Short Intermission

This isn’t my usual content, but I wanted to share one of my favorite flash fictions that I wrote. I shared a short excerpt to our literary class in the first week of school, but I have been rewriting and editing it since in my free time. 

 

What Was The Time Again?

The air was thick, too thick. My senses kicked into hyperdrive as I felt a hand brush the skin of the back of my neck. I had not been expecting to meet a friend nor randomly see anyone I knew on this bench in the subway, but maybe this could be coincidentally. I jerked my neck vigorously to look behind me, but no one was there. I froze and got chills down my spine, the hair on my arms stood up. 

I could feel the underground-concrete area around me spin as I sat there stationary. The feeling in my fingertips go numb, cold like the tip of an iceberg. My vision goes blurry. Suddenly I am transported to an alternate dimension where I am not at the subway station anymore. I am instead at my original destination for the day: my grandmother’s house.

At my grandmother’s house, I find the two cats that roam the property. They are two orange-tabby cats that circle your ankles if you get too close. Looking up, I notice the dark and ominous clouds heading my way. The wind picks up as I continue to walk through my grandmother’s garden that has a fountain in the middle, still unsure how in the world I got here. 

After many wasted paces, my attention is rerouted to an ear-splitting noise to the right side of the fountain. A blinding blue glow comes from the area. My corneas burn as my curious body takes control and approaches before my brain can reason with it. The blue glow intensifies so much that I go back into that state I was in before, everything spinning while I’m completely still. 

I am once again teleported, but now I’m back home. I found myself in my bed, just waking up from what seemed like sleep. I pulled the blankets back and got out of the bed, walking towards the main room to figure out what the hell was actually happening. My mom sat at the island, cup of coffee in hand the smell lingered all the way towards me. She only blinked at me, there seemed like there was some sort of communication that wanted to happen but couldn’t. I continued around the house looking around for answers for what is happening.

I entered my little brother’s room: “Maddox are you in here?” I called out hoping for a response. “Yeah, I’m playing with legos” he yelled from around the corner. I peered around and he was wearing the same sleeping clothes I had changed him out of this morning. I ignored that small detail and told him to just continue and smiled so he wouldn’t be worried.

Maybe I time traveled? Grandma’s house? The blue glowing orb thing? What happened to mom? Why can’t she speak? All of the questions raced through my mind as I thought out the day I originally thought I had gone through. I looked in the mirror in the bathroom and I was wearing the pajamas I had on this morning just like my brother.  The day was still Tuesday, which confirms my time travel suspicions. Now to figure out the rest. 

My top songs from Solar Power by Lorde

I have been a Lorde fan for as long as I can remember. From Pure Heroine to Melodrama, I’ve listened to it all. Even The Love Club EP. My top album of hers, though, has to be Solar Power. It touches less on the teenage nostalgia of Pure Heroine, and the early adulthood confusion of Melodrama, instead focusing on the feelings accompanied by being in your mid to late twenties, right at the end of early adulthood, yet still too young to be called an adult. Lorde meanders through a quarter-life crisis with beachy guitar tracks and soft-spoken vocals. I will also include my favorite lines from each song at the end of my analysis. 

The Path

The Path is steeped slowly in mellow guitar riffs, sun-stained lyrics, and high vocals. Lorde sings about how she felt as a famous teen during the release of Pure Heroine. She also references how celebrities are treated like gods, and how she wishes her fans wouldn’t look at her in this light. She croons about how she shouldn’t be viewed as a savior, but as someone trying to find their path as well. 

“Supermodels all dancin’ ’round a pharaoh’s tomb”

Stoned at the Nail Salon

Stoned at the Nail Salon is a track about indecision, looking back, and wondering how your life would’ve been if you hadn’t made the decisions you did. Lorde said in an interview that her favorite thing to do when she needed a break was to get high and go get her nails done. She has been unapologetic about her relationship with cannabis. In Stoned at the Nail Salon, Lorde reminisces about her life now, and how it used to be. The chorus repeats the line “Maybe I’m just stoned at the nail salon again” as if she is being silly and merely remembering.

“‘Cause all the music you loved at sixteen you’ll grow out of
And all the times they will change, it’ll all come around”

Secrets from a Girl (Who’s Seen it All)

Secrets from a Girl is a message to Lorde’s younger self. Throughout the song, she refers to insecurities she had about her rising fame as a teen, during the release of her single Still Sane, and Pure Heroine. She also speaks about how she thought she’d never gain self-control, but then contrasts that with a direct example of such behaviors. She includes a spoken word outro as well. A flight attendant, now arriving at Sadness, giving warnings about emotional baggage, and how temperatures are unbearable until you face them. It is clear that even the flight attendant doesn’t know where she is going, and that only you can find your way through.

