No Sucker

Truth is, I just don’t believe that  i’m cut for your average day love story and relationship. I don’t think i’m cut for any kind of romantic relationship really. I am able find comfort in platonic relations but that’s it.

These are are self realizations and I am perfectly fine with that because I know myself. I know that I won’t allow myself to “belong” or compromise because of how free I am. 

I don’t see myself being able to be in a stable relationship because I can’t seem to care, or make myself care, for someone on that level. I do love people though, my family, my friends, myself! I have a lot of love to give but the selfishness of those who are in a relationship is not good energy in my opinion.

I do not like possessiveness and I surely do not want to be a possession. As the saying goes I am “cut from a different cloth.” I believe that I am free in every aspect, that I don’t belong because I am not rooted in anything, but to the earth itself. I know in my heart that I would like to feel the way others feel about their significant others but I also know that I am not made greed.

I feel as if I belong to the world, that I am one with the universe and many seem to not be able to understand that.

I also have had a bad relationship, which lasted for a year and a half,then ended terribly. Here I am, a better person, and now that I look back on it, it was extremely unhealthy. I knew then that it would end, but I tried to hold on. He gave me no reason to, choosing glitter over saffron. Although being with him helped me gained knowledge as to how and why I don’t work well in exclusive relationships.

I would much rather sit on my own and learn about people from wherever standpoint I find myself, as long as it’s not in the middle of some chaotic high school and 20 something era relationship.

I would like to be my own person, doing my own thing, living my own life, and going wherever I see fit. I am my own person through and through. I am also my art and my heartbreaks and my bad experiences and everything in between.

Author: Amaria Sumler

Self proclaimed Indigo Child, crystal lover, and collector. I'm an ambivert with frequent mood changes. I'm socially aware as well as a future activist and leader. I am also an avid reader. I can go on to state that I am very much interested in the ins and outs of the human mind. I am currently finding myself, so that I can again lose myself in my work. I am a lover of words thoughtfully put together. People, their actions, and interactions influence a lot of my writing. I strongly believe in freedom of speech and many other rightful freedoms of the people. In conclusion, all is fair and life is amazing, I will remain prosperous! View all posts by Amaria Sumler