Author: Erin Erter

hello there !! so recently, i finally started watching the series breaking bad. i know, i’m incredibly late to it. but the only reason i started watching it in the first place was so i could watch better call saul without having any questions. well, i ended up enjoying breaking bad so much that i decided to devote my time to exclusively watching it, well, and the last of us. as i was binge watching this show, very strong opinions started to form. then, i realized that those opinions were not popular. in the slightest. so, you know what you do with unpopular opinions? you tell everyone so people can get mad at you. that’s what i’m doing.

**i have not finished the series yet, so my opinions are based on my current knowledge**

1. skyler did nothing wrong.

everyone hates skyler, and for what?? she’s a loving wife who has one teenager with cerebral palsy, and is pregnant with another child on the way. her husband is always disconnected from her and the family and then they find out he has cancer. she tries her hardest to figure out what’s going on with him, and then he completely disappears. AND THEN, he’s found naked in a supermarket, and it is revealed that he has a second phone that he is hiding from her. and we hate skyler here? all she’s doing is trying to keep her family together, and trying to keep her husband ALIVE. so what if walter said he doesn’t want treatment? it is his body, and it is his choice, but it’s an incredibly selfish one because he later finds out that he is in remission. imagine if he 100% declined treatment despite skyler’s worries. he would of gotten worse, died, and left skyler with two children and barely any money (because he isn’t even that good at what he does; selling what he cooks). fact of the matter is, skyler is a good mother and a good wife, and she doesn’t deserve all the hate she gets. i believe it all stems from misogynistic roots. 

2. walter white sucks

yeah he does. he’s a horrible father/husband, and he’s an even worse friend. he leaves his family for weeks at a time, and lies about it all together. he also lies to everyone else about anything he possibly can. he lies about going “missing”, he lies about getting the money for treatment, he lies about his second phone, and he even lies to jesse about the methylamine “spoiling.” he treats jesse horribly and basically forces him to give up plans with his girlfriend to go out hundreds of miles into the desert to… cook… with him. he cares for no one but himself, and you can’t convince me otherwise. i know he’s only doing this to provide money for his family, but he’s completely tearing the family apart while doing so. AND HE’S IN REMISSION.

3. hank also really sucks

i feel bad for him at some parts, but mostly i hate him. his character is so hateable, but also i do really feel bad for him. i think it’s towards the middle of the series where my hatred for his character turns into empathy. but don’t mistake empathy for forgiveness, i feel bad for him and i wish he didn’t go through what he did, but i still hate him. 

honestly i lost all passion for this blog so i’m going to end it here. cya.

so i’ve come to realize how often i write about music, and i’ve decided to change things up this week. i’ve played a lot of different games throughout my entire life, but some are so near to me that i have to put my opinion of them out there. these are games that maybe i’ve played once and fell in love with, or ones that slowly grew on me after months and months of replaying them. nevertheless, every game on this list i have a significant connection with, and i’m going to tell you exactly why. so, without further ado, here are my favorite video games.

fallout 4

so this is almost close to being the most hated fallout game in the series, but it holds its place as my favorite video game ever despite. my stepdad got the game when it first came out in 2015, but told me i was too young to play it at the time. i was so fascinated when i watched him play it, and as soon as i was able to, i picked up the game myself. when i first beat the game, i immediately started a new save file and began to play it again. the storyline was so addicting and fun to follow, and i grew such close connections with all of the characters. it’s an open-world game in which there are many random encounters, and that makes it such an enjoyable experience for me. so far, i’ve played this game as least once a year since i first picked it up, which was around when i was 12 or 13 years old. as i type this, i am currently playing the game. after so many years of playing it and exploring it, i still have not seen all of what the game has to offer. no matter though, it will hold such a strong place in my heart.

