Llama

Castle in the sky

I wish to stand atop your frozen hawk

What made you crumble so

Why don’t you

Soar free

Any longer?

Chambers

with nothing but prideful shadows

beckon inside

But you are already enchanted

all those

pastel vortexes

twist you up

But you are at ease

with your winding fate

Did its grandeur distract you from

Every illusion

On your way up

Did your feathers melt away 

before they could sustain you any longer

Did you let them go willingly 

Do you miss them

or do you prefer

feeling the wind 

against your bare burnt body

It soothes

It slices

You are ashen

glowing

but ashen

You fall

to the bottom of the ocean

Instantly

dispersing 

with the fleeing waves

until there is nothing

but stillness

No more attempts at

characterizing the void

Spin me in your webs

of twilight wonder

Mold my frame into something I’d be proud of

Let me learn how to trust my own tools

Scrape away at myself

Chip chip chip

Crack crack crack

Is that why

you hid them?

You were tired

of cleaning up

after me

My stubbornness

refusing to lend

you an ear

Obstinate decisions 

Unwilling choices

Decisive actions

Foreign dreams

offer me a tawdry future

I want no part of

But I want the dreams

I want to know what made them want to gift me that

What made them search me out

find me

and reach their tender claws out

grab a hold of me

make themselves noticeable

implant those shrill memories

back in me

After I went through all that

to forget

Dissociate my consciousness 

Bring me back to the volatile stars

I want the dreams so badly

Spirit tongues

charm me

with their 

zany muttering

I miss holding them

in my makeshift palms

Pulling at them

tugging

biting them off

just to have a morsel

of what they taste

Words don’t give them justice

so I had to give it to them myself

And now there’s nothing more

I have to say