grounding techniques and a 7th b-day.

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I see a table.

I see a plant.

I see a pen.

I see a mirror.

I see a myself.

I think as writer I find myself watching movies and noticing things that I think normally people miss, today I want to talk about something I noticed in a show called “wayward” it’s about two best friends from different walks of life facing different various challenges of life and when various parents and neighbors become worried about their delinquent behavior the decide to send them off to “tall pines academy ” a youth mentally facility which is really a front for a cult ran by a very weird woman.  I’m not here to talk about the show itself though I want to talk about a grounding technique and what grounding techniques are used for in real life. the show is very good though I recommend it.

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grounding techniques are used to deal with anxiety, stress, disassociation etc. You may have heard of them or have completed them yourself the most common ones are counting to 10, the 5 senses , and more!! they are rarely used in media but when people do use them, I think it opens the show up to more various possibilities and creates more relatable characters with personalities that seem more realistic. I think I would like to see more grounding techniques in media directed towards children though. in my opinion grounding techniques shows kids how to regulate emotions they don’t fully understand yet. I know as a kid I distinctly remember the first time I saw one I was like 11 watching steven universe and garnet had just taught steven and connie to deal with stress by bringing themselves back to earth through meditation which is another really good grounding technique. I think once find ourselves drifting or I like to say “falling into our minds” we find ourselves on a bridge and on each side of the bridge is blocked off and sometimes it seems like the only option it to fall. I think grounding techniques teach us to fly like a baby bird getting taught by our mothers grounding techniques guide us back towards the control panel aka our brains and the more we do them the more they become natural reactions for us leading to overall mindfulness and peace.

poem because I lowkey planned this like during the break:

Your 7.

The clock indicts the room at eleven.

One hour until the ceremony of age.

No witnesses.

They tell you to begin with five things you can see

as if sight has never betrayed you.

V

The door ajar

not opened, not closed

a decision deferred indefinitely.

IV

The wall’s pale aneurysms

paint blistered with secrets

it refuses to finish telling.

III

The ceiling fan’s slow verdict,

chopping the air into tolerable pieces,

each rotation decapitating the last.

II

Your reflection practices absence

in the darkened television screen

eyes learning how not to ask.

I

The clock’s second hand

stuttering like it recognizes you.

You remain contiguous to avoid rupture.

The house is not loud

it is attentive.

Every object rehearses stillness.

Every silence acquires intent.

Five things you can see.

Four walls with an avoidant geometry.

Three memories misled as dreams.

Two adults negotiating distance through doors.

One child developing an interior witness.

Time advances.

You fragment.

Ground yourself, they say.

But gravity here is nonexistent 

it pulls you inside.

It is nearly your birthday.

Something inside you has already aged out

 

My Favorite Genshin Character

Among the many characters in Genshin Impact none of them compare to Tartaglia, better known by his alias Childe.  

Huh…what’d you say…Favoritism…? What’s THAT.  

As the Eleventh of the Fatui Harbingers, Tartaglia stands right between hero and villain, blending charm with ruthlessness especially in battle. This duality is what makes him one of the most entertaining characters in the game’s ever-expanding world. 

At first Tartaglia doesn’t resemble a traditional antagonist. He’s friendly, confident, and often polite, especially when compared to the more terrifying Fatui figures. Childe was Introduced during the Liyue Archon Quest, Childe presents himself as an ally, helpful, resourceful, and even playful. But beneath that is a man constantly ready for blood and an unrelenting desire to test his strength against powerful foes. 

Tartaglia’s backstory is so important to fully understand him. As a child named Ajax, he fell into the Abyss. There, he learned to survive through combat alone, developing an intense love for fighting. This experience didn’t break him (Even though he was like 8) it sharpened him. He learned from his mentor Skirk (who throws him like a lot). The Abyss gave Tartaglia a thrill for danger and a worldview where strength is the ultimate measure of worth. His loyalty to the Tsaritsa of Snezhnaya and the Fatui stems not from devotion, but from shared ideals centered on power. 