“Couldn’t wait to turn fifteen
Then you blink and it’s been ten years
Growing up a little at a time, then all at once”

Leader of a New Regime

Leader of a New Regime serves as an interlude and is the 10th track of the album. The lyrics are surprisingly short, only two verses, 8 lines altogether. This song is Lorde’s version of a future prophecy, following a pop star after the end of the world. Cities are burned out, and people are retreating to their natural sanctuaries to start again. This pop star has a trunk full of music and designer dresses and plans to live out the rest of her days.  The second verse begs someone to be the leader of a new regime. A message that if we don’t change our ways, we will have nothing.

“Free the keepers of the burnt-out scene another day
Lust and paranoia reign supreme” 

Rick And Morty :)

Rick and Morty is a show about a kid and his grandfather going on adventures doing all sorts of wacky thing. for this blog I’m going to be rating the character which aren’t a lot.

1.Morty 

 

The main character of this franchise is a prepubescent boy who has half his mind on work and the other half on his crush Jessica. the reason he is my favorite character is because he brings realism to the show but can show bravery for his family. By the way does anyone else feel bad for the little guy. it always seems like no one wants him except for rick who also treats him like a servant. 

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2. Space Beth

Space Beth rather or not if she is the clone or not the clone (Debatable) is a freedom fighter for Alien injustice. She asked rick to clone her because she was tired of her mundane life and needed to explore the galaxy. She’s basically a cooler version of Rick who like father like daughter has many imperfections such as empathy and very questionable tastes.  

Ver questionable tastes. Taking Self-love to a whole new level.

3. Rick Sanchez

The other half of Morty and a pain in the bum for the rest of the galaxy I present to you Rick Sanchez the man that has fornicated with planets and entire colonies at once. Rick Sanchez became Rick his wife and daughter were killed by an alternate version of himself Rick prime. Burden by guilt for the death of his family he explores the galaxy for the man that killed him. Which took him decades but recently he was able to kill him and get revenge, but he still has a hole in his chest that will never be filled. Hopefully his grandson can.

4. Beth Smith 

 

Daughter of Rick Sanches, Wife of Jerry smith, Mother of Morty and Summer smith AND sole provider of the smith family (jerry a bum). Beth is a horse surgeon and a killer with psychopathic umm urges    

she’s also an acholic not the best combination but neither is this family. she hates her father but can help loving him just so that he won’t leave her again (daddy issues) her father loves her as well, but he knows he can’t be that father to her since she is just another versions of his dead daughter.

5. Summer Smith

Summer Smith’s sister of Morty Smith, Daughter of Jerry and Beth Smith, Granddaughter of Rick Sanchez and Mother of Naruto Smith. there isn’t much to say about her to be honest. she the typical teenager stereotype that most old people think. she’s a homicidal manic to so plus? 

Steph’s (Insane) Guide to Spotify and Pinterest

Everyone knows that Spotify is the number one music platform and Pinterest is the number one lifestyle app, but only cool people know about the amazing Pinterest + Spotify combo. I’ve been pretty much addicted to both apps for years and I’ve always had a very specific way of organizing my playlists and boards. I never knew my secret to ultimate organization was so strange until my friend pointed it out and now, I’m deciding to share my little secret. Everyone has their own ways to make playlists and boards but if you’re struggling with the way you organize, maybe consider my method that’s taken over a year to perfect.

I’d honestly say I’m an obsessive person, so when I find a new show, movie, or game that I love, I have to do something (other than consume more media about it). That includes making fan art, Pinterest boards, and Spotify playlists.

So, the first step in Steph’s guide is getting inspired! Find something you really like because after all of this, you’ll probably be sick of it. Maybe a show that you just finished (or started!) and you can’t watch anymore episodes right now. Or a movie that you just watched and loved but there’s not much fanbase or media about it online. You could even use that game that you’ve been obsessed with for years but never told anyone because they probably wouldn’t care as much as you do. Finding a celebrity or aesthetic you really like also works! If you want to become super focused on a big, upcoming project, you can choose that too!

Next is making a Spotify playlist! This is important because you can listen to it while you make the Pinterest board. I’m a very physical planner so I usually get a piece of paper and plan out what music I associate with whatever media I’m making a playlist about. If you’re stuck, the website Spotalike helps me a ton. It creates a whole playlist based off of one song you enter. 

Think about the songs’ significance to the media or characters you’re basing your playlist off of. To stay focused, I like to write down why I’m adding the song to the playlist. Maybe the meaning of the song relates to the message of your media, or the song matches the time it takes place or was made.

Now it’s time for the Pinterest board! I’ll be honest, this part takes me about a week at least. I’ve been told I “work overtime” on Pinterest. I physically plan this out on paper as well (because I’m insane). 

