Surprises in Unlikely Places

Last weekend my family and I were deep cleaning our house in preparation for a party. My grandfather’s birthday is October 27th and we’ve agreed to host his birthday dinner at our house. We aren’t necessarily messy people, but we’re a family of four creatives who also have issues with hoarding sentimental objects so our main issue is organization. My dad and I were focused on moving things to storage that no longer needed to be at our house while my sibling and mom focused on cleaning the inside and fixing up some broken appliances. 

My dad and I spent most of our time outside on the side porch. There were two large boxes full of cleaning supplies, caked in dust and grime. After going through them, most were things my mom had been looking for and they were quickly re-organized inside where they belong. There were also two medium sized containers of pet treatments, all of which were 10 or more years old. To my dad’s disappointment, we had to throw away at least one full bottle of flea treatment. 

Once the side porch was cleared of all unnecessary things, my dad swept and dusted as best he could. Later, my sibling and I helped my dad move an outside table from the front porch to the newly cleaned side porch. While we were moving the table, we decided to finally open the large, industrial freezer-shaped box that sits in the corner of the porch. We hadn’t opened it because we assumed it was more outside items that needed to be there, but our curiosity got the best of us. There were a load of unlabeled boxes and bags, none of which needed to sit outside any longer. My dad started rifling through one of the boxes and found a bunch of plates, napkins, utensils, and decorations for a birthday party. We immediately decided to store them for my grandad’s upcoming party. 

My dad pulled out a drawstring bag that had my deadname written on it and handed it to me as he continued to rifle through the trunk. I opened the bag and found at least half of a collection that I had convinced myself I’d lost years ago. Deep in this dirty bag, buried in a trunk out on my porch for the past however many years- my Monster High dolls. There were a few Ever After High dolls and even one My Little Pony doll as well. I was hit with immediate excitement, nostalgia, and indescribable joy. I took the bag inside to begin sorting through what all was in there. It was not my complete collection, but it gave me the confidence that I would find the rest of them. 

Who Is Sodikken?

Trigger Warning-Some songs pertain to self-harm and suicidal ideations which will be discussed down below.

Are you into alternative forms of music? Melody’s that make you question what its creator wanted you to feel? Along with lyrics that if paid attention to reveal unnerving stories and truths. Well then, I have a creator perfect for you and today who exactly they are and what they do.

Sodikken is both a music artist and YouTube creator who blew up in the 2021 through 2022 era. They are known mostly for their songs Misery meat, People eater, and HANSEL of course along with GRETEL. If your Tik Tok for you page is more music based on lands you on the niche sides of things you have probably heard snippets of these songs. Onto what some of these songs are about though as they play an overall theme in most of Sodikken’s songs. The creator is known to create upbeat and joyous melodies that seem conflicting with the lyrics being sung. Examples of this can be found in the song HANSEL and the character that Sodikken created who we know as Hansel. This song is about a boy who lives in a family of four and along with another main character in Sodikken’s series Gretel. We come to learn Hansel is the least favorite member/ child in the family and this deeply impacts them. This is what the whole song HANSEL revolves around is Hansel speaking on how they self-harm with knives and fire for attention as they never get any. They also go on to speak on how they are jealous of their sister Gretel and wish they were like them or even were them so they could receive love. The song ultimately ends when Hansel commits suicide and makes commentary on how they finally received a party to celebrate just them when in reality they are talking about their funeral.

The song HANSEL only gives us one side of the story though. The story Gretel shows us that Gretel did not have as easy and favorable of a life as Hansel made it out to be. Through this song we learn Gretel has a skin condition known as FAMMM (Familia Atypical multiple mole melanoma). This condition led to Gretel being relentlessly bullied and made fun of for her appearance. This leads to her becoming aggressive to those who have mocked her or make fun of her condition. One day while on a walk she is stabbed by a man who mistakes her for a monster due to her condition and anger but before this there are other concerning lyrics that hint to the fact, she may have already been planning her death.  The song has many mentions of mangos and cherries which the pits in small amounts contain cyanide. Keep in mind while both songs HANSEL and GRETEL are being sung if one were to not pay attention to the lyrics these would seem like upbeat and cheerful songs.

