I don’t know why my mom is the way she is and to be quite honest I can’t find it in me to care. All I know is that it has nothing to do with me. She’s been miserable her whole life, I don’t think she would know what to do with herself if she wasn’t. I can’t do anything about that. However, I suppose most people in my situation would assume that it was their fault. People tend to always blame themselves for not being loved by others. That it has to be them that is lacking something. I don’t think like that. My mom never took the time to get to know me so how would she know what I’m lacking? I think if people listened more they would understand that not everything is a result of their doing. Sometimes things in life just happen and it’s out of your control. Some people are just bad. Some people are just good. Some people just don’t mix, and “who had a baby with who” doesn’t matter or change that. No matter how you’re connected, it doesn’t change how they live their life. They’re not obligated to care or cater to you. Sometimes what they choose will benefit you and sometimes it will hurt you. You’ll do the same to them. You can’t always influence the people around you. Sometimes the chemistry just isn’t there. Sometimes all you can do is leave. So I did.
This is an inner monologue of my character Pino; he’s from a comic project I’m working on.
“People tend to always blame themselves for not being loved by others. That it has to be them that is lacking something. I don’t think like that.” Even when the situation is about other people, they are still self absorbed and believe the world and all it’s problems, revolves around them. Sometimes it has absolutely nothing to do with you.
I really enjoy this unique perspective. I really understood where Pino came from, and I love how you’re combining this writing with a comic project. There was a lot of vulnerability talking about the mother that I loved. Amazing job!
I am already very excited for the comic and to read more of your work! 🙂