First is the board title. I always add the type of media at the beginning. I use “VG” for video games, “TV” for a show and “MV” for a movie, “CELEB” for celebrities, “AES” for any aesthetics, and “MISC” as miscellaneous for things I can’t put into any of the previous categories. I also use other abbreviations for things a little more niche, if necessary, like “YT” for YouTubers or just “LIFE” for lifestyle boards (like dorm or outfit ideas). I usually separate these from the title of the media with little arrows or brackets. Make sure to use the same symbols for each board so everything looks cohesive.

Next up are the sections! I know some people don’t like to use them in their Pinterest boards but for Steph’s (insane) guide, it’s so necessary. For the title of these, you’ll use the same method you did for the board title. I use “CH” for any characters, “DYN” for dynamics or friendships/relationships, “LOC” for locations or any settings, “BTS” for behind-the-scenes stuff, and “MISC” for anything miscellaneous again (I usually put fanart or memes in this section).

Here are some extra notes that might help! If you’re struggling with finding pins to fill your board with, search up whatever media you’re making a board about with the category it’s in. There’s a small chance that someone who’s good at making Pinterest boards already made one that you can take inspiration from or snatch some pins from. I would also recommend using symbols or emojis to decorate your playlist title and description as well as your board and section titles. And if you like to edit pictures, you can make a custom cover for your playlist and boards!

Thank you for reading this strange blog post where I share my little guide for how I obsess over media with organization (and class)! I’m really curious about others who take their playlists and boards very seriously and their method of organization. Let me know if you take one for the team and use my crazy guide.

Percy Jackson And the Olympians Part 2

Hello everyone, I’m back with another blog about Percy Jackson and the Olympians and I wanted to say thank you for all the support and if some of my information is off or it’s not going in that much depth it’s because I’m going off the top of my head this is also the 2nd part since I need to divert my Attention elsewhere  and if you guess what the 1. book is I’ll give you a cookie. Now without further ado I present.

3. The Battle of the Labyrinth 

Characters: Annabeth, Percy, Tyson, Nico, Grover, Daedalus, Tyson, Luke, Kronos, Calypso, Poseidon, King Minos, Rachel Dare.

Ok so we start off the book with Percy attending orientation at his new school where he encounters some demons where during the fight fire is prong across the school which burns down. Percy would’ve been in major trouble if it had not been for Rachel dare the same girl that Percy met at the dam last book. She ends up getting him out of the school. Percy took her back to camp where she began her studies as an oracle. after getting her situated Annabeth and Percy talk to the campers to tell them Lukes’s plan but unbeknownst to Percy Grover was on trial for not finding Pan [ Even though the gods couldn’t even find him but go off] After this they do a war game [ like every book] where Percy is introduced to the new sword trainer [ who i believe was Luke please tell me if I’m wrong] Percy is suspicious of this new sword trainer because you know they are at war with Luke Chiron is so dumb sometimes. Percy and Annabeth find a labyrinth in camp which they believe Luke will use to invade the camp. Annabeth issues a quest to go into the labyrinth to find Daedalus Workshop and close off the route to the camp. Annabeth, Grover, Tyson and Percy go into the maze where they then cross paths with Nico from the book Titians curse who is there to try and resurrect his dead sister Bianca with the help of King Minos. Nico joins Percy even though he still hates him for not keeping his promise which is technically not his fault since she wanted to be dumb but i can understand Nico’s frustrations.

like I beforehand I haven’t read this in years so i only remember the important parts but stay with me now

Percy went on a side quest for Hephateus to kill a group of Monsters in a volcano that ends up exploding which leads to Percy and Annabeth getting separated with Annabeth thinking he died. Percy ends up getting stranded on an island where it Harbors Calypso (Atlas daughter). Percy stays there for about 2 weeks until he is finally able to leave and when he returns to camp, he sees the camp mourning him since they all thought he perished. Annabeth hugs and punches him for living and not telling her. long story short Grover finds pan makes him lord of the wild, Percy fights Luke, Kronos now has Lukes body, and Daedalus is dead destroying the labyrinth. 

sorry, there’s not that much information I remember most not all.

8/10

Hello everyone, :)

So, as my first post I decided to rank my favorite book series Percy Jackson and the Olympians and give details about each book. I’ll be ranking them lowest to highest

5. Sea Of Monsters 

 

Ok so the sea of monsters is about of Grover (2nd fav) is captured by a cyclops and Percy and Annabeth go across the sea to rescue him encountering Luke the person that betrayed Percy and the camp and the end of the last book. Where they also met up with allies like Clarissa and Aries (God of war) and had to help them fight a group of enemies (I don’t remember who) but after the help her out they use the sub that Aries gave to Clarissa to go to the island where Grover is being held. When they get to the island, they find Grover in a wedding dress about to get married to the cyclops with the help of Tyson and Clarissa they managed to get Grover out and escape.

