinking: What do I want to be remembered by? After a while of thinking, I found a few simple answers. My smile, music, movies, and my empathy. 

If you even remotely know me, you know that I love to smile. I constantly love to have a silly look on my face, or a smile that is yes, crooked, but also unique to me. I used to hate my smile, but when I turned 14, I decided to embrace it. I still haven’t fully accepted it, and I hide it in pictures, school badges, etc.; however, I’m no longer afraid of letting it slip out during the day. 

Music is a huge part of my life. It influences my mood, motivation, what I’m wearing, my writing, and overall outlook on my day. I love music. If you take a look at my past blogs, they are mostly music based (or movie based but we will get there.) Some songs I’d like to be remembered by are as follows: Let Light Be Light by Lizzy McAlpine, Could You Be Loved by Bob Marley and The Wailers, Here Comes the Sun by The Beatles, Vampire Empire by Adrianne Lenker. 

To me, movies are one of the most beautiful forms of art available. I don’t think people understand the importance of movies. They educate, help cope, inspire, etc. Movies I’d like to be remembered by are as follows: Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind, Beautiful Boy, Thirteen, and Dead Poets Society. These all represent a part of me, whether that’s the past or the present.

Lastly, my empathy is a big part of who I am. I feel like to be healed, to be human, is to have empathy. I feel so much all the time, and most of these feelings don’t truly belong to me. I pick up on how other people feel, and sometimes, I run from this. I love being genuinely happy (or sad) for my friends, or the people around me, but sometimes these feelings get so big that my feelings get so little. I feel like when I am empathetic, I tend to put people way to far before me; this doesn’t sound like a big problem, but it becomes one after a while. Even though empathy comes with problems, I still believe that I should be remembered by it, and never ever lose it.  

Thank you guys for reading todays blog! What do you guys want to be remembered by? See y’all next week! BYEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

I feel the world through music. When we were assigned to do a listicle, I knew I wanted to write about the music that matters to me the most. With the lovely assistance of Lela’s peer review, I was able to curate the perfect list of 12 songs I use to see reality. All of these songs ARE very close to my heart; however, for the sake of my privacy I will not be mentioning anything TOO personal in this blog. Now you will realize that all of these songs are yes, sad, and yes, about relationships/heartbreak. If that’s something you’re not willing to hear me mansplain over and over… this may not be the blog for you, and I’ll see you next week! Without further ado, let’s get into this music. (BTW these are not listed in any particular order, and a lot of these were hard to place in a genre so if they are classified wrong, I’m sorry!)