What truly sets Tartaglia apart is his internal conflict. He is fully aware that his love for battle makes him dangerous, yet he also shows genuine care for his family, especially his younger siblings. His role as a devoted older brother contrasts sharply with his willingness to unleash destruction. One of the reasons he joined the Fatui is because they promised to take care of his family. This humanizes him, reminding players that he is not evil for evil’s sake, but driven by instincts and responsibilities. (Aka, he does no wrong and is just a lil guy) 

In gameplay perspective Tartaglia mirrors this dual nature perfectly. As a Hydro DPS character, he is unique in his ability to switch between ranged bow combat and melee attacks using blades. This stance-switching mechanic makes him both exhilarating and hard to play, it rewards players who enjoy fast-paced, high-risk combat.  

Visually Childe matches his personality. His flowing scarf, sharp gaze, and confident posture all reinforce that he is always moving forward like a river. Even his boss fight reflects his character arc, escalating in intensity as he reveals more of his true power and abyssal effect. 

Tartaglia is more than just a charismatic antagonist. He represents Genshin Impact’s strength in character writing, layered, morally complex, and emotionally grounded. Whether you admire his confidence, fear his unpredictability, or sympathize with his  struggle, one thing is certain: hes the best character and I won’t hear otherwise… 

this was one of the easier blogs to write…i wonder if i should just make the rest of my blogs about my favorite characters…

New year!

Hey guys, I guess I should say welcome back. I hope y’all have been having a good new first week of the new year and hope y’all likening the new classes we got. I can say I truly like my classes. They seem cool for now at least. Let’s see what to talk about. I would talk about my Christmas break but I was sick a lot sadly, well I still had a good time. Before I got sick I went out bowling with my friends, I had my nephew for a few days when I wasn’t feeling sick, I went out to some friends houses and we did some games and stuff for Christmas. Other than that I stayed at my god sister’s house and we chilled,ate and watched a lot of baddies together.

So far this year it started off good but yea it’s not all that right now lol. I think one thing in particular I would want to happen that didn’t happen in 2025 is to find somebody to chill with without having to deal with having to not trust that person or overthink with that person. I really feel like this year should be different. I want this year to be different because last year was the worst year ever. 

I also wanna go out more this year. I have always been the type of person to visit a lot of places, I mean don’t get me wrong I went out of town and different places a couple of times last year but this year I wanna do way more and even try to learn some different things to do. I mean I am at an art school so maybe trying something new would be a good thing. 

I can start back doing nails well. I never stopped. I just did people’s nails for fun but maybe I can start doing them to get money this year. It would help me make my own money and I want to ask my mom or sister. 

But my point of saying this is, I’m hoping and praying that this year will be my year. Even if I have to change some parts of me and stop doing a lot of things I used to do, I will.

But this is my first blog of 2026, hope everyone year go good and the new school semester go well.❤️

Too Many Strings

To celebrate almost a year of guitar playing and 100 songs learned, I wanted to make a post on why I love guitar so much. Just about everyone in this class has probably seen me around campus playing guitar with a group of people. Music seems to bring a small crowd wherever it is, and I enjoy that aspect of the instrument. As I’m typing this, there are guitar tabs open on a different window haha!!

Me Playing Guitar Outside
Taylor, Taylor GS Mini, Fender (i think)
Banjo-like Guitar, 12-String Taylor, Yamaha

I’ve been playing guitar since January of last year. I was grounded for a few weeks because I hadn’t completed an assignment and it tanked my grades a bit. I decided to take the time I had and put it into something that I had been interested in doing since I was very little.

There’s an episode of It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia where the gang ends up going to a music store. Charlie sits down at the piano and without having played one somehow understands the process saying, “I don’t really know, man. I just get keys.” That’s how I was when I took to the strings of my brothers Taylor GS Mini, which was later given to me in a series of hand-me-downs.

After learning a few songs and getting un-grounded, my dad started telling me about the many guitars that I had grown up around. Pictured to the left is a banjo that was built like a guitar so my dad would have an easier time learning how to play it. The guitar at the bottom was my grandfather’s. He didn’t play it as much, so he gave it to my dad. I’m not a fan of it though, the action is too high (meaning that the strings are high above the neck of the guitar) and it hurts my hands.