Likes: Grover in a wedding dress, Annabeth and Percy relationship growing

Dislikes: Literally everything else. there was barely any character growth for Clarissa. We do get introduce to Tyson Percy half-brother, but it minimizes Percy struggle being the only kid in of Poseidon and in the fight with the cyclops he had barely any importance to the fight also this means the Poseidon broke the taboo again (Hades on top). 

this book was a 4/10 for me at least there’s mixed reviews 

4.The Titians Curse 

 

I’d say that this had potential because of the characters he introduced like Nico, Thailia even though we saw her last book at the Zoe, Bianca and Paul. You may be asking Paul? Who’s Paul? He is Percy’s step I’m and im glad we got his introduction in this story now we get to see Percy have somewhat of a normal life but let’s get into the summary.

So, we start with Percy, Annabeth, Grover and Thalia going to a school to help out 2 students Nico and Bianca and bring them to camp but there are monsters after them so Percy, Annabeth, and Thalia along with some of Artemis warriors fight them while Grover get Nico and Bianca to safety. During the fight Annabeth gets kidnapped and Thailia, who mind you was also there, blames Percy for her kidnapping. Percy talks to the hunter hoping for help to get her back but he finds out that Artemis has been captured and most likely by the same people.

Bianca talks to the hunters about her joining them which to me doesn’t make sense because that would mean leaving Nico her brother behind but that doesn’t matter right now because after this dialogue Apollo comes in to give them all a ride back to camp, they rest come back they have a prophecy.

  1. Five shall go west to the goddess in chains,
  2. One shall be lost in the land without rain,
  3. The bane of Olympus shows the trail,
  4. Campers and Hunters combined prevail,
  5. The Titan’s curse must one withstand,
  6. And one shall perish by a parent’s hand.

So, they chose to take Zoe. I can understand Thalia I can understand Grover I can also understand that but Bianca? Why her over everyone, even Percy who at this point already battled a god and legendary Monsters, just to choose the girl with no experience and a nerdy brother who knows more about mythology than you. Anyway, the four of them go while Percy follows behind discreetly with a sea creature named Bessie after having dreams about the general. He follows them to Washington DC where he spots Luke following them, so he tells them, and they get mad at him (not Grover though) for following them. They then get attacked by some zombies. Zoe allows Percy to join making it 5 now.

They get to New Mexico where they find a junkyard but before this Aphrodite along with Ares tells him to not pick anything up. Listen to me they said do not pick anything up. Guess what Bianca picks up a figurine she wanted to give to her brother before she leaves him for most likely forever is killed by Talos which breaks the promise to Nico to keep her safe. I blame 2 people and 2 only Zoe and Bianca cause why would you bring an inexperienced first day hunter with you on a dangerous quest and why would you do something so stupid on a dangerous quest and why would she bother giving Nico anything you’re already leaving him behind when you’ve been with him for a hundred years.

After this happened Percy sad since he broke his promise to Nico, but they continue on to San Francisco at the hoover dam where they meet Bessie again and it turns out she has the power to overthrow the gods a manticore who is a servant to Kronos comes almost convince Thalia to join him, but she relents they call Mr. D he comes takes out the manticore.

They are then taken to Olympus where the gods contemplate killing Thalia and Percy since they have the potential to destroy Olympus. So, Thalia decides to become a hunter for Artemis, so she won’t grow up to be 16 while Percy convinces them that he won’t destroy Olympus. Flash forward they get into a fight with Atlas, and they see Annabeth holding the sky with a white streak in her hair. Atlas is also Zoe’s father, so they beat him, make him hold up the sky again and Zoe dies fighting her father, so Artemis makes her a constellation to honor her. They head back to the camp and the relationship between Percy and Annabeth grows and Nico hates Percy since he didn’t keep his promise to keep Bianca safe and it’s revealed that he is the son of Hades in the end.

The end.

5/10

The only reason this rating is so low is that the pacing was very slow, and the character dynamics were terrible compared to the first book.

Part 2 coming soon

 

The people fate binds you to..

“Accept the things to which fate binds you and love the people with whom fate brings you together but do so with all your heart.”

Marcus Aurelius

Then, this quote was something to hear and not feel. It was surface level and could not penetrate past that point, like a stick of hay trying to poke a hole into a SUV. I thought noticing and accepting the people we are around was common sense. At least, what this meant to me was to have compassion for people. Express your love for them, if you are able/comfortable and want to be in the position of receiving that love back. 

