Going With My Gut

I’ve always been a very straightforward person and sure of my actions and thoughts. There have been only a few, extremely rare occasions, where I was not sure of myself. Since 8th grade I knew that I wanted to attend Mississippi School of the Arts, and I kept this mindset up until a few months before I had to turn in my application. I was so very unsure of myself, I had this feeling that I wouldn’t succeed or meet my full potential here. The stress was eating me up, all the while I was encouraging my friends Telvin and Camden to complete their own applications. Can you believe that? I could push others to do what I couldn’t fathom myself. I’d already completed all the segments of the application process I needed done, I just couldn’t submit my work. I aim to win/succeed and I don’t handle rejection with grace. It’s either passive aggression or a new level in just how nonchalant I can be. I truly feared not being accepted to the school I was once so sure that I’d be attending. I had talks with many of my friends and they told me to follow my heart and pray over it, to look for a sign. I thought about it for several days and even considered the cons over the pros in the situation. I knew I wouldn’t be living near my greatest three friends and my boy friend anymore, but they all encouraged me to do what I felt what was best and to be great in life. I wanted someone to tell me not to pursue my dreams, to stay where I was and not go off to a new environment and challenge myself. I needed one, just one sign, to discourage me. I wanted so badly to stay in my comfort zone and not leave behind all my favorite people. In the end, I stopped my procrastinating and put my worries away, and that is the story of how I ended up at MSA, a junior literary.

Author: Amaria Sumler

Self proclaimed Indigo Child, crystal lover, and collector. I'm an ambivert with frequent mood changes. I'm socially aware as well as a future activist and leader. I am also an avid reader. I can go on to state that I am very much interested in the ins and outs of the human mind. I am currently finding myself, so that I can again lose myself in my work. I am a lover of words thoughtfully put together. People, their actions, and interactions influence a lot of my writing. I strongly believe in freedom of speech and many other rightful freedoms of the people. In conclusion, all is fair and life is amazing, I will remain prosperous!

5 thoughts on “Going With My Gut”

  1. This is honestly very similar to how I felt when making the decision of whether or not to apply for MSA. You captured the feeling very well.

  2. I, for one, am quite glad you applied. You are a talented writer and very passionate about the topics that interest you. I am lucky to be able to attend MSA with you and read your writings.

  3. I like how you address the reader themselves with “can you believe that?” It really pulled me in. You put into words the feelings I had coming here in a way that I could not. I’m glad you’re here!

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