black- my comfort color

If I had to wear one color for the rest of my life, it would with out a doubt be black. I have black everything: shoes, pants, shirts, jackets, hoodies, socks, hats, and any other item of clothing I didn’t mention. You can call me “emo” (which is really duMb because just because I like black doesn’t mean I live that life style. tbh I just really hate the whole stereotypical emo thing), but really, I just love the color black a whole lot. Some may comment that it’s depressing- the fact that almost everything I own is black. But I don’t find it depressing, to me it’s comforting. I never have to worry about my outfits not matching.

Growing up, I liked and only wore the typical girly colors. My favorite color was pink until like the 5th grade, then I decided I was too cool for it. I abandoned it and moved onto the darker colors, and I guess that’s where my love for black began. I started wearing my older sisters clothes that they didn’t want anymore and all my glittery and sparkly clothes were pushed aside. I’m so glad it only took me 12 years to discover that there are other colors than hot pink, bright purple, and the other colors I would mix together.

“Black is the darkest color, the result of the absence or complete absorption of visible light.” -Google.

I don’t know about you, but I think that sounds pretty cool. The definition of the color its self is so eloquent and graceful. Not only is black a beautiful color, but it has a lot of beautiful symbolism as well. Black is often used to represent death and darkness which sounds really depressing, but I find depressing things especially aesthetic and appealing. Darkness its practically synonymous with the color black, and personally, I don’t think people give enough credit to it for how much calmness it can bring.

“I like black a lot. i really like black. black is my favorite color. it is so nice. it is my favorite feeling. it is all i see when i close my eyes in the blackness of the black night.” 

-poetry 

I wrote that piece with Azya like a month ago and I have to say, its probably my best work yet. I think it really captures the profound fondness of the color black that I have. To conclude this blog post, I would just like to say: black is the best color. Have a nice day.

Current favorite city= Boston

One thing about me: I love to travel. Learning about and seeing new places is one of my favorite ways to spend my time. For me, my fall break was Thursday the 24th through Tuesday the 29th, and I spent it traveling:) After seeing a advertisement made in Boston some years ago, my mom and I have been talking about how we wanted to go to one day. So, we finally lived up to our word and went this past break. I hope you enjoy this blog post about why it is now my favorite city as I describe my very enjoyable experience to my best effort.

From above the city:

As the plane dove below the puffy white clouds, vibrant trees the colors of oranges, reds, yellows, and dark green surrounded patches of grassy land the color of light greens. Long grey winded roads ran through the trees and land like veins, bringing life to the earth with every lonely car that drove along them. All the trees blended together perfectly, yet each was so distinct with radiant with fall leaves. Getting closer to the city, the faint outlines and shapes of tall buildings appeared and as I moved closer to them, they soon had lively color and character. Each building was so different, mainly a mixture between modern architecture, Gothic architecture, and old brick homes and buildings made in the 17th century.

First impression:

I was expecting for the cold air to hit me like a brick wall, but to my surprise, It wasn’t nearly as cold as I was warned it would be. Instead, I was welcomed with a soft dry breeze of about 60 degrees. They grey cloudy sky contrasted beautifully with the bright changing colors of the numerous trees and the typical smell if most big cities surrounded me. A light aroma of varieties of food with a sweet scent, along with the faint lingering pollution. My mom and I rode a bus from the airport that drove us into the city T Alwife station (For some clarification, In Boston they call the subway the “T”). When we got off the bus, it didn’t take us long to get lost in the devouring city of towering buildings, In fact, It only took about 30 minuets, which I think is pretty impressive. (side note: in case you are not aware, being lost in a big city that you’ve never been to before is kinda scary). Eventually though, after a very long hour or so, we found the T station that would take us to the place we were staying. The first sound I heard as I walked down the stairs to the station was familiar songs being played on a violin. The station its self was dark and matched the depiction of the stations shown in movies and tv shows. Riding the subway for the first time, the first thing I noticed were all the different types of people on it with me. So many different people compacted together, so many different cultures and backgrounds. It made me realize how everyone has a different story and how everyone is so unique in their own way, in all, it just made me appreciate people a lot more. ­

As you can see from the pictures provided above, Boston is a very pretty city, and surprisingly, it’s also very clean. Other than it being breathtakingly beautiful, one of my other favorite things about Boston is that you could walk 400 feet and pass like 5 different restaurants. There’s so many high quality restaurants there. Out of all the restaurants I went to there, not one of them wasn’t amazing. Just like I am passionate about traveling, I am passionate about food as well, so this was a big deal to me.