Most of the music I learned was alone during the beginning of the year. I didn’t know many other people who were interested in guitar, and none of my friends lived near me. I was self taught and used it as a way to calm myself or maybe just stop myself from being so bored. My parents love to hear me play, but having such a small audience made it difficult for me to push myself when it came to new songs or new techniques. I would stick to my comfort level and never move past it.

In march of last year, I auditioned to attend here at MSA just like the rest of you did. There I met Sarah and CJ. CJ wanted to start a band with the three of us plus David and my friend Em. Though this didn’t work out in the end, CJ brought back my passion to play guitar and learn more music. During orientation week, we spent a lot of time in the lounge playing guitar together. I was pushed by my peers to listen to music by artist I didn’t hear much of in my own playlists and play more complicated things. People sat and listened to us play, and really it brought me a type of happiness I hadn’t felt much. Maybe it was a bit prideful, or maybe it just felt good to make people smile when they heard music they liked. Whatever made be feel that specific type of happiness, I can thank guitar for it.

I’m getting closer to the word limit so I think it’s time for me to cut this. Now, just because I know 100 songs doesn’t mean I’m good at all of them. Some I’m still learning, and others I’m just REALLY rusty on. I think I’m going to start playing in the lounge and on the patio if possible. I miss playing around people!!!! Okay, that’s enough for now. ByeBye!!

Music as of recently…

I haven’t blogged about music in a while and due to Spotify wrapped coming out this week I feel the urge to talk about music. So that is what this blog is going to be about. I love music but I definitely haven’t been listening to music like I used to. I had a friend that I got a lot of cool music recs from but after a while I kind of just quite listening to music for myself and what I liked and I listened to music, the only way I can explain it is like a zombie. I just lost the love for it. But I have noticed this and have begun to fix it. Music is my world and I feel that I need to nurture that so I have been trying to listen to and find new songs that make me happy and fit my brain. My Spotify wrapped is pretty much all over the place so I won’t be talking a lot about that but I will say a few key things about it. I listened to 45 albums this year, 5,901 songs, and 391 genres. I listened to music for 84,578 minutes which is roughly 58 days. I think that it’s not bad, but it could be better. I also feel like wrapped this year was so random (not in content but in when they released it). Last year there was such a build up to it, which was met with, almost, disappointment by a lot. But this year it was just like whatever. But anyways this isn’t the main point of this blog. I thought since we are now in the time frame where our music isn’t really being tracked right now for wrapped, I would sort of track it here. 

So jumping into artists I’ve been listening to this week. I’ve been listening to Finn Wolfhard (not because of Stranger Things Season 5). I listen to music differently than a lot of people I think. I listen for the vibe and the feeling and what’s being said. I think that that’s what music is for. Not to say “Yeah I listen to (insert artist)”. I feel that listening to music for others approval is pretty pointless. Anyways, I’ve been listening to his “new” album. It’s great. I love the vibe and it is easy to listen to. My top song out of the songs I’ve been listening to by him is probably “Everytown there’s a darling”. Due to listening to Finn Wolfhard, you can infer I have also been listening to Calpurnia a bit (Calpurnia is a band that he is in). If I am listening to Finn Wolfhard nine times out of ten, I’m listening to Calpurnia too. They are so similar that their songs just go together well. 

I have also been listening to Malcom Todd and music like that. His music is very vibey and just easy to listen to. I think Malcom Tod’s songs that have been on repeat this week are definitely “Sweet Boy”, “Chest Pain (I Love)”, and “Roommates”. These all fit a vibe that just feels right (as I said I listen to music differently, I listen biased on feeling I guess. If it doesn’t make me feel then it’s not the song to listen to in that moment, but every moment has a feeling that can be matched with music, the right song just has to be found). But back on the topic of Malcom Tod’s music. I tried to find other artists with the same vibe and I found one that definitely is similar, Jack Murnin. The songs that I found of his were “Back N Forth”, “Terms” (my personal favorite), “Riled up”, and “IcyHot”. I definitely think that they have similar vibes, feelings, and styles. I enjoy finding new music to listen to so when I do it’s definitely a treat.  

