ENA: Dream BBQ

During my Easter break, I found myself sinking into a form of media that (surprisingly) wasn’t Common Side Effects. Alongside that, I realized that I’m starting to regress into the girl I was a few years ago under, what I assume to be, the stress of recently turning 17. That means I’m diving back into the things I liked as a 13 and 14-year-old. One of those includes ENA.

ENA started as an animated series by Joel G on YouTube. ENA is a character inspired by Picasso’s “Girl before a Mirror”. She represents two prominent sides of a person as two separate colors, split down the middle. These colors portray happiness and depression represented by yellow and blue respectively. The yellow side has a male voice (which sparked my love for voice actors that are the opposite gender of the character they’re voicing) and the blue side has a female voice. They both have very dynamic and contrasting tones that I absolutely adore. The series consists of 4 episodes all under 10 minutes (excluding “Temptation Stairway” which is 17 minutes long). All of the characters are incredibly interesting. My favorite, other than ENA, is Moony. She’s ENA’s friend and I just think they’re so cute together.

I swear this isn’t bad quality, this is just the style. screenshot from the episode “Auction Day”

The ENA series is really high quality, and because of that, episodes took a really long time to release. In between “Temptation Stairway”, released 4 years ago, and “Power of Potluck”, the newest episode, my interest in ENA naturally dropped. I still admired the series and character, I just stopped involving myself in the media as much.

look how cute she is!!!!! “Extinction Party” episode thumbnail

Until ENA: Dream BBQ came out on March 27, 2025 (3 days after my birthday!) and I found out about it relatively quickly. Probably because it was a really anticipated game so a lot of YouTubers and other creators that I follow played it and talked about it. I was quick to jump on the train as well, watching my first play through of it on April 12. Then I watched 3 more play throughs and multiple videos breaking down the plot.

I feel like I’m more than qualified to spoil the whole thing, but I highly encourage others to play it for themselves. It’s free on Steam! So here, I’ll just discuss my favorite things about the game and how much I love the Dream BBQ version of ENA.

i love her so much

This game is very similar to the Youtube series, which already felt like clips of a video game. It feels like a playable episode of ENA and I think that’s the perfect way to translate the series into a game. It’s incredibly surreal and confusing while also being fun and leaving a lot of the story to the audience’s interpretation.

tbh i don’t know what i’m looking at here

ENA has changed a lot between the YouTube series and the game. Instead of yellow and blue, she’s white and red. The different sides of her even have different names, white is “meanie” and red is “salesman”! She even has a cute little hat. I still have a lot of love for the old ENA, the yellow and blue color combination brings back a lot of good memories, but Dream BBQ ENA is definitely my favorite.

what a cutie

I think my second favorite character is Froggy – a Japanese speaking man in a huge frog costume. He has so much personality and he’s very expressive. He even has an amazing ringtone when he calls you! I’m considering making it my own ringtone…

froggy and ena.. my favs…

One of my (many) favorite parts of the game is when ENA, who you’re playing as, enters the “Lost Village” and knocks on the doors of the houses in the area until she finds the right one. Each house that isn’t the right one disappears with a unique animation and I just think that’s really funny. It’s also just fun to see all the different animations, it makes me hope to never find the right house just to see the animations.

Even though the anticipation for this game was high (to my understanding), it’s not as popular as I thought it would’ve been. Compared to the traction the ENA series received, the game has received a surprisingly little amount of attention. But that just makes the fan content a lot more special. Some of those TikTok editors make videos that seriously look like trailers for the game! 

All of this to say, I really love ENA: Dream BBQ. I think everyone should play it or watch someone else play it because some of the biggest YouTubers that have played it only have half of a million views as I’m writing – which sounds like a lot but compared to the series’ combined view count of 47.5 million, it’s not!

Writing Down the Bones- a book review (I think)

If you’ve only read a snippet of the book or maybe you haven’t read any of it at all, Writing Down the Bones is written by Natalie Goldberg and in it she talks about building your stamina as a writer, looking for progress and not perfection, and approaching the practice through Zen meditation. She emphasizes the importance of creative journaling and setting yourself free through your own writing. When I first saw this book, I was almost certain that it was going to say something about practicing writing every day. Every time you seek advice about writing from professionals or books or articles, they ultimately tell you the same thing- to write every day. Now, this book isn’t exactly different from those other books and articles, but I think the intention is a little different.