Thinking further, I was so in focused on myself and what I was adding to the world. Was I good enough at this? Or could I use more focus at that?  I can’t say I remember a single time where I was just sitting with the people fate bonded me to without using my phone or accessing that part of my brain that naturally critiqued itself. Then, I thought this was a good thing. If I found every weak point of my piano skills or read a hefty section of a biology book, I’d be set for life. I’d have the world.

But now, without the people fate bonded me to those big things feel small. Everything I worked toward wasn’t worthless, they just weren’t as meaningful as they used to be. It seems like the time was wasted instead of well spent. What I was adding to the world didn’t mean anything because the world is given to everyone but the people around me were exclusively my own. 

I think times like this become a realization. They warp into a picture that you aren’t familiar with but those are all your brush strokes, those are all your handprints. It’s created away from your eye but nonetheless in your favor. 

And maybe that’s what life is about. Painting a picture, you cannot actually see or touch, you just have to let who you are be the brush and how you live be the brushstrokes. Living away from my family has let the picture come alive and show itself to me. Who I am, and how I live. It’s not a bad realization of course, because I’m not a bad person. It’s just so strong and haunting that it seems final. 

But how can we combat this feeling? Can we become something different than we used to be? Take extra care to show our family that we love and need them and appreciate the support they give us? We don’t have to change in fact we just have to do some inner work. Make goals and plans to reach out to them and find a center. Where we feel peace away from the people the universe put in our space. But before that we have to become better family members. Join in the family board game or volunteer to go grocery shopping with grandma. Braid your sister’s hair while watching her favorite show and talk about the most random things together. Talk about how the shoes hanging on the powerline once belonged to someone and share how they even got there in the first place. 

This creates involvement. So that the peace sprouts from something good. It sprouts from effort that energizes your familial bond. That even though we haven’t been the most involved in the past we can strengthen it with good intentions alone. They will recognize this, they will see the frequent calls and letters, they will notice how your room door is open and inviting and how you always greet them in the morning and wish them a goodnight at the end of the day. This, to me, is accepting our loved ones at a deeper range. Valuing the people we’ve looked over, because we need them after all.

Invincible Character Review

This may be a pretty biased review to anybody who doesn’t like superheroes as much as me, but it’ll be ok. I have an unfathomable love for this show, and I need to express how much I love these characters. In my opinion, this is one of the best shows I have ever watched, and I recommend everybody to watch it. 

Invincible

Invincible is the main protagonist in the show. His father’s hero name is Omni-Man, who is like superman, just minus a few powers. Invincible has the same powers as his father and the first season is mainly about him learning how to use those powers while still having to fight off villains. I love this character because he shares a huge similarity with my favorite hero, Spider-Man. Just like Spider-Man, Invincible must balance his teenage life with his hero life, and in the show, you can really see the toll that takes on him and how much he struggles with it. Invincible has to balance school, homelife, friends, hero work, and his awful girlfriend (I’ll get into that later) all together. It’s a rare occasion for him to actually fit it all into one day, and that causes him to lose a lot, yet he always pushed through no matter how bad life was for him. That a huge thing I love about Spider-Man and Invincible managed to capture that aspect of being a teen hero just as well.

Omni-Man

Omni-Man is the father of Invincible. He serves as a Superman role on Earth. To the people of Earth, he is an alien from another planet sent to protect Earth from any threats. Though he is an alien from another planet, the rest is a lie to cover up his real intentions with the planet. Omni-Man is not an innocent character by any means. He is actually the main antagonist. In the first episode, he initiates the first step of his true intentions with the planet by doing a horrible thing to some characters introduced earlier in the same episode, whom he teamed up with. His evil status is very quickly shown to the viewers, but obviously a secret for the character. I think the show does a very good job at showing him hiding in plain sight after the tragedy he caused. By the end of the season, he finally tries to finish with the plan but ends up getting “chased” off the planet by his son. As awful of a person he is, you can really see in many moments of the first season that he still has some humanity left in him, and in the second season that is really shown, just in a gross way (if you know then you know.) It really looks like he is going to have a redemption ark, though not as great as Rex, I’m all for it, just will be nowhere near the same hero that he was.

Atom Eve

Atom Eve is Invincibles love interest in the comics and is soon to be his love interest in the show. Her power allows her to change the structure of molecules. So, she can basically make anything out of this air. She just can’t mess with living things. She is a side protagonist that even has her own special episode showing her back story. Her back story shows how tough her childhood was and what she had to go through to become the hero she is now. I love this character because she is an example of no matter how hard you try to help; it might not always go well. She spends the show trying to become a neighborhood hero that helps people not only in danger, but also in need. But sometimes her acts of kindness go wrong, and she ends up blaming herself. There were points where she quit being a hero because she didn’t want to hurt anybody, but she always came back to help save the day. She is yet another example of constant perseverance and I love that for her character.

