Into The Garden

Into the Garden

I found myself lost. My feet carried me, but my body felt still. Confusion and displacement beat me. In their fight to the finish, they killed me. They won. With the reality that I had to get up this morning, the defeat felt even worse. I don’t know why I am here. I don’t know why I chose to do this. It was too late last night to back out of it…I had to come. The fearless screams from the rowdy children replay in my head.

Why must they scream so loud?

My fingers slowly found their way to my temples, moving counterclockwise in an attempt to stop the screams from getting louder. It barely helped. With my head hurting, I began to feel again. I felt myself moving. My feet took me around the building and around again. I am clearly lost. I stop and take in my surroundings. Lights erupt from under my feet. With each step I take, a range of colors from dark blue to a raging red shine in my eyes. The lights form a path leading to the outside garden. Before I could stop myself, my feet start following the lit path. As if everyone dissapeared, it was just me. I walked with hesitation.

What could possiby be outside? Could it be more chilrdren? Could it be a world of more confusion? More displacement?

When I reached the large double doors, I heard a voice. The electronic yet lively voice compelled me to walk through the doors. I walked in on soft feet…careful to make no sound. I was on full awareness. Silence filled the space, but I know I heard her.
The electronic woman spoke again.
“Do you like to read books?”
Chills erupted on my skin. I didn’t know what else to do, so I replied.
“I-I do sometimes. I read maybe 2 books a year.”
I paused my body. My breath stopped. My eyes remained open. I was dormant. I waited for the voice…and then it came.
“2 books? That’s amazing! Can you read three?”
I released my breath in a laugh.
“I probably could, you know?”
A choppy, electronic laugh escaped in the air.
‘Well, I think you could. I think you can do anything!”
I looked around and saw a bench. I made my way towards the bench and sat down slowly. I look around to see tall, bamboo trees, 3 purple and pink mushrooms, a strawberry plant, and a large, green tower.
While my eyes roam, I remember to reply.
“You think I can do anything, huh? You think I can read say…20 books?”
It took her a little while to respond.
“I think you can read 30 books! I believe in you!”
My eyebrows furrowed.
“How can you say you believe in me? You don’t know me. What if I’m a bad person? Do you want to believe in a bad person?”
Again, it took her a while to respond but when she did, I was stuck.
“You don’t sound like a bad person. A bad person doesn’t read 2 books a year. They don’t read any! I think you’re a good person.”
I stood anxiously.
“Who are you? How can you talk like this?”
The voice laughed.
“I am the book seeker in the garden. I see all. I know all.”
I studied the garden closer.
“Where are you?”
A loud ding suddenly filled the air. I turned to see one mushroom shine with bright, green lights.
“I am the mushroom. I am here…”
Another ding filled the air and another mushroom was lit.
“I am here…”
The third mushroom lit along with the sudden ding.
“And I’m here.”
I look between the three mushrooms in shock.
“Do you always converse with people here?”
The third mushroom replied.
“I talk to all the children who come to learn about books. I talk to anybody who wants to talk about books. Do you want to talk about books?”
I turned in awe of the garden. It was so…lively.
“What is this place?”
Classical music suddenly began to play. I could hear the deep, dark groan of the cello. I could hear the screech of the violins. I could even hear the low mewl of the violas. It surrounded me.
“This the literary garden. This is where you come to explore the world of books.”
I go back to the bench to think. I was brought here for a reason. This is where I am supposed to be.
After a few minutes of reflection, I decide to explore the garden. I could find answers. I could clear my confusion…my displacement.
I stand with intent.
“I want to talk about a problem.”
The mushroom wasted no time in responding.
“A problem with a book?”
I laugh.
“No. Not a problem with a book. A problem with the world. The world I’m in.”
The voice fills with confusion.
“The world of the literary garden? That’s why you should go look around at what’s to see!”
I grow seemingly frustrated.
“No. Not the garden. The world I’m in. The world my life is in. My life…I don’t know where I am in my life. I’m utterly lost. Everything has been stripped of me. I-I don’t know what to do.”
The voice came in my ears softly.
“What do you want your world to be?”
I ponder over the question.
What do I want my world to be?
Before I register, I respond.
“I want my world to be full of light. I want the unexpected to happen. I want my world to be free and true. I want the rawness of the world. I want the truth.”
The next words said solved my problem.
“The reason you are confused…displaced…is because the world you are in isn’t the world you want. It isn’t the world you need to be in. The one you spoke of will align you. It will clear confusion and displacement. You will fill whole. Look around. Look in books! Look for ways to create the world you want…then live in it. Did that help?”
I smiled to myself before beginning my walk around the garden.
“Yeah…yeah that helped.”
Classical music filled the garden once more. It was mozart, I believe. It was perfect for my exploration of the garden. It fit the garden. It fit in this world.