Although Natalie does advise you to write every day, she also wants you to eliminate your own personal critic, and this makes a lot of sense. Personally, I’m always in a battle with the backspace button. There have definitely been moments where the words to a short story or a poem or an article poured straight out of me, but there are other moments where I feel the need re-read what I write, and this causes some overthinking and frustration because I see comma splices and poorly chosen metaphors and not enough flowery language and blah blah blah.  Filtering out your personal critic can allow the words to flow freely, and it can give you a sense of freedom. This cuts down on stress, and it keeps you motivated to write more. This is helpful advice, especially as a new writer because you gain that space you need to grow your craft.

Another topic that Natalie frequently touched on in the book was separating your ego from your writing practice. Matter of fact, she also explains how ego can directly affect your writing. This happens when your thoughts are being filtered and ultimately interrupted because you are anxious to accept criticism as a writer. Simply put, ego limits creativity. Natalie provides writing exercises that can decrease issues related to ego. An example of an ego decreasing exercise would be writing a vivid moment that relates to a memory or an experience. The important catch to this exercise is keeping all the raw and deltaic moments in the story and recognizing when you filter because of ego.

Zen meditation is another topic that Natalie explores throughout this novel. Natalie Goldburg is a Zen Buddhist, and she has implemented the practice of Zen meditation in her writing practice for a long time. Natalie views writing and Zen meditation as very closely related practices, both focusing on the mind and its relation to the present moment. She emphasizes that writing is like meditating and it involves a regular, consistent effort to become self-aware. Zen meditation has many pros to it as well. It decreases anxiety, creates a sense of mindfulness, and it allows us to explore our mind. But not just that, it can also allow us to form a different connection to writing. Honestly, I didn’t understand how Zen meditation could be related to writing because they are two completely different practices, but as I continued the book and she dived deeper into this concept, I learned that Zen meditation and writing are alike in that they both allow you to explore the mind’s inner landscape and to connect to yourself.

I enjoyed this book so much and I’ve taken much more than just writing tips from it. In it, you can also get a glimpse of Natalie’s life as a writer and how she got where she was. She talks about the good and bad parts of the writing life, and the struggles new writers face as they begin. I hear that her other book “Wild Mind” is another good one and I hope to check that out too.

Last Car Blog (probably not)

Okay, so this go home weekend, I had a problem. When I was driving the day before, my car was running funny. When I pulled out of parking spots and put it into drive, it would barely move even when I was putting my foot on the gas. After like 15 seconds it would work normal again, but after the third time of it happening, the check engine light came on. OH NO! So, when I got back to school, I was freaking out. But then Ms. Sudie started to ask me about how I was liking it, and I told her that I liked it, but I was also having a problem. Me and her came to a conclusion that it had to be a transmission problem, and she wanted to check my transmission fluid before I left. Mind you that drive is 3 hours for me.

The next day when she tried to check the fluid, we find out my cars model doesn’t have a dipstick for the transmission fluid. So, I had to take it to Autozone to get a diagnostic ran on it. When the guy came out to use the device, I knew I was doomed. The wire on it was all torn and taped up and it was awful. It took 20 minutes to run a diagnostic. If you don’t know, those are supposed to take at most five minutes. THEN WHEN HE GOD THE CODE, HE TOLD ME TO LOOK IT UP INSTEAD OF HIM CONNECTING IT TO THE COMPUTER AND PRINTING IT OUT. I was so mad. But I looked it up and it turned out to be a sensor in the engine. Not something with the transmission. But he gave me no info on the sensor. He told me to just not drive fast, and I’ll be fine. Then he said if I wanted to no more, I would have to go to the Nissan dealership. So, I did. Bad idea. The guy there spoke mechanic gibberish. I didn’t know what he was talking about. I don’t know cars like that. I told him about how long the drive was, and he was very hesitant with telling me that it would be okay and he just said it could be fine. Bro. Help. He also told me it would be 450 dollars to fix. The gulp I did…

After all that, I just left and went home. I still sped when the guy told me not too. I had no problems the whole way. The very next day my mom took it to her mechanic friend, and he said it was an easy fix and not that big of a deal. He fixed it for less than 100 dollars and it was as good as new. Well, kind of. The car is rejecting the sensor now. He told me that wasn’t common, but he has seen it happen. Btw don’t think this guy sucks. He’s the best mechanic I’ve ever had. But he told me the car will definitely last the two weeks I’m up here, so we didn’t get it fixed again because it would be to close. So, when I go back, I have to bring it to him to get it fixed. It’s been pretty fine. I think. Wish me luck, guys. Nothings keeping me out that driver’s seat though.

To Pimp A Butterfly Pt. 1

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To Pimp A Butterfly has been on repeat in my headphones for almost a month. This album evokes so many emotions out of me whether it be negative or positive. Kendrick is a lyrical genius, and I will always stand by that. This is an activist album that holds many themes of race, oppression, and the experience of being a Black person. The song has 16 songs, so I will be doing 8 in this blog and make a second with the other 8!