Debbie Grayson

Debbie Grayson is the mother of Invincible and though she is a normal human without powers, she is still an amazing character in the show. Her character often gets overlooked, but I think she still has an amazing story based on what she has to go through in the show. Most of her story isn’t truly seen until the second season, but the beginning of it takes place in the first. I think she goes through more than anyone else in the show (except for Invincible.) Her character really shows what it is like to be depressed and to feel betrayed. She is the one that originally discovers her husband’s true intentions with the world. She then has to hear him say awful things about her during Invincible and Omni-Man’s fight. After Omni-Man leaves, she is left alone and broken with a son that can’t be there for her due to his hero work. She is truly alone, because most people who know about her husband hate her just as much. She only has one true friend who is just as broken as her. All throughout the second season, it shows her heartbreaking story and how some people can just be left broken with no help. Though she does show some improvement near the end of the season, you can really tell that hole is still in her chest.

Summary

Anyways those are some of my favorite characters from the show and my one least favorite. I hope this made sense to you and seems like a show that you may enjoy. If you already enjoy this show, I am very open to talking about it because I am an Invincible fanboy.

My Commentary on Crybaby.

In this blog I want to talk about Melanie Martinez’s album “Crybaby” one of my favorite albums. The album follows a child/teen named Crybaby and each song follows her story/gives input about her life. 

Also note I am going to be talking about the music videos as well because they include details you can’t really get from listening to the songs. And I’m not going to be covering the three songs that are added on the deluxe edition: Play Date, Teddy Bear, and Cake. 

*I also put my favorite lyrics of each song at the end of the blog post :3*

First song: Crybaby 

The music video starts with the birth of Crybaby, in which her mother is heavily upset with her crying (she was literally just born but ok I guess) and exclaims “Oh God she’s a Crybaby” in annoyance, she also soon lights a cigarette in the hospital room. We also see her holding a wine bottle while attempting to feed Crybaby. In this song we get details about Crybaby specifically her sensitivity, one line entailing “You seem to replace your brain with your heart you take things to hard and then you fall apart.” We also get that she has trouble making friends. 

 

Second Song: Dollhouse TW: Drug use, infidelity and alcoholism. 

In this song we get a glimpse into her family life. This song to me specifically discusses the picture of a perfect family they attempt to fake while being incredibly dysfunctional. In this song we learn that Crybaby’s mother is an alcoholic, her father is unfaithful, and her brother is a frequent cannabis smoker. Also, a repeated lyric in this song is “Don’t let them see what goes on in the kitchen” a lyric we learn more about in the next song. 

Third song: Sippy Cup. TW: Literal murder.

In this song we focus on Crybaby’s mother and father. We see her mother sitting in the kitchen drinking late at night, we follow her mother through this downward spiral, we also see glimpses of crybaby with angel wings which is important for a theory many people have. But sooner or later we find out that the mother’s spiral is caused by the father not being home and when he does a arrive home, he has a woman with her (presumably his mistress) and when her mother sees them, she stabs them to death (in the kitchen) and after covering their bodies with a tarp. Crybaby soon comes in and sees their bodies her mother then appears behind her putting a rag over her mouth appearing to have chloroform or something on it to knock her out. Crybaby then awakes to being tied to her bed and her mother comes into frame with a sippy cup (presumably filled with alcohol) forcing Crybaby to drink it and the video ends. A lot of people believe that by feeding Crybaby the alcohol her mother is “killing her innocence.” and that Crybaby with wings represents her dead innocence. 

 

Fourth song: Carousel 

This song is Crybaby’s first venture into love, I believe this is more of a overall crush than a relationship. I don’t consider this to hold much important story. In the song she describes feeling so far away and just longing to get closer to this boy and mentions her heart being stolen. The carousel is mentioned multiple times, her being stuck on it and even referenced in the line “This horse is too slow we’re always this close.” Furthering the point that she wants to get close to this boy. In the music video also shows her repeatedly trying to catch her crush. 

 

Fifth Song: Alphabet Boy

In this song Crybaby is clearly angry and dissing someone a boy. It’s not clear who the boy is in question, but a lot of people consider it safe to assume that Alphabet boy is the same boy from Carousel. In this song Crybaby is calling “Alphabet boy” out on being self-righteous and full of himself and intern viewing her as beneath him. This is clear in “You think you’re smarter than me with all your bad poetry.”

Little Sidenote: This songs use of literation is amazing and so clever. 

Examples:

Always Aiming paper Airplanes At me. 

Building me up like Building Blocks just so you can Bring me down. 

You Can Crush my Candy Canes but you’ll never Catch me Cry. 

And with each new verse that same alliteration starts over in Alphabetical order. 