 

Enjoy this piece of mine. I somehow keep coming back to read it during the quarantine. Lately, I have been reminiscing  on old memories and the backstory to this story is based from one of my favorite places in the world. I hope this brings you joy…or peace…or confusion…I hope it brings you something. 

Stay safe y’all!

Are you a model citizen?

In light of this quarantine life, I have revisited the joy of watching short films. Throughout the time of my last short film review to now…I had lost interest in it. I didn’t feel the desire to watch anymore. I lost what it feels like to captured in a world in just a short amount of time. Moving past that, I have taken upon myself to owe this seemingly endless free time to go back into some of my old hobbies. For this particular blog post though, I will go back to my comments, question, and concerns for this cool but creepy short film.

Based off the thumbnail, it looks a bit creepy. White masks with smiling faces on them is top tier creepy content. When scrolling through the many short films YouTube has to offer, I saw this one. It was the title that caught my attention. “Model Citizen.” It sounded like something out of a dystopian novel. I have a thing for dystopia/utopia novels, so I was pretty interested in watching the film.

Upon the first few seconds of the film, I accepted the fact that the film was set in black and white with an old, 5o’s sounding commentator. Once I got past that, I realized what the style of the film was in. The entire aesthetic was extremely comparable to the old, 50’s hand soap commercials.

Despite the style of the film, the content, plot if you will, was much more compelling. In the showing of the SNAF (Standard North American Family) who conform to the duties and rules of their society to be model citizens. It shows the family through one entire generation and the continuous cycle of their society. The circle of life to death. it is honestly a complex concept to touch on, but I feel like the creative behind this film did an amazing job on touching on the aspects of that concept.

I very much enjoyed this film, and I think everyone should definitely give it a watch. it isn’t long, not more than 5 minutes. Leave what you think in the comments. Did you feel the same? Do you not feel the same? How did it make you feel? Do you know what could have been changed? LEAVE COMMENTS BELOW!!

Bremont’s Farm

Hi all! As we sit in quarantine and twiddle our fingers, I have decided to share one of my flash fiction stories with you all. I know some might not care, but this is one of my newer pieces and is more on the traditional side of my work. I toned down the dramatics and wrote a story like none of my other work. Give it a read, leave some edits, provide some feedback! Enjoy this little “quarantine read.”

Bremont’s Farm

My daddy always wanted me to come visit my grandaddy’s farm. He would tell me stories upon stories about the things he did on that farm. My favorite story was when he almost cut half the harvest crops because he got to drunk and thought they were little goblins in the field. Oh, the whoopen my grandaddy laid on him must’ve been so great. Now that I have reached the able age of 21, I’ve decided to take up the offer and stay at my grandaddy’s farm for a few weeks before coming back here to work. I’ll miss seeing the bright, shining lights outside my window when nothing filled my room but darkness. I’ll miss hearing the obnoxious chatter of whatever poor, New Yorker passed by my window. I’ll miss the city. Albeit, I won’t be gone for long, but this will be my first time out the state since I was a little girl.
Traveling down south won’t be an easy trek. With the distance between New York and Louisiana, I’ll be sitting on this train for hours. I have some activities to keep my interest, but I know at some point I might just lose my marbles. The old lady behind me keeps asking me questions about my hair and how I keep it so clean. Everytime I think I’ve ended the conversation with her, she somehow comes up with a brand new question. Once I heard the voice over the intercom call out, “We will be arriving in Louisiana in 10 minutes. I repeat, we will be arriving in Lousiana in 10 minutes,” I damn near jumped out of my seat.
Stepping off the train, I suddenly yearn for the smell of gasoline and cologne. I see no tall buildings, barely any people, and the silence around me slowly fills my entire body. I miss home. I miss everything about it, but I suck it up and begin my journey to the Bremont Farm.
After walking for what felt like 2 hours but was really 20 minutes, I see my grandaddy standing tall while leaning against the “Bremont Farm” sign infront of the driveway.
With open arms, I gather him in a hug. “Hey there grandaddy. I missed you”
His deep, southern accent filled my ears and my heart at the same time.
“There’s my little blackberry. Here I’ll take your bags while you go freshen up for dinner. Your Aunt Claudia is in the kitchen breaking down her roses for her homemade jam. She said she could use your help.”
I simply smile and nod my head while trying to remember who my Aunt Claudia is. I vaguely remember hearing about her, but nothing to match a face to.
As I finish cleaning myself up, I walk into the kitchen and saw a woman I’ve never seen before.
“Aunt Claudia?”
She turns around with a wide smile on her face.
“There she is. His little blackberry. Come, come!”
I laugh and walk further into the kitchen before she shoves a knife in my hand.
“Start cutting down these rose petals into their smallest size. Put them in the jar and shake!”
I do as I’m told and get to work. I spark up the conversation to end the deafening silence in the room.
“Why does he call me that?”
She lookes at me puzzled. “Call you what sweetie?”
“His little blackberry. Why does he call me that?”
She lets out a wide smile.
“Have you ever heard the saying, “the blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice?”
I think for a minute.
“It sounds familiar, yes.”
“Well, when you were born, you had such a rich, dark skin tone. It was flawless. He said it looked like the color of a little blackberry, hince why he calls you that.”
I smile at myself and at the new found information. I look up to the window infront of us and see grandaddy walking with my bags. Like he sensed me watching, he turned to the window and sent me a bright smile. I look down to the rose petals and smile ever wider. I’m glad I chose to come here. I see what my daddy saw and I intend to make some great memories here.