the legend of zelda: ocarina of time

so, this is my other favorite game of all time. i was first introduced to it when i was very young, and i quickly fell in love. there are so many little details in this game that i could fantasize over and over about, but the atmosphere is what i’m going to focus on. this atmosphere in this game is top tier. the music first off has always had it’s own place in my head. years and years after initially playing it, i could still remember the music that went with each area crystal clear. i swore it was like i could recite them without even trying. the storyline and scenery change that happens after you age up is so well done and disturbing, it still freaks me out to this day. if i could, i would play this game over and over, but sadly because of it’s age, it’s very hard to play it efficiently when i only have it on my old nintendo ds. oh well, honestly such a great game nevertheless. 

ghost of tsushima

i got this game when it first game out, and it completely broke me. i remember playing it intensively throughout the week, letting everyone in the house know my initial reactions to certain scenes. the graphics is where this game truly shines. there are so many beautiful open-world scenes, and the shading and lighting really help those areas reach their fullest potential. the storyline is fun and interesting, heartbreaking and not fair, but it is so fulfilling in the end. also, the best part, you can pet foxes. yeah you heard me. you. can. pet. FOXES.

the sims 3 

so, i love every sims game in the series. i never played the first one that much, but i’ve been playing all the rest since i was super young. when i was around 5, all i would play is the simpsons hit and run and the sims 2. then, when i was in my older elementary years, i played the sims 3 every single night. then finally, when the sims 4 was announced, i preordered a limited edition version of the game and that’s the one i’ve been playing ever since. however, the sims 3 will forever hold its place as my favorite. i love the open-world feeling to this game that was completely lost in the sims 4. this game is infinitely better than all the rest in the series and i long for the day that i can play it again. wait, actually, i can play it right now on my laptop. i’m going to go do that, cya. 

the legend of zelda: breath of the wild

this isn’t my next favorite zelda game in any way, shape, or form. but, there’s something about it that ranks as one of my “favorites” rather than just one of my favorite zelda games. the graphics are beautiful, and the storyline is almost up there with it. i love most of the mechanics, but some i do find a little unnecessary. still, i love this game a lot. i definitely recommend it for any new zelda fans, but still do remember to check out the originals first:)

what a fun little blog !! i definitely enjoyed it, let me know if you did too:) gooooodbye, cya next week.

hello !! here’s come cool news: i’m going to be writing for a music magazine soon !! my dream is to be a music journalist so getting to this point at such a young age is honestly so exciting:) it’s just going to be a little side thing, unpaid of course, but i thought you all should know !! anyways, i was shuffling my spotify when i realized that i listen to a lot of artists that focus on an acoustic atmosphere. i love acoustic music, but i never realized how much of it has recently taken over my liked songs until now. so i thought i’d be awesome and cool and tell you some of my favorites and give you some song recommendations !! enjoy:)

elliott smith

so, i had to get him out of the way first. the majority of his discography is acoustic, so if you’re looking for consistency, here he is. not only is it mainly acoustics, it’s really good acoustics. his ability to write riffs and melodies on guitar is unmatched, and it all pairs perfectly well with his lyrics, which are almost acoustic themselves, if that makes any sense. if you’re looking for really soft, almost simon and garfunkel-like vocals, and beautiful well-mixed melodies, then elliott is the artist for you !! songs i would recommend for first getting into him are: angeles, tomorrow tomorrow, junk bond trader, needle in the hay, no name #3, twilight and georgia, georgia !! that’s a song from each album !!

simon and garfunkel

so, speaking of “simon and garfunkel-like vocals,” here’s simon and garfunkel !! now, i’ve never been a super big fan, but recently i’ve been listening to them a lot more. i wasn’t a fan at first, but their layered vocals and striking acoustics reeled me in and now i can say i am a fan. if you like story-like lyrics, doubled-up vocals, and acoustics that excite and sometimes even surprise, then simon & garfunkel is for you !! my two recommended songs for someone new to them are the boxer and america !!

bob dylan

the reason i am including bob dylan here is because i believe a large part of his discography is purely acoustic, so he gets a spot on the list. his acoustics are often characterized by strong, loud acoustic guitars and very, very loud harmonicas. of course, he still has his plugged moments. but bob’s acoustic work has inspired decades worth of musicians, so i feel wrong not to put him on the list. if you like story-based lyrics, questionable vocals, harmonicas and prominent acoustic guitars, then bob dylan is for you !! some songs i’d recommend if you’re new to him include: changing of the guards, if not for you, subterranean homesick blues, to be alone with you and boots of spanish leather !!

