What you are about to read is a dialogue between a Terrell and his therapist. The therapist decided to take a poetic approach to get Terrell to express himself.
Therapist: “Good Morning, Terrell. I have some questions that we would love for you to answer, but answer them by starting your statement with, It feels horrible when…. okay?”
Terrell: “Sure.”
Producer: “How does it feel to be in love? How does it feel for your heart to fly away like a dove?”
Terrell: “It feels horrible when I am alone, all the time. It feels horrible when my heart only beats for me!”
Producer: “How does it feel when someone else’s smile brightens your day? How does it feel when the thought of them leaving strips your sanity away?”
Terrell: “It feels horrible when I see my smile, but no one else notices it. It feels horrible when I am not in control of my sanity, so there is no one to strip it away.”
Producer: “How does it feel when the frown on someone else’s face puts tears in your eyes? How does it feel when you know the love they confess for you is not a lie?”
Terrell: “It feels horrible when the tears rolling down my face are from my deep, problematic thoughts that travel through my mind in the wee hours of the night. It feels horrible when my heart is constantly being tampered with, so I never trust anyone.”
Producer: “How does it feel when you are scared of messing up?”
Terrell: “It feels horrible when I feel like I am the one who is always messing up.”
Producer: “How does it feel when you are scared of letting go?”
Terrell: “It feels horrible when I have no choice but to let go.”
Producer: “How does it feel when you feel like you are not ready enough, but you care too much to leave them?”
Terrell: “It feels horrible when I know I am ready, but no one else is.”
Producer: “How does it feel when your heart soars freely among the stars of hope, stability, and love?”
Terrell: “It feels horrible when I hope for love, but it never seems to appear. I beg for stability, but the foundation just cannot seem to hold still. I plead for the love of someone else to fill my body, but everyone is stone cold.”
Therapist: “Thank you for your cooperation. That is all I needed.”
Terrell: “K, bye.”
