like a dog or a boat—

4.6.18

—you tether it.

how does art mean anything?

does my art mean anything?

how can i make what i do mean something?

how can i make this matter?

can it help me make sense of Everything Else?

recently, i watched a video (more like a feature-length film) by a youtuber called itsamemyleo, or myles for short. i first watched it on a sunday with my brother, then i watched it the following monday while i packed for school, then i watched it the following tuesday with a friend who lives in maryland. every time i watch it, it feels a little bit different, but i haven’t quite figured out what that different is yet. upon each watch, i notice something new or make a connection that i hadn’t fully realized the last time i saw it. little offhand sentences hit me like trains, while other bigger lines blow by like leaves across my feet.

this film is basically like a really long vlog, and that’s all i’m gonna say without spoiling it. it’s a vlog in the same style as all his other videos, one that makes it feel like you’re watching a movie. it’s his first video in a really long time, and you can tell he devoted all of that time between his last video and this one to just making this one. and it’s something that must be watched all at once, not with pauses in between random minutes. you have to find the time to sit down and absorb it for everything it’s worth.

all i really know to say is that it will inspire you in ways you’ve never been inspired before. i don’t wanna say it will change your life because that just sounds cheesy, but like essentially it will change your life. it’s made me do a lot of thinking about my life and my family, which i think it a good thing and a bad thing? i can’t quite figure out how to describe it, but maybe it makes some odd form of sense somewhere.

i’m pretty sure there’s a quote that goes “i don’t know all the answers, but i’m beginning to ask the right questions.” i think this film inspires that. i think it’s made me ask questions i’ve never really thought about before, and it’ll give me new questions with every viewing for at least a little while.

i’m not saying you should watch this film, but i am saying that if you’re feeling a little lost, this might give you a good idea of how to start being found.

Author: Madison Cox

madison: known for being very loud and very short and also a little sad. finally embraced her inner hipster. typically can be found listening to music or writing something. very fond of sweaters, hugs, and chucks. thinks capital letters are overrated. enjoys typing like a child but speaking like an adult. really wants to write books one day.

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