nick drake

nick drake was an artist that i avoided for a while, and for no real reason. i don’t know why i did, but i regret it immensely. nick drake’s story is so heartbreaking to me, and his music is just that- heartbreaking. but in a way, it’s heartbreakingly beautiful, especially when you realize his music was never really recognized until after his death. i feel such a connection with nick drake, and it’s not even because of his music. but besides that, drake’s acoustics are soft and melodic, and his voice mirrors that. if you like soft acoustics with great melodies, unconventional vocals, and beautiful heartbreaking lyrics, then nick drake is for you !! songs i’d recommend for people new to his music include: pink moon, place to be, road, and things behind the sun !!

so that’s it !! those are my favorite acoustic artists that i recommend if you’re interested !! they’re fairly popular so it should be easy to find their music online:) let me know if you listen to any of these artists and if you like them !! cya next week !

as a musician, i’m always gathering inspiration from other’s art. even more so than when i write. within the diversity of my music library, both digital and physical, you almost always have two different kinds of artists. those who are good musicians, and those who are good songwriters. and yes, you can be both a good musician and a good songwriter, but it’s rare to see them executed perfectly together. almost as if they are not two separate skills but one. i have a small collection of artists that i believe break out of this, and one of them is bob dylan: an artist i’ve been listening to more than usual recently. now, what makes bob so different from these other artists that break out of the box? well, bob is recognized more than just a musician. he holds the nobel peace prize in literature, just from his songwriting. so yeah, he isn’t like these other artists. i also believe that his songwriting isn’t completely based on melody like other musicians. while songwriting and poetry are the same in a lot of ways, songwriting has one prominent component that poetry does not, (in the same capacity): melody. i think in a lot of songs, people sacrifice the quality of the writing for more prominent and catchy melodies. and sometimes, you just can’t force your words into the song. so in short, i think a lot of artists base their songs around the music itself, not the writing. if there’s an issue, its the writing that is most likely going to change rather than the composition of the song. but with bob dylan, i feel like his songs are more writing-focused. it’s almost as if he writes the music for the story, not the other way around. and even if that is not the case, i believe he doesn’t try to manipulate his story and writing for the sake of melody. stories are going to be told no matter what. if the pacing of the words don’t work perfectly with the song, then that’s fine. a story is still going to be told. but don’t worry, the writing and the song itself always compliment each other perfectly. i almost feel wrong saying the word “compliment” here, because while yes, his music is beautiful, i feel like it is too rigid for words like those. these songs are so deeply meaningful and so much emotional is packed into every line. in the song “forever young”, bob sings the line “forever young” over and over in the chorus. for some reason, it’s the most emotional thing i’ve ever heard. if anyone else sang those lines, i don’t think i would feel like this. here, there is so many undertones and they all build up to that one line: forever young. so this is not just about his songwriting, but also how he presents these lines. this is not just some empty soul singing some empty lines. this is not just some heartless man singing heartfelt lines. this is a man who is singing what he’s written from his absolute core. every line he belts is full of emotion, so much so that it completely transforms the line. stories flow effortlessly from his mouth with such vivid detail that you can see the cinematic scenes in your head so clearly. all of these little things makes bob dylan’s songwriting so strong and so influential, and i strongly encourage you to look into his writing if you haven’t already. thank you for listening<3

hello there !! so, i had a really awesome bob dylan blog planned for this week, but it was deleted before i could copy it and save it 🙂 so now i have to write something else completely different. isn’t that fun. anyways, i’m going to try and write this as quickly as i possibly can considering i lost all my progress. so, i like the beatles a little bit i guess, but what i really love is their respective solo music. i definitely do have my favorites (as you’ll see demonstrated here), but i think every member has at least one song i like !! so yeah, let’s get into that !!

