I feel like I’m falling to pieces.<\/p>\n
I miss him, though I know I don’t need him.<\/p>\n
Forcing myself to not text him<\/p>\n
Or talk to him<\/p>\n
Or think of him<\/p>\n
Has proven itself harder than anything I’ve ever done.<\/p>\n
I think what hurts the most<\/p>\n
Is that losing me hasn’t hurt him<\/p>\n
Or at least, it hasn’t yet.<\/p>\n
I’m so tired of crying.<\/p>\n
I’m so tired of this brick in my chest.<\/p>\n
I can’t make any of it go away.<\/p>\n
He was my world<\/p>\n
And now he’s just gone,<\/p>\n
Like he was never there to begin with.<\/p>\n
And now I feel like I’m not good enough<\/p>\n
And I wonder what makes her better than me.<\/p>\n
Is it her laugh?<\/p>\n
Her weight?<\/p>\n
Do her eyes shine brighter than mine?<\/p>\n
I don’t know.<\/p>\n
All I know is<\/p>\n
Is that this hurts<\/p>\n
And that I want to go a little crazy.<\/p>\n
Kiss so many different guys that I can’t even remember your name.<\/p>\n
I’m ready for this to be over.<\/p>\n
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