Boston is has the most advanced education in the country (for college at least). People there take education very seriously, which makes sense considering it is where Harvard is. On Monday last week, I actually went to go tour the Harvard campus and it was astounding, although I didn’t feel worthy to be on its grounds and what not lol. The campus’s buildings were really old- made in the 17th century, meaning it also had a lot of historical significance to go with its spectacular landscape. Boston is actually one of the first states in America to be formed, and is where the revolutionary war took place and where the Declaration of Independence was first read aloud to the public. It was amazing to hear about the history of this city to add to all its character and importance. Like you could just be walking and be like “hey. that’s where Paul Revere lived. “(yes, that actually happened). Not only did various famous events take place in Boston, but many famous people grew up there as well. If you like  gothic literature like me, you’ll find Poe Ally very interesting 😉 Edgar Allan Poe is my favorite writer of all time and he was born in Boston which causes me to be a bit bias to the area- as it is where he grew up. There is a street dedicated to him, and a statue resembling his short stories, “The Tell Tale Heart”, and “The Raven”. It was a copper statue with green tarnish coating it, and represented Poe walking to Baltimore with this coat blowing behind him as he carries a suitcase. Coming out of the suitcase, there is a raven flying with its wide wings spread out above it with its head bowed. Books spill out of the suitcase on the other end of it and on top of a pile formed by the dropped books, there is a detailed heart the size of a football placed on the short stack of pages and books. It is truly a stunning site.

Overall, the city its self is so beautiful and interesting with a lot of originality.  It was so wonderful seeing so many famous sites and hearing about famous people that lived there throughout my stay. If you haven’t been to Boston, I highly recommend going:)

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mythology short story

The first short story I wrote here was based off of the mythical creature, the Chimera. If you don’t know anything about this creature, I would suggest that you look it up before reading my story so it makes more sense.

Just to give some background, the main character in my story represents this mythical creature through age and experience. He has multiple personality disorder and is locked up in an insane asylum due to it, and the fact that he has visions involving the future that no one believes. I hope you enjoy reading:)

“Kaimera Fatuus.” The guard sat down at the long metal table impatient. His short grey hair stiffly moved from breeze the cold room gave off. “Let me ask you again, Do you know why you’re here?” Kaimera stared at the bag of Doritos in front of him, reached for it, and then opened it. The guard hunched forward and scraped his chair across the floor closer to him. “I asked you a question. If you don’t answer me now, I’m going to have to tell the authorities again.” He folded his large arms and leaned back in his chair. 

 

“Wait!” Kaimera blurted out. He sat up straighter in his chair and shoved a handful of chips in his mouth obnoxiously. “Okay, okay, okay I’ll tell you.” He fixed his wide mouth to a smile, showing his perfect white teeth. “I’m here because everyone thinks I’m crazy and ignores me, and then they blame everything I warn them of on me. Personally, I don’t think it’s very fair.” He looked straight ahead with a sad face. Then looked up at the guard and began crying. “I’m completely innocent I tell you!” He pleaded across the table to the guard and then immediately stopped and laughed, lining his finger under his eyes and flicking away the fake tears. 

“I’m just messing with you.” His smile remained, “I mean- I am innocent, but who’s going to believe that?.. If only people listen to me. I’m just trying to help them… HA!” His eyes bounced around the room and then rested on the guard with amusement. “Have I ever told you how fantastic that uniform looks on you? I mean wow. Just wow! I bet you must-” The guard held up his hand annoyed.

“That’s enough.” He said bluntly as he stood up. “Come on. We’re going to therapy.” 

Kaimera stood up and clapped his hands, “ooooooo therapy. How fun? My favorite part of the day. Wait a minute. Where is therapy again? Do you have anymore food? I’m hungry. Why am I always so hungry?” He continued to ramble as he followed behind the guard, his slippers slightly squeaking as they dragged across the slippery floor. Once they reached the room, the guard turned around and stood by another.