paul mccartney

say, say, say – paul mccartney & michael jackson

bluebird – paul mccartney & wings

live and let die – paul mccartney & wings

band on the run – paul mccartney & wings

ninteen hundred & eighty five – paul mccartney & wings

your mother should know – the beatles

okay, so paul is by far my favorite in terms of solo music. his band, “wings” is one of my absolute favorites right now. the band has such a large orchestra in their band, and i feel like that was really revolutionary for a lot of rock in the 70s. paul’s songwriting and voice is top tier, and i have such a preference for it. i also love his solo song with michael jackson, which came out in the 80s (it sounds very 80s). besides music outside of the beatles, i really love the song he sings in the beatles called “your mother should know.” his voice is so comforting and i find that song stuck in my head all the time. 

george harrison

my sweet lord – george harrison

beware of darkness – george harrison

got my mind set on you – george harrison

i’d have you anytime – george harrison

give me love (give me peace on earth) – george harrison

old brown shoe – the beatles

so, i actually quite like george’s solo music, but i don’t know many songs of his (all the songs listed are the only ones i know). i know it’s his top song, but i listen to “my sweet lord” very often. the ending of the song, in which he sings hallelujah in different languages is definitely my favorite part. there’s something so motivating about the ending and it feels so universal. “i’ve got my mind set on you” is honestly just an earworm for me. it’s cheesy 80s music but god does it get stuck in your head. “old brown shoe” is honestly one of my favorite beatles songs, and i only just now realized it was george. i really love the way its sung 🙂 

john lennon

mind games – john lennon

beautiful boy – john lennon

happy xmas (war is over) – john lennon

anna (go to him) – the beatles

so i honestly hate john lennon lmao. i think some of his solo stuff is good, but he was much better in the beatles. i think my favorite solo song of his is his most popular one, “beautiful boy.” but in the beatles, i pretty much don’t dislike a single song he sings. but i really love “anna (go to him).” there’s nothing special about the voice, it’s just a cool song. okay enough with my john lennon hatred.

ringo starr

act naturally – the beatles

yellow submarine – the beatles

man ringo i’m sorry. you’re my absolute favorite member in the band, but i don’t like any of your solo music and you also only sang eleven songs for the band. so, that sucks man. but besides the stuff his sings, i really love ringo’s drumming. he’s one of the best out there and tbh he’s just the coolest. ringo lover forever.

so yeah, sorry for the late blog !! i didn’t anticipate losing my other blog, but oh well. i had a lot of fun with this one (i haven’t had fun with these blogs in so long god) so it was a nice change. anyways, i guess i’ll see you next week 🙂 

hihihihihihihi. so since it’s the last blog of 2022 i’m going to put very minimal effort into making a little summary of each month this year and how it went for me//the events that took place. yeah. anyways, here we go !!

january: in january i started my second semester of my sophmore year at yazoo county. i was taking us history, geometry, spanish I and band. the spanish teacher got fired so i didn’t take the class. i ended up having a lot of free time around here. i spent my days with my best friend during band doing everything but what we were supposed to, and i ended a relationship that was draining me during this month. i went to msa’s preview day and met a close friend who was a junior at the time that i would soon be going to school here with. i started reading the bell jar by sylvia plath and absolutely fell in love with it. i was drinking a lot of mango dragon fruit starbucks refreshers. 

february: started reading prozac nation, which at this time i am currently rereading. went to a museum with my family and got a flower ring that i am still wearing to this day. had lots of fun with my little brother. ate a lot of shipley’s donuts. also started reading the perks of being a wallflower. went to an art museum and saw some of my future friend’s art on display. was in the process of applying to msa. 

march: got a huge collection of books to read. auditioned for msa. had the absolute best time with my best friend in and out of school (miss u bunches natalie). got caught in a couple bad storms, had to go to a hotel. wrote about being in those hotels. got super into car seat headrest. played guitar a lot, as usual. got accepted into msa, despite me only auditioning in one area. more storms, more hotels.

