{"id":6528,"date":"2019-09-11T09:36:25","date_gmt":"2019-09-11T14:36:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/?p=6528"},"modified":"2019-09-11T09:36:25","modified_gmt":"2019-09-11T14:36:25","slug":"every-morning","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/2019\/09\/11\/every-morning\/","title":{"rendered":"Every Morning"},"content":{"rendered":"

Suite:\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Wake up. Instantly regret it.<\/span><\/p>\n

Look at your roommate.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ask yourself why you couldn\u2019t be more like\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Her.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Drag yourself out of bed.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Feel the freezing tile underneath<\/span><\/p>\n

Your toasty tootsies.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Regret waking up again.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Quietly get your clothes together.<\/span><\/p>\n

Go to the bathroom. Get dressed.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Get out. Brush your jumble of\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Green and yellow curls.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

II<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Go downstairs. Eat breakfast.<\/span><\/p>\n

Give up on that when everyone<\/span><\/p>\n

Leaves and you no longer have<\/span><\/p>\n

Anything to keep you from the<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Monsters in your mind.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cStop eating. They\u2019re watching<\/span><\/p>\n

Every move you make. They\u2019re\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Judging you. Stop being\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Disgusting. Stop being fat.<\/span><\/p>\n

Stop being filthy. Stop, Stop,<\/span><\/p>\n

Stop.\u201d On the short ride up the<\/span><\/p>\n

Elevator to your room, you hear<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Singing. \u201cWhy aren\u2019t you talented?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Torment. But don\u2019t show a single soul.<\/span><\/p>\n

How dare you feel anything but<\/span><\/p>\n

Shame.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

III<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

The bell rings. Oh well.<\/span><\/p>\n

Listen to music.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sleep. Do anything but<\/span><\/p>\n

Look at your reflection.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Don\u2019t look at your reflection.<\/span><\/p>\n

Stop. You look gross. You<\/span><\/p>\n

Look like a pig. Peppaaaaa-<\/span><\/p>\n

Oh. Maybe you don\u2019t.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

No you definitely do.<\/span><\/p>\n

Over analyze every line<\/span><\/p>\n

And \u201cbeauty mark\u201d.<\/span><\/p>\n

Scoff at their idiotic name.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

How inconsiderate.<\/span><\/p>\n

Some of us aren\u2019t beautiful.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Refer to yourself when you<\/span><\/p>\n

Say \u201csome of us\u201d. Check the<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Time. 9:34. Okay.<\/span><\/p>\n

Look again. 9:46.<\/span><\/p>\n

Oh, okay. Rush to<\/span><\/p>\n

Class.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

IV<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

10 o\u2019clock.<\/span><\/p>\n

Blog for 15 minutes,<\/span><\/p>\n

Even though the board says<\/span><\/p>\n

To blog for 12. You rebel.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Listen to Mrs. Sibley.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Talk about how she<\/span><\/p>\n

Has a secretly ghetto\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Side that she refuses to<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Show you. Laugh at yourself.<\/span><\/p>\n

Listen to her talk some more.<\/span><\/p>\n

Laugh when you\u2019re supposed<\/span><\/p>\n

To. Nod when you need to.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Pay attention. Heed her words<\/span><\/p>\n

As best as you can at 11 in the<\/span><\/p>\n

Morning. The bell rings again.<\/span><\/p>\n

Gather your things slowly.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

V<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Don\u2019t rush to eat. Dread it.<\/span><\/p>\n

Don\u2019t look forward to it. Abhor it.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

It is your enemy. Don\u2019t<\/span><\/p>\n

Indulge your enemy.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Get through the line.<\/span><\/p>\n

Hear Cuz yell \u201cSmile,<\/span><\/p>\n

Smile, Smile!\u201d as you<\/span><\/p>\n

Leave. Smile.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Look for your friends.<\/span><\/p>\n

See them having a good time.<\/span><\/p>\n

Look for a spot. The table\u2019s full.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sit by yourself because everyone<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Else is together. Their tables<\/span><\/p>\n

Are full. Sit by yourself.<\/span><\/p>\n

Feel sad. Get over it.<\/span><\/p>\n

Don\u2019t be a mess.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

11:40. Malone\u2019s Class.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Get up. Go\u00a0 to her class.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Sit in your spot, nestled\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Between a redhead<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

And a dreadhead. Enjoy\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Their company. Find solace<\/span><\/p>\n

In the work you so desperately<\/span><\/p>\n

Need to complete. Try to<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Complete it. Run out of time.<\/span><\/p>\n

Vow you\u2019ll finish that night.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Grab your bags. Get out.<\/span><\/p>\n

Try not to look at anyone<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

In the eyes.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

VI<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

These last 2 blocks go by quickly.<\/span><\/p>\n

After Malone\u2019s class, go to Sibley.<\/span><\/p>\n

Journal for 10 minutes. Work on<\/span><\/p>\n

Whatever she has you work on for that day.<\/span><\/p>\n

The bell rings.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Take your time getting to go again.<\/span><\/p>\n

Talk to the redhead. Listen to her<\/span><\/p>\n

Stories about what happened while<\/span><\/p>\n

She was that the computer. Walk<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Out. Go to your next class.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Try not to fall asleep. Doze off a little.<\/span><\/p>\n

Wake up before you fall. Think about Her.<\/span><\/p>\n

Smile. Look down at your hands.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

The bell rings. That\u2019s it. It\u2019s over.<\/span><\/p>\n

Time to go back to being bored out<\/span><\/p>\n

Of your mind. Eat dinner. Go to your<\/span><\/p>\n

Room.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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