“We’re going to be outside the whole time, so don’t try anything again.” He opened the door and guestured inside. Kaimera stared at the guards’ feet with a blank expression and then briefly smiled, meeting their eyes. 

“Oh, of course not.” He replied. As he walked by, he nodded slightly at the guards and slowly walked inside. He gently took a seat on the leather couch provided in the small, bland white room. As he waited for his therapist, he ran his hands through his golden shaggy hair and admired the way it shone in the sunlight beaming through the window.  Soon, his therapist walked in and rolled her chair in front of him.

“Hello Kia, how are we today?” she asked concerned. His softened eyes rested innocently on her face and a kind smile appeared. “I’m doing very well currently, thank you. How are you today, Margret?” He asked with genuine and concern the same way she did. She fixed her glasses and smiled down at her notebook and began to write. 

“I’m also doing very well. It’s a pleasure that I got you this way… I hope it doesn’t change again.” Margret gazed out the window, avoiding Kiamera’s response. He frowned slightly and stared out the window too. “Yes, many think this is my best self. I’m not sure it is, though.” His voice trailed off and got quieter as he spoke, leaving the room silent. She jerked her head towards him with a question on her face. 

“And why’s that?” Her words fell out of her mouth and crashed onto the floor. He glared at her. 

“Because I don’t think it is.” He snapped, slightly leaning closer. She widened her eyes and looked away. 

“Oh right, the short temper,” she suggested quietly. 

He glared at her and opened his mouth, but bit his lip and forced himself to calm down and maintain the softness in his eyes. “No, that’s not why. I just don’t think it is. I prefer my other self. I have flaws to this side.” He protested. She tilted her head in thought as she stared at his clean slippers. 

“You know, Kia, it’s perfectly fine to have flaws. Everyone has them.” She said as she looked up at him. His face was blank and slowly his kind expression faded and he grinned maniacally as he stared out the bright window. 

“No, Margret, It’s not “perfectly fine” to have flaws. It’s pathetic. But it’s a good thing I’m not everyone. Tell me, how does it feel to be utterly useless?” He narrowed his piercing eyes at her as his words slithered out of his mouth and coiled her throat. She swallowed and looked up to the ceiling, whispering to herself.

 “Behavior like that will do nothing but keep you here longer.” She forced her words through behind her clenched teeth and shot him a look of disgust. He welcomed her words with a smile and slightly laughed.

“I don’t care. I’m leaving soon anyway.” He whispered, looking out the window. She looked at him surprised and leaned her ear closer to him.

“What did you just say?” She paused waiting for an answer. 

“You heard me.” He said unequivocal. She stared at him in bewilderment and shook her head. 

“You are most certainly not.” She laughed,”and I’ll be damned if you- or anyone thinks otherwise!” He stood up and scowled her, tilting his chin to his chest, forming long shadows on his face and showing mostly see the whites of his eyes. He stepped closer and slammed his hands down oh her desk that was messy with papers and carefully grabbed a pen, making sure her eyes were on his and she was not paying attention to his hands. 

“You have some nerve to laugh at me after what happened last time.” He threatened. 

Her eyes widened as a flashback ran through them and she slowly rolled her chair away from him by pushing her feet against the floor. 

“Guards!” She yelled frightened. Once her eyes were on the door, he deceitfully lifted the pen and placed in his gown pocket and stood annoyed as he heard the guards yelling at him not to move.  

The guards burst through the door and grabbed each of his arms and tried to pull him back, but he did not budge. He yanked his arms out of their grasp, leaving them to fall to the floor. He held his fists firmly by his sides and the anger in his eyes intensified. 

“Don’t you see? You’re all inadequate in my pressenses. Worthless.” He hissed. As Margret stared at him with complete terror in his eyes, the guards hurried to pick themselves off the floor and tackle him. They dragged him out of the room, but his eyes did not leave Margret’s and soon the eye contact broke as she quickly turned away. 

Kaimera smiled maniacally the whole way back to his room. The guards tightly squeezed his arms as they pushed him forward to keep walking. They shoved his slender back into the room and slammed the steel door. “Don’t expect to leave your room anytime soon!” They yelled through the thick door. 