april: went to a festival. took my little brother to a bunch of places, got to see him happy. became absolutely obsessed with car seat headrest and will toledo. slacked off in band, took it for granted. got into arguments with my band instructors (definitely don’t miss them). had fun with my best friend and got in trouble for doing so. got into a web comic called crow cillers. started drawing the characters from it. met some people i regret meeting. 

may: still obsessed with car seat headrest. school was ending soon, most of my classes were slow and filled with absolutely nothing to do. i was getting sad about leaving certain people, but i ignored it. drew everything i could. left my legacy on bathroom walls. got a little obsessed with the riddler. went to awards day, got the highest average in english II, us history, and visual arts II. went out to eat with my best friend the last day of school. visited msa for new student day. saw a guy i thought was really cute (that would soon develop into something, little did i know). got obsessed with the riddler. always was listening to elliott smith, but more so here. went out to eat with my best friend and another friend, had fun in random places. went to a sleepover with my best friend, had… interesting experiences on omegle. 

june: not a great month for me. had a hard time mentally. stayed inside and watched movies everyday, played guitar all night and listened to music. sometimes cried. continued with obsessions. started talking to one of my closest friends, a senior literary:)<3. got into arguments with my friends. one of them ghosted me for a month. met someone cool in replacement. 

july: still somewhat hard mentally. was at home all the time, playing roblox and listening to music. learned some tricky songs on guitar. got some records. cried a lot. more roblox. went school shopping. got excited about going to msa, but more and more sad about leaving home. elliott smith listening streak was at an all time high, and i also started listening to alex g. kept playing guitar. said goodbye to my friends and my family. 

august: moved into msa, cried a lot. felt super lonely. wanted to go home. it got better for a moment. i hung out with my friends in their room every night. got into drama. had people talking about me. my friends helped me with that, i’m thankful. started making more senior friends. got a plastic rat named simon. rode my first train. met one of the coolest people i’ve ever met, and they introduced me to an awesome book series (goodnight punpun). had a lot of fun towards the end of the month. played roblox a little bit. got addicted to reign energy drinks (thanks kameron). 

september: got stressed with algebra. somehow was still afloat. spent some time with my family. did a lot of work. continued reading goodnight punpun. had fun working on the haunted house. met a guy i really liked, the same one i thought was cute on new student day. started talking with him a lot. met some junior friends, was really happy for a while. hung out with the guy a lot. he didn’t like me back. we still talked. continued reading the book series. was pretty sad about the rejection, but we were still friends. found a cat on campus, named her walter.

october: kept talking and hanging out with the guy everyday, felt like he liked me. became super stressed. performed a couple times. had midterm exams. cut my hair. did other life-changing things. went home for my birthday. went to the fair with my best friend and saw her for the first time in months. flirted a lot. won an honorable mention for one of my short stories. went out to eat with friends. turned 17. got a new elliott smith shirt. told the guy i was talking to i liked him. he liked me back.

november: started dating my boyfriend. had peaceful train rides. was incredibly stressed with my classes. emotional rollercoaster. started seeing the physical effects of stress on my body. cried a lot. went on a couple of dates. started flaring up a bit. was depressed n stressed. just a lot of stress. yeah. stress. went home for thanksgiving. missed my boyfriend a lot. didn’t want to come back to school. took my little brother to see the christmas lights in a nearby town. got ice cream and food. got some really good chicken & shrimp hibachi. saw my spotify wrapped. i was obsessed with elliott smith this year (always have been). 

december: threw a party for children. it was nice. went on another date, came back with no money. broke & stressed, begging for christmas break. felt very alone. burnt out. went christmas shopping and bought everything that i’m getting for christmas. very excited about what i got. still burnt out though. i want to go home i want to go home i want to go home. check out list made me want to scream. i have to clean out my fridge???@#??@ i just restocked.

yeah so that’s how my year went. cool.

hihihihihihihi hi there. i’ve been in  year long book slump, and i am finally attempting to get out of it. so here i am going to talk about my favorite books i’ve read and some books on my tbr !! beware: i love classics. ok here we go !!