1. Forget her by Jeff Buckley (Ballad). This song is about the post breakup experience. Jeff sings about going through the process of moving on from a girl who he loves. The mix of tragic lyrics mixed with the amazing instrumental brings us everything we need. The lyric, “She was heartache from the moment that you met her,” makes the song feel so complete. It kind of feels like when you realize you’ve been letting someone do you wrong. 
2. Everyone I’ve Never Met by Leith Ross (Indie Folk). This song is one of my favorites. It talks about how being shy is not for the weak. Human interaction is genuinely one of the most beautiful parts of life, yet some people do anything they can do to avoid it. In several cases, a lack of human interaction causes paranoia and depression. A lyric that stands out to me is, “Highways make me fidget. There are way too many cars, and I’m sure I’d like the drivers if we pulled aside to talk, but from my window, they are just a bumper and a light.” 
3. I Know It’s Over by The Smiths (Alternative Indie). This song encapsulates the feeling of being led on. It also makes me think of wanting the world to be more than it is. Through the voice of the singer, you can feel his pain in the moment. The lyrics are hard to miss. Two lyrics that stand out to me are, “I know it’s over, and it never really began, but in my heart it was so real,” and, “It’s so easy to laugh, it’s so easy to hate. It takes guts to be gentle and kind.”  
4. Linger by The Cranberries (Pop Rock). This song is about the feeling of wanting to be free after being in an unfaithful relationship. It’s about having to be around the same person who said loved you after the truth was revealed.  The feeling of confusion and frustration is the main focus of this song. The lyrics, “If you could get by trying not to lie things wouldn’t be so confused, and I wouldn’t feel so used, but you always really knew I just wanna be with you. And I’m in so deep. You know I’m such a fool for you,” show that the singer was deeply hurt about whatever happened to her. 
5. A Pearl by Mitski (Indie Rock). Mitski used this song as a way to communicate to her partner that her problems are not their fault. Mitski used this song as an apology for not being able to be all that her partner needs. She uses a pearl as a symbol for her mental struggles. The lyrics, “You’re growing tired of me. You love me so hard and I still can’t sleep. You’re growing tired of me, and all the things I don’t talk about. Sorry I don’t want your touch. It’s not that I don’t want you,” help you clarify what this song is truly about. 
6. I’ll Wonder When by Sarah Lola (Jazz Fusion). This song is a ballad for those who have been broken up with out of the blue. It’s a song about letting your guard down and being screwed over. It’s a story about a girl who stopped letting people in after she was proved right. In this song, Sarah gives raw deep feelings. She lays out her message right in front of us and covers it with beautiful vocals and piano. “He loved me, yet left me. He left me all alone which is funny, cause he loved me first. Don’t wanna learn to heal again. Don’t want the touch of a man to remind me of the one who ran.” These lyrics are strong. 
7. The Chain by Fleetwood Mac (Rock). This song is a bit different from the others on here. This song is a combination of wonderful singers, messy band drama, and pure passion. The fact that Stevie Nicks and Lindsey Buckingham sing this song to each other may make me a bit biased to this one. In the end, these lyrics take this song to the next level. The chorus speaks beautifully to us. “And if you don’t love me now, you will never love me again. I can still hear you saying you would never break the chain.” 
8. The Sick by Bella Kay (Alternative). This song is about forcing yourself to be in a bad relationship. It’s about the realization that you are sabotaging yourself. The idea of ruining yourself on purpose is so interesting to me. In this song she says she HAS to. “I think part of you hated me, so all of me was survivin’ you. There is nothing better I could be. I love the sick because I have to.” 
9. I Know, I Know, I Know by ALINA (Pop). This song has always been very abstract to me. My interpretation of this song is that it’s explaining when a relationship is past the point of saving. When you have full clarity that something isn’t working, and no amount of talking will save it. The lyrics, “Draw another line, say a quick goodbye, never cared to take the time, baby. Look at me like that, are you feeling bad? I know you think I’m all attached, but I’m not an idiot, never thought you’d pick me, don’t got much to offer here, I know” show this. 
10.  It Ain’t Me, Babe by Timothee Chalamet and Monica Barbaro (Folk). To me, this song is about knowing you don’t have what it takes to make someone happy. It’s the clarity of knowing that you will not be good for someone, and not being willing to put them through unnecessary amounts of trouble. It’s the self control of just simply walking away. The lyrics mixed with this perfect harmony is enough to make anyone listen. “You say you’re lookin’ for someone who’ll pick you up each time you fall. To gather flowers constantly, and to come each time you call. A lover for your life and nothing more, But it ain’t me, babe.”
11.  I Just Threw out the Love of My Dreams by Weezer (Power Pop). This song is about throwing away a relationship for the better. It also talks about being forced to be around that person, and wanting to feel that same bond again but not being able to. Some lyrics that highlight this are, “He is in my eyes, he is in my ears. He is in my blood, he is in my tears. I breathe love, and see him everyday, even though my love is a world away.” 
12.  Briston by Sydney Rose (Pop). This song is a flurry of emotions. The anger of having all your special moments taken away by your ex, mixed with the sadness of someone who has just been taken advantage of. Sydney wrote this song as a wakeup message to her ex that he doesn’t know who she truly is. In this song, she says “You don’t know me,” 18 times. The chorus also captures the essence of heartbreak. “But I’m tired, I know it’s bad, but what if this is all I’m gonna get?” 