He stumbled and fell to the tile floor and heard the guards footprints diming. Making sure they were gone, he gathered himself off the floor and stepped towards his bed to lift up his mattress. His only set of clothes were neatly folded under his mattress and he quickly slipped them on under his hospital gown. He took off his slippers and laid them neatly beside his bed so he could be more stealthy. He sat on his bed, waiting for mostly everyone to leave as they do every night.

After a couple hours, he reached inside his pocket and pulled out a pen he had stolen from his therapist and grinned. He disassembled the pen and  grasped the sparse metal stick that had come from it and made his way across his dim room to the door. He kneeled at the door knob and quickly, but carefully, forced the thin line of metal into the keyhole. Working promptly, he managed to pick the lock in less than a minute- a new record for him. He grinned, pleased with himself, and lifted up his gown to place the metal stick in his pants pocket.

 

He slowly cracked open the heavy door without saying a goodbye to his room and slipped through it. He stood barefoot in the tile hall, the floor brutally freezing beneath his feet. It was eminently dark with the exception of two or three lights shining pale light. He snuck along the wall to avoid the cameras by hiding in the shadows, running his hand against the rough cinder blocks behind him. The air smelled of aseptic carbolic acid and the hopeless smell of flowers. He heard footsteps clattering against the echoing floor, making their way closer and closer to him. He got up on his tiptoes to run quicker, clinging to the wall. 

 

He turned down a hall, paranoid of being caught and sprinted until he collided into a sudden wall. He had reached a dead end and there was nowhere to go. He bent over to catch his breath, but the thin air would not fill his lungs. He began to panic and he started to hyperventilate, gasping desperately for oxygen. Progressively losing the air in his body, he hit the hard floor and passed out. 

A vivid image of fire and death overtook his mind. Screaming and sorrow. Buildings collapsing as the earth beneath them crumbled like nothing more than a dessert. Enormous explosions and utter destruction of everything everyone knew. 

He thrusted forward as he jerked awake. His bulging eyes welled with tears as he choked on the thought. “I need to hurry.” He said aloud to himself. 

 

He forced himself off the floor and felt his head throbbing from where he ran into the wall and hit the floor. Despite his pounding headache, he began to run again. He ran the dark and long halls of the mental institution he had been kept for years. His eyes searched frantically for the directions to “therapy hall”, where he had been planning to escape for the past years. Running past every door, every room, and up every set of stairs, the halls became more familiar and he recognized where he was. He stopped running,  made a right turn, and smiled. There it was. “Margret Janice” was hanging on the door and a welcome matt waited for him in front of it. 

 

He pulled the metal stick out of his pants pocket and picked the lock with ease as he had done before. Once the door creaked open, he proceeded inside the room he had sat every Wednesday for years and took off his gown and placed it in his usual spot to leave a sign saying to Margret, “I did what you said I wouldn’t”. He wandered over to the window and peered outside. The same tall trees and rolling green hills he studied every session called to him.

He broke the lock on the large window and it screeched as he opened it, causing an abrupt alarm to go off. Red lights began to flash as the sirens blared in his ears and he swiftly threw his legs out the window and followed them. He crashed on the ground as he landed in the overgrown grass and immediately started running towards the open gate. An announcement boomed over his head as he ran, and then he started sprinting as fast as his legs could carry him. 

“ATTENTION! THERE HAS BEEN AN ESCAPE IN UNIT 5, WING 13! CLOSE THE GATE IMMEDIATELY!” The gate ahead began to squeak and it started closing faster and faster. 

“Stop it right there Kaimera! STOP!” Guards were yelling at him as they filed out of the great doors behind him. He turned around and could see all the other patients in their gowns gathered around the windows cheering for him. 

He ran through the trees turned black by the night and reached the closing gate. With no hesitation, he flew through the narrowing opening and collapsed when he heard it close all the way. He lifted his head and could no longer see the psychiatric hospital, but could only hear the distant curses of the frustrated guards. He laughed to himself relieved. 

 

He walked all through the night across the grassy hills. His feet were aching. The sky was pink and purple and the sun was a dark orange. It greeted him as its dull light kissed his face. He continued to walk through the tall grass that hit his kneecaps until he reached an empty road and the bottom of the last hill he climbed. He walked along it for hours barefoot until he came to a large city. “At last!” He yelled and ran to the first group of people he saw.