As we can see Sodikken is an extremely talented musician and both writer t0 think of tackling such serious topics while still being able to produce such melodies. If any of these songs or their meanings sound like something you would find interesting, I encourage you to check out their music! They have yet to upload any music since 2022 but the albums they have produced before then are something truly remarkable.

Image result for gretel from sodikkenImage result for hasel from sodikkenSODIKKEN - GRETEL - YouTube

My Own Time Capsule (Steph’s Spotify Account)

I’ve had my Spotify Account since 2019. I celebrated its 5th birthday this past April, while I also celebrated my 10-year anniversary of living in America. It’s so strange to look through my Spotify app because I haven’t deleted anything. There’s 5 years worth of data just sitting there, completely untouched. That’s probably why I don’t have any storage on my phone, but I’m a very sentimental person so I have to keep those awful playlists.

My “Liked Songs” playlist is a literal time capsule. I can scroll through all 1,337 songs and remember the exact time when I added each to the playlist. In a few months from now, I’ll scroll through and remember all the Fiona Apple songs I’ve added recently. Or I’ll find all of the Chappell Roan and flowerovlove that I added over the summer. 2020-2022 is definitely a dark period so I just close my eyes while I scroll through that section. Those songs don’t get mentioned. Ever.

Recently, I’ve gotten to a point where I organize my playlists extremely specifically. I’ve already touched on that (and my Pinterest boards!) in a past blog so I won’t dwell. I make playlists for almost every scenario imaginable. When I was moving into MSA, I made 3 separate playlists for packing, driving, and unpacking. I haven’t bothered to listen to those since then, but I know when I do, I’ll feel like I’m moving in all over again. 

“Steph’s Current Tunes” is my number one playlist and also the oldest playlist that I still listen to. The only reason that’s possible is because it’s constantly changing. It’s always alternating to whatever my favorite songs are at the time. The songs don’t even have to fit in together at all, I just need a place where I can find whatever song I want to listen to as fast as possible. Right now, it’s about 3 hours long because I haven’t taken out any songs since summer, but usually it’s around 1 hour.

My most recent playlist is titled “Up In Steph’s Room” just like my RISE article. It’s just supposed to capture my experience of being a teenage girl, just like many of my other playlists. This one is a little more refined than the others and it’s still a work in progress. My top 3 songs from this playlist are “Don’t Let the Good Life Pass You By” by Cass Elliot, “Teenage Girl” by Cherry Glazerr (of course), and “Real Love Baby” by Father John Misty.

The playlist that sits closest to my heart is titled “your new life will cost you your old one.” That’s also one of my favorite quotes and it’s by Brianna Weist. I found it towards the beginning of the year and it still resonates with me so deeply. I made that playlist near the end of my sophomore year at my old school when I knew I would be leaving for MSA. My number one song from that playlist is “Don’t Delete the Kisses” by Wolf Alice.

As I’m making my 216th playlist, I feel proud that I have so much on my Spotify account. Even if all of my downloaded songs are taking up most of my storage, I’m glad that I haven’t deleted the account or anything. I think I’ll try to keep it up for years to come.

Blog #6

I first read the House on Mango Street in my 7th grade English class. Back then, I didn’t find detailed heritage books interesting. There was a lot of Spanish in it and the main character had a funny name, that was all I knew. This year, I reread it. Mostly, because it has some interesting language. Partly because my friend was reading it, and she has good taste. Anyway, this friend was showing me the books she planned on reading this month, and in them was a small novel. It looked like 200 or so pages. When she pulled it from the shelf, I immediately got flash backs of my English teacher reading aloud the life of Esperanza Cordero over a glitchy zoom call. The weird thing about class novels is no matter how uninteresting it is at the time; you don’t forget it. You may not remember any events of it, but you can recall reading the great Gatsby in 9th grade.