Okay the next artist I’ve listened to a good bit is Dominic Fike. He has a new single that came out in November – “White Key” – so I’ve had that on repeat a couple of times. I really like his music. The way it flows and how the lyrics go with the beat is crazy. I think everyone’s style of lyricism is so interesting and unique. I love the lyrics in this song though. It just makes a story out of the words, the beat, the vibe and the feeling. It’s a great song. Due to this I’ve listened to a few of my other favorites from  his older stuff. 

Next is CThruRio. I don’t know how to pronounce his name or even really what it means but the way I found his music was TikTok. I listen to a range of genres as stated previously and this is a genre that I think many don’t think I listen to, hip-hop. Now my favorite song of his is a bit more of a mix of rap and rock, which I find interesting, but still hip-hop. I haven’t listened to any of his newer stuff yet but I have recently went back to his song “Before the Morning” because of the unique style it has. 

And of course I’ve listened to more than that but I listen to so many individual songs that it’s pointless to try and talk about all of them but those are – what I think are- my top artists this week. 

*I watched stranger things season 5 Volume one and will be doing a blog about it, but I feel like I want to wait until the whole season is out so until then it’ll be music and other shows or movies* 

Anyways thanks for reading and until next blog. 

A Sneak Peak into the series The Chosen, created by yours truly.

Many of you are familiar by now with my play; The Greater Granguer, featuring Rolf and Egon. Well, many of you also know that I had mentioned once before that I would be converting my play into an actual series. 

The series itself is Historical-Fiction with tethers to Greek mythology and Norse mythology. So without further a dew, I present to you a sneak peak from the starting process of The Clandestine Power (the first book). 

THE CLANDESTINE SOVEREIGN POWER: 

The errand boy rushed down the halls of the vast Neoclassical auditorium towards the chairman’s head office. Swiping any strands of disheveled hair back into place, passing various etchings and sculptures of Greek Phidias and Pericles Two soldiers stationed outside the chairman’s office gave him a nod and opened the doors for the errand boy. Fixed his suit and tie, steadying his shaky hands holding the letter of importance and stepped into the office. The doors closed behind him. The office was bigger than he had thought. There were multiple other rooms and various display cases. Paintings worth fortunes hung and framed. The middle of the office was a vast lounge area with a couch and coffee table. The Chairman was there, center of the room nursing a whiskey and staring into the mantle above the fireplace.  

“Is It done?” The chairman sipped his beverage, licking his lips. The errand boys’ throat caught from excitement and restrained giddiness. 

“Yes.” He walked up to the back of the Chairman. 

“Everything has been taken care of sir, we can proceed.” The errand boy clutched the letter in his hands, excitement bubbling in his stomach. The Chairman stood cold and glaring into the fireplace. 

“And the letter?” He spared a small glance in which the boy excitedly waved in his face.  

“All set. Just need to address it and send it to the post!” A wicked smile spread from ear to ear, eyes glinting with mischief and an unrestrained thirst that even the Chairman seemed uneasy. 

The Chairman directed his attention outside of the grand window at his left. Outside was the grand courtyard and beyond were the lights of the city of Schillerplatz. The perfect playground for a perfect new constitution. A bowl on intelligence and creativity, and the Academy of the Fine Arts of Vienna was its center, the piece that tied it all together. The Chairman smirked to his own reflection in the glass.  

“Grab a pen.” He turned back to the errand boy.  

“So, who are we rejecting?” That wicked, sadistic smile returned. Clicking the pen, hovering over the white broad surface of the letter face.  

“To one, Adolf Hitler…”  

 
 

Germany,  

1941.  

 

 END

Please note that I do want your feedback on this attention grabber of the first book. If there’s too much or too little of anything and your own personal thoughts on what you think so far! Thank you guys for reading! 
 
 
 

Getting Vulnerable (Ew).

Hello everyone, in this week’s blog post, I’m going to talk about someone very special. Me. I’m going to get vulnerable, sort of, and if you know me at all, you will know vulnerability is not my thing. But for the sake of getting some advice, here I go. 