Welcome back to my Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind series! If you haven’t read part one, I highly suggest that you do or this will not make any sense. Also please leave me a few suggestions for what to write my next blog about. Alright I’m going to get straight into it; hopefully this blog won’t be as long as the last one. 🙂

I left off where he wakes up to find his car wrecked, empty spaces all over his apartment, and a feeling of something missing. 

He gets in his car and drives to the train station. This day just so happens to be no other than Valentine’s Day. We see him stand in a crowd, waiting for his train to arrive. While we see this, we hear his thoughts. He is complaining about how Valentines is just a holiday made by mass producers and card companies. As he is standing there, he begins to look around uneasily. In the blink of an eye, he begins running to the train heading for Montauk. Yes, you read right, Montauk. 

He slides through the closing train doors and admits he doesn’t even know why he did it. “I don’t know why. I’m not an impulsive person. I guess I just woke up in a funk this morning. I gotta get my car fixed.” When he arrives to Montauk, he uses a payphone to call his work, claiming he has food poisoning and that’s why he’s not there. 

The screen cuts to him walking the beach. We see in the distance Clemintine doing the same. He then has the thought of “getting back out there.” He says, “If only I could meet someone new. I guess my chances of that happening are somewhat diminished, since I’m incapable of making eye contact with a woman I don’t know. Maybe I should get back together with Naomi. She was nice. Nice is good. She loved me. … Why do I fall in love with every woman I see who shows me the least bit of attention?” 

As soon as he finishes this thought, Clem pops up from the seat Infront of him. They have a small yet awkward conversation about Clem’s hair, and the word nice.  He ends the conversation by asking her to move because he has some writing to do. When they get off the train, it is nighttime.  Clem is walking in the cold, so Joel asks her if she wants a ride home. 

Clemintine invites him in for a drink, and he abides. She mentions how he is kind of quiet to which he responds, “I’m sorry. You know, my life isn’t that interesting. I go to work, I come home. I don’t know what to say. You should read my journal. I mean, it’s just blank.”

At the end of the night, Clementine is fully intrigued by him, even saying “I’m gonna marry you. I know it.” They have another small chat about the Charles (the frozen lake.) Joel tells her he needs to go because it’s getting late. They exchange numbers, and he heads home. They end up going to The Charles on a date, and he takes her home. While she runs into her apartment to grab a toothbrush Patrick (Clems new boyfriend) sees Joel outside and immediately knows what happened. 

She grabs her mail, and heads outside to Joels car. She opens her mail to see a package from the company that erased their minds. She puts in the cassette tape, and it begins playing.  “To all patients of Dr. Howard Mierzwiak. My name is Mary Svevo. We’ve met, but you don’t remember me. I worked for a company you hired to have part of your memory erased. I’ve since decided that this is a horrible… To correct this, I’m sending everyone’s file back to them.” Her voice begins to speak through the radio. “My name is Clementine Kruczynski. I’m here to erase Joel Barish.” They get into an altercation about this, and Clementine rushes out the car and past Patrick. She later decides to go to Joels house. 

When she walks in Joel is playing his version of the tape. He reveals that he found a painting he did of Clementine. She listens to what Joel says about her over the recording and decides to leave. Joel walks out the door and says “Wait.”

CLEMENTINE: What?

JOEL: I don’t know.  Just wait. Just wait.

CLEMENTINE: What do you want, Joel?

JOEL: I don’t know. I want you to wait for… just a while.

CLEMENTINE: Okay.

JOEL: Really?

CLEMENTINE: I’m not a concept, Joel. I’m just a f—ed-up girl who’s looking for my own peace of mind. I’m not perfect.

JOEL: I can’t see anything that I don’t like about you.

CLEMENTINE: But you will!

JOEL: Right now I can’t.

CLEMENTINE: But you will! You know, you will think of things, and I’ll get bored with you and feel trapped… because that’s what happens with me.

JOEL: Okay.

CLEMENTINE: [pauses] Okay. Okay.

JOEL: Okay.

Just like that, the screen fades out and “Everybody’s Got to Learn Sometime” by Beck begins playing. 