What surprised me was my reaction to the book. I didn’t think I would be enthusiastic to see it again after 2-3 years. The memory of hardly staying awake during its reading came back to me and I thought: Why am I happy to see it again? Part of me was very reluctant to read it, but another part of me just wanted something to read. So, I read it, and it was good. The house on mango street follows the life of Esperanza, whose family just moved into a new neighborhood. It’s a poor area mostly sustaining of Mexican immigrants. From a first person POV, Esperanza vividly tells the story of living on mango street as well as her experiences as a 12-year-old Mexican American girl.

Honestly, I read the book for the writing style, which is so raw, vulnerable, and deltaic. But what hooked me was the theme of childhood. And I’m not connected to my own inner child or whatever, I just deal with age. However, the life of Esperanza opened doors to this thinking. The trials of childhood are too significant for us to leave and never look at again. Why? Because we need to learn about ourselves. Reminiscing about your childhood could provide answers to a struggle. I didn’t know that I preferred going to the playground over the movies because I wasn’t allowed to go to the playground. My mom worked a double shift, and she didn’t have enough energy to take me. But at the movies, she had time to rest her eyes, and I was entranced in finding nemo. I realized I only went to the movies because I felt like I had to.  At 17 years old, I was still carrying around the disappointment of having to sit through finding nemo instead of swinging on the swing set. This is why going back to those distant, unpleasant memories feeds our current selves. So, we can grow into our true selves with no mental restraints.

 

 

 

               

Miscast

This weekend, I had the pleasure of going to bot Miscast shows. I wasn’t able to get tickets when they were on sale, so I thought I wasn’t going to be able to attend. Thankfully, I met some really nice people who gave me free tickets. Seeing that show was life changing to me. I have seen your average choir performance before, but that show was something else. Not once have I ever sat down and heard someone sing like that in person. I don’t think a single person did bad. They all sung their hearts out and you could really tell how hard they were working.

The point of Miscast is for people to sing songs that they normally wouldn’t sing. So, girls would sing songs traditionally sung by guys, and guys would sing songs traditionally sung by girls. They all got a chance to come out and sing solo songs and some got to also do duets or quartets. Some people had more theatrical songs that required them to move around and act, and some had less theatrical once that had them just sing their hearts out.

I have heard the vocals practice in the morning with warm-ups and stuff, but I have never heard them go all out. I’ve never even heard my roommate sing like that and he sings in the room all the time. Therefore, it was amazing to see all my friends in vocal and other people sing with their soul and give it their all. It really reminded me how talented people here really are. I was so happy to congratulate all the people who sung and worked on the show. The lights were stunning, the stage was set up nicely, and everybody did great. Except for a few audience members that didn’t know proper theatre etiquette.

I got to meet a lot of parents and new people while I was there too. Everyone was just so sweet. Also, I think the quartet and Keegan Carpenter’s was the best ones. The quartet sounded so nice and fun, and you could really tell they worked hard on it. Keegan is my roommate so I’m very biased, but I was so astonished to see him sing like that. It was so amazing. 

All in all, Miscast was a near lifechanging experience for me. The music was beautiful, it was set up with care, and everybody was nice. I can’t wait for the next vocal event.

Inside by Bo Burnham. Pt.2

1. Don’t Wanna Know 1:03

This song starts with Bo asking a bunch of questions and then saying he doesn’t want to know the answer. That’s about it! He starts to have a crisis asking if anyone else is out there, saying he thought it would be over by now but there’s still a while to go. “Never mind, I don’t wanna know.”

All 20 Songs in Bo Burnham's 'Inside' Special, Ranked

(Skipping the next song!! It’s just Bo talking about feeling like poop.)

3. All time low 0:54

In this song Bo talks about his mental health and how it is approaching and ATL. He says he’s okay when he sleeps, but as soon as he wakes up, he has a feeling deep inside. “A few things starts to happen. My vision starts to flatter. My heart, it gets to tapping, and I think I’m gonna die.”

Bo Burnham’s Inside: Millennial Music Man with a Movie Camera | Page 4 ...

4. Welcome to the internet 4:35

One of the most popular songs in this whole album. Bo sings about the internet and everything you can see and do! There’s a duality from calmer things to more drastic incidents that can occur. From straining pasta to someone dying, there’s everything! It’s everything, all the time and there will only be more the more people feed into it. He speaks about how not even that long ago everything was different until the newer generation who was exposed at such a young age. The younger people who were easily drawn to iPads and phones. At first it was meant to be a breakthrough, we were meant to be in power, but we’re just controlled by our devices. “Apathy’s a tragedy and boredom is a crime.” 