My problem is that I’m a girl who likes a lot of things, who wants to do a lot of things, but I can’t seem to pick just one to be my thing. I mean, I used to be a dancer- ballet to be precise, and then I quit to come to MSA to write. Sometimes I still like writing, I know that I’m going to write an essay for fun as soon as I get all my work done. Sometimes I want to be an astronomer, other times a lawyer. I guess what I’m trying to say is I have a passion for everything and nothing. Society tells you to grow up and go to college, which I fully intend to do, but society also tells you to pick just one degree and go live your life invested in this one field. How can I do that when there are so many different paths to go down? I have a million lives I want to lead, and still I’m stuck with just this one. 

I won’t lie and claim that money is not going to be a motivator in whatever path I choose. I do not want to be broke. Sure, money isn’t the only thing I care about, but it sure is up there! Whether we like it or not, money is what makes this world go round. I certainly wouldn’t be surprised if we woke up one day and suddenly had to pay for the air we breathe. Which is why when people say that stupid phrase, “follow your heart”, I want to gag. I would rather follow my brain, my brain makes more sense, and it’s telling me that I need to go for what will support me, my future cats, and, I guess, my family members. (That was a joke.)  (Not really.) 

So, if anyone reading this has any advice, drop it in my comment section. Until next time, bye. 

Winter Wonderland

Welcome back! So, it finally getting colder and winter has vastly approached, and been awhile of the ber months as we are in the last one of the year. Thugh it is just getting colder now the fun winter is commonly associated with Christmas, colder weather, New Years, exam season and many more! Theres two common season that come up when you ask someone’s favorite season and that’s usually summer and winter. 

Winter is such a busy month but a cozy peaceful one at last to it you get out of school, and all your breaks roll in. You get Thanksgiving Break and Christmas Break. Theres so much to do ice skating ricks open (in some places idk about the south) Tree lightings, Parades, Christmas fun runs, and hot coco by the fire pit. Light fluttery snow in the mornings trying to make a man but your hands get so cold, snowball fights. A wintery snow day in Washington and Germany were my favorite.  

Snow In Vilseck Germany

Catching a train to the town over, Christmas markets meeting new people, and most of all exploring a new place for the day. People seem more cheerful during the holiday spirt, could be because the weather is changing, schools out, or even their exams are over I know I’m going to be excited when that is over. The sense of peace and I can finally relax and know I’m done for a few weeks. Watch a Christmas movies and sleep in. 

If you have not figured out already, I’m so ready for winter break and having time to just relax and not worry about work. Though for a lot of people this is the time for some people who are in school to take up some extra shifts of work and make a bit more cash over the break. My personal favorite thing to do is shop the way you can just roam isles and not worry about time or anything then find the perfect gift for your family or friend. Even better is when you go shopping with that friend of yours who loves it as much as you do it makes y’all can do so much more and have such of an adventure playing games in the stores looking at outfits we would wear in the future and acting stupid, half of the time we will just window shop and go out for the fun of it, my favorite person to shop with is my older sister we go out and don’t even look at time.

Bridge Street Mall AL

With this magical time of year, the question I am going to end the blog with is: What is your favorite season? I know this may sound crazy since I just hyped-up winter so much, but my favorite season is Fall the way the leave change colors and we slowly change into winter is magical. It is such a gorgeous mix of summer and winter and what’s next to come. I’m so exacted for this winter break coming up though and I hope y’all are too! Have a wonderful winter and see y’all next week.

The Lights:

I’m assuming everyone here has seen your town, or a neighboring one, lit up. Well, the lights are my favorite thing in the world! I mean no it isn’t anything really special, and after a while they are just there, but to me they are MAGICAL! In my hometown they don’t really go big for Christmas. A parade around the block that’s like 15 minutes long is really all there is, however, at Brookhaven Christmas is so lively. I think this is the most excited I’ve ever been for the Christmas season. Every time I go downtown to see the lights I feel like I’m straight out of Gilmore Girls! I’ve always been big on October-December, since y’know they are all very chilly and festive months, but this year has been great.

In October we had fun things like the Coffee House and Halloween festivities! Honestly this year’s Halloween was SO much fun, even though it was a little messy. For November we had the Thanksgiving Lunch, and I went to go see the lights about once a week for when I was here. Now it’s December, Lord this year’s flying. This month there’s a Christmas parade planned, Christmas movie marathons, and best of all the Christmas lights. These months have just been different this year, it’s hard to explain. 