“You there! Prepare yourselves! Something is coming!” He yelled as he looked all of them in their eyes, panicked. They looked at him confused as he described the vision he had to them and they kept walking. 

“Ignore him. He’s just crazy, poor guy.” One of them explained. “Should I call the police or something?” Another asked.

Kaimera grabbed his long hair infuriated and shrieked. “No! No, No, No! Don’t you understand what I am trying to tell you?! Listen to me! Stop ignoring me!” They continued walking, glancing back at him as they shook their heads in repulsiveness. 

Distressed and frenetic, he confronted everyone he saw about his vital news. They sneered and scoffed at him and pretended not to hear him. “Kaimera! Don’t move!” He looked over his shoulder and saw guards pushing through crowds of people and making their way towards him. He stood there helpless trying to devise a plan, but everywhere he looked, there were guards coming at him. 

“The world is ending!” He yelled and everyone stared at him. “Prepare yourself for your last days! Volcanoes will erupt spewing their lava and explosions will-” one of the guards grabbed him and started shaking him. 

“That’s enough! We’ve already been through this haven’t we? You always tell people these types of things and all it does is frighten them.” The guard looked at him worried and waited for a response. 

“It always comes true though, doesn’t it?” As Kaimera questioned him, the guard grew angry and threw him to the others. 

“Throw him in the car. We’re going back now. Sorry about that folks! You all just carry on now!” He smiled and turned to Kaimera who had tears streaming down his face. 

“Please just listen to me! I know that what I’m saying is true!” He cried. The guard laughed nervously as everyone observed the situation concerned. 

“Kaimera.” He said gently, “you’re in an insane asylum for a reason.” Kaimera slightly nodded his head defeated and looked around with pleading eyes. Everyone turned away and continued with their day as the guard instructed. 

 

The only sound on the car ride back was the car’s wheels running on the road. “I don’t know what you think you were accomplishing by doing all that, but you’re not going to be able to do it again.” one of the guards spat at him as they stopped at the familiar destination. He stared out the window and did not speak another word.  

 

A couple days later, Kaimera was peacefully sitting in his room as the sound of terrified screams filled the world outside. The horror spilled inside the hospital after it caught on fire from an explosion in the 4th wing. Half of the asylum was obliterated to ashes and outside his widow were the tall trees and rolling hills burning with fire. He folded his hands in his lap and shook his head, looking away from the window. “I tried to warn them.”

positive vibes i guess.

Thinking positively shouldn’t be hard. It shouldn’t be hard to look at a person and think nice things about them. Going against the negative images and ideas society conveys should be easy. But we make it so hard.

We can’t complain about the cruelty of society, because only we are responsible for it. We make the ideas and put the images that control the minds of so many people into the world and complain about the negativity. “No one takes my depression seriously.” That’s because you don’t take depression seriously. We have a way to take such horrible things and make them so commonly sugar coated that we over look them. It’s an issue that starts with us. Stop blaming the world for being negative when you add to its problems.

I see people complain about how people treat them wrong, and in return they treat others wrong because of it. if you say everyone in the world is horrible, then you’re including yourself. And if you’re a horrible person, you don’t have room to complain about others. Don’t rant about how everyone and everything is wrong when you do nothing to try and make it right. Don’t say that no one cares when you don’t try to care either.

Changing our view on life in general is only as simple as we make it. If you say it’s too hard to think positively, it’s because you think it’s too hard to think positively, therefore; you’re giving your negative ideations more power. We can’t expect to find good in the world without redirecting our mentality. It starts with coming to find goodness in your surroundings, as I’ve said in a previous blog post, It’s hard but not impossible. Be more grateful for people in your life, and be more caring towards their feelings. Be kinder. Stop criticizing everything you dislike about the world and instead try to think of ways to change it starting with you. Focus more on the good things. They’re there even if you have to look extra hard. Most importantly, learn to love yourself. You can’t show love if you have none for yourself. You can’t be happy if you’re miserable with yourself. And you won’t find good in the world if you can’t find good in yourself.

This blog post is purposed to express my distinguished thoughts on some issues I find to be prevalent in todays world. I hope you will try to apply it to your life as I do:) Have a good day!

Tree

A tree stands tall, bending slightly over as the top gets higher. 

It must be afraid to touch the sky. Or perhaps it wants to provide more shelter for when the clouds cry. 