Here’s a look at every song in Bo Burnham: Inside • Flixist

5. Bezos II 0:45

Unlike the first song, Bo doesn’t really talk about Jeff Bezos, all he does is say his name over and over with little adlibs like. “You did it!” and “Congratulations!”. “Jeffery Bezos”

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6. That funny feeling 5:01

In this song Bo sings an acoustic song about a funny feeling. He uses many statements explaining what this feeling can be. Some things more serious than others like “Obeying all the traffic laws in Grand Theft Auto V” or “A book on getting better hand delivered by a drone.” Bo sings about how we were overdue, but it’ll be over soon. “There it is again, that funny feeling.”

That Funny Feeling -- Bo Burnham (from "Inside") - YouTube Music

7. All eyes on me 5:02

Bo starts this song by singing and telling everyone to put their hands up and get out of their seats. All eyes on him. He starts asking the listener questions. If they’re nervous or having fun. Bo then talks to us about how he quit five years ago due to having panic attacks on stage. He spent his time improving to get better and says that he did. He decided to preform again in January of 2020 but “the funniest thing happened”. He continues to sing saying it’s almost over, but it just begun. He tells the listener don’t overthink it. But then goes on to say the ocean is rising and the world is ending. For the rest of his song, he repeatedly says get your hands up, get out of your seats, all eyes on him. “You say the whole world’s ending, honey, it already did.”

Bo Burnham's 'Inside' Ending Analysis: the Power of 'All Eyes on Me ...

8. Goodbye 4:09

In this song Bo starts off bidding his farewell. He talks about how hard it is to joke with no one laughing in the background. Is this how it ends, he asks before he promises to never go outside again. He talks about losing power, how time is passing by slowly. He tells the listener next time they should be the one entertaining and he’ll sit on the couch and watch. He wants to hear you tell a joke with no one laughing in the background. He feels like he’s even crazy, he feels like he’s right back where he started. All he ever wanted was a little bit of everything all of the time. He goes back to the song comedy, saying if he wakes up in a house that full of smoke he’ll panic. So, call him up and tell him a joke. Is this really the time for jokes though? “Well, well, look who’s inside again.”

Bo Burnham :: Goodbye [slowed + reverbed] - YouTube

9. Any day now 0:57

A short song of him saying it’ll stop any day now. That’s it! “It will stop any day now.”

Any Day Now - Inside, Bo Burnham (Full Credits) - YouTube

That’s concludes inside! I may do the outtakes if I dare to rewatch it and not cry from the chicken song.

 

 

So You Want to Make Your Own TTRPG…

If you’ve ever participated in a tabletop roleplay game, listened to a podcast of a campaign, or simply read through a TTRPG handbook, you’d understand the vast and limitless worlds within these stories. Maybe you’ve thought it’s simply too hard or time consuming to try and create your own TTRPG. I’m here to present you with an easy-to-follow guide for how to create your first TTRPG experience, no matter your skill level. 

1. Blueprints

Here is where you will be asking yourself the big questions: Where is this campaign taking place? What sort of creatures might the players encounter? Is there a lore-based storyline you want to implement, or is it just a go-with-the-flow sort of story? I suggest writing down some rough notes about the themes you want to include, settings, monsters, and major goals of your future players. As for building your new universe, I suggest creating a Pinterest board with images of locations and monsters to help you visualize where the players will be and who they will encounter. Linked below are some of my own inspiration boards.
Monster Inspiration/Sheets or Inspo Board for a specific campaign.

2. The Base.

Now that you’ve got the outline of your campaign, let’s start filling in the structure. Now is when you will develop a storyline. You have a plethora of options; you could use your character’s backstories to build a plot, base your world around mythology or pre-existing stories, or create a plot-less campaign that’s left up to the player’s control. Regardless of your structure, you’re going to need to plan out the monsters/fights that your players might encounter. These fights will serve as the major climax events in your storyline. The build up events can be anything from gathering supplies, interacting with townspeople, exploring the unknown, or sitting around playing card games. I suggest drawing out a simple plot diagram- even if you don’t have a concrete end to your story yet. Map out the events you know for certain you want to include, and get inspired by other campaigns or stories to help you fill in the rest.