A penny for my thoughts? I’ll take it!

Life was good. I couldn’t complain about anything. Spring break was going to be a week of relaxation for me. A week to unwind and enjoy no schoolwork. That was life before COVID-19. I was free, but it didn’t last long. Being in quarantine has been a never ending roller coaster that has only been going up. When it will fall or reach its peak? I don’t know. Am I prepared? No. Should I be preparing? Probably. Will I start? Probably…not.

Why? Well what am I even preparing for? This is my first time experiencing this and I’m pretty sure it’s everybody’s first pandemic. When you think about it, we are living history. This will be in a history book one day. The thought of it is kind of wild, but it is true.

This whole thing has sent me into a world of confusion. I am constantly checking the news to see any new updates. Today, I found out that the president has decided to extend the quarantine guidelines for and extra 30 days. I almost broke down into tears after reading this. I’ve barely been sane since the quarantine started and now an extra 30 days?!?!?!?!?

I am in DISTRESS.

I don’t want to start ranting so I’ll stop there because I’m pretty sure we are all feeling the same.

Honestly, knowing that I am not the only person experiencing this is quite comforting. Knowing that I am doing the very same thing that millions are doing. It’s hard. That’s the truth. It will take a long time. It will be hard and will continue to get harder until its not. I bet many people are having the same thoughts as me. I bet many people are eating the same thing as me.

It’s comforting.

I will admit that I have made some essential outings but nothing without taking necessary sanitary precautions. It’s weird that I honestly still feel the same as before when I would go out. I walk with no worries. Sometimes I even forget. I feel like it is a regular day, early in the morning, and I am with my mom, sister, and aunt. We go to the store early Saturday morning to miss crowds and have our quiet. I feel like that. Usually not five seconds later, I remember.

For class we had to write a poem about something related to COVID-19. I will now post it below for reference purposes.

She Remembered

I almost forgot, but I remembered.
Like any other day, I woke up.
I woke up to blue skies.
I woke up to eager birds and their songs.
I woke up to smell sweet, milk chocolate melting in a cup.
I woke up and remembered.
I remembered the box they put us in.
I remembered the depression and emptiness that was slowly seeping in.
I remembered the virus that infected our bodies and made a home.
I remembered life.

This poem is the closest thing to represent how I feel about the virus. I am void of any sense of reality and living an empty body with a full mind. I am utterly out of my element. I will say that I have started getting better with handling it, but my feelings still remain.

I know that was a bit on the morbid side while being somewhat poetic?  I don’t know, but it’s pastus now. The good thing about this quarantine, because there is always a good thing, I am getting tons of needed rest. My body feels returned to its natural state with little stress and good ole food from my mother.

I don’t know your thoughts on the pandemic, but if they are anything like mine, you are not alone. I feel the same exact way quite literally. We will get through this guys! I feel it! Have some hope! MANIFEST IT! *refer to one of my earlier posts :)*

Have a safe quarantine y’all!