Just like that, the movie is over and we are left with MANY questions. Will they work out? Will it be a cycle? Does Patrick ever find out? While yes, this movie is superficial it makes me wonder, if I could forget someone, would I? If we had the option to wipe someone completely from our life, would we? The human brain remembers approximately 5000+ faces over a lifetime. If you could get rid of just one, would you? 

Thanks for reading todays blog; please leave your thoughts on this movie and concept in the comments. Love you guys, goodbye!   

“How happy is the blameless vestal’s lot!

The world forgetting by the world forgot

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!

Each pray’r accepted and each wish resign’d”

-Alexander Pope

Do you enjoy concepts of brainwash, and wiping memories from people? Well, do you also enjoy tragic stories of star-crossed lovers? If so, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is a movie for you. With sci-fi themes, and a haunting story of two doomed lovers, this film covers a codependent relationship.

The directors of this movie have it set up where it is out of order, however, to avoid confusion in this blog I will be going in order. 

Joel meets Clemintine at a party on the beach. The first conversation they have just so happens to be about the name “Clemintine.” Clem sings him “Oh My Darlin’.” They immediately hit it off and hangout. They inevitably get together, and in this relationship, they are very dependent of each other.  They take things serious on the first night, and they are determined to make it work. Though this sounds like a good thing, it is not. They would push back their problems and find temporary fixes. 

After two years of running off of this unhealthy relationship, they break up. Now this is no ordinary break up. This is one of those breakups that you can run away from. So, after a while of thinking and processing what just happened, Clemintine decided the best thing to do would be to completely erase Joel from her memory. A company named Lacuna did the procedure for her, and it worked.

Joel goes to Clementine’s job post-breakup to ask for her back and sees her with another guy. He gets upset and runs to his friends. Soon after Joel comes complaining, it is revealed to him about her wiping her memory of him. This sends him into a flurry of emotions. Not truly thinking, he consults with the doctor that did Clementine’s procedure. This is where he decides that it is the right thing to do to get her erased as well. 

In order for this operation to work, you are not allowed to be around anything that could remind you of the other person. He got a bag full of Clementine’s belongings, and things he got her, and took them to the clinic for them to dispose of. Before they dispose of the items, they place Joel in a machine and get him to react to them in order to make a map of his brain. He then went home, took the pills the doctor gave him, and went to sleep. The doctors walk into his home after they are sure he is asleep. The doctors who are in charge of his procedure are HIGHLY unprofessional, even stealing his drinks and inviting people over to his home. 

The first memory Joel is taken back to is the last time they talked to each other. Clemintine had just wrecked his car, prompting them to break up after a huge argument. We see the world slowly deteriorate as we move onto the next memory.  The next memory is of them arguing about if they were ready for kids. 

While Joel is replaying all of these memories, and slowly losing Clemintine, she can physically feel the connection dropping she just doesn’t know it. She begins to feel like her skin is coming off, and like she needs to be on the move. Funnily enough, the one spot she wants to go is Montauk. One of the major mini plots is that Clemintine loves to go to the ice, and that’s where Clemintine and Joels first date was. That was the date that determined the whole course of the movie, so the fact that she wants to go there while Joel is slowly forgetting her and their memories on the ice is just so peak. 

After a few bad memories, he gets to more of the good ones. He remembers this one where they are laying in the bed, Clem is snuggled up with him and randomly asks, “Am I ugly?” to which Joel says no. This leads to one of my favorite scenes in all of cinema. 

CLEMENTINE: When I was a kid, I thought I was. Can’t believe I’m crying already. Sometimes I think people don’t understand how lonely it is to be a kid. Like you don’t matter. So, I’m eight, and I have these toys, these dolls. My favorite is this ugly girl doll who I call Clementine. And I keep yelling at her, “You can’t be ugly. Be pretty.” It’s weird. Like if I can transform her, I would magically change, too.

JOEL: [kisses Clementine] You’re pretty.

CLEMENTINE: Joel, don’t ever leave me.

JOEL: You’re pretty.

JOEL: Mierzwiak, please let me keep this memory. Just this one.

CLEMENTINE: I don’t want to hold your hand. Come on.