3. The Floors.

You’re going to need some non-playable characters to fill up the empty space in this new campaign. They can be important figures who will return time and time again to help the player, or they can be random one-off characters who you throw in for one campaign and then kill off. For the more important characters, I suggest creating a very simple character sheet. You don’t need to know their exact stats on everything, but class, race, and health level would be important. As for your one-off characters, a brief bio is enough. Here are some NPC examples from my own campaigns.

Around this time you’re also going to want to consider creating a map for your new universe. I am not a fan of maps myself but they can be helpful, especially when handling monsters with specific attacks. There are a plethora of online map builders- I will add, most are difficult to use, or cost money to work effectively, so I highly suggest creating your own map on paper. For my most recent campaign, I created one large map of the entire town within the universe, then a handful of smaller maps that zoom in on the buildings within this town. The players were able to create their own paper player figures as well. Once again, maps are not a necessity, but they can be a helpful tool during battle.

4. The Walls.

Next is easily the most fun and most difficult aspect of building a campaign. You need to compile your monsters, note down their stats, special moves, and other important battle information. I suggest making a small reference bio to keep in your notes so you don’t have to carry around an entire character sheet for each monster your players will encounter. Here’s an example of one of my mini bios for a monster my campaign fought:

Ancient White Dragon
300 hp, claw atk 2d10, tail atk 2d6, breath weapon (targeted atk) 3d10
stealth bonus (+6), armor class 20, dodge hits 12≤

Something like this will help you keep track of the important information you’ll need in the middle of an intense battle. You can find this sort of information in most dungeon master handbooks or on the D&D Beyond website. 

5. Electrical and Plumbing.

Setting a chapter or act based pace for your campaigns will help you tremendously with writing your story. For example, in my first campaign as a DM, we would only have about 2 hours for each session. This is much shorter than most campaigns, thus confining my players to a shorter quest for that act. My general structure for these short sessions was to start with giving the players a chance to roam/explore their surroundings, discuss events from the last session, or search for the next pivotal point in the storyline. After that, we would have 1-2 monster encounters depending on the strength of the beast. For example, if they were fighting a large monster who’s defeat would be a pivotal plot point, that would be the only fight of the session. If they were to fight less powerful monsters, perhaps in search of weapons or bonus items, there would be multiple battle opportunities for the players to gain more bonuses. 

It’s important that you also propose options to your players. While having a clearly set storyline is good, it’s also vital that your players have the opportunity to use their creativity. Depending on your story structure, these options might be the main gimmick of the storyline (a sort of butterfly effect story). Most of my campaigns have an even split between options and set plot lines as my players (my parents, my younger sibling, and my sibling’s friends) aren’t entirely comfortable with making many choices during sessions. It’s important that you are able to change certain aspects of your story to cater to your players’ needs. If you’re playing with experienced players, it’s likely that they will ask to do/attempt something that you never considered. Always expect the unexpected and be prepared to meet their suggestions with enthusiasm. 

6. Furnishing and Decor.

These final details will be almost entirely up to you. It is your responsibility to determine the number range of skill roll results that will allow a character to complete an action. There are dungeon master handbooks you can follow for advice on these details, but my general structure is to cater certain options to certain players and leave others up to luck. For example, If I know one of my players has a high dexterity modifier, I might include an interaction within the game where players must make a dexterity roll of 15 or higher in order to receive a bonus. Another and much more common example is when players are exploring a new location. If that location has plot relevance, it will be up to players with high history, perception, or even arca modifiers in order to roll high enough to identify the important details within an area. For instance, my first campaign followed closely with Norse mythology. In order to learn more about the history and lore of their town, players had to roll high in history, perception, investigation, and arcana. Make sure that the story will be able to continue, regardless of if your players are able to make high enough rolls. Not every piece of information needs to be vital!

