{"id":5589,"date":"2019-03-20T14:53:59","date_gmt":"2019-03-20T19:53:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/?p=5589"},"modified":"2019-03-20T14:53:59","modified_gmt":"2019-03-20T19:53:59","slug":"questions-i-shouldnt-ask","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/2019\/03\/20\/questions-i-shouldnt-ask\/","title":{"rendered":"questions i shouldn’t ask"},"content":{"rendered":"

people would rather you be sad\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

than bitter. i suppose they<\/span><\/p>\n

find that easier<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

because at least when<\/span><\/p>\n

you’re sad,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

it’s only you,<\/span><\/p>\n

and your contemplation of<\/span><\/p>\n

suicide<\/span><\/p>\n

isn’t their fault<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

bitterness forces them to look in the mirror<\/span><\/p>\n

and god forbid them having\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

to see them selves.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bukowski was a wonderful poet<\/span><\/p>\n

who became bitter\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

following his sadness.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

the people liked him better before<\/span><\/p>\n

when he slit his wrists,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

tried to suffocate himself with gas<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

they thought that better\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

than a life spent\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

drowning himself in liquor\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

and hating the world.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

regardless of opinion,<\/span><\/p>\n

the bitter made him live longer.<\/span><\/p>\n

he died at 74\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

after battling leukemia<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

i can’t tell if that’s better.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

often times he wrote<\/span><\/p>\n

that God is dead.<\/span><\/p>\n

his poetry was madness<\/span><\/p>\n

disgusting<\/span><\/p>\n

disrespectful<\/span><\/p>\n

sometimes none of that<\/span><\/p>\n

sometimes all\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

maybe that made him\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

interesting\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

despite his flaws,<\/span><\/p>\n

i am curious<\/span><\/p>\n

if he went to heaven.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

do men who live a life<\/span><\/p>\n

in hell<\/span><\/p>\n

deserve to return in death?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

or is that another question<\/span><\/p>\n

i’m not supposed to ask.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

people would rather you be sad\u00a0 than bitter. i suppose they find that easier   because at least when you’re sad,\u00a0 it’s only you, and your contemplation of suicide isn’t their fault   bitterness forces them to look in the mirror and god forbid them having\u00a0 to see them selves.\u00a0   Bukowski was a wonderful … Continue reading “questions i shouldn’t ask”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":39,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5589"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/39"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5589"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5589\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5641,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5589\/revisions\/5641"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5589"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5589"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5589"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}