underestimate it.<\/p>\n
block it out.<\/p>\n
ignore the painful screams of those before you.<\/p>\n
they don’t matter,<\/p>\n
they never mattered.<\/p>\n
right?<\/p>\n
or are you lying to yourself again<\/p>\n
just so you can get your way<\/p>\n
just so you can rush yourself into another happening<\/p>\n
just so the chaos can trick you into being entertained<\/p>\n
happy.<\/p>\n
and maybe it will<\/p>\n
is it worth it?<\/p>\n
maybe you should carve scars into your cheeks<\/p>\n
that way the boys won’t tempt you anymore.<\/p>\n
being beautiful is a curse<\/p>\n
so don’t wish for it<\/p>\n
it isn’t worth the glares<\/p>\n
the mutters as you walk passed<\/p>\n
they wouldn’t even like her if she didn’t-<\/em><\/p>\n stop listening<\/p>\n tune that part out<\/p>\n maybe it’s true or maybe it isn’t<\/p>\n doesn’t matter<\/p>\n they made you feel loved at the time<\/p>\n maybe one day you’ll stop fooling yourself<\/p>\n maybe one day you’ll stop overthinking.<\/p>\n for now<\/p>\n \u2207\u0394\u2207\u0394<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" underestimate it. block it out. ignore the painful screams of those before you. they don’t matter, they never mattered. right? or are you lying to yourself again just so you can get your way just so you can rush yourself into another happening just so the chaos can trick you into being entertained happy. and … Continue reading “Self Destruction”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":39,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5173"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/39"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5173"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5173\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5260,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5173\/revisions\/5260"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5173"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5173"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5173"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}just be<\/strong><\/del><\/p>\n