 

Quarantine got me like…

I’ll let it be known that this post will be an exclusive look into the chaos that is currently unfolding in my brain in the current climate of the world. I don’t want to stick to the normal path that this blog could take (I.e. what have I been doing during the quarantine?, how has it affected my family?) I want to simply release my mind. Ideas will be thrown, questions will be asked, answers might not be given. See this as an unwinding of the mind. Maybe this will encourage you to do the same…maybe not. It helps me a lot when I just let go of all the random thoughts in my head and what I think about them. This is my madness…enjoy…

  1. Am I the only one highkey freaking out over the Corona Virus?

Yall. This is scaring me. I get sick 2-3 times a year around the same time and I honestly can’t afford to get sick or show any symptoms of the virus. I think the best option is to practice good cleanliness and simply staying to myself. Self quarantine and social distancing is what will get us through this.

2. Why do I feel seriously connected to my cat, Kit?

I have spent so much time in the house, I’ve started to feel a connection between my cat and I. I feel as if we both are trying to sleep our problems away and eat in between them. She has influenced a lot of lazy habits lately and with each day passed, I feel like we both are slowly falling into the same routine…the same lives. Truth be told, everything I do, Kit pretty much does the same in her little cat-like way.

3. The new music I have found is quite exquisite.

So, with all the free time I have accumulated, my journey to discovering new music is currently still going. I have found some gems on this journey and I have no doubt that I will find some more. This time at home has allowed me time to actually explore the music of different artists. I can sit by myself in my room in my bed and just listen to new music. It all has worked so well in the past weeks. I can only imagine what new music will cross my path during this time home.

4. Is the time slowly slipping away from us?

I woke up the other day, totally thinking it was Tuesday for some reason…but it was literally Friday. It didn’t feel like a Friday. It felt like a Tuesday. That is so weird. When I think it’s like 12 or 1 in the afternoon, it really is like 2 or 3 like??????? Where has this displacement came from? Is it my recent lack of routine? I have felt so much out of place lately and it is messing with my mental a little bit.

5. Twitter is top tier content.

If you don’t have a twitter…you should probably make an account. That app holds some of the best comedians I have ever had the chance to see. The jokes people are making in the midst of a global pandemic have had me ROLLING on the floor everyday. Not a hour passes where I’m not checking my twitter. Honestly, it is kind of unhealthy, but yolo!

6. I’m desperately missing the big bathroom MSA provided to us.

Oh how mad I am that I took the bathrooms in the dorms for granted. I didn’t appreciate the space they provided. The ROOM it provided to do things. I miss the big, clean mirror. I miss the ability to lock the doors…inside AND out. I miss the shelves I had to put my stuff in. I miss it all.

7. Cranberry juice and yogurt give me LIFE

My favorite quarantine snack so far. It fills me up and for some reason will put me to sleep. I have had this almost everyday this week and last week. I’m honestly so surprised I haven’t finished the box of juice and yogurt yet. If you don’t like these…you’re missing out…like…on a lot.

That’s all I have to share with you all today. Trust that there are plenty more random thoughts being passed around in my head. This was a good reliever on those thoughts. I already feel my head is a bit clearer.

How is your mind during this quarantine?

Alexa play “Spring I. Allegro” by Antonio Vivaldi

Ahhh spring. The time to breath in the fresh roses and bask in the warmth of the sun. Spring is a time of new beginnings, new comings, new EVERYHING! Sad to see the winter go, but it is time for something new!

This past winter has been an interesting one. I’ve accomplished many great things, let go of some things, started some things, discovered some things, and I even been introduced to new things. This winter has overall been a period of change for me. Has the change been good? I would say yes. Has the change been healthy? I would say yes. Has the change made me sad? I would, again, have to say yes. If you’re like me, you have a love-hate relationship with change.

Change comes in all different forms. For me, the biggest change this winter was coming to terms with people leaving and entering my life. I don’t do well with people leaving my life. Now, when people come into my life, I am a little more accepting of that change. Matter of fact, I am more than accepting of new people. I encourage people to enter my life. I surround myself with people who lift me up and I want to lift others up as well. Sadly, however, people aren’t always permanent in your life. I think this is a lesson I am still learning. No matter how badly you want people to stay, some just aren’t meant to.