If you have any remaining questions or concerns, I’ve added two of my campaigns that follow very different structures. Neither are complete, but the information is still a relevant example. Remember that your notes do not need to be the ultimate formal writing- Make them legible to you! I struggle to follow dungeon master handbooks because of how convoluted they tend to be structured, so always feel free to adjust things in a way that makes the most sense for you. 

Netflix Series Rankings: Umbrella Academy

Overview

 This series is about a Netflix tv show called umbrella academy that recently came to an end and I’m mad about it so I’m going to rank my favorite characters and powers.

 

Rough summary 

so, the show begins with 7 kids being born on the same day while their mothers weren’t pregnant at the time they still gave birth to them. they then gave said children to Reginald Hargreaves and he raised them to become superhero’s, but they abandoned that career when they became older. they are all brought back when their foster father died, and their missing brother comes from the future to warn them of the coming apocalypse.  

1. Klaus (Seance) 

Klause Hargreaves, or number 4 is a member of umbrella academy after his time in the spotlight at being a hero his power terrified him so he began to take drugs and acholic so he wouldn’t see the ghosts anymore.  his powers include Spirit possession, hovering, speak to the dead, manipulating ghost, telekinesis and immortality.  he is the strongest in his family in both comics and show and he was so annoying that neither heaven nor hell wanted him.

power 10/10

character 10/10 

Victor Hargreaves

Viktor Hargreaves number 7 was a member of the academy but was perceived powerless by his father so he never gave him a spot on the superhero and was essentially the black sheep of the family. since he never went on missions he never had a good relationship so when they all split up he wasn’t as affected by it. he later went on to become a author when he wrote about his exprinces as the black sheep. Powers: Vocal destruction, energy manipulation.

Character: 6/10

Power :9/10

Allison Hargreaves

Allision Hargreaves number 4 is a member of umbrella academy and was a member of their superhero team. After the disbandment of the superhero team she became a renoune actor with a husband and daughter after using her powers on her daughter her husband divorced her and got custody of her daughter. (she also r- her brother)

my opinion: she’s a terrible character with no real motivation and is completely selfish and disregards everyone’s want or needs.

power (voice reality manipulation ) 9/10

character 2/10

sorry this blog isn’t so good I’ve been sick all week long and have been trying to handle that. i will be doing a part 2 at a later time

A Note on Suicide…

The following is an article I wrote for MSA’s school newspaper, RISE. I am one of the co-heads of the Health & Wellness section. Please go check out the entire paper and help support Journalism in schools.

TW: Information about suicide.

Suicide Helpline numbers will be included at the end of this blog post.

In honor of the end of Suicide Prevention Month, I am writing a post on suicide. This is a very grim topic, and I apologize if this is uncomfortable for many of you, but this is something that is a very real threat to our lives. Nobody is completely protected from the causes of suicide, but by talking about it, we can be more aware of it and make it less of something to be hidden. Hiding these feelings, normally called suicidal ideations, is how they go unnoticed. This is dangerous for reasons that I shouldn’t even have to explain.
Suicide, by definition, is the act of harming oneself with the intent to kill. Suicidal ideation is the continued thought of this act. Suicidal ideation is incredibly hard to diagnose or prevent, given that we cannot monitor thoughts. We can monitor behaviors, but if the affected individual is adept at hiding these behaviors, then it can be nigh impossible.
We can look for warning signs, though. These are some of the most common warning signs of suicide: speaking about killing oneself or wanting to die, talking about feeling trapped or hopeless, acting anxious or agitated; being reckless, increased use of alcohol or drugs, extreme mood swings, self-isolation, drastic change in sleep such as sleeping too little or too much, displaying increased aggression, rage, or seeking revenge, and finally, searching for a way to kill oneself, such as searching online, buying a gun, or commonly buying an excess of sleeping pills.
These signs are easily dismissed as being a teenager, and sometimes the sudden influx of hormones do share the signs, but recognizing these signs in family, friends, or children is paramount to their safety. I’m not asking that my readers be constantly vigilant, but somewhat. If anyone you know has had a drastic change in mood, personality or behavior, please check up on them.
This is a topic that is difficult to even write about, much less discuss, but I implore you, dear readers, to be careful. If you notice these signs in yourself as well, please talk to someone about it.
Suicidal thoughts can arise during long periods of excess conflict, change, high local suicide rates, or loss of relationships or a job. Cultural and religious beliefs can also increase the likelihood of suicide by bringing a stigma to the discussion of it, or by making a person believe that it is a noble solution to a personal or interpersonal problem. This is highly incorrect.
Dear reader, if you are struggling with these feelings, I have something I would like you to know. I don’t care if you feel that you have nothing to offer the world. You do. You may not see it, but I know for a fact that you have things to offer the world and others around you. Your smile is beautiful, even if you may not show it, and you have the ability to brighten the day of the people you meet. Even just in a passing smile, or general compliment, you can make someone’s day so much better. You could prevent someone else from feeling the same way you do.
This article is intended to be both a warning and a message to those struggling with suicidal thoughts or those who believe they are completely unaffected by them. Nobody is completely invulnerable to anything, but if we as a society can move past the stigma about suicide, we can make this a world worth living in. I believe that everyone has something to offer our world, even if they do not see it themselves. With that, I will leave suicide hotlines at the bottom of this article. If you need help, do not be afraid to seek it. You deserve all the help that you can get. You matter.