1. Wesley’s Theory = 4:47

“Anything, see, my name is Uncle Sam, I’m your dog”

Wesley’s Theory describes how racist American institutions owned by White supremist exploit Black creators for profit. This song starts off by saying that every Black person is a star. It also gives some reference to the album title saying, “When the four corners of this cocoon collide/You’ll slip through the cracks, hoping that you’ll survive/Gather your wind, take a deep look inside/Are you really who they idolize to pimp a butterfly?” The name of the album is something that I’ll come back to on the second part of this blog because it’s not truly addressed until the last song. This song talks about a guy who likes a girl but eventually just lets lust take over that love. This girl is a metaphor for the rap game, since Kendrick addresses in this album that artists are enticed by being in this industry. In this song Kendrick is portrayed as a stereotypical rapper with no education and what not. Dr. Dre is in this song and gives a talk about how you have to keep your head in the game, and you cannot lose sight of yourself. In Verse 2 of this song Kendrick talks about a house and a car, forty acres and a mule, a piano, a guitar. These words are spoken by Uncle Sam who is enticing him to live a material life. Forty Acres and a mule, which Kendrick mentions often in this album, is reference to how African Americans were promised this as compensation for slavery after they were freed. 

Kendrick Lamar - Wesley's Theory Ft. George Clinton, Thundercat - YouTube

2. For Free? – Interlude = 2:10

“I picked cotton that made you rich”

This is a very explicit song, but this is like slam poetry I think… The song starts with a woman dogging on this guy for being a bum pretty much, and I think the woman is symbolization for the US because at the end of the song she says, “I’ma get my Uncle Sam to f*ck you up/You ain’t not king”. Kendrick raps about slavery in this, and how Black people had to do so much for free with nothing back in return. He is standing up to the fact that we deserve more than what we are given. He mentions once again, “I need forty acres and a mule/Not a forty ounce and a Pitbull” which references what Black people were promised vs stereotypical things about us. Kendricks speaks on lusting over the American dream once again, and he even says “Matter of fact, it needs interest” speaking more on how little African Americans got after being freed. The lady saying “You ain’t no king” transitions into the next song.

Watch Kendrick Lamar Run Amok in Playful 'For Free?' Video - Rolling Stone

3. King Kunta = 3:55

“Now I run the game, got the whole world talking’,”

Kendrick starts this song off by saying he’s got a bone to pick; he’s mad but not stressing. He goes on to talk about King Kunta aka Kunta Kinte, who was a fictional Black slave featured in the novel “The Roots”. In this Novel, Kunta gets his foot cut off to prevent him escaping his plantation, and Kendrick uses the line, “Everyone wanna cut the legs off him” which means people want to prevent him from leaving the rap game. Kendrick uses King Kunta as an oxymoron meaning both oppressed like a slave and dominant like a king. He speaks of how he used to be poor, but now he runs the game. Kendrick also says “When you got the yams” which references Invisible man by Ralph Ellison. The narrator walks down the streets and smells yams, which reminds him of the South. This line is Kendrick declaring authenticity.  Attached to the rap game, Kendrick mentions that “Most of y’all sharing bars like you got the bottom bunk in a two-man cell”. Being a rapper, you usually have a certain way of rapping that’s individual. So, sharing bars is looked down upon (Something like that)

Watch: official video for Kendrick Lamar's King Kunta

4. Institutionalized = 4:31

“I’m trapped inside the ghetto and I ain’t proud to admit it”

This song talks about being trapped. Kendrick feels as if he could never escape the ghetto despite being successful who knows it will always be a part of him. This is referenced later in the song by Snoop Dog who says, “You can take your boy out the hood, but you can’t take the hood out the homie.” A line sung by Anna Wise and Bilal talks about how if Kendrick was president he would pay his mom’s rent, and free his homies, bulletproof his car doors. He would still be living like he was in Compton. This verse ends by saying, “Master, take the chains off me” which extends the topic of being institutionalized even more. Kendrick also mentions education a lot. He talks about how the streets put him through college since he has more street smarts than book smarts, and he mentions how if you dream for something you have to fight to make it happen. He mentions a quote from his grandma who speaks about if you don’t clean up your act then nothing will change in your life for the better. The song ends with Snoop Dog speaking about a young man in Compton who was talented but under the ruse that he wasn’t able to make anything of himself. 