With Spring fast approaching, I want to really focus myself on this period of new comings. I want to allow myself to be open to what’s coming. I want my full heart to be put into the next couple of months. I have broken down my goals for the new season into the categories of what I want to change in my life spiritually, mentally, and physically.

Spiritually, I want to connect more with the earth. I have lived my whole life living on this planet without fully looking around to see what I’m actually living on. No, this isn’t some bandwagon I’m joining to popularize the trend of “saving the earth” hashtags that are circling the internet. I genuinely want to start seeing the world. I want to travel. I want to see things that the earth has to offer. This comes from the recent videos of Spanish-speaking countries that I’ve watched in my Spanish 2 class. In the videos, I see the world in ways I’ve never seen before. I want to go to those places and feel the earth in its most purest form. I want to connect myself with those spots and feel the earth as the earth feels me. The mere thought makes me feel good inside. I can’t wait!

Mentally, I want to focus more on my mental health. I often neglect my health mentally, whereas I’m almost always focused on my health physically. I am actually considering going to a therapist to talk about things that plague my mind and put a strain on myself. I have so much to do in my life that I completely neglect that part of myself—the part I need most. In this new season, I want to seriously care for and cater to that part of myself. It is just as important as anything else in my life, and it’s time I started treating it as such.

Physically, I need to focus on getting my SUMMER BAWDY! I have told myself so many times that I am going to start eating right and working out…BUT WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING??? SLEEPING. I need to take this season with all the warm weather to get outside and workout. I need to establish a healthy diet and just start physically caring for myself. I know the body I want and I am determined to get there before the summer. With the summer coming soon after spring, I need to start grinding ASAP!

Well, that’s my spill on the upcoming season. I feel pretty prepared to take it on (despite the inevitable pollen that will try to kill me). Are you ready for the spring? Do you have your goals for the season in line? ARE YPU READY??

Need a new netflix show to binge watch?

I bet you have never heard of the Peaky Blinders. Well, me neither until I watched this show on Netflix and absolutely fell in love. Now, I’ll start by saying that this show is about crime and mobsters. If this doesn’t interest you, you might want to keep scrolling.

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Before jumping into the show and all its glory, I would like to start by saying that the show is based off of real events. If you actually enjoy little history tidbits, this show is for you. The show follows the urban street gang, the Peaky Blinders. In real life, this was a street gang stationed in Birmingham, England. The gang was active during the end of the 19th century and after World War I. The gang grew in popularity by their involvement in local robbery, racketeering, violence, illegal bookmaking, and the control of gambling. Though the family in the show is fictional, the actions of the family and time period are very accurate.

*The name of the gang, Peaky Blinders, is based off of their signature move of sewing razor blades into their hats and well…you get the rest.*

The show currently has 5 seasons (hopefully many more) and features famous actors like:

Cillian Murphy

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Tom Hardy

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If you have seen ANY movie with these two men in it, you know how good it was.

I won’t give too much away because I want you to experience the show for yourself. The show follows the everyday lives of the Shelby family and the rise…and fall…of the Peaky Blinders. The show is quite vulgar, but if that doesn’t bother you, this show will have you on the edge of your seat!

I found this show while going through my “In love with the mafia” phase of my life. The entire aesthetic of the show just screams “mafia” and I was extremely captivated by the it. The acting of the show is top tier. Not a moment was skipped over. The show is also quite dramatic. There are a lot of cool scenes that are flashbacks, nightmares, and dreams. The entire cinematography of it all is honestly so beautiful. I’m really interested in seeing where they film the show and who chose the outfits and hairstyles and  just EVERYTHING!

Can you tell this is my favorite show yet?

The soundtrack for this show…let’s just take a minute of silence.

BECAUSE THE SOUNDTRACK TO THIS SHOW IS AMAZING.

It features music that you could envision a bunch of mobsters listening to.

I think the soundtrack is one of my favorite aspects of the show besides the acting. The acting is so realistic and natural that for a period of time I thought Cillian Murphy could have somewhat been apart of a mob once.

The overall show is 10/10 and I would highly recommend watching this show. Spring Break is right around the corner and I just know y’all need something to watch on Netflix! No worries…I’ve come to save you! *inserts wink emoji*

I hope you enjoy the show! Let’s chat if you do decide to watch it OR if you’ve already seen it. I need to distress my mind from the last season that just came out!

Plant Your Seeds

What will your legacy be?