Maybe the tree is sad, for the short nubs imply some arms were cut off. 

Is that why it hunches forward- its taken limbs lead it to despair? 

Or could it be slouched because it finds the fact of being taken for granted unfair? 

Whatever the reason, it is too unmotivated – too distraught to clean

 its wide trunk of the spotting moss that is turning white when it once was green. 

The moss’s color is fading, but the amount is growing

And now the tree must be sad because it’s true age is showing. 

Beyond the thin rings being added inside the thick wood that the eye can not see

More wrinkles and cracks appear in its bark giving the fear of growing old a guarantee. 

The thick, strong roots are embedded in the dirt beneath it

And ashamed of them, the tree tries to hide them in the ground… 

where it thinks, it thinks they can not be found. 

It wants to look independent, it does not want to rely on anything to hold it up-

Yet the part of the roots that show give away it’s weakness, although they may be short, 

The fact that it can not stand without their unwanted support. 

Thousands and hundreds of colorful small leaves 

Hang on the branches in light shades of green. 

They shine in the sun and capture the light on each of their surfaces

I place my hand on the rocky skin of the tree from the shade, was tinted dark

And feel the warmth of the absorbed sun in the gray bark 

And the hundred limbs branching out above me bring a cool shade 

along with the rest of the earth the tree has decided to lean over as it stands on display. 

-an ekphrastic piece I wrote based off a tree at msa.

Ever since I was little, I’ve found beauty in nature so easily and have given it human characteristics. When I would climb trees as a child, my small hands would grip a small branch not strong enough to hold my whole 40 lbs of weight and would snap off and fall far to the ground. I would apologize to the tree with genuine remorse and pat its rough trunk as to comfort it, then I would continue to climb.

This poem came naturally, as I have always been able to look at a living thing and assigned it an emotion and personality. I related it to an elderly person- when they get to the stage of self recognition concerning their feeble state, but take no responsibility for the necessary dependence they need. They want to maintain the independence they lose with age and not admit that they need support. Yet with the lack of youth, there is a great sense of wisdom, strength, and unappreciated beauty. With growth comes experience, and experience is admirable- whether it is found  in people, or nature.

 

the most underrated and overrated food

Although everyone enjoys eating food, I still think it’s underrated. Well, most of it anyways. Some of it is also overrated for sure, it’s not just food either, but food joints and restaurants.

I know what you’re thinking, this is such an inappropriate topic to confront considering the risks of losing friends and loved ones. Well, I apologize, but I feel the sudden need to express my opinion whether they agree with me or not (I know I know, I’m so independent now). Being a student at a school where you eat strictly cafeteria food, you gain an appreciation and almost an obsession with homemade or restaurant food- It’s pretty much all I’ve been able to think about this past week. Anyways, If you’re reading this- I hope we can continue to get along despite our disagreements.

#1 most overrated food: spaghetti.

Picture this: You’re in a fancy restaurant. The dim strung lights and sparkling chandeliers reflect in the large tinted windows. The silk white table cloths complement the neatly folded black cloth napkins. You sit in your comfortable cushioned chair carved from only the finest wood from the finest tree from the finest part of the world. Oh, the elegance! You tremble as you pick up the smooth leather menu- knowing, hoping, praying, that it consists of only the best of foods known to man. And what’s the first thing you read? Freaking spaghetti! THIS IS SUPPOSE TO BE A 5 STAR RESTAURANT PEOPLE! My question is, how could spaghetti even be on the same menu with Smoked Ricotta Tortellini? Like what midlife crisis was this poor soul going through to actually think that would be exceptionable? Spaghetti is not a 5 star dish, in fact, I’d give it solid 2 stars.

Most overrated restaurant: taco bell.

Okay, so this is where the tension intensifies, but it’s time the truth comes out. Taco Bell isn’t even a 3 on the spectrum of 1-10, (10 being amazing) and everyone basically worships it. I find it disturbing when I ask the question, “what’s your favorite restaurant?”, and I get the disappointing answer, “Taco Bell.” I’m always left wondering the same baffled question: why? Like out of every restaurant there is, why on earth would you choose Taco Bell to be ranked #1 in your life? Have you not been to literally any other restaurant?

#1 most underrated food: sushi.