Kendrick Lamar - Wesley's Theory Ft. George Clinton, Thundercat - YouTube

5. These Walls = 5:00

“Everytime I come around demolition might crush”

To expand more on the album title, this is where the poem starts. Kendrick says, “I remember you was conflicted, misusing your influence/Sometimes I did the same.” Every time he mentions a line in this poem it relates to the song that’s about to play. In this song he speaks about literally being with a guy’s girl while the guy is in prison. This song talks about if walls could talk, which we should all know is a metaphor(?) for talking about what happens behind closed doors. So, the woman in this song is dating the man who killed Kendrick’s friend. This woman is alone while her man is in prison, so she goes to party! This woman still loves the man but knows it’s hard while he’s in jail. This song is very explicit with Kendrick talking about how he’s just a tenant because walls are a double meaning… Him using the phrase “Demolition might cross” talks about how the more intimate these two become the more vulnerable the woman gets with him. At the end of the songs Kendrick admits that he used his power as a rapper to get back at the guy who is in jail. The poem continues with, “Abusing my power, full of resentment/Resentment that turned into a deep depression/Found myself screaming in a hotel room.” Which transitions to the next song.

Kendrick Lamar: These Walls (2015)

6. u = 4:28

“Loving you is complicated”

Kendrick is.. screaming in a hotel room. The scream is the funniest thing I’ve ever heard, and I always giggle during his little monologue, but this is an amazing song. Kendrick speaks about how he used to be depressed, and there’s a later song in this album about loving yourself because Kendrick once said in an interview that “If you don’t attack it, it will attack you. If you sit around moping, feeling sad and stagnant, it’s gonna eat you alive.” Him saying “Loving you is complicated” references a poem by Tupac Shakur called “Love is just complicated”. It speaks on the complexities of love due to emotions and desires. Kendrick mentions a “You” multiple time, but the “You” mentioned is himself which expands on the topic of being stuck in a bad metal state. Kendrick says in the song, “What can I blame you for?” which I think is a great transition Verse 1. He is guilty and here a few reasons why. Due to the depression, Kendrick’s view of things is completely blurred, and he begins blaming himself for things that are not his fault. The verse starts by saying, “And you the reason why mama and them leavin’. /You say you love ’em, I know you don’t mean it.” which expands on the guilt he is feeling. Kendrick also talks about how when one of his close friends died, he wasn’t able to go see him before surgery, so he begins to feel like a failure. He also mentions drinking more than he used to with the line saying, “And if this bottle could talk/I cry myself to sleep, everything is your fault” This voice is Kendricks’s consciences being vulnerable with the audience. No poem continuation on this song…

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7. Alright = 3:39

“Alls my life, I has to fight”

I think most of us have heard this song. It may be the most popular on the album! This first line, being the line I quoted, is from the Novel “The Color Purple”. This line was said by Sofia who talks about having to fight men all her life. Her dad, brothers, cousins, and uncles. She says, “A girl child ain’t safe in a family of men. But I never thought I’d have to fight in my own house.” Kendrick uses the line, “We gon’ be alright” to speak on how despite the pain and suffering, we will survive, which is attached to Black Live Matter; this song even became an anthem of hope and resilience. Kendrick talks more about the rap industry using him for money, but he’s doing this to stand up for the Black community. This song also speaks about police brutality saying, “Wanna kill us dead in the street for sure.” but he continues to say that we will be alright. Again, in this song Kendrick mentions the house, car, forty acres and a mule, a piano, and guitar. The piano and guitar stand for music. When he says all these things he changes from Uncle Sam to Lucy. As in the devil. This verse is Lucy speaking, who will come up once again in the next song. Kendrick talks about the rights and wrongs and attempts to fight back. He ends the verse by saying, “I write ’til I’m right with God.” This song ends with more on the poem, “I didn’t want to self-destruct/The evils of Lucy was all around me/So I went runnin’ for answers.”

Kendrick Lamar Sees the World in Black-and-White in 'Alright' Video ...

8. For Sale? – Interlude = 3:39

“Lucy don’t mind ’cause at the end of the day you’ll pursue me”

This song begins with breathing because Kendrick went “runnin’ for answers” at the end of Alright. There’s a taunting voice at the beginning asking him what’s wrong and saying, “I thought you was keeping it gangsta/I thought this what you wanted.” This voice is speaking on how he is courting with Lucy, and the intro ends by saying. “They say if you scared, go to church/But remember, he knows the bible too” in reference to how Lucy was an angel before being expelled from heaven, so he has an understanding on the bible. The chorus that plays is in perspective of Lucy and he says, “Cause I (Want you)”. Lucy is beckoning Kendrick with pretending like he is a friend to him. Lucy continues to try to convince Kendrick by saying, “Lucy give you no worries/Lucy gon’ fill your pockets/Lucy gon’ move your mama out of Compton/Lucy just want your trust and loyalty”. The voice speaks in a third person before straight up saying “I’m Lucy”. And eventually does his best to convince Kendrick to sign a contract after watching Kendrick all his life to make him successful. The poem continues, “Until I came home”