I always ask myself what will I will leave behind once I’m gone? What will be my legacy? The first question, I feel, I have to answer first is when? What will my legacy be when I die? When I leave MSA? When I leave college? When? Honestly, I don’t know. How could I? I don’t have the ability to see into the future. If I did, what would life be? A waiting game. I would be waiting my whole life for the inevitable. I wouldn’t be experiencing life like I should. What can I do? I can plan. I can form ideas. I can plant my seeds and wait for them to grow. That’s what I can do. In this particular post, I want to challenge you all to make your seeds. Plan what your seeds will grow into. Plan for your legacy.

I’m starting to dive deep into manifestations. I wholeheartedly believe in what you manifest will come true in some form or fashion. I won’t spill my testimony on the subject, but I can confidently say that manifestation is the key into achieving what you want. In this case, manifesting what your seeds will become will, one day, come true. Now what exactly are manifestations?

According to Bing, manifestation is defined as an event, action, or object that clearly shows or embodies something, especially a theory or an abstract idea. In simple words, a manifestation is your idea becoming reality. If you manifest that you will ace your test and you truly believe you will, that A should be coming your way! Now, lets not confuse this with making a wish and hoping it will come true. The key difference between the two is based on how it will happen. Manifestation, unlike making a wish, isn’t just sitting around hoping your wishes will come true. Manifestation is the act of proclaiming your success and working as hard as you can to achieve that success. Manifestation is simply putting the idea out in to the atmosphere and working to achieve the inevitable. If YOU believe it will happen and you claim your future success, it will happen. Even if it doesn’t happen as soon as you would like or even if it happens sooner than you expected, it will come true. It’s because YOU believe you can do it, so of course you’re going to work as hard as you can to do it. I will now input a cute, little quote I saw on google. It helps breakdown of how to do a proper manifestation.

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Manifestation can one day lead you to your legacy. If you manifest your legacy now, all the hard work and skill needed to be at that level of success in which you can leave a legacy will be worth it. Every downfall and setback is apart of the manifestation! The journey may be a short one or a long one. The journey may be complex or easy-going. The journey could be a lot of different things but in order to get to the destination…you have to experience the journey.

All of this goes back to a legacy. The legacy you want, plan for it now. Manifest it now. Make it happen. Do you want to leave a small or big legacy? Do you want to leave a legacy for your family? Friends? A community? Who do you want to impact? Who will you make a difference in? Is it a who? A what? Is it an organization? Program? Club? Who?

All these questions work into your legacy. Manifestation works into your life period.

So, again I ask, What will your legacy be?

 

Gospel fills my soul

Who doesn’t love some good gospel music? Growing up in the church, I’ve been surrounded by this sacred music for as long as I can remember. Today I’d like to share a gospel playlist with all the hits! In the last couple weeks, this playlist has been getting me through IT! I’ll list some of my favorite songs from the playlist.

I know I’ve been changed by LaShun Pace- THIS SONG HERE! Through any issue I face, this song comes to mind. The soulful voice of LaShun Pace just feels my soul with joy. It is more of a comfort song for me at this point. The sing along part at the end gives me CHILLS everytime!

Brighter Day by Kirk Franklin- This song makes me so happy! It talks about finding security and love and being happy about life. Whenever I feel extremely sad or I’m just in a down mood, this song will lift my spirits!

Let The Church Say Amen by Andrae Crouch- I can remember the days when my family would be late to church and the choir would be singing this song when we walked in. This song is so peaceful and fills my heart with such joy. 

The Best in Me by Marvin Sapp- Whenever I feel insecure or I feel bad about myself, this song will make me feel so loved. It really does tell the truth behind not listening to what other people see in you or say about you. This one will bring tears to your eyes when life really goes bad. 10/10 would recommend.

Go Get It by Mary Mary- This song will get you HYPE! It’s more modern than most gospel songs, but its message is amazing. The song emphasizes getting your blessings. This will uplift you so much!

Praise Is What I do (Live) by William H. Murphy, III- This song is the ultimate choir song. The slow melody rocks your body and entrances you to listen to the message of the song. It is so good. The end part gets really hype and will have you feeling amazing. 100/100would recommend.

Total Praise by Richard Smallwood- This song is so beautiful. If you ever have a chance to see a performance of this song live, you will forever be in love. I got the chance to see it live by a choir at a benefit concert and by the end of the performance, I was in tears. This song makes you feel so warm and loving inside. I really do recommend listening to this song. 

