Wow, I never realized how much the pandemic had been affecting some of the things in my daily life. For example, I’m on this whole self-love journey, yet I have been by myself, at my house. I have been virtual and away from school for months. The biggest missions I’ve been tackling were the issues that I face with myself to myself, but I never thought about what would happen when people would be added to the mix.
A melting pot of personalities and differing people are constantly around me now that I go to school in person again. In a way, I can see the growth in how I handle situations from before, but I am running into a situation that leaves me uneasy. It is what’s keeping me from my usual concerts on the solo drives to now causing my mind to wander from reality, no concert.
Okay, so. One of the biggest aspects of my journey I feel is learning to love myself, and do things for me and not always for others. Always. That’s the kicker.
We are supposed to think about ourselves and our own mental capacities, but what happens when it goes too far? Can it? What is the point when your actions become viewed as narcissistic? Is it based on your mental health in relation to those affected in the decisions?
This is the basis of thought for which my mind has recently been astray. I don’t want to become ignorant to situations because I feel like it’s all about my journey.
I had to take a moment away from this blog post to have more time to think on the situation. After a couple days, I think I have come to some sort of consensus.
One’s own mental journey is important, but it is when you start only focusing on yourself that things may become problematic. When you become hyper-concerned on just your life and forget to hold the empathy and thought that you yourself may expect others to display for you is when there is a shift.
You are no longer helping yourself, but almost closing yourself off to experiencing and seeing real interactions all around you. One may not even notice the vulnerability and relatability in others. It can isolate you to only talking about yourself or doing things selfishly.
The best thing is, which comes with difficulty, to remember everyone struggles. Also, sometimes you just gotta exit your body and look at the whole situation as a whole from all perspectives. Empathy is golden.
If you haven’t been doing this, don’t worry. The fact you may be at least seriously trying is a sign you’re becoming a decent human beings, and the world can always use those. 😉
If you struggle with this, don’t stress yourself out too much. If it was easy everyone would be doing it religiously. I think in a show I saw an AA modo is like: One day at a time. Or something? That’s so cheesy, but I meann it is kinda true.
Anyways, I wanna go ahead and give a little video for you all. It is something that may not go with the theme of this blog too well, but at least you can jam to it during your journeys. It is called “Poor Fake” by Kelsey Lu. For once this is an English recommendation, which doesn’t happen much, but yeah ! Also, don’t be offset by the slow start because it picks up…so here is ρŌΘℜ f∀κë… in that link ℘
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRG6dDrpj0s