ohmyGod,lifelifeLIFELIFELIFE

Oh my God, I ate.  I ate and I ate, and I ate all of the platters until I was ripe and full, and therefore I was EATEN, but I’ll keep throwing up in this toilet out of nervousness and misery as if it will change what I have eaten.

And the belly of the beast is lonely when it is a friend who has put you here.

It’s sad, you know?  I sat there on Sunday, and I felt it coming.  I stood beside Red Bluff with the love of my life, and I cried.  I sat on a hill, and I cried, and then I laid in the road, and I cried.  I didn’t know it was going to happen.  But have you ever gotten… a feeling?  And I took the rock from the side of the cliff, and it crumbled in my hand.  And it was dust.  Everything is dust, and we all fall down, wE ALL FALL DOWN, WEALLFALLDOWN, AND EVERYTHING IS DUST AND NONE OF IT MATTERS

When we had gotten there, we heard about a woman who had fallen off the edge of the cliff.  Maybe it was an omen.

Oh my God, I just wanted to be.  I wanted to be something for once in my life, I wanted to BE SO MUCH.

,MAYBE I SHOULD GIVE UP, BUT MAYBE I SHOULD BE UNTIL THE VERY END,

If it wasn’t May, then it would be okay.  But April showers can’t fix what flowers died in May.

I ate; therefore I was eaten.  Perhaps I should let it be.  Don’t touch the stomach acid any longer.

But it’s 11:25 am & lunch is coming.  Perhaps I should eat once again.

I have other people who depend on me that I need to do this for, other people that need me there, so maybe I should not starve myself.

Perhaps I should eat.  Eat all of their heads right off.

Author: Zoe Conner

I'm Zoe Conner. I'm writing on a computer named Rambo, which you should only say with a rolled r. I write because I don't want to be just another cog in the machine. I live. I write. That's all you need to know.

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  1. The very last line got to me. This was a symphony of emotions and times and scenes but they all fit together and I loved that. The first paragraph was intense but really beautiful at the same time and all of this stuff makes sense and its great. Thanks 🙂

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