Church Clap by KB ft. Lecrae- This song is very modern. It has techno beats and is very, what do the kids say?…Lit? It is a very non-gospel song, but it still holds the same message as most gospel songs. It even has a dance to go along with it. I learned this song from a summer camp at my local church over the summer. This song will have you up and dancing for real!

Hear My Prayer by William Murphy- This choir in this song sounds so good. The dynamics, the crescendos, the decrescendos, EVERYTHING! This is a top tier gospel song. I hope I get to see it performed live one day.

Never Would Have Made It by Marvin Sapp-This song makes me reflect on all the bad things I have faced in my life. It makes me see where I was and where I am now. This song definitely gets me in my feels. I highly recommend listening to this song as well!

That’s all I’ll give today. I want to tag the playlist, but it’s on Apple Music and I want it to be on a free music app like Spotify, so everyone can have access. I’ll try to post it soon. Hopefully you guys will listen to these songs! I promise it’s worth the look up!

My 2020 playlist so far…

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Hey y’all! I made a playlist last semester and it was more of an “on a whim” post for me, but I want to take the time to actually list out the songs I’m currently listening too. This playlist consists of some of my favorite artists and some are new. I’ve always been open to new music no matter the genre, so today I want to share some music with you all. I hope that I have “put you on” with these songs. Enjoy!

  1. Lemon Glow-Beach House This song is the most recent song in my playlist. I heard it through a shared playlist from an MSA alum actually. It’s labeled under the genre Alternative. This song just calms me down so much. I will admit that it’s more on the weird side of my usual music choice, but I love it!
  2. Crash-Key Glock This song is just straight fire. If you’ve never heard of Mr. Glock himself…GO TAKE A LISTEN…LIKE…NOW!
  3.  SIX’FO-ZaeHD & CEO I got this song through the popular socail media app Tik Tok. The song features a very hard bass, which is a must in almost all my music! This is a good dance song as well.
  4.  CHANGE MY LIFE- Stunna 4 Vegas & Blac youngsta This song is honestly a party song. It’s a hype song with a lot of bass. I love it here!
  5. WHAT TO DO?-Jackboys & Travis Scott ft. Don Toliver This song is a lot calmr than the previous 3. It features the angelic voice of my man Don Toliver, which if you haven’t heard of him, I would highly recommend listening to his music.
  6. Exxus- Glass Animals This song is a smooth, alternative song that just screams a chill vibe. I would reccomend this song for those car rides with your best friends at night when y’all are scavaging for food.
  7. I’m Not in Love-Kelsey Lu This song is perfect for the upcoming dreaded day—Valentine’s Day. Any song about love captures my heart. I HIGHLY recommend listening.
  8.  Werkin Girls-Angel Haze I found this specific song through the HBO’s Euphoria Apple Music playlist. If you are all for the new age of female rappers, then this is definitely the song for you!
  9.  Frio-Omar Apollo If you never heard of Omar Apollo don’t feel ashamed because I am new to his music as well. This particular artist makes alternative music with a mix of his Spanglish (Spanish + English) language coming through is some of his songs. In this particular song, the entire song was in Spanish. Don’t feel afraid to listen to this song because your Spanish vocabulary isn’t very fluent! This song is a BOP!
  10.  Stomp and Grind-Grandma ft. Rico Nasty This song mixes the likes of alternative music and rap. This unlikely duo created a timeless song that will calm you down and hype you up at the same time. We LOVE it here!
  11. Proud Family-Tory Lanez Ever watched the Proud Family on Disney Channel? Well, this song is a modern remix of the song, but male artist, Tory Lanez, took the song and definitely made it his own. 10/10 would recommend.
  12. BLOW-Ed Sheeran,Chris Stapelton, & Bruno Mars This unlikely trio came together to create this country/rock song. Every time I hear this song, I think of of my favorite DC comic character Aquaman. 10/10 would recommend.
  13.  The Blood Still Works- Malcolm Williams & Great Faith Despite not being a new song by any means, this song has been constantly on replay lately. A good gospel song NEVER hurt anybody!
  14. Break the Fall- Grandma This band has honestly blessed my ears with their album “Even if We Don’t Get it Together.” This particular song is on the album and one of my personal favorites from it.

I don’t want to overwhelm, but this is a good majority of my playlist. It’s very diverse and there’s a little bit of everything in there. I hope you take the time to listen!!!

 

*All of these songs can be found on Apple Music!*