one week down… several more to go.

Although it’s weird to think of myself as a junior, it also feels natural, as I am the age of 17. My first week here at msa has been all the emotions, but especially joy and sadness. Last week I spent my day working outside to get a new phone (I dropped mine in a lake) and after, I spent it with my family. I was regretting my decision to leave them that night and lost sleep over the fact knowing I wouldn’t see them for another two weeks- that I wouldn’t be able to go home for another two weeks. That feels so far away now, like it was months ago.

This week has been so physically and mentally draining. I feel bad for leaving my friends and family behind, but I needed to do this and if they can’t support me, then they aren’t concerned for my best interests and if that’s the case, I shouldn’t be concerned of what they feel for me. I’ve learned that it’s okay to put yourself first, and you shouldn’t be miserable to save someone else from being miserable, because they will make new friends just like you will. But in all, this week has been a solid 7, or maybe 8.

The hardest part of being a student at msa and living on campus is what you leave behind at home. Your parents, family, friends, pets, other loved ones, and the memories you share with them.  Every year I’ve been in school, on my first day I would come home with a tired face and my mom would smile asking the typical question, “How was your first day at school?” And after I tell her about my long day, she would make me my favorite food while I watched TV. Of course, I knew I would no longer experience this tradition  before I came here, but it saddens me how quickly it is out of my life. That’s another hard part- the realization of independence and growing up. But that’s not a part of this school, it’s just a part of life this school pushed me to recognize.

Author: Katie Spiers

"You can't do all the good the world needs, but the world needs all the good you can do." - Jana Stanfield This is my favorite quote and is what I find myself striving towards everyday-- to do the most good I can.

6 thoughts on “one week down… several more to go.”

  1. I love this! So open and honest!! Thank you for allowing us to read this because I think we are all transitioning and going through that same thing. I mean, I’ve called my mom every single day since I’ve been here, so trust me, you’re not alone! I love you… stay positive 🙂

  2. It’s crazy knowing I wasn’t the only one feeling this way but also comforting. The benefits of this school out weigh any other thing I could’ve gotten back home and I think that’s really important to think about. This change was for you and nobody else. If they can’t accept it then they don’t deserve you once you come out of this journey. Very well written Katie!

  3. “I feel bad for leaving my friends and family behind, but I needed to do this and if they can’t support me, then they aren’t concerned for my best interests and if that’s the case, I shouldn’t be concerned of what they feel for me.” I related to this part so much because that’s honestly how you should feel. If the people you have in your life doesn’t support your best interest then they’re not meant to be in your life.

  4. Leaving the comfort of home is never an easy thing. I too, miss my fluffy dog and mom. I am so glad that I have met you guys though.

  5. MSA is a major adjustment, but I am sure that we will all get accustomed to it. I miss everyone too (including my pets), but college will be so much easier now. That is why I like the last sentence: “But that’s not a part of this school, it’s just a part of life this school pushed me to recognize.”

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