girl, interrupted

a mental health memoir about the author, susanna kaysen, and her stay at the famous mclean psychiatric hospital (the same hospital sylvia plath stayed at. also the same one my favorite author, david foster wallace, checked into for a short period of time.) also made famous by the movie with winona ryder. this book touches on so many serious topics, not even just exlusively mental health. there are themes of cultural struggle and societal standards that fit beautifully with the rest of the book. each chapter is its own little short excerpt about her time at the hospital, and her time dealing with the people there and even herself. 

prozac nation

i relate to this book more than most of my favorites. this is another mental health memoir (i have a thing for them, can’t you tell?) this book helped me tremendously, so much so that i think i am going to reread it soon. the author, elizabeth wurtzel, recalls her time during the prozac-prominent america she lived in. she was a journalist at harvard, and did music journalism in other states, which is why this was so inspiring to read for me. it goes into disturbing detail about how elizabeth dealt with depression and self harm, but was still worth the read. 

the bell jar

i love sylvia plath. she was one of the first poets, along with edgar allan poe, that got me into writing poetry with vivid imagery. this is also a mental health memoir, but it’s presented as a novel. however, with knowledge of plath’s lifetime, she describes her stay at the same mclean psychiatric hospital that susanna kaysen stayed at, of course this was before susanna’s time. this book is very disturbing, and it is definitely ride. it ends suspended in the air, not on a high note, but just suspended. maybe it would be a good ending if the circumstances with sylvia’s own life were better, but it isn’t. a quote from this book that i think perfectly captures it’s essense is “because wherever I sat—on the deck of a ship or at a street café in Paris or Bangkok—I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar, stewing in my own sour air.”

the metamorphosis 

this story absolutely DESTROYED me. i mean, i was ugly sobbing. this book’s first line is pretty infamous, “as Gregor Samsa awoke one morning from uneasy dreams he found himself transformed in his bed into a gigantic insect.”, and from that line i loved the book. but don’t let this somewhat absurd concept make you think it’s a lighthearted read, because it isn’t. this book is so incredibly sad for me, because you’re watching this man who loves his family become the subject of their repulsion. i won’t spoil it, (i really kind of want to), but basically they treat him horribly and all he wants is to be loved in his new form. and he doesn’t get that:( pls he loved his sister so much and was going to send her to a school to help her violin career</3 and they were disgusted by him. i will genuinely start crying if i keep going i’ve got to stop now okay i’m done

the jungle

i haven’t read this book yet, but i do have a copy of it in my room and i have started it !! i was really interested in this book after my english II teacher (the best teacher i’ve ever had and ever will have) introduced me to it. i love gore and i love the fact that this book is completely based on true events that upton sinclair witnessed himself. he is one of my biggest journalistic inspirations, because he worked in these meat factories during the 1900s and witnessed the sanitary issues and absolutely disgusting accidents that took place in his workplace. this book is quite literally what led to the pure meat and drug act. you have a lot to thank upton sinclair for. 

other books on my tbr list that i won’t go into detail with: the picture of dorian gray (idk i’ve tried reading it so many times but i kind of hate it), clockwork orange, and silence of the lambs (never finished it)

so yeah, thanks for reading. cya next week.

i play guitar. i’ve been playing for almost five years. so yeah, i like them. i have two electrics, one surf green stratocaster and one black//white telecaster (my personal favorite), and one acoustic. the acoustic is a special story though. it belonged to my uncle in the 70s, and when he passed, he gave it to me. it is a martin, which is a very expensive but beautiful sounding brand of guitar. my martin is from 1974, or around that time, so it is worth a lot. despite that, i’d never dream of selling it. it has a lot of sentimental meaning, but it also sounds amazing, and i love it dearly. but tbh, recently i’ve been wanting another electric. recently i got a new amp, an orange crush 20rt, which sounds really good. and as much as i love my telecaster, it has it’s problems. an electric i’ve been eyeing recently is the kurt cobain jagstang, a combo jaguar and mustang. i’m a big mustang fan so this fits that need for me. it comes in blue and red, but the red is too beautiful to skip out on. i’m not a fan of rosewood bridges, but i’d sacrifice that for this guitar. more guitars i’m interested in include the rickenbacker 360 in black//white, and the jim root telecaster and jazzmaster, both in white. so yea. this blog was longer but it crashed and i ended up losing all my progress, so rip. cya. 

