{"id":6167,"date":"2019-08-21T09:33:04","date_gmt":"2019-08-21T14:33:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/?p=6167"},"modified":"2019-08-21T09:33:04","modified_gmt":"2019-08-21T14:33:04","slug":"clean-slate","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/2019\/08\/21\/clean-slate\/","title":{"rendered":"Clean Slate"},"content":{"rendered":"

I want nothing more<\/span>
\nthan to have nothing at all.<\/span>
\nI want to live the rest of my life<\/span>
\nhaving never known your name<\/span>
\nor heard your voice<\/span>
\nor understood just who you were to me.<\/span><\/p>\n

I want nothing more<\/span>
\nthan to know that\u00a0 You are a\u00a0 not <\/span>
\npertinent part of my life.<\/span>
\nI want to wake up in the mornings and feel<\/span>
\nrefreshed.<\/span>
\nI don’t want to feel your presence over me any longer.<\/span><\/p>\n

So,\u00a0Ominous Presence Breathing Down My Neck 24\/7,\u00a0<\/span>
\nI relinquish you from my life.<\/span>
\nYou are no longer any concern to me<\/span>
\nnor I to you.<\/span><\/p>\n

I will allow you closure and<\/span>
\nanything else you may need\u00a0<\/span>
\nfor your new life without me\u00a0<\/span>
\nto feed upon, but I will not<\/span>
\ncontinue to be the force<\/span>
\nyou indulge on.<\/span><\/p>\n

Now, I hope you starve of the<\/span>
\nsatisfaction of draining me\u00a0<\/span>
\nuntil I am a lifeless pile<\/span>
\non the floor.<\/span><\/p>\n

I wanted nothing more<\/span>
\nthan nothing at all.<\/span>
\nnow, I finally have my<\/span>
\nclean slate.<\/span><\/p>\n

If I am going to be completely honest, I have no idea where this poem came from. I needed a blog post, so I started listening to Fleetwood Mac, Sonic Youth, and vaporwaved Abba and this is what came of it. <\/em><\/p>\n

In the poem, I am referencing to my biological mother. I’m not going to display my entire life story on a blog in school, but she has always felt like a shadow in my life, always lurking in the back, watching. I’ve never really resented\u00a0her<\/span>, but I do resent that presence, so I “relinquished” and gave it away to whomever takes it.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I want nothing more than to have nothing at all. I want to live the rest of my life having never known your name or heard your voice or understood just who you were to me. I want nothing more than to know that\u00a0 You are a\u00a0 not pertinent part of my life. I want … Continue reading “Clean Slate”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":51,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6167"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/51"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6167"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6167\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6280,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6167\/revisions\/6280"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6167"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6167"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6167"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}