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i’m trying to party like it’s 2016 this summer

When I was younger, I used to love summer. To be fair, I don’t really remember this, but my mom insists on it. She tells me about how I used to want to go to the beach to swim all the time and how I wanted to spend all summer outside. I’ve been trying to relearn that feeling over the past few years. I love swimming, but I don’t go swimming often because I struggle to find swimsuits I’m comfortable in. I hate the beach- sand is my enemy and the sun is even worse. I like sunbathing just fine, but I swear to god, the sun at the beach is a million times hotter than the normal sun. 

All that is to say, I’m trying to hype myself up for this summer. I have a lot planned; I’m gonna finally get my drivers license, hopefully lock down a job once I have legal access to a car, and hopefully spend the rest of the summer hanging out with friends and family. Now you’re probably asking, how does 2016 fit into any of this? To that question, I pose my own question; When did summer seem the most fun? I was eight in the summer of 2016, and all I wanted was to look and dress like the influencers going to Coachella or the instagram models with their cakey, colorful makeup. I was a child, though, so I never got to live that dream. I’m finally old enough, and comfortable enough in my identity, to live out my childhood dreams. So besides the important things, like my license and job, here are some 2016-themed things I have on my summer checklist: 

1. Makeup

A cut crease, a bold or nude lip, thick contour, even thicker brows, so much highlighter that you’re seen from space. I miss it all. I’m always going to prefer cakey, over-the-top makeup to the “natural” or “no-makeup-makeup” looks. No hate for what you prefer, I’m just a sucker for the dramatics. I’m trying to get my hands on some of the popular makeup products from 2016, like Kylie’s nude lip sets and dip brow gel. 

2. Outfits

Here’s where the major difference of 2016 style begins to show. Even as a kid, I knew the difference between a tumblr girl and an instagram influencer. I also knew I wanted to be both of them. While I definitely feel more comfortable in the alternative, indie style that comes from tumblr, I want to venture out of my comfort zone and try to recreate some of the iconic outfits from 2016 Coachella. 

3. Music

I have at least two playlists dedicated to 2010s music. Most of my love for these albums comes from nostalgia, but I do genuinely love some of these songs. Colors by Halsey is one of my favorite songs, there’s a bunch of old P!ATD that I really love, and the entire Blurryface album by T∅P has ruled my life since I first heard Ride. Anyways, I’m gonna be playing these in my headphones all summer long. 

4. Recreating Iconic Photos

There are thousands more that I couldn’t fit here, but here are some of my top few. When I tell you these photos had a chokehold on me. Some of them will be easier to recreate than others, but regardless, you can expect to see them on my instagram at some point this summer. 

Now, I’ve got a bit more planned, but this is all that’s super important. I do plan on rewatching a bunch of tv shows and movies from the 2010s/late 2000s because I love nostalgia chasing. I also want to use this summer as an opportunity to watch some of the movies that I was too young to watch/never got around to when they came out in the 2010s. I also really want to read more, so I plan to spend a lot of this summer sunbathing with a good book. That’s pretty much it. I’m super excited for the summer and I can’t wait to party like there’s no tommorow. 