Sushi gets absolutely no credit for being the best food. I seriously believe that if you don’t enjoy at least one kind of roll, there is something clinically wrong with you (not literally of course). The taste, texture, and everything is just wow.  If you live in Hattiesburg, I recommend Yamato (great restaurant) to get sushi and start by getting the “Shaggy Dog” roll. Shrimp tempura topped with spicy crab (it’s not that spicy though) piled on top of every piece and drizzled with amazing sauce. It’s crunchy, yet soft and i’m going to stop describing it because i’m making myself hungry. But seriously, just go try it. 5/5 stars. If you live in Brookhaven, I recommend Little Tokyo, and while I’ve only gone there once, the roll I had was superb- as most sushi is. It was called the “Bam Bam roll” and I’d give it a solid 4/5 stars. I’ve had many sushi rolls in my life though, so it’s hard for them to make it up to 5 stars. Anyways, with all that being said, sushi is the most underrated food.

#1 most underrated restaurant: Wendy’s.

I’ve heard many people complain about the taste of the food at this wonderful restaurant and I really can’t comprehend why.  I don’t think I’ve ever had anything there that was below 3 stars, yet people don’t understand how truly great it is. you can get 4 exquisite items for the low price of $4! That’s a darn good taste for a darn good price. I don’t see how people disregard so blindly its great attributes. Really and truly, I’d give this restaurant 4/5 stars overall. Some occasions 5 🙂

Okay guys, that’s all I have for now. Thanks for reading, I hoped you enjoyed these probably scientific facts.

my life at Oak Grove…

In case you are not aware, I spent all my school years going to Oak Grove. If you don’t know what school that is, it’s the most popular school in Hattiesburg and is the biggest school in Lamar County district with the student count of roughly around 2,000. Because my siblings and I grew up going there, It will always hold a place somewhere in my heart- even though my 8th grade and high school years there were the hardest years of my life. When you go through something traumatic though, you associate it with the school you go to because that’s the place you have to spend most of your time while experiencing it. I always said how much I hated it there while I went, but looking back, I’ve come to realize that it’s not the school, but the things I went through while I was there.

Sure, there were definitely things there that didn’t help, but everything has its downsides. The people could’ve been kinder and less fake… or just not have been there period. But disregarding this, they’ve taught me how to have patience and find love for my self somehow. After moving from one friend group to another,  I found that I have to love myself if I want others to have respect for me- because you can’t expect others to respect you if you don’t respect yourself. I often think about all the friends I’ve lost while going there, whether it was because of a fight we had or we just went our separate ways. It makes me sad to think about how quickly we quit talking and moved on… but do we really ever move on from the people we once loved? I don’t hate them for not being there for me anymore though, In fact- I hope they are doing the best they ever have. I don’t need them to be happy, I have friends now that have helped me more than they ever have. And some of them I’ve only known for a little over a month. That’s a good thing about this school. Because it is so small, it’s easy to get close to everyone. The people here and the people there are so different in that aspect. Everyone is so friendly, out going, accepting of who you are, and they just have so much love to give. I find it hard to comprehend that there are so many people like that in one setting. There are a couple people like that at my old school, but the count is very small.

I never disliked my teachers there either. I could always find something I was fond of them for, as I can do here too. But I distinctly remember loving all my teachers in my high school years. As I come to think about it, the main people I considered my friends were, in fact, teachers. As sad as that may sound, I’m not ashamed of it because they helped me through so much- in ways no student could. I basically had my own room at Oak Grove on F hall with all my favorite teachers in, beside, or across it. That class room was the room I spent most of my time in, and I always made sure I went in it at least once a day.  I will never forget all the memories created in that room and with those teachers. The best times at Oak Grove High School for sure. I remember for power hour (a daily hour break) every day last year I went to that room and played Uno with all my friends for the whole hour and we developed many different ways to break the rules and play more fun, but It would often end in results of getting upset.

Sometimes I think I miss it there, but then I realize how much more I like it here lol. Although, I do miss the people…(well, some of them :). Okay. That’s all I have to say for now. Thanks for reading, I love you guys.