Sixth Song: Soap 

In this song Crybaby talks about a new boy she has a crush on and being afraid to say the wrong thing around him. And multiple times referencing washing her mouth out with soap in order to not reveal her feelings for him. At the end we see them kiss and we can assume she has revealed her feelings for him. 

 

Seventh Song: Training Wheels. 

This music video follows Johnny (the boy from soap) and Crybaby. We first see Crybaby pulling away from Johnny and then she slowly gets closer to him. Eventually teaching him to ride a bike successfully (without training wheels) once riding own his own we see him ride towards Crybaby who is awaiting a kiss but once he is right in front of her he disappears. The song itself seems to explore the idea of vulnerability within love and by taking off her training wheels Crybaby is fully diving into the risk of getting hurt to love unconditionally. 

Eight Song: Pity Party

In this song and music video Crybaby throws some sort of party in which no one shows up. Throughout the video we see Crybaby attempting to keep her composure until towards the end she ultimately breaks at the end destroying the party and the house. Like many songs towards the end, I didn’t really consider this song to have an overarching meaning it was just great storytelling and pushed the plot forward. I do think the incorporation of the scream into the song itself and not just having it in the video is great.  

Ninth Song: Tag, You’re it. TW: kidnapping 

In the beginning of this music video, we see Crybaby tossing away what seems like party decorations (a sort of callback to pity party). As the video progresses, we see Crybaby being followed by an ice-cream truck that had a wolf (a reference to the big bad wolf). He follows her to a grocery store where a woman with black eyes (possibly foreshadowing to the powers in K-12) hands Crybaby a vile of liquid. When Crybaby goes outside the ice-cream truck is offering free samples once she tries one it knocks her unconscious and the wolf throws her into the back of his truck. I consider this song and the next to not have any overarching meaning, I also want to say that doesn’t mean I think these songs are bad or less than the ones with strong meaning I just think these songs serve more of a storytelling purpose than to spread any specific message. 

note about the song: the way it plays with pitch and tone on certain lyrics as a sort of clue that it’s the wolf speaking is a great choice. As it not only still paints a story for people not watching the video but also clues us in on the wolf’s intentions. Example of one of these lyrics include: “I’ll cut you up and make you dinner-You’ve reached the end you are the winner.”

Tenth Song: Milk and Cookies TW: Murder again, but he’s the bad guy so it was cool.

This song follows Crybaby after she had been kidnapped. We see that she is kept in this room with a camera that allows the wolf to watch her from a separate room where there’s a phone next to the chair, he has in front of the television. Crybaby decides to make cookies the wolf watches her until the phone rings while he is distracted, she empties the vile of liquid the woman gave her into the batter. Once he is done on the phone he goes into the room with Crybaby where she offers him a cookie which he takes ultimately killing him and allowing her to escape. 

Eleventh Song: Pacify Her

In this song we dive back into Crybaby’s love life. The song follows her as she feigns for this boy’s attention even though he has a girlfriend (I believe they have some type of relationship because of the line “Now I can take her man”). In the song Crybaby is essentially trying to get “blue boy”(it’s what he’s called and he’s literally blue so…yeah) to pick her and stop paying attention to the other girl. The music video follows the same sentiment of her trying to impress which works and they almost kiss until the other girl stands up and flashes (yes flashes, also given the baby theme and the fact they’re in a literal crib this was kind of shocking, and a little icky). But after blue boy gets flashed, he picks the other girl disregarding the connection him and Crybaby had.

The blonde girl is the girl competing with Crybaby not Crybaby herself. Melanie Just played both roles.

Twelfth Song: Mrs. Potato Head TW: talk of body image issues. Music video also shows gruesome footage replicating plastic surgery (it’s not real but still).

This song is very obviously about body image and insecurity as well as touching on plastic surgery, this is clearer in the music video if you don’t pick up on the lyrics. The music starts with Crybaby sitting in front of the television eating cookies and playing with her dolls when a random commercial about blonde wigs (the girl who blue boy chose was blonde) and diet pills. Crybaby stops eating and walks to the bathroom where she puts on a blonde wig and lipstick as well as takes a whole container of diet pills and stuffs her bra full of tissue. She then goes back to the television where a different program begins to play. The program follows a man and a woman in a relationship, the woman is opening up gifts from the man one is a necklace and the next is a coupon/ad for plastic surgery. After some urging, she agrees to under the knife (which we see in gory detail, and I mean detail). After wards she takes off the bandages and it appears she has been botched, the man is visibly (it’s your fault bro but go off I guess).  In an attempt to feel beautiful again she cakes her face with makeup, and he gives her a blonde wig (BRO MOVE) after she’s all dolled up, she looks out of the window and sees him giving another young woman flowers clearly flirting with her then program ends. We see Crybaby clearly in shock taking off the wig and taking the tissues out of her bra. This song’s meaning isn’t very hard to interpret it is about how society values looks and how the societal standard for beauty impacts young girls. I love the music videos way of portraying this instead of just shunning plastic surgery overall she shames the idea of changing your appearance for anyone other than yourself.  