JOEL: Stop it! I could die right now, Clem. I’m just so happy. I’ve never felt that before. I’m just exactly where I want to be… Clem? I want to call it off. I’ll give you a sign. I want to call it off. Can you hear me? I don’t want this anymore! I want to call it off!

Imaginary Clemintine and Joel are now on a full-blown mission to stop the erasing from happening, so they try to hide in Joels oldest memories where Clemintine has no business being. He takes her to a memory of his childhood, where Clemintine takes the place of Mrs. Hamlyn. After they are found here, he continues transferring to different childhood memories. No matter if it was a happy memory, or a horrifying one, they kept running and hiding.

Inevitably, the last memory they could go was their first time meeting. Clemintine begins to talk to Joel, and they spin off into conversation, except this time he says what he wished he said before. They begin plotting on what to do but just decide it’s time to just “enjoy it.”  They break into a beach house just like the first time the hung out. She is so absolutely wreck less, and he is paranoid and worried. 

The house begins to deteriorate, and they both know it’s over. Joel begins to reflect on his past decisions and how he regrets them. He talks about how he wished he stayed that night when they met. She asked him if he could change how it ends, and to at least give her a finial goodbye. The lost words they shared with each other were as follows: Joel- “I love you.” Clem- “Meet me in Montauk.” 

The ride home begins to play through his mind, mixed with little memories of Clementine. After they finish his procedure, they leave his house and act as if nothing happened. He wakes up to find his car wrecked, empty spaces all over his apartment, and a feeling of something missing.

Okay, so unfortunately, I need to wrap up this blog, however there will be a part two. And yes, there is SO much more! I never really write blogs this long or anything, so please tell me how y’all feel about this! Love yall, bye!

Trigger warning- Mentions of drug use, self harm, alcohol, and sex.  

Thirteen is a drama movie released in 2003. It follows the story of a girl named Tracy, and all the things she faces during middle school. It shows the effects of addiction and obsessive friendships, as well as her fighting to fit in. While this movie is very intense, it is one of my favorites. 

In the beginning of the movie, Tracy is a straight A student who stays to herself and her little bubble. She loves writing, especially poetry. She has 2 best friends, and she is content with where she is. The whole issue starts with boys. She tried to talk to her brother’s friends, but they weren’t very interested until they saw Evie. 

Evie was one of the “grown” girls in her grade. Tight shirts and lowrise jeans, with studded belts and hair extensions. On the second day of school while walking to the bathroom Evie insults Tracy’s Paul Frank socks. This sends Tracy through a spiral of throwing away all of her “childish clothes,” and buying more to impress Evie. 

The next day of school, Tracy came all decked out in new “grown” clothes. Boys hit on her, and Evie complemented her shirt. This led to her getting Evie’s number, and being invited to hang out. She blew off her friends to go, but when she called no answer. She eventually got on a bus, and found Evie and the others shopping.

They begin shoplifting, so Tracy leaves. She eventually gets the guts to steal someone’s wallet, and then spends the night shopping with the girls. From that day on, Evie and Tracy became the new duo. Evie introduces Tracy to the night life. Drugs, drinking, sex, all of it. And yes, they still are thirteen. Evie even convinces Tracy’s mom to let her stay there FAR over the time she was allowed. 

Evie also introduced Tracy to a guy who she loses her virginity to. Poor innocent Tracy thought that it meant they were going to get married… Who’s going to tell her?

In the end, Evie screws over Tracy exposing everything they had been doing… and more to Tracy’s mom. Tracy’s mom finds out about Tracy self harming, which leads to a diabolically sad (and a bit uncomfortable) scene of them reconciling. We never really get a clear ending, however we can guess what happened. 

There are also many other subplots, and crazy loredrops in this movie. If you are interested in psychology, especially in young teens, I’d definitely recommend it. It is not for the faint of heart, but it is very great.

You can run from your shadow,

Can’t hide from yourself.

MAC MILLER

Mac Miller… Sound familiar? I mean it should, seeing as Mac Miller is one of the most influential rap artists out there. Many of his songs have blown up on various social media platforms such as TikTok, Instagram, and X (formally, and forever in my heart known as Twitter.) 