Starting a Small Business

This week, I’ve been starting a small business called Blue Moon Magnolia Crochet. This involves so much more preparation than I could’ve thought would go into it. I am a, hopefully, talented crocheter, and I spend so much time doing it that if I don’t sell my creations, I feel like I’m wasting my time. Now, I know that the danger in monetizing your hobbies is going through burnout, but I’m really hoping that won’t happen. Prepping for starting up my small business, I’ve run into a few roadblocks that I can’t pass without parental assistance, something that I’m not particularly fond of in my hyper-independence. First, I had to think of what my products would be, and I think I’ve got a few first ideas. I feel that doilies are the easiest to make, but there is a smaller market for those. I’ve been working out a few patterns for some of my first products, though, and I think they’ll turn out great. Technically, I could just use patterns from online to make my products, but I’m absolutely not doing that. I will be using a few patterns, along with giving credit to the original makers, but I felt that if I only used online patterns, then that would be a bit fraudulent, as none of my creativity would go into it and I’d just be recycling old ideas and passing them off as my own work. This requires a mix of using both patterns and my personal ideas, because coming up with absolutely everything on my own is a bit unfeasible as a busy high school student. The next part of setting up my business is finding out where I’m going to sell. Online selling seems like the first course of action, but it’s not so easy. I’d love to just set up a shop on Etsy, but because of their hefty fees taken out of the final price of my products, it becomes a bit of a tough spot. If I were to sell on Etsy, I’d have to raise my prices to cover the fees so that I could actually make a profit, and that feels unfair to the people buying my products. I’ve been looking through different online alternatives, and I’ve found some good ones, but the problem I’ve run into is that they either require a PayPal account, which I cannot sign up for being under 18, or they require another service that requires an adult to help me sign up. Since living at MSA prevents me from having ready access to my parents, I’ve had to turn away from online selling for now. The other option is to sell in person. I could have a building to sell my products in, but that costs upwards of thousands of dollars and I’d still run into the same problem I did with online selling. The only feasible option left is selling at farmers and makers markets and finding a way to take card payments. Since I have Venmo, that takes out some of the hassle with card payments, and of course, I’ll take cash. The other downside to markets like these, though, is setting up. I’d have to factor in all the invisible costs associated with selling at a market, like paying for a spot in the market, a physical table, decorations for said table, the gas to drive to the market, and possibly the cost of labor if I were to get someone else to help me. Granted, I could probably just pay my helper with pizza or a different treat. Then, I have to work all of my products and pricing out. My stepmother has shown me how to use spreadsheets to my advantage, which has been insanely helpful (thanks so much, Lisa). Once I have everything built, I have to focus on pricing. Since I’m not super fast, factoring in the time it took me to make a product becomes a slippery slope, so I’ve had to cut that part out of the equation. Then, I have to combine all of the things that it took me to make a finished product, such as the yarn or thread, labels, bags, and wrapping paper, depending on how I package my products. Spreadsheets have helped me so much with this, as I can simply create an equation to combine all of these components, and simply input how much I used of each, and then the spreadsheet will do all of the work for me. Then, I log all of the vendors that I got my components from, their prices when I bought them, and possible alternatives if those components are unavailable or discontinued. Once it all boils down, I have to work out how much I received from sales, and how much I spent on materials, then add these two numbers together to receive how much I’ve profited. If I am making less than I’m spending, I’ll probably either change my course, or I might just call it quits, as falling in the red is never a good sign for a business. I’m currently working on setting up social media profiles for my business, but I’ve only set up on Instagram, so far. So, if you’re excited to see my products, follow me on Instagram at @bluemoonmagnolia, Facebook coming soon!

Much love,
Jude.

Steven Universe Fusions!

Hello! I have honestly wanted to write about Steven Universe for awhile but I either always forget or find another idea that I use. This time though I remembered as I just wrote a story based off of fusions! I love all the Steven Universe fusions and will be discussing some of them today!

1- Garnet

Garnet | Steven Universe Fanon Wikia | FANDOM powered by Wikia Garnet is a fusion between a Ruby and sapphire and fusions are usually a mix of gems combining to be stronger and it is originally looked down upon to fuse for anything other than to be stronger to complete a task, but Garnet is a fusion made from the love of both gems, and they even get married in the later seasons! Also, when I refer to those who look down upon fusion, I am talking about home world which is all gems ruled under the rule of Yellow, White, and blue diamonds which are almost tyrannical rulers. Though all the gems I am speaking about today are gems that escaped to earth known as the crystal gems. GARNET IS A FUSION! This explains everything! Sapphire(left) and Ruby ...

2- Malachite Malachite | Steven Universe Wiki | FANDOM powered by Wikia 

Malachite is a combination of Lapiz Lazuli and Jasper this combination gives me the creeps and lots of mixed feelings. They are both very toxic for each other and Jasper becomes obsessed with them both being fused. While Lapiz wants to escape until we reach an episode where they fuse and Lapiz uses her waterpower’s to create chains on Malachite and chain the fusion which includes her to the bottom of the ocean. In another episode they escape from this fusion and still after being chained to the bottom of the ocean for so long Jasper begs to be a fusion again with Lapiz which in my opinion is insane! 

Did you want to see Lapis Lazuli fuse with someone else? | ResetEra

3- Rainbow Quartz

Rainbow quartz Rose and Pearl fusion Pearl and rose fusion | Steven ...

Another toxic fusion but in an angsty way. This fusion is between rose quartz and pearl spoilers here so turn away if you haven’t watched Steven Universe fully. Rose quartz is Pink diamond! So pearl is assigned to her and essentially was made just for Rose. Rose knows this good and well and still takes advantage of her feelings because pearl is in love with rose smh. Even though Rose later goes on to get with a human man named Greg and the birth of Steven happens and basically pearl is left to raise her SON! Wild lore. 