Thirteenth Song: Mad Hatter TW: I lot of mental health mention: specifically, the use of the word crazy and mentions of a psychiatrist. There’s also a scene where she rips her skin off and it’s a lyric in the song. 

There’s also a part where she takes a bite out of a live donut, and it was just kind of gross. 

This song has an Alice and Wonderland type vibe. It’s basically just Crybaby embracing her madness. I will talk very briefly about the music video. In the beginning Crybaby is laying on a bad smoking she then proceeds to take a pink liquid and drinks it. This obviously makes her disorientated before she fully passes out, we see two women with black eyes standing over her. After she fully falls into sleep, we follow her dream(?) this is where the Alice and Wonderland feel comes into play. There’s moving food, oversized stuffed animals the whole nine. When Crybaby wakes up, we see that she now also has black eyes then the music video ends. The black eyes again foreshadowing the powers in K-12. 

 

P.S: Sippy Cup’s has also been said to include allegories to eating disorders, but I didn’t go into those, so be weary before you listen. 

Favorite lyrics from each song: 

Crybaby: “Your hearts too big for your body that’s why it won’t fit inside”

Dollhouse: “Everyone thinks that we’re perfect please don’t let them look through the curtains”

Sippy Cup: “All the makeup in the world won’t make you less insecure”

Carousel: “Right, right when I’m near it’s like you disappear. Where’d you go Mr. Houdini, you’re a freakshow.” 

Alphabet Boy: “But you’re not my daddy and I’m not your dolly, and your dictionary’s destroyed”

Soap: “Should’ve never said the word “love”. Threw a toaster in the bathtub.” 

Training Wheels: “You’ve been riding two-wheelers all your life. It’s not like I’m asking to be your wife.”

Pity Party: “Maybe if I knew all of them well. I wouldn’t have been trapped inside this hell that holds me.” 

Tag you’re it: “Eenie, meeine, miny, mo. Catch a lady by her toes. If she screams don’t let her go”

Milk and Cookies: “Sing you a lullaby where you die at the end.”

Pacify Her: “You don’t love her. Stop lying with those words.”

Mrs. Potato Head: “It’s such a waste. When little girls grow into their mother’s face. But little girls are learning how to cut and paste. And pucker out their lips until they suffocate ha-ha.”

Mad Hatter: “Where is my prescription? Doctor, doctor, please, listen. My brain is scattered. You can be Alice; I’ll be the Mad Hatter.”

 

 

Weekly Agenda

Haven’t seen you guys in a while! School has been so busy, and now even my weekends are overtaken by work and assignments. I have a lot of stuff to submit this week, especially before Friday, so I thought I would list them out and explain what they are. 

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Refutation Paragraph & Conclusion – I’m writing an essay on King Arthur and his historical references. I am arguing that King Arthur either was not real, or could have been multiple leaders mixed together into one story, with fantasy added for effect by romance writers of the time. I also have to finish up the essay completely by the end of this week, so a conclusion paragraph needs to be done too. My refutation paragraph is due Wednesday. (Or I guess today, if you’re reading this when it’s published.) Also, this is like 40% of my DC Eng. Comp. class grade, so I’m very stressed about it. Hoping it turns out well! To quote a friend of mine, ‘King Arthur is mid.’ 

17 Page Play – This assignment is killing my vibes, I’m not gonna lie, but I will be trying my best to produce a great play. Writers block is hitting me hard, and I can’t find ways to continue the play past 10 pages. But, I’m going to work on outlining what specifically I want to happen and maybe add in some extra dialogue to enrich the world I’m envisioning. This play is based on something scientific, so I chose Archaeology and focused on Pompeii. This is due Thursday. (So, tomorrow.) 

LALALALALALA – If you’re wondering why it’s called this, it’s because I can’t think of a name right now. It’s a story that is supposed to be 2,000-3,000 words long, and has to contain the main character looking back on an event in their life. I’m basing the story on characters I already have, using bits and pieces of pre-written parts of the story (while editing them heavily because the pre-writing was old and not like my current writing style.) I’m a little over halfway done, but again, writer’s block continues to kick my butt. I am hoping I can be fully done with everything before the four-day weekend so I can relax and try to gain my creativity back. 

 

Being a literary isn’t easy, that’s for sure, but I know it’s worth it. I will drag myself kicking and screaming into an A or a B to end this school year, if I have to.

But sometimes, sometimes in those moments of clarity, it’s clear that this is what I’m supposed to be doing. I hope to see you all again soon. ♥