So we’re nearing the end of the year, and I just wanted to check in, even this isn’t my last blog post (while it is getting close to that time). I think my point of me writing this is to let you guys know where I’m at at, and what kind of head space I’m in.<\/p>\n
This past year has been the worst and best of my life. And I say that in the most endearing way possible. It started out with me moving here to MSA, and that was the hardest thing I’ve done. For a while, I felt really lonely and didn’t really feel like I belonged at the school. It had gotten to the point I resented the school, and didn’t want to be here. When I mean I was so close to dropping out, I mean I would have if my mom would have let me.<\/p>\n
But by a stroke of God, she didn’t and when this semester started, the strangest thing happened; I didn’t want to go home on weekends anymore, and I actually kind of dreaded it. Not because I hated home, but because I had so much joy in spending time with people at MSA. If I could have frozen any point of time, it probably would have been late March to Mid-April.<\/p>\n
It feels like so much time has passed, and at the same time, like none has all. I feel so matured, yet also somehow still like that scared, timid girl I came as. I’ve changed and morphed and I know I will keep doing that. And so has my work! Although, I feel like I’ve hit a wall with creating content, I can see the immense growth from the beginning of the year to now.<\/p>\n
This weekend we meet the Juniors, and I’m so excited. This is a whole new set of people I’m about to meet, some that might change my life forever, or might just change it for a couple of months. Either way, I can’t wait to see them blossom and flourish like our class of 2020 did.<\/p>\n
I would say what I’m feeling most of all, is scared. I’m so terrified for this new beginning, and this end of an era. I’m getting the feeling just like I had those first couple of months at MSA; scared and somehow so alone. But I’m trying to remind myself that on senior move-in day I’ll see so many familiar faces, and then get to know the new ones.<\/p>\n
So with this, I say hello to a new era. Ew, that’s so cheesy, but it’s true. I hate goodbyes, and I’m not going to let this be one.<\/p>\n
So hello school year of 2019-2020! I’m excited to experience you. Please be kind to me, because 2018-2019 has really put me through the ringer.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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