I’m so grateful that I have amazing friends to share these holidays with, and an amazing family to go home to. I have amazing peers, and amazing teachers here at MSA, and I just have so much sappy gratitude towards it all. Now here’s where I write a paragraphs about my bestest friends ever:

Tristyn: I never knew that I would need a friend like Tristyn as bad as I do, but she is actually Godsent. I am SO grateful to have a girl like her in my life. I feel like if I ever need anyone for anything she’s always there for me, which I hope she feels about me too. She’s the sweetest ever, and I just know she is going to stick by my side. Plus, she goes to see the lights with me!!!

Mccarley: As many of y’all know, me and Mccarley have been friends since 8th grade, and y’all she ALWAYS comes through. She is one of the dearest people in my life, and she’s helped me get through some crazy stuff. She is there for me when I want to cry, party, have fun, pray, rant, anything. She knows me better than anyone, and I’m just so grateful for her, and that we got this amazing opportunity together. 

JUNIOR LITERARY STUDENTS: I love all of you guys SO MUCH! Some of you I know better than others, however, EVERYONE in this class has such a great heart, and I’m so grateful that you guys are the ones I got accepted with. Some honorable mentions: Robin, Nick, Danny, Lily, Ladybug, and Kemarrion. You guys are great, and I love y’all! 

Don’t think I forgot David, Brody, Clare, and the others. You guys will get a blog eventually. Anyways, I just have so much sappiness in my bones during this time of the year, and I WILL be going to see the lights tonight. Bye!!! 

frustration: An emotional spectrum?

I don’t know about anyone else, but I find myself frustrated quite frequently. lately though I’ve been pondering about what frustration stems from. what makes someone shutdown? sink into their own bodies as if their problems were an iceberg and they the titanic. I made a short poem about my pondering and as you read it think about a time you were frustrated most how did you feel? what made you keep going even after being so frustrated? how do you react to problems you can’t avoid? 

 

Frustration is a manifestation of one’s most inner self-double bubbling to the surface.  

A cousin to fear and a descendant of truth.  

We revolve like doors around the circumferences of things we are most comfortable in life. 

We often find ourselves a growing tree although sometimes kazoo stalks our roots. 

I find myself experiencing it during silence. When I’m alone at a desk in my room. 

IT manifests itself as a bug. 

Stalking like a spider. Feeding off the blood of my emotions like a mosquito. 

I find myself drowning inside my own head. Thoughts spinning like a washer. 

Cleaning me with doubt about myself.  

Frustration manifests itself in the bumps on my skin. Crawling through my esophagus. 

It silences me and makes it hard to breathe. 

 I find myself playing make believe in the devil house. 

Events of troubled memories whisper to me like the wind during winter. 

It never lies though it forces me to lie in bed with my truths. 

by now you’re probably wondering what that has to do with frustration. well, I think frustration is like a Pokémon it evolves itself by feeding of the very berries we hide our the truths we buried. it’s kind of like when eve bit the fruit from the tree. it exposes our sins to our conciseness and leads to a reaction like over thinking causing you to continue sinking deeper into thoughts you only think about when it’s time to repent.

I believe one of my biggest frustrations stems from my asthma not because of the annoyance it causes it’s the fear it invokes especially when jack frost sends kisses from the moon to the earth, I’m always on my toes tiptoeing around my own body I wrap myself in a mental bubble wrap. it causes me to rethink the smallest of actions even for things my heart always held the dearest attraction for.  maybe moving forward, I learn to release myself from the grapples it holds on to me. I think when we learn to release ourselves from the things we hide deep inside, we avoid the penetration of frustration’s sword into our hearts. 

what makes you frustrated? 

what do you think frustration is?

what are steps you take to release yourselves from things like anxiety and fear?

if you had to write a poem about frustration what would the first line be? 

"Think Too Much collection" by $onny Gold | Redbubble

I found this picture online by $onny gold I think it’s kind accurate it’s like emotions taking over the place where your brains are supposed to be, I guess?