I’m not sure if this is the very last blog of the year, but I don’t see how we would have time to do another before the school year is over, so I’ll continue to assume that this is the very last blog.
It’s so scary to think that highschool is going to be over is less than a few weeks. Freshman year feels like a lifetime ago.
I know it’s cliche, and I don’t mean this lightly, but so much has changed. My taste in music, the way I dress, my friends, my family. People I’ve loved have died. Some of my cousins are getting married, some are already married and have kids. My parents got divorced. My grandfather died.
I’ve made lifelong friends from just spending 1-2 short years together. I’ve met so many talented people.
I like to brag about how, when were all distant, I know at least a few of us will make it big out there. I like to think I’ll see someone I went to school with here on the news. Hopefully for something good. And I’ll be able to say “I went to school with them.”
God, my brother is entering his sophomore year. That’s crazy to think. While my highschool career is ending, his has just begun. I can’t even imagine his senior year. What the world will look like in another three short years.
There are a lot of things I hoped I would have done before I graduated highschool. I don’t think many of things will happen. But I’m glad to have had the hope.
My sister will be entering her senior year soon. That’s scary. It’s hard to imagine myself in college, but I feel like it’s impossible to imagine my younger siblings in college. I can’t even begin to comprehend them starting a family, or getting married, or moving out of the house.
I feel like that’s just one way people cope with change that’s too big to handle. You just can’t fathom it. It seems less scary if it’s impossible. That doesn’t mean I don’t want them to. I want them to succeed. I want them to grow and progress through life. But it feels like I have to look through a foggy mirror to be able to imagine it.
I’ll be going to USM in the fall, and it’s nice to know that I’ll have the same roommate that I did this year. Assuming that he does go. There still might be a chance he goes to Georgia for college.
A new roommate seems scary, but I could also see it as exciting.
I think I really lucked out with my roommate this year. Parker and I have had so much fun together. We made up games to play on the 3rd floor. We made a like, super hard hide and seek game, where you would put on silencing headphones and blast really eerie music. All the lights would be off, and the other people had to hide in the room. We had people hiding on top of the cabinets, in chests, in cabinets, under beds. And the seeker would be completely blind and deaf.
We also had a game called the belt game. Where you would have to hold your feet still and try and doge a belt. If you screamed, the opponent gets a point, if you fall opponent gets 10 points.
Living at MSA has definitely ruined my eating habits. The amount of times I’ve eaten out with friends is absurd. I’ve never had more fast food apps installed on my phone at once than I have while living at MSA. It got to the point where almost all the employees recognize me whenever I go into Domino’s. The subway here, though is awful. I don’t know if any of you have had Subway here, the one at the gas station. I don’t know how someone could be so bad at making a sandwich.
My favorite monster flavour is Ultra Rosa, and I got super sad when I realized they weren’t being stocked anywhere anymore. BUT… there’s one gas station. One gas station in what feels like the state of Mississippi that still sells them. I was told that the only reason they keep them in stock is because they always sell out……. That’s because of me. Anytime I see ultra rosa, I buy as many as there are. I buy out the ENTIRE stock. It costs around $30, but it’s worth it, because for about a week I have my favorite flavour of Monster every morning.
All in all, I think MSA was a wonderful experience. It makes me question how my life would have been different if I had gone to school in hattiesurg though. Like how my brother and sister are doing. Would I have made more friends that I probably would have had a better chance at keeping in contact with? Probably. I definitely would have saved so much money on food and Gas. Gas is a killer. I go home every weekend because I work at a record store in Hattiesburg. And it basically just cancels out the drive there and back because of gas.
I’m very thankful for the chance I had to attend MSA, I’m very thankful that I got to meet everyone that I did. This school has done a lot for me, and I’m glad I had the opportunity to graduate from it.
God, this made me so sad because I relate. It doesn’t feel like its been two years. It feels like it has been twenty, and that this was actually my entire life, making friends and things. And now I’m not fourteen anymore, I’m not even sixteen, I’m *eighteen* and christ. I’m gonna miss this place. And the people. And the monster drink thing is as funny as it is sweet. That’s the kinda stuff to remember.
i love the focus on the mundane aspects of things you both like and dont like, it makes things feel so real. i guess because they are