Until Next Time

So we’re nearing the end of the year, and I just wanted to check in, even this isn’t my last blog post (while it is getting close to that time). I think my point of me writing this is to let you guys know where I’m at at, and what kind of head space I’m in.

This past year has been the worst and best of my life. And I say that in the most endearing way possible. It started out with me moving here to MSA, and that was the hardest thing I’ve done. For a while, I felt really lonely and didn’t really feel like I belonged at the school. It had gotten to the point I resented the school, and didn’t want to be here. When I mean I was so close to dropping out, I mean I would have if my mom would have let me.

But by a stroke of God, she didn’t and when this semester started, the strangest thing happened; I didn’t want to go home on weekends anymore, and I actually kind of dreaded it. Not because I hated home, but because I had so much joy in spending time with people at MSA. If I could have frozen any point of time, it probably would have been late March to Mid-April.

It feels like so much time has passed, and at the same time, like none has all. I feel so matured, yet also somehow still like that scared, timid girl I came as. I’ve changed and morphed and I know I will keep doing that. And so has my work! Although, I feel like I’ve hit a wall with creating content, I can see the immense growth from the beginning of the year to now.

This weekend we meet the Juniors, and I’m so excited. This is a whole new set of people I’m about to meet, some that might change my life forever, or might just change it for a couple of months. Either way, I can’t wait to see them blossom and flourish like our class of 2020 did.

I would say what I’m feeling most of all, is scared. I’m so terrified for this new beginning, and this end of an era. I’m getting the feeling just like I had those first couple of months at MSA; scared and somehow so alone. But I’m trying to remind myself that on senior move-in day I’ll see so many familiar faces, and then get to know the new ones.

So with this, I say hello to a new era. Ew, that’s so cheesy, but it’s true. I hate goodbyes, and I’m not going to let this be one.

So hello school year of 2019-2020! I’m excited to experience you. Please be kind to me, because 2018-2019 has really put me through the ringer.

Author: Emerson Hultman

Not gonna lie, there isn't too much to know about me. The way to my heart is Diet Coke and 2008 bops, I love writing and photography, and I will stop every time I see a dog on the street. I would say that's about it?