{"id":9520,"date":"2020-09-16T09:31:06","date_gmt":"2020-09-16T14:31:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/?p=9520"},"modified":"2020-09-16T09:31:20","modified_gmt":"2020-09-16T14:31:20","slug":"emetophobia-and-word-vomit","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/2020\/09\/16\/emetophobia-and-word-vomit\/","title":{"rendered":"emetophobia and word vomit"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

every writer knows the feeling of being stuck. there’s this overwhelming urge to write something<\/em>, but i never know what. alternatively, i could have so many things to write about, but no clear way to express it. while both are inconvenient options, nothing beats the blissful experience of producing 8 poems of mediocre quality in a matter of 15 minutes. maybe the stars lined up just right so my motivation and content overlap, but nonetheless, something was created.<\/p>\n

oftentimes, i, as a writer, forget that quality and quantity both have their place in my craft. sometimes i just want to get up and write something, even if no one will see it – even if i’ll delete it after 5 minutes because it sounds like a lovesick 13-year-old on A03 wrote it. motivation can be the hardest part, so if you have motivation, but not content, remember that your laptop, notebook, typewriter, or table napkin – are all safe spaces, exclusive to you if you wish them to be. there is a reason you’re being called to write, so let it out.<\/p>\n

alas, my venting is over, and i will be facing my fears of releasing previously mentioned word vomit, right here, right now. unanswered, the work below, was written from 2:48am to 2:59am on Monday, September 6, 2020.<\/p>\n

sometimes i want to pray for you,
in the middle of the night,
<\/span>i can feel your crying in my soul,
i can feel you losing a fight.
but i know it\u2019s not my place,
to try to heal your pain,
so sometimes i fall asleep
<\/span>to the sound of the rain,
<\/span>and it\u2019s like you\u2019re next to me,
<\/span>but i know that you\u2019re not,
<\/span>still, if i can\u2019t be near you,
<\/span>at least there\u2019s a thought.<\/span><\/p>\n

so i hope you feel better,
and i hope you feel love,
<\/span>and i hope that you will be
<\/span>everything you wanted to become,
<\/span>i hope your smile gets brighter,
and your shoulders feel lighter,
i hope you know that you\u2019re a lover,
even when you try to be a fighter.
i hope you\u2019ll let me pray for you
on the nights you start hurting,
and i hope you find it,
for whatever it is you\u2019re searching.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

every writer knows the feeling of being stuck. there’s this overwhelming urge to write something, but i never know what. alternatively, i could have so many things to write about, but no clear way to express it. while both are inconvenient options, nothing beats the blissful experience of producing 8 poems of mediocre quality in … Continue reading “emetophobia and word vomit”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":67,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9520"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/67"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9520"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9520\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9583,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9520\/revisions\/9583"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9520"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9520"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9520"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}