hiiiiiiiiiiiiii i’m gonna do a quick small blog because i think i want to work on my other blog before i post it, so here is this. i love music. cool, you probably know that. i love matching music to seasons. so, here i am going to link my autumn//winter mix and talk about some songs on it, and what i look for in a mix. cool, let’s get into it !!

so first, what do i look for in an autumn//winter mix? well, i usually stray away from anything too hardcore. i appreciate acoustics a lot more during this time, so they are prevalent in this playlist. i search for songs in the 90s alternative scene mostly, but i’m open to anything. the artists that occupy most of this playlist are the smashing pumpkins, pavement, mazzy star, pavement and the pixies. so, here are a couple songs on the playlist that i especially love.

cupid de locke – the smashing pumpkins

beautiful strings in this song, they feel mystical almost. i love love love this album and all the sounds that it has brought into my life, and this song is nothing short of a masterpiece. i especially love the spoken word right in the middle of the song, given by lead singer billy corgan.

the background – third eye blind

love this band. love this song. i’ve been listening to it since i was a baby, so there’s obviously a connection there. but it’s just enough to get me through the days. the lyrics are so beautiful, i’d recommend checking them out if you haven’t heard the song before. 

shady lane – pavement

i<3pavement. love their lyrics, love their instrumentals, love the voices. this song is pretty chill. that’s all it really needs to be for me to like it. i love the ending to the chorus so much. it’s cute !! def recommend this song if you haven’t heard pavement before. 

lolz that’s all i’m gonna do. here is the link to the playlist tho !! 

(spotify): https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4QYRjN5qbY2m1Iba3sm2VW?si=fb712f37c6474857

thanks 4 reading !!<3

hiii there. so, i’m not a diehard joji fan, but i used to be a fan of his music in early middle school. so of course, his stuff has changed since i last listened. my roommate saw joji live recently so she sort of threw me back into an appreciation for his music. just in time too, as he just released his new album, smithereens. i have had this album on repeat for the past day, so safe to say i really really love it. there’s so many amazing songs here that it is almost impossible to name favorites. despite that, i’m going to try to rank my favorites. so yeah, here we go !! starting with my favorite:

1. feeling like the end

the first song on this album is glimpse of us, which i’ve heard way too much. so when this song came on next, i was pleasantly surprised. this song works so well towards the beginning because it leaves us hopeful for the next tracks, which do not disappoint. the melody in the beginning is my favorite part of the song, as it repeats throughout. sadly, this is one of the shortest songs on the album. a nice upbeat song preparing you for absolute heartache on the next track.

2. yukon (interlude)

this song sounds like it’s going to destroy you at the beginning, but as soon as it comes in you realize it’s a lot like feeling like the end in mood. i love the melody in this song, as i do with almost every other song on this album. taking a break from the hard-hitting lyrics, this song reminds me a lot of some of his older inspirations. something about the references in the lyrics make me think back to his first two albums. in this song, it feels like he grows it perfectly. every little line is not left unfinished, and every melody you crave is given to you. i really love this one, basically. 

3. die for you

ah nah. now it’s time for the one that i believe hits hardest. when i first heard this song, i sobbed in the library. it’s not because i relate to it, because i really don’t, but something about it just made me incredibly emotional. i guess i started looking at the lyrics from a different perspective, and i imagined myself in that position. or maybe i am just insane and cry about everything. that seems more likely. still, a really beautiful song. if you have an ex you still have feelings for, don’t listen to it. and if you’re like me and are in a perfectly healthy relationship with no problems whatsoever, still, don’t listen to it. or do, and cry. that’s what i did.

anyways, thanks for reading this !! if you like joji’s older music, i really recommend listening to this new album !! joji is my tastebreaker tbh, so that’s why this may seem a little out of character for me. anyways, yeah !! cya next week(: