World Building Project pt. 3

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By now I think some of you have taken note of the code that’s been on my posts. The Ogham looking lines and symbols. I want to clarify that it is in no way a full on language (lets face it I’m not smart enough for that.) but rather a simple cypher of the English alphabet. A cypher that admittedly isn’t to hard to crack.

I do plan on reveling the key to said sypher in the future, in a kind of ARG style. I would give a hint or riddle that points to a location somewhere on campus. Then, I would hide a key to one or two letters in that location for all of you to find. Thought, I plan to do that far into the future, possibly even next year. 

 

3 films for feminists

hey, blog! this is i’ve been planning to post but haven’t quite gotten around to, so this is it on a smaller scale. over the holiday break, i embarked on a journey of watching films directed by women and found many new favorites. i originally wanted to make a post about the best movies from female directors, but i ultimately decided on something a little different- i’ll be listing (no particular order, blahblahblah) three films that molded my feminism. before i start my list, i want to note that i’m not saying that these movies are perfect or that i agree with all their sentiments- this is simply a personal tally of films that impacted my view on feminist issues, both positively and negatively. if there are films on this list that seem out of place, that’s entirely natural. both feminism and enjoyment of media are subjective. however, if any of these sound interesting, i highly recommend them all! (no spoilers<3)

the accused

this is a movie that i found by accident. i was scrolling through hulu, looking for something to watch, when i stumbled across this absolute gem of a film. not gonna lie, i saw that it starred jodie foster and clicked without hesitation (who can resist that twang!). i wasn’t sure what to expect from the movie, but i was both pleasantly and unpleasantly surprised. the film is the true story of a woman who was raped at a bar, while patrons did nothing to help her. jodie foster is positively electric in her role as the main character- every award she earned a well-deserved one. kelly mcgillis also does brilliant work in her supporting role as jodie’s lawyer. without spoiling any major points of the film, i’ll just have to say that it moved me in a way no other film ever has. (in other words, i cried like a colicky baby on a visit with santa claus.) this film is raw, gritty, and utterly stunning.

The Accused - Rotten Tomatoes

monster

monster is one of the films i saw over the break to prepare for this series, and it’s also the one that inspired me to create it. the film chronicles the story of serial killer aileen wuornos (whose case i won’t be delving into here, but check it out if you’re into true crime!) it stars charlize theron in the absolute highlight of her career, completely transformed into a tragic figure of revenge and society’s failures. cristina ricci costars as the theron’s girlfriend and human credential as they go on the run together. a romeo and juliet story turned disgustingly bitter. this is one of the most tragic movies i’ve ever seen and leads to so many moral questions. for me, the main one is: did she even do anything wrong?

Monster (2003) — The Movie Database (TMDB)

little women

this is quite a sharp turn from the other choices on this list but with good reason. little women, particularly the greta gerwig version, basically changed my life. melodramatic? yes. also true? yes. i saw this film in the theatre during an extremely difficult time in my life when i needed its message more than ever. i was in the middle of losing a family member, and i was completely consumed with sadness over what was to come. but when i walked into that theatre and watched this movie about family, grief, and the strength we carry as women helped me in ways i can’t describe. this movie holds such a special place in my heart. i love most all adaptations of this book (looking at you, winona ryder and susan surandon!). however, this one is extra special to me because of the obvious feminine influence from greta gerwig and the fact that it features some of my favorite actors of all time.

Little Women (2019). A movie that matters. | by Sarah Callen | The  Strategic Whimsy Experiment | Medium

An analysis of my name, for those Curious

Names are funny, just in general, the mouth sounds often arbitrarily attributed to people so we can identify them. Name are often more than that, though, first names we can keep from what was given to us, or choose them for ourselves, either way says something about us. First names can even be passed down, connecting us to another member of our family just as easily. Last names can trace one’s ancestry back far, and can connect one to their family or history. My name has always been a bit strange, as I’m sure most of my peer know, but I’m unsure if they understand it’s complete nuances and connections, so I thought I’d detail them here!

So, my full legal name is Michael Worth Yager Novinski. This is my name at it’s most Americanized and Christianized. If one were to translate my name to it’s origins, it may look something like this: מיכאל Ægenworþ Jäger Nowicki. Now, that’s probably something that deserves further elaboration, so I’ll start from the first name.

Michael is the 12th most common first name of boys born in the US as of 2020, I share it with my father, and it is likely to originate from Judeo-Christian myth of Saint Michael the Arch angel. Biblically, he is a member of the prince class of angels and is the only one referred to as an “Arch-prince”. This often translates to Christians referring to him as an Archangel. The name is an anglicized version of מי כאל‎ (mī kāʼēl). Which derives from the Phrase “who is like El?” which is interestingly implied to be a rhetorical question, implying that none are as powerful as El. This is really funny because if the angels are names by gods then it would be the equivalent of me naming my child “Nobody-is-as-cool-as-worth”. Biblically, מי כאל is supposed to battle Satan and cast him from heaven, although there is often a split in Jewish and Christian interpretations of him, with Jesus often taking on some of Michael’s roles in Christian tradition. 

Next up is Worth, the name I go by, I am named after my mom’s maternal grandfather, who went by Worth as a nickname. Worth is short for Ainsworth, which come from the Old English Ægenworþ, with Ægen being a personal that may have at one point had significance, and Worþ meaning enclosure. Most people with this last name likely descend from people hailing from the English village of Ainsworth, although I do not know why my great grandfather has this as his first name.

Next, Yager, which I got from my Mom, it being her last name when she married my Dad, which she kept. Now, Yager is a relatively common last name in the world, and it’s difficult to trace where that side of the family traces up to because we know very little of my great grandfather Yager other than that he wasn’t from Mississippi, likely from Kentucky. The name on it’s own comes from Germany, originating from the Old German word “Jage”, which means to hunt, meaning the name is one of a hunter.

The Novinski name I inherited from my father, and in it’s case the family history can be traced back to Polish speaking Germany that the early Novinskis emigrated to America from in the 1880s. Novinski is an Americanized version of the Polish name Nowicki, which is often either meaning someone originating from the town of Nowice, or some who is in some way “New”, as the name itself originates from the Polish “Novy”, which means new, and the name itself would translate most literally into “New man”.

Basically, my full name is a lot of different words from a lot of different spaces, and I frankly find it and a lot of other names and their origins fascinating.

My favorite Star Wars characters (Male Edition)

Hello everyone and welcome back to my blog! Today I’m gonna narrow down my favorite Star Wars male characters to my top four or five. I couldn’t put them into rankings so it’s not in any particular order! Be aware that I am VERY biased on my opinion for these men. Thank you for reading and enjoy! 

SPOILER WARNING!!!

Fatherless Behavior: Kylo Ren

Kylo Ren, also known as Ben Solo is one of my favorite characters for so many reasons. One of my favorite parts of his character is how I can take him seriously, yet also make fun of him. For example, I can laugh at him because he always looks like he’s gonna cry but when you think about it he DOES have a lot of reasons to cry. He also has amazing character development. He went from a very… very angry and depressed dude to someone who wants to atone for their actions. They could have done better on the dialogue though.

 Anakin Emowalker

Anakin Skywalker is the original chosen one turned youngling murderer. Yeah, you heard me. Despite his actions his character is just so intriguing to witness because of how different he is than other Jedi. I also agree with his opinion on attachments in the Jedi way. It’s understandable because you’re more likely to fall to the darkside because of this (proven by Anakin himself). I just don’t agree because of emotional reasonings in the next character.

 Hot Bucket Head Dad: Din Djarin

THE MANDALORIAN HIMSELF!!! I absolutely LOVE this character. He is so freaking cool in so many ways. Yes, he may not do cool little tricks with his mind but he doesn’t even need those anyways. That’s what’s so cool about him. I also love his character development in his show. He goes from a closed off man only living for the advancement of his creed and the way of the Mandalorians to a fatherly figure to a force-sensitive youngling named Grogu. His armor is also another reason why I love this character. Having something that shiny and that strong surround your body is so much cooler than the Jedi robes we are used to. Spoiler warning: HE HAS THE DARKSABER. How could you possibly get any cooler? Maybe learning how to wield it without burning your leg but we won’t talk about that. All I’m saying here is that this guy is one of the coolest people in the galaxy.

Fluffy Beast Man: Chewie

Finally, we have our fluffy but deadly friend Chewbacca. Even without understanding his language most of the time, we, as the watchers, can form an attachment to this character through Han Solo. I love Chewie because of just how cool he is! He’s super strong, yet his personality doesn’t show that around Han. When he gets shot in the arm, he whines like a child, and I think that that is just really adorable. It gives us a sense of depth in his character traits and personality that I can appreciate. (I feel like I should note that my step-dad can do the Chewie sounds spot on!)

Thank you all for reading this week! I hope you enjoyed! See you next week <3

Stagnancy – An Analyzation of A Social Issue Pt. 1

Something that I have noticed both online and in real life through many years is an inability to allow people to change. I am uncertain where exactly it stems from, but I believe this phenomena to be influenced by the animosity of the internet. Though that can only be accurately applied to the harshness of online interactions.

Offline, many people will hold onto problems or issues that have otherwise been resolved in an attempt to hold onto some amount of social power it has given them. Though it will often lead to a moral deterioration of the “Stagnant” that will often cause others to, once they have been given an opportunity to interact outside of their current ecosystem, realize the toxicity of this person and move forward.

It is not necessarily a negative thing, and has much to do with adolescent growth. Drama and gossip is extremely common, especially in High School, though it will often stop once a certain level of maturity has been met. However, it is not impossible for someone to become so reliant on drama for their social power that they become incapable of maturing correctly. This can be caused by other unseen mental issues, though overall it is due to a stubbornness that is often looked down upon later in life.

It is my belief that these people should not be looked at with contempt, but perhaps to some extent with pity, as there are many possible childhood related causes that would lead to this behavior. If, for example, a person had a parental figure who had this issue, it would increase the likelihood of they themselves developing this same issue. 

My personal suggestion to those who want to help these people, or are one of these people and want to help themselves, is to move on. Forgive, but don’t forget. Always allow for change and growth, but be equally as ready to condemn them for their actions. This will generally lead to a healthier social environment and will improve the moods of those within it.

I fully intend to put more research into this topic, and into psychology as a whole, and will be updating with a follow-up once I have learned what I deem an acceptable amount to continue speaking on this topic. I thank you for your time, and hope you do well.

where am i going? i have no clue!

sometimes i find comfort in the fact that i don’t have a plan. sometimes i am thankful that i am okay with not knowing where my life is headed but getting too comfortable in that mindset is what can lead to never progressing.

i spent so many years too focused on the future to the point that i could no longer relish in the present. but now, sometimes i feel as if i am not focused enough on where i am headed in the future. i know that i want to have a career in english or writing somehow… but where does a person even start to know what they want? how do i know if i’ll want a job in an office or out in the world if i have never done it?

finding a balance between overly worrying about the future and pretending it doesn’t exist is something that continues to kick my butt every day.  on one hand, worrying about the future is a good thing, but on the other, damaging your mindset to make the future come quicker does no good. the same thing applies to not thinking about the future is a line that is hard to walk without slipping too much to one side.

i really don’t even know why i wrote this blog. maybe the purpose of it is just to proclaim the fact that i don’t know where i’m going. but then again, who really does?

anyways, until next week,

— A

World Building Project pt. 2

I don’t think I actually specified on any of my personal rules for this world building project, as oxymoronic as making rules for a unrestrained creative project may sound. So far, I’ve come up with two main rules.

First, there wont be any humans or Tolkien races, ever. So no elves, orcs, dwarves, etc. I want to make sure that this is new and refreshing to me. As nice as those architypes are I’d rather not incorporate them into this. Not only because those races have become common place and somewhat boring in fantasy, but also because I want to push my creative designs to their limits. Hopefully making something that is completely detached from stereotypical fiction races and creature designs.

Second, I’m going to try my best to make sure there wont be a consistent atmosphere or tone to this. One picture I post might be of a detailed map citing every country and landform on a planet, or intricate lore and diagrams of the local food web, the next might be a photo taken from some soldiers taking a lunch break. Essentially giving you all a lot of lea way when it comes to piecing this all together. 

 

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This is What We Are Not About to Do pt.2

The fact that there is even a part two for this is extremely upsetting to me, and yet here we are. This post is mostly going to be highlighting recent events that are extremely serious but is getting little to no media coverage. I feel as though everyone should be paying attention to the issues, especially during black history month.

HBCUs

If you’re unfamiliar on what an HBCU is, it stands for Historically Black College Universities. The population of these said colleges are almost 100% black, so you could guess why this issue isn’t being talked about.

Recently, almost 12 college campus have been sent bomb threats at the start of black history month. These colleges are Howard University, Alcorn State University, Coppin State University, Edward Waters University, Fort Valley State University, the University of the District of Columbia, Morgan State University, Kentucky State University, Xavier University of Louisiana, Philander Smith College and Arkansas Baptist College and Jackson State University. So basically almost every famous HBCU. Maybe you haven’t been paying attention to the social climate of the nation right now, but hate crimes and racial tension are steadily increasing against the black community.

Why am I bringing this to your attention? Well for one, someone needs to see this. Someone needs to pay attention to these black colleges and how vulnerable they are to hate. Highlighting these issues can help boost more media coverage and help these colleges take action against racially motivated hatred. 

Lauren Smith Fields

Firstly, I would like to express the sadness that I’ve felt after hearing Lauren’s story. I know it’s very hard for people to be convicted for crimes against the black community and almost little to none get convicted for crimes against black women.