Stevonie

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Finally, a healthy fusion! This is between a human and Steven! This human is no random person though it’s Connie which is Steven’s girlfriend in later seasons. These two are so cute and honestly before it wasn’t known that humans and gems could merge so this was a huge deal! These two also go through an episode where they learn the calmness in the overwhelmingness of fusion in this cool realm with butterflies it is so beautiful! And one of my favorite songs is also sang in this episode by the fusion master Garnet herself.

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College.

This past weekend, I went on my first college tour. I went up to Oxford, despite it being my birthday, to tour Ole Miss. It was Junior Preview day, meaning high school juniors worldwide were there to tour. When we got there, they spoke to us in the pavilion about the college’s mission and what we would get out of the day. It was very informative and allowed me to explore the beautiful campus.

 Since I was little, I’ve known exactly what profession I want to pursue. This profession is a lawyer. I often get asked, “What kind of law do you want to do?” and there’s no easy answer to the question since there are many kinds, and I still don’t know which one I want to do. 

 I got to tour the honors college at Ole Miss, along with the Law School. During these tours, I learned that the acceptance rate to the law school is only 40 percent. This made me honestly start to panic. I mathed it in my brain and realized 60 percent of people who apply don’t get in. Over half. I tried to hide my panic from my parents and the person who gave us the tour.

 I have since been stressing myself out about what I’m going to major in and what I’m going to do in regards to special programs or schools within the college. I am planning on attending Ole Miss, and it has always been somewhere I wanted to go. Now, after this visit, I am stressed about the idea of going to college next calendar year. I am scared I won’t succeed and that college will be too difficult for me because of the expectations people have of me to do many programs and be in the honors college. 

I spoke to someone close to me who felt this same pressure when she was getting ready for college. She told me it was normal and that I would succeed no matter what. This comforted me and showed me that even though I’m stressed now, I will be okay in the future.

Common Side Effects Season Finale

On March 31st, the season finale of Common Side Effects aired, and I had no clue. I wasn’t even aware of the amount of episodes released because, to me, they all clumped together into a mass of something I loved.

I cried relentlessly that Monday evening and I’m not ashamed about it. The reason this show had such a grasp on me, was because it is so much more than just “my show”, like I call it. It’s a staple of friendship and family, a measurement of time, and a meaning of my identity.

augh they’re so cool…

This show, very clearly, means a lot to me. It’s hard to write this knowing new episodes aren’t releasing at this time. Common Side Effects was something that I looked forward to after a hard week. It’s tough to sit here and realize I don’t have that comfort anymore (for now).

But Common Side Effects wasn’t just “my” show, it was me and my friend’s! I never watched an episode without them, unless it was with my dad. He was actually the person who got me into Adult Swim in the first place. But I was still surprised to find out he knew exactly what I was talking about when I was rambling to him about the upcoming show I was excited about.

He was able to watch new episodes before me since his TV constantly stayed on the Adult Swim network. New episodes would air on Sunday nights and then were released on Max the Monday after.  Sometimes, on a Sunday, he would text me, “Common Side Effects” to let me know he was watching it. I think it was to taunt me…

But ever since early February, my friend and I would schedule time together and make sure that we would be able to have this thing that was completely ours. And now, I wonder what’s going to bring us together like this again? Should we just watch reruns of each episode? Should we move onto another show until season 2 is released? I don’t think I’ll be able to find another show as good as Common Side Effects, that’s just not possible for me.

I called Common Side Effects “my” show. That’s what everyone knew it as, and if they didn’t know the title, they knew the plot and they knew it as “Steph’s show.” This may sound silly, but there are so many instances where I felt like this show was perfect for me.

When I first saw the trailer for Common Side Effects, at about 12 AM alone in my dorm, my first thought was, “Oh this looks good, but I bet it’s on its 5th season and I’ll have to catch up so I won’t bother.” What a stupid thought! The first episode wasn’t even out by this time. It was going to be another week before the first episode aired. It was perfect timing.

I have a lot of trouble getting into TV shows because, most of the time, there’s already multiple seasons out by the time I find it, and I get really intimidated by the amount of time I would have to spend catching up. So I never watch shows.

Common Side Effects characters are absolutely perfect and I’ve fallen in love with every single one of them. There’s so many realistic and human flaws to every character and that makes them even more lovable to me. 

agents copano and harrington!