If you are interested in pop culture, you may know him as Ariana Grandes ex-boyfriend. After he passed, she called him around 900 times just to hear his voicemail. She then went on to mention him in her popular song “Thank u, Next.”

“Wish I could say thank you to Malcolm, ‘Cause he was an angel.”

Mac Miller’s real name is Malcolm James McCormick. He was born January 19, 1992, in Pittsburg. At the age of 15 he released his first mixtape, “But My Mackin’ Ain’t Easy.”  By the age of 6 he was already learning piano, guitar, bass, and drums. Following this came many albums and one big lawsuit threat. 

Buckle in guys… This one’s about politics. 

Mac miller released a song called Donald Trump in 2011. This song blew UP! At the time Trump was just a game show host and real estate developer, but he was extremely wealthy. He glamorized a rich lifestyle which is why Mac picked him. While Mac Miller is NOT a Trump supporter, Trump made a YouTube video for Mac congratulating him on his song getting millions of views on his song. He called him “The New Eminem.”

Mac was not very happy about this. 

“I think he’s a —-. When he started running for president I was like, ‘Oh, —-—this is horrible, I have a —-song with this dude’s name and now he’s being such a douchebag.’ The thing that bothers me the most is that he always says things like, ’75 million views on the song ‘Donald Trump,’ Mac Miller you’re welcome.’ I could have said, ‘Take over the world when I’m on my Bill Gates —-.’ It doesn’t [matter].” 

Over time, this admiration that Trump found for Mac’s song, turned into anger. He began threatening Mac with a Lawsuit. Trump claims that he illegally used his name. Instead of sending Trump the money he was demanding, Malcolm sent Trump his plaque for the song. This led to a hilarious thread of tweets. 

After a LONG, and never settled feud, and a whole lotta hating Trump on twitter he didn’t end up getting a lawsuit. Just a few years later, he would unfortunately go on to pass away due to a drug overdose. Mac Miller is, in my opinion, one of the best singer/rappers to this day.

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My latest obsession is a simple little show (that turns out not to be very simple) Gilmore Girls. Now at first I didn’t really like this show because it’s so long, but when I started actually watching it it blew my mind. Like the characters are so well thought out, and the episodes are always so interesting. It really makes staring at a ipad for hours at a time entertaining.

Im currently on Season 3, and LUKE AND LOR ARE STILL NOT TOGETHER!! PPPLLLLLEEEAAASSSSEEEE… Anyways I’m about to talk about Paris. I get that she is VERY disliked by many watchers but personally I like her. She has the wrong priorities but I think thats more of her parents fault. If her parents were more open to her being a kid she would be so much funner. Also her friends are SO annoying. 

And Jess? I personally don’t like him but like thats just me. I guess he’s okay for Rory but… He’s lowkey a bad influence. Plus why isn’t he going to work? FIX IT JESS.  AND LIKE DEANNNN? WHY WOULD YOU PUNCH HIM OUT OF NOWHERE? SHE ISNT YOUR GIRLFRIEND ANYMORE.

Kids, no means no.

And on another note, was is Lor constantly going back to Max and Chris… Have we learned nothing? I just wish she would realize that she doesn’t need a man to be whole. Plus Chris doesn’t deserve her. He’s lowkey evil… 

As you guys can tell, I have very strong opinions about this show and I’m glad I have friends like Robin I can talk about all of this with. I saw that Warner Bros Studio remade Stars Hallow for the 25th anniversary, and even had actually GG cast come to be there. I wish I could have went so bad!

Honestly I don’t know what I’m going to do once I finish watching this show. I mean I’ve been watching for so long that it’s now part of my day to day life. I guess that it’ll be bittersweet.

I hope that by the end of the show, Rory gets married and graduates Yale, along with Paris, Dean and Jess become cool again, and Luke and Lor are together with a million kids. Also I hope Lane finally find a way for her mom to stop being so strict. 

At the end of the day, GG is such an amazing show with such an amazing cast!