I would love to go into a full explanation about this, but this was just brought to my attention a few hours ago. So, here’s a link to an article that explains the corruption and impact of her untimely death. #SayHerName 

Greek Life

I don’t think a lot of non-black people understand the significance and influence Greek Life has over HBCUs. I’m basically referring to fraternities and sororities like A.K.As and Omega Psi Phi. There is an unspoken respect and hierarchy that comes to these things.  

That being said, recently, a lot of PWI’s frats and sororities have been seen posting social media mocking these historical traditions. I don’t know what it takes to stop people from disrespecting things that are seen as scared to my community. I don’t know anyone who would have the gall or the audacity to dare disrespect Greek Life in an HBCU.  There may be in house fighting, but when someone outside of that life disrespects anyone from that community they will not hesitate to band together and take action. Be mindful of this and apply to many other things that are associated with the black community.

Be better and educate yourself. Happy Black History Month!

The difference between stress and anxiety?

I have decided to take an entirely different route to blogging than I normally do and write something that may be only interesting to me …. stress!

Well, more importantly the difference between stress and anxiety. I find it so interesting that sometimes the two are so hard to differentiate. Both work in a kind of deadly cycle of “Oh I am so stressed! Oh no now I have stress induced anxiety! Oh no now I am even more stressed.” So on and so forth.

Thats why I think learning to discern the two is so important. Learning to differentiate stress and anxiety is the first step in figuring out how to deal with it, because the two have different remedies.

For stress, (particularly induced by work or school) pacing is key. Learning to manage time and cognitive energy can help to ease stress, while in anxiety there is no particular cure all for every person. Everyone is different so for some people breathing exercises may work, but for others easing an overall sense of anxiety could take medication or meditation.

I don’t know, I just think the way the brain works is fascinating. It is so cool that we are capable of such complex emotions… anyways enough with the boring psychology talk, I’ll let you continue with your blog perusing!

— A

Book Reviews Are Back :)

So, in the spirit of returning to my roots, I’m going back to what began this lovely little blog journey in the first place. Now, I’ve recently dug myself out of the rut of rereading my comfort books and ventured into new territory, courtesy of a Black Friday trip to BooksaMillion last year. With this comes the subject of today’s review, Dark Rise by C. S. Pacat. 

It’s no secret that I’m a sucker from fantasy, from Harry Potter, to Chronicles of Narnia, to Simon Snow, I’ve definitely wracked up quite the fantasy tab. However, I’ve never encountered a franchise that captures that sense of “Old, forgotten world” quite as well as Dark Rise does. There’s just something about the way that this franchise showcases a world that no longer exists that is impossible not to love. 

But I’m getting ahead of myself. First, a review of the basic story. Will Kempen is on the run from men who killed his mother months ago. As the sixteen year old evades Simon Crenshaw, a wealthy aristocratic trade monarch, he encounters the Stewards, in particular a man named Justice. It’s discovered that his mother’s death and his life are entangled in an ancient lore involving a Dark King who’s on the rise, a Lady who is the only one who can stop him, and the Stewards, rigidly disciplined keepers of the old world’s history and fighters of the light. As he meets Violet, a girl with formidable Lion’s strength and Katherine, an aristocratic daughter with a fear of magic, Will’s life becomes more and more fantastical, and more and more dangerous. 

Now, I’ll not spoil anything because I highly recommend this book to anyone with even an inkling of fantasy interest. However, I will discuss the things about this book that really stuck with me; statements of meaning, if you will. First and foremost is the richness of the writing. This may come from the startlingly easily comprehensible setting of London in the 1820’s, the well developed characters spanning from “Knight from the past” to “aristocratic lady of the manner”, the substantial quality of the plot (seriously, I’ve scarcely seen a plot this well developed) to the general sense of majesty that accompanies all the settings of this book. Regardless, this book is so intricately written it makes most super popular franchises pale in comparison. 

The other thing I love about this book is James. You’ll understand if you read it. 

My absolute favorite thing about this novel, however, is the way Pacat writes intimate moments. There’s not a single scene of sexuality in this books pages, and there is scarcely a scene of romance, as is expected of a book set in London 1821. However, there are so many moments, between so many characters that have an inexplicable sense of intimacy about them; the tying of an ascot, the escorting of a lady home, the release of a prisoner from manacles. All of them are amazing. Beyond all the plot twists and epic battles, the thing that really captured my heart was the way this novel shows intimacy. It’s so pure and unfiltered that it almost aches on the page, and I’ve never seen that and now will never forget it. 

All in all, this book was fantastic. 10/10 read that I will strongly recommend to absolutely anyone that will listen and will also provide me with inspiration for my own forthcoming fantasy endeavors. Please, at least consider reading this phenomenal story, I assure you every word is worth it. Until next time,

Sincerely, someone who’s constructing his own “Old World”