An Accumulation of Nothing

I like to feel nothing and everything all at once

I want to jump into the sun.

I want to feel the adrenaline

And the burn,

But never fear it.

I want to freefall from a cloud,

Feel the pressure of the wind,

And roll in the soft grass when I hit the ground.

I wish that gravity meant nothing,

nothing could pull me down to earth but myself.

That way I could float above the sinkholes

and hover over canyons.

I wouldn’t have to feel you anymore, either.

I wouldn’t have to feel the weight of your hand on my cheek,

my tears would drift away from my eyes,

and my heart would no longer be a brick in my chest.

Nothing would matter,

because I wouldn’t feel it.

I want to be suspended in space along with the moon

And if I fell with a shooting star,

At least I could make a wish.