 

From Hattiesburg to Brookhaven

“How do you like living in Brookhaven?” I’m honestly kinda tired of being asked that repeated question. Is it different? Yes. Very different- not necessarily in a bad way, but it’s much smaller. In fact, It’s about 1/5 the size.When I go to California and Utah, I realize that there’s a lot of cities I consider big- Hattiesburg is not one of them. But I never realized how big it is until I came here, where you can drive 20 minutes and already know where everything is.

In geometry the other day, the students and teacher were talking about how they couldn’t live in Hattiesburg. “No offense Katie Spiers,” my teacher added to her criticism of my home town. “It’s too big. I don’t think I’ve even seen grass there.” I couldn’t help but laugh at this comment (Not out loud of course). If she thinks Hattiesburg is that big, I wonder what she would think of California. 

I never stay on the weekends here, so I don’t really have a perspective on what there is and isn’t to do. A lot of people say Hattiesburg has so much to do, and when you compare the options, I can see why people think it’s so big. There we have a mall, 2 movie theaters (one with an arcade), a skating rink, laser tag, trampoline park, escape rooms, bowling ally, many good stores and thrift shops, and countless restaurants. Actually, as I sat there and typed that out, it changed my idea of how lame it is because it actually has a pretty good variety of things to do. Also, let me make a distinct thought of mine clear: just because a town is small doesn’t mean its lame. yes, I did just think of that. On the other hand, Brookhaven has some things to do too, sure it doesn’t compare to all the things Hattiesburg has, but it’s the small things that count. Especially in this instance. Something that surprises me about this quaint town is that, no matter the size, It has a very sufficient number of bakeries. I think I’ve counted 3 so far. I’ve only been to one, but mannn it was good. I’ve heard only good things about the others, so i’ll take the local people’s word for its decency. Other than the bakeries, there are a pretty good amount of fast food restaurants and thrift stores (sadly though, I have been to no thrift stores- I know. tragic). Oh! And they also have a movie theater really close, but that doesn’t really apply to me because I’m a msa student- meaning I have no time. Or money. I honestly don’t think i’m experienced in the town enough to write about it due to the fact that I’ve only been living here for about a month in a half, so I don’t really know everything that’s here, which I’m sure that will change give or take a couple months. Even though I haven’t lived here that long, I’m really warming up to this little town and all the amazing people in it.

Outside, the view from my room at home and the view from my dorm room at school are so incredibly different at night. At home, the pale moonlight would shine it’s gentle light through my blinds and it would always call me to my window. I could see my back yard turned almost black by the clear starry night with the shadows of all the tall pine trees being lengthened by the radiating white moon. At school, I look outside and see the buildings that remind me of New Orleans, compacted together, lit up by lights strung through the town, reminding me of Christmas. Both are so beautiful, but so different. It reminds me of people in a way, Hattiesburg representing one, Brookhaven representing another- everything about them is so different, giving them the trait of uniqueness everyone possesses, and yet, they are both equally as beautiful. Weather they are lit up my strung lights, or the smiling moon, both create a warming comfort while enjoying their features.

There will probably be a part 2 to this… just letting you know 😉

 

 

 

no one is incapable of love

Everyone, I’m sure, feels at some point they are incapable of being loved. Not the unconditional love your parents, siblings, grandparents, and other family feel for you, but the love it seems you have to work to earn. I’ve felt this way for years, however, it wasn’t until someone else that I care about told me they felt the same way that I realized It wasn’t my fault. It’s not anything I did or said, and it’s not anything about me that makes people treat me the indifferent way they do. It’s not that you can’t be loved, it’s that people our age are too immature and self-centered that they don’t “waste” their time on other people to love. It’s the kind of love you have to work for to earn that is nearly impossible to feel because desperately, you work to earn it, but the other person doesn’t work to give it.

You can’t go through this life hopelessly looking for people to love you so you can find love for yourself. All you will find is disappointment, and the reinforced lie that you aren’t lovable will seem to have more truth. we base what we believe on experience and perspective. If you base your worth on the way people act and what they say, you will never find love for yourself. Even if what they say is kind and complementary, you can’t rely on it to boost your confidence. You have to allow yourself to love yourself and find that part of you, and not expect those around you to do it for you. In the end, all you have is yourself and the feelings you create.

I’m not writing this to talk about how people are the worst (which they often are), but I’m writing this to give you the advice to love yourself. People will respect you and love you so much more if you respect and love yourself. It’s hard, but it’s not impossible.