Some characters, like Frances, have subtle flaws that you can only define after calculating all of their actions and intentions. Frances initially comes off as a quirky, hardworking, and kind woman. She’s very cute! But as the story progresses, you see how she can be selfish, power-driven, and exploitative on top of her other traits. But of course, I can’t hate her because she’s also relatable, funny, and somewhat understandable. If I was in her position, I’d probably do what she did and more!

frances applewhite my girl!!

There are so many little things about this show that I proudly over-analyze. Like when a character takes the Blue Angel mushroom, they experience a vivid hallucination in a place coined “The Portal.” Each character has a different vision and I think every single one of them is either foreshadowing, reflective of the character’s inner desires, or exposing of their traits. There was even a time where I analyzed characters’ outfits down to the earrings and shoes! But that’s a topic for an entirely different day.

shared hallucination in “the portal”

The soundtrack is also absolutely amazing. The original songs are so well done and the songs picked to be used in the show are perfectly chosen. There’s so many different genres of song used throughout the show but they all work together and fit in perfectly. I made a playlist and (tried to) put the songs in chronological order in the show. I’m also working on a personal playlist of songs I associate with Common Side Effects rather than just the songs in the show.

All of this rambling to say, I absolutely love Common Side Effects and I think it’s a great show that everyone should watch. The art style is very unique, and I’m aware that a lot of people won’t pick this show up purely because of it, but after a while, it definitely grows on you. I’m a huge fan and I love every single thing about this show. I’m really sad that season one is over, but I’m excited and hopeful for season two!

i absolutely love those little guys

My fav snl cast members

As I’ve mentioned in previous blogs, I love theater/acting. I’m always on the prowl for a good play/sitcom to watch. I love drama, comedy, and actors who pour their guts into a role. What better place to find all three of these than Saturday Night Live? I started watching SNL in 7th grade. I have a vivid memory of watching Zach Galifianakis in a red M&M suit defend himself in a candy store and several other bizarre, unhinged moments in the show. This show has some very funny cast members.  Now, I’m not too quick to pick favorites because I’m sure every cast member there is super talented. I’ve heard that it’s difficult to audition for SNL, let alone secure a spot. But I can’t imagine what this show would be like without the influence of five people I will be fangirling about today.

Kenan Thompson:

Kenan Thompson has been a cast member at SNL for a very long time. Like seriously, they should pay him tribute by photoshopping a picture of his face on the SNL logo. He is THE OG cast member, and I can totally understand why Lorne (the exec) has kept him on air for so long. He presents himself so naturally.  You can really tell that he just reads the script, practices one time and then catches on immediately. I haven’t seen any actor exude the energy that Kenan does. It’s unique and genuinely funny.  Also, Kenan has the funniest resting face I’ve ever seen. It looks like he’s about to burst out laughing at any moment. I’ve probably watched every skit that he was in.

Cecily Strong:

Cecily Strong is one of the OG goats of SNL. I think she came onto the show in 2012. What really stands out to me about her is that she can play any character. I know actors get this compliment a lot, but I really mean it when I say she can play ANY character. I’ve seen her play a cashier, a crazy neighbor, a gold digger, a kid, a mom, an old lady, etc. She has a very wide acting range, and it’s so enjoyable and thrilling to watch her on the stage/tv. I can really see why so many actors admire her. She’s easily one of the funniest members on the show. If you want a good laugh, you should go watch the QVC skit with her and Kristen Wiig!

Bill Hader:

Bill Hader came onto SNL a little bit before the cast members mentioned above him. He started the show in 2005 and left around 2013, so he didn’t get the chance to do a lot of sketches with the other actors mentioned above him. But that doesn’t matter because he stands out all on his own. Bill Hader is an amazing actor, and I commend him for all his moves/shows aside from SNL. But what draws me to him the most is his voice. He has such an eloquent and captivating tone. He plays the role of a sardonic game show host perfectly. He’s another one of those dramatically funny actors, and he matches SNL’s vibe so well.  

Kristen Wiig:

Kristen Wiig joined the cast of SNL in 2005. She easily established herself as one of the funniest people there. She is such a talented person. I feel like I’ve called everyone in this blog talented, but I feel there is no other way to describe how impressive her acting is. I’m convinced that Kristen Wiig has lived the life of every character she has played because the way she disappears into the role is unbelievable. Most of her characters are bizarre and outlandish, but she makes them memorable with the way she portrays them. I can’t imagine how dull the show would have been if she never came on air.

Aidy Bryant:

Aidy Bryant joined the show in 2012. She is another actor with a very wide acting range. I love to see her play confident/slightly arrogant characters because she steps into that role really well. She has a lot of control over her tone, and she stands out because of it. Aidy has so many funny skits on SNL, and I can really see her acting in her own sitcom or movie.