Dial 911 if you are in immediate danger.

Suicide Lifeline
Dial or Text 988 for Hotline
Or, visit chat.988lifeline.org to chat online.

Dial 211 if you are in crisis and need emergency referrals to social and community services but are not currently experiencing a life-threatening emergency

The Youthline specializes in teen-to-teen crisis support, and can be reached from 4-10pm PST for peer services by texting ‘teen2teen’ to 839863, otherwise, it is staffed 24/7 by adult crisis responders at (877) 968-8491

The Trevor Project for LGBTQ+ and questioning youth
1(866) 488-7386

What the Clue?

After a short intermission, we’re back to the regularly scheduled program of ruining your childhood television shows and movies. In this installment we will discuss the TV show Blue’s Clues. 

If you have not seen this TV show (how in the world have you not?), here is a brief explanation of it for you: Blue is a dog that loves to leave clues around the house for her owner, Steve, for what she wants to do that day or what she is feeling. There are talking inanimate objects in the show, like other kid’s shows. Steve writes all of these clues in his “handy dandy notebook” as the objects around the home help him figure out what Blue is hinting at. This goes on for around the entirety of the 30-minute episode as Blue puts a blue paw print on an object in the house or in the front/backyard to hint towards what she wants or is feeling. Around halfway through the episode, our adventure is interrupted by the mailbox flying into the house to deliver a letter. Steve sings the “we just got a letter” song and opens the message. We are greeted by children somewhere in the world who ask Steve an educational question. He usually answers it in 2 minutes, and we go back to our scavenger hunt.

One thing that I have learned from this show is to not tell someone what you want up front, to string them along with clues and make them figure it out themselves. Or at least that’s what Blue does throughout the entire series. She makes Steve and the other characters involved speculate what she actually wants instead of voicing it. If the inanimate objects like the salt and pepper shakers can talk, so can the neon blue dog.

Another thing that didn’t sit well with me was the mailbox… how in the world did he get into Steve’s house every episode with a letter from children, does he go in through the door or window? How did the children have Steve’s address? Why are these kids mailing a grown man a letter? There are so many questions I have that could lead into categories that might get out of hand.

Another question I have is, why does Steve own so many child-like things. A pail and shovel for his backyard, a tire swing in the front? It just concerns me considering that he is a full-grown man. Maybe a family owned the house before and that explains the swing, but not the toys.

Also, why doesn’t Steve have a job? He spends every day figuring out what his dog wants and talking to inanimate objects instead of being a regular adult. Why does he make conversation with his dog, spices, soap, shovel, bucket, ducks, mailbox, and other objects every single day? How has no one questioned this man’s mental state or even had him evaluated? He’s at least in his mid-twenties and all he does is sit at home and talk to objects. Anyone know if Steve is actually ok?