Well if you thought you knew enough about me before, congratulations you get more information. Honestly, the most interesting thing about me is I’m quite literally in pain all the time. My headache specialist doctor says my diagnosis is somewhere between a migraine and new daily headache since traditional medication has not been able to do much for me; I am currently going through EMDR therapy. The pain is sometimes so intense…
One of the worst parts is most people don’t believe my condition, stating “it isn’t possible”. Just because something is rare, doesn’t make it unable to happen, may I remind you some people are allergic to water and the sun? Speaking of allergies, I have foods that trigger worse head pain or other symptoms like severe nausea. The main triggers I have figured out are red dye 40 (Red 40) and MSG. Unfortunately, for me, these are very common in America, the dye is found in almost every candy or drinks with color, along with some chocolate stuff for absolutely no reason, chocolate is already brown, people!
I guess something I’m also all too familiar with is betrayal. Nothing hurts worse when you pour your heart and soul into someone and then they stab you in the back. I know what you’re thinking “How could someone so young know betrayal like the back of her hand?” The truth is the lottery of life hasn’t been too kind to me. I know far too well a lot of people really don’t care about you, they just want something out of you. Now while that can be as innocent as to pass the time, it can very well be something much more personal. I guess that is why I was so hesitant to get too close to people for a while, however that can end up hurting you just as bad when they go and do things without you.
I sit here writing this in a dark room with my head aching from looking at a bright computer screen for so many hours on end, online learning really is not good for me. I hope to